if it even is one

Me: *knows taemin won’t answer any of my questions and I’m just wasting my precious sleeping time by staying up*

Me anyway: *refreshes the answer page every .5 seconds*

i don’t think it’s fair for people (non-artists especially) to point out an artist and say “wow i hate their art they suck they haven’t progressed in years, the way they draw _____ is pathetic”. yes, it’s okay for you to not like an art style but don’t put someone down for their progress. development in art is something that doesn’t move upwards consistently in a smooth path, it’s different for everyone and it’s not fair to compare and judge. even the most popular artists can get stuck drawing the same thing for a long time and i think that’s okay? some people get really comfortable with the way they draw a certain thing and may choose to stick with that for a long time because it looks right to them, they’re fearful of trying a new thing and the new thing looks like trash in their eyes so it might take them a while to get comfortable with exploring. everyone is different and develops in their own way, art is frustrating and really hard and no one is harder on the artist than themselves. 

LMAO I’ve hit the maximum amount of friends I can have on Pocket Camp (which is kinda dumb considering but). So I can’t accept any more friend requests I’m sorry :’( If I don’t accept yours it’s not because I don’t want to be friends with you, I just literally can’t at this point RIP

Yo this is not an informational post. This is an emotional rant based on things Ive heard and not confirmed. Just a psa

So I love stranger things two and the more I think about it the more I love Billy Hargrove and want to see his character broken down and put through some interesting development in future. Trouble is, this simple desire is apparently highly controversial on the tungl dot come because of the demand for  ideological purity and teenagers with no dissociation between fiction and reality being given an anonymous internet megaphone to broadcast their frustration with the world. I’m no stranger to such anti fandom discourse, I tend to like dark characters and ship dark ships (where dark = problematic) so Im used to the whole “ew gross these people are horrible bigoted nazi pedo[hile abusive dog shit lumps because arbitrary fiction opinion” thing though I’d be lying if I said it didn’t bother me at all. I’m a pretty sensitive person so yea sometimes it hurts but whatever that’s my problem rationally I know that none of this matters. love isn’t real. death is certain. embrace the void.

 So anyway Billy. Oh Billy. My dear sweet sweet self destructive asshole trainwreck of a baby boy. Important to note is that I did not love him immediately. At first  I hated him. He seemed really obnoxious and pointless. Then the last episode happened. We’ll talk more about that later.

I started to get into the Billy and harringrove fandom subset a bit and let myself hope for character development. Then I heard that apparently the creators of the show have confirmed that they’re not going anywhere with Billy’s character because he’s just the new villain. um….ok….what

(i haven’t actually been able to find the source for this but hey im a pessimist so lets just assume it’s true while staying open to it being false. wow what a concept. mental flexibility.)

And I know there are a lot of fans who would like this as well, for Billy to just be the one dimensional villain and hopefully be brutally killed off as soon as possible.

And I gotta tell you guys…that is just terrible writing.

Like I said I hated him at first. He was mean and obnoxious and had a stupid mullet and did nothing of value and why was he even here? Apart from obviously being meant to contrast with Steve to prove how much better he is now which…cmon…did we really need that? Do we not have eyeballs? It felt stupid and condescending and I was truly annoyed everytime he came on screen. Gradually I became intrigued by just how fixated on Steve billy seemed to be. That was weird. Didn’t know what to make of it. Then episode 9 happened.

so hey any writers out there, if you want me to all out hate and not care about a character who you only meant to be a one dimensional villain, here’s what you dont do; you dont contextualize his behavior in a relatable and sympathetic way. Revealing his father’s abuse made soooo many things about Billy suddenly make sense. It even painted some in a new light as I looked back and realized just how self destructive most of his actions are. A lot of people also began reading him as gay, which Im not so sure of since tv loooves to queerbait, but I do agree it’s a perfectly logical interpretation of what we’ve seen. The whole scene was a giant “ooooooohhhhh” moment. With that little piece of context as to Billy’s perspective on his family (that he fears his father, that he is responsible for Max under threat of violence and thus resents her, etc) his character suddenly became…an actual character. An interesting character, that I want to see more of.

I cant for the life of me think why they decided to add this scene if they intended Billy to be a flat villain that we’re not supposed to care about. It utterly baffles me. Why? Why would you do that? This show is full of amazing, complex characters whose entire appeal is that they feel real and have flaws. So why would you add another one, but tell us that he’s not supposed to be complex or real and we’re just supposed to hate him and accept him as the dull bully villain?

I hope to god that these things Ive heard aren’t true because if they are I have a sinking feeling that the writing in this show is about to take a nosedive.

WIP meme tagged by @artemisrae

pretty much everything I do is a WIP, the problem is finishing but here are my stories, have in mind everything is Percy/Annabeth.

  • Wrong Number.- You can actually find the start of this fic here, is pretty much the first fic I ever started in the PJO fandom but the plot is Annabeth accidentally getting drunk and texting the wrong number who happens to be Percy. the fic is in the format of texts because I started this in 2014 when I didn’t truly believe it had it in me to write a proper story, I have to rewrite some stuff since I have been able to visit NYC and my perspective in some stuff changed totally. 
  • Royal AU- You can actually find the introduction hereif there is something you should know about me is that I’m OBSESSED with royal stories, is literally so sad how can I spend days watching crappy next to crappy Hallmark movies because it involves royalty, This story has been my baby since I can remember, the idea has always been in my head but sitting and writing it has been the problem.
  • Friends with Benefits AU- This is me toying with writing smut, I’m not sure if it will ever see the light because I’m not sure if I’ll post it (if I do it would be only posted in my AO3 and not tumblr) but is Annabeth and Percy in college coming to an agreement that was the best and worst idea Annabeth had. 
  • Mrs. Jackson- A collection of short stories revolving around Percy and Annabeth’s wedding. from planning the proposal to their honeymoon, some of them have been posted in AO3 
  • Mermen AU- I promised this story to @zacharandom and it will be writing, just like my obsession with Royal AU, Zach has a thing about mermaids but all you need to know about this story ‘There was a merman on her bathtub. There was a real-life merman in her fucking bathtub.
  • Power Rangers AU- I have until August next year to write it because @quietlykeen would kick my ass if it’s not written by her birthday.  Red Ranger: Jason Blue Ranger: Percy Yellow Ranger: Hazel Pink Ranger: Piper Black Ranger: Frank The genius style Zordon except they are human and better: Annabeth Alpha but more really like the genius engineer that makes sure the Rangers have the good stuff: Leo.
  • The Stars Will Guide You Home- Soulmates AU, I started this fic in parallel with Would You Be So Kind, when I got stuck and had the idea for another for the big bang, this story has the whole soulmates marks, the mark you have is related to your soulmate in a way, it can be from having their name to having a lighting scars patron in your back and wondering what the fuck that means and how it’s related to your soulmate. This story is currently my baby and the one I have been working more on between taking studying breaks. 

Good I truly hope I can finish this stories sometimes soon (there are more fics but this are one of my babies) I tag @bananannabeth @grohver  @dyde21 @psychohannahlyze @solbabydraws and @riftlotor