if i'm having a bad day

maybe we all have that one person that we’d always take back. bruised mouth, bloody ribs, you’re screaming at me and i’m taking it because no matter how bad it gets, there is always good to follow. and that’s what a lot of people don’t understand, the people who ask me why i can’t see the signs of an unhealthy relationship, why i can’t just walk away - that the good days outweigh the bad ones. i would walk away from you screaming one thousand times just to fall into your arms at the end of the night. i’ve learned how to catch your punches. i’ve learned how to find the beauty in pain. and i know: i should find happiness within myself or at least within people who are good for me, but i can’t help the way i feel and i can’t just leave something that makes me so happy. i will take you back until you literally throw me away.

anonymous asked:

oh man i feel you on that last post tho! it's game theory, but so many people treat it like matt's theories are always 100% canon that i always get super uppity about debunking them too lol

well I’m glad I’m not alone in that tendency haha… but I honestly should have taken into account the fact that MP himself wasn’t trying to present it as actual canon or anything. thanks for commiserating though :p

ooc :: just a heads up that activity might be slow in the upcoming week because i’ll be volunteering on top of my usual workload. also will be more selective with answering threads because my thought process isn’t complex enough for gil these days thanks to a lack of sleep. i might be more active on cu but we’ll see.

apologies in advance and have a good one!

I either text back immediately or within 3-5 business days there is no in between

There were days when Friday was still living in DC where she would wake up knowing that something was wrong. She could never put her finger on exactly what gave it away… there was just a feeling, an innate certainty that one or the other of her parents was having a bad day and would take it out on her. She’d had defenses then – she knew when she could push buttons and when she absolutely should not push buttons and whether or not even being in the house would be safe. Those same basic strategies she’d been teaching to Orion before she left, though the young boy had never received the same abuse and neglect she’d been subject to.

As she stands in the middle of the room, staring straight ahead of her towards where she knows the exit to the street is but seeing absolutely nothing, Friday is frighteningly aware that she doesn’t have a strategy for this. She’s not even sure what this is, only that it’s terrifying.

She blinks and sees the station again, and for just a moment she feels relief, but when she blinks again, the blackness is back. Her body begins to tremble as the hairs on her arms and the back of her neck begin to rise. She continues to blink, hoping to fix whatever’s happening and see the station around her again, but nothing changes. A feeling of dread slicks down her back like spilled oil, curling around her spine and congealing at the small of her back where a steady ache persists for the rest of the day. Her head throbs. Her fingers itch.

Her eyes begin to well with tears when the station comes back, but the sigh of relief she breathes isn’t as relaxing as she wants it to be. There’s still an apprehension… a wrongness that has her shaking with a constant chill.

“…..Something’s–… something’s not right….”

anonymous asked:

im having kind of a bad day, so can i ask what are some of ur favorite knk videos? these goofballs seem to be the only thing that makes me smile these days, i love them so much

I’m sorry anon, I hope your day gets better soon. 

The cutest laugh ever  // Why Jihun gotta be so extra? // KNK on Crack // The infamous prank video // Seventeen’s Mansae but every time they say Mansae its Jihun saying Mansae // When they had to give up their phones for a day part 1. part 2 // How are you not the main vocal? // How are YOU not the main vocal?? // Bloopers and Savagery // Cringe compilation

I may or may not have just given you alternative titles to these videos. 

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nine in the afternoon // panic! at the disco

my brain, 2am : smh fuckin go to sleep
me : sSHUT UP i need them cuddling right HERE and NOWHH