if i wore aftershave

Stuart wore aftershave today and it turns out I have a thing for aftershave and then we had to do grown up stuff on the floor of the bedroom because the rest of the flat is completely unavailable. I miss him. He’s physically here but not because of stupid work and one of us is always holding a kid so we never get to just snuggle. We get stressed and forget to rely on each other. I had a realisation today that I love him a lot, and I am 100% sure he’s exactly the right person for me and even if someone super hot and famous wanted to squidge me I would say “no, I have a Stuart”. I would say I’ve been 99% sure since having kids but something happened today that bumped it up that extra 1% to “nobody else in the world will do”. I don’t know what exactly it was but it just happened. Maybe the aftershave. I’ve always been brought up to have a back up plan, a get out clause for when he breaks my heart because that’s what all men do. But i don’t want one and I finally believe that I don’t need one.

anonymous asked:

God, for somebody who always said they weren't good with words I found him hanging onto the things I whispered to him in the middle of the night. The fact that he hated modern music but I found him singing along to a song I was humming the day before was enough to set my chest on fire. I loved him so much, and I still do. He always wore a light aftershave and when I began to smell it on my clothes like detergent I knew I was in too deep. But he was never mine, and I don't think he ever will be.

Red Dragon Starters
  • Think to yourself that every day is your last. The hour to which you do not look forward will come as a welcome surprise. As for me, when you want a good laugh, you will find me in fine state... fat and sleek, a true hog of Epicurus' herd.
  • I do admire your courage.
  • I think I'll eat your heart.
  • Gruesome, isn't he?
  • He fumbles at your head like a freshman pulling at a panty girdle.
  • Without our imaginations, we'd be like all those other poor dullards.
  • Fear is the price of our instrument. But I can help you bear it.
  • Have you ever seen blood in the moonlight? It appears quite black.
  • If one were nude, say, one would want to have outdoor privacy for that sort of thing.
  • Do you like my little exercise cage?
  • I don't know which is the greater fool
  • Did you enjoy it?
  • I hope you're not too ugly.
  • What a collection of scars you have.
  • Never forget who gave you the best of them, and be grateful
  • Our scars have the power to remind us that the past was real
  • Do you dream much?
  • I think of you often.
  • Where's the dog?
  • When I read his journal, it was just so sad.
  • I couldn't help feeling sorry for him.
  • He wasn't born a monster; he was made one through years of abuse.
  • I am the Dragon, and you call me insane.
  • You are privy to a great becoming, but you recognize nothing.
  • You are an ant in the afterbirth.
  • It is your nature to do one thing correctly: before me, you rightly tremble.
  • But fear is not what you owe me
  • You owe me awe.
  • I wanted to tell you I'm delighted that you've taken an interest in me.
  • I have some things I'd love to show you.
  • They do like to sling demeaning nicknames, don't they?
  • I'm afraid if I tell you, you won't even try it.
  • What an unexpected pleasure.
  • No, no, I--I didn't say that. I didn't. I don't, I don't know what I'm saying, I... I'm very, very tired.
  • Dammit, man, you must have some advice.
  • You caught him. What was your trick?
  • I let him kill me.
  • That's the same atrocious aftershave you wore in court.
  • I keep getting it for Christmas.