if i dont share this id cry

ive always been hesitant to call the scene where mihashi and abe hold hands for the first time a confession scene bc of like context (abe is trying to calm mihashi down so he can pitch; theyre not even close to being friends yet) but its really hard to ignore how blatantly it resembles one and i dont think its an accident. theyre alone, holding hands, and sharing a deeply emotional moment together (they like..both cry)

something else id like to point out is language use tho, because its something i didnt put a lot of thought into at first bc its easy to just take subtitles for granted

for instance i always assumed “daisuki” held a lot more romantic connotations than “suki” but i was Wrong and i never thought to question it (this is from a forum post on word ref i think it explains it well):

abe and mihashi both use language like this to express that they like each other, which ofc could just be interpreted as a platonic exchange. but keeping in mind the romantically charged context its hard to just stop at that conclusion. like  its important to remember oofuri is a work of fiction and literature and is going to manipulate language to hide certain things that in this case.. are basically in plain view. 

i think also higuchi is counting on us to read it a certain way bc its easy to overlook something like two boys “confessing” and mark it as entirely platonic 

oh heres the scene again for anyone who wants to watch it x

i was hoping that one day you would change your mind and that we would start again. we just passed the half way point and i feel like i need to admit that it’s over. i dont wanna cry anymore. and you dont seem to care enough to talk about it

tagged by @bitter-stella , thanks a lot for the tag <3 <3

Are you named after anyone?

When was the last time you cried?
i tried crying this month lmao it isnt happening..

Do you like your handwriting?
nah its quite childish 

What’s your favorite lunch meat?

Do you have kids?

If you were a different person, would you be friends with you?
id be friends with me now, we share so much in common hhahahah

Do you use sarcasm?
i thought i just did.

Do you still have your tonsils?
i really dont know.

Would you bungee jump?
nah man, looking down is suicide

What’s your favorite cereal?
those small colorful donuts

Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?

Do you think you are a strong person?
compared to Cena. dude no

What’s your favorite ice cream?

What’s the first thing you notice about people?
Jaw, eyebrows, hair. <<

What’s your least favorite physical thing about yourself?
some things..

What color pants and shoes are you wearing right now?
no shoes, navy pants

What are you listening to right now?
pc noise

If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
dark red, dark blue

Favorite smell?

Who was the last person you talked on the phone with?

my brother

Favorite sport to watch?
none..OH WAIT..RUGBY…….

Do you wear contacts?

Favorite food?
why limiting

Scary movie or comedy?
comedy def!!

Last movie you watched?
wish upon..

What color shirt are you wearing?


Summer or winter?

Hugs or kisses?

Book you’re currently reading?

Who do you miss right now?
i missed someone while ago, but now None

What’s on your mouse pad?
no mouse pad, its annoying

What’s the last TV program you watched?
chicago PD..

What’s the best sound?

Rolling Stones or The Beatles?

What’s the furthest you ever traveled?
canada <3

Do you have a special talent?
i draw.

tagging @midnightseven , @vintagejacqui , @kissthejotun