if i can't have one i am going to draw one :'d

anonymous asked:

Rn I'm living on kind of a toxic house for idk how much longer (trying to move out asap) but a lot of things make me anxious/angry/feel all kinds of negative emotions. Could this affect my magic? If so, what can I do to fix that? I can't go anywhere else to do magic and I have to be discreet, my parents are hardcore Christians. I don't want to stop doing witchcraft tho, I really enjoy it even if it doesn't work, it kinda helps me feel better.

It can if you think it will. I assume that’s already a worry in your mind, since you’re asking this question. It’s like how we say doubting your spells can actually help them fail - this is sort of in that vein of thought. If you think it matters, that it will have an impact on your impact, then it can.

A lot of people talk about not needing to be in a calm / positive state when it comes to your spellwork - it really comes down to your frame of mind. Some spells require those emotions to fuel them - mostly curses, but certain spells call for you bring up those things to bind or banish them as well.

So, at that point it’s a matter of letting yourself believe and know that it will not affect your magic, and trying to keep the doubt from your mind. And I know it’s easier said than done, but as long as you keep trying, keep pushing those thoughts, eventually one day it will just be that way (the whole “fake it ‘till you make it” mantra, right?). 

You can still research magic and call yourself a witch, even if you’re taking a break between castings. I mean, it’s been, like, months since I did a “proper” spell, with candles and crystals and herbs and stuff like that. But here I am, still a witch, just focusing on expanding my knowledge at this time. That can be an option if you are willing to wait until you leave the house to do magic, so the negativity won’t impact it. And it makes me feel better too, I feel you.

Otherwise, you have a couple of other options as well.

You can [cast a ward] (tw: gif) around your bedroom - think of it like a layer of thick and potent energy coating your walls, as close to them as possible - so as not to allow any other negativity from the rest of your house in. Here are some more options for warding techniques:

Alternatively, here is this post: [Transmuting Energy: An Alternative to Shielding] (tw: gif as blog header).

From there, [cleanse often] to keep any negativity out of your space, and from you. A discreet cleansing is open up a window and direct the airflow to come in, sweep up any negativity, and bring it back out again. The “light visualization” is also a wonderful way to cleanse a space with no tools. You can also [decontaminate people before they enter your space], an amazing idea brought forward by @stsathyre​.

Self cleansing is also great to help with any negativity you may have picked up in the meantime - you still have to interact with the rest of the house right? Shampoos and body washes can be enchanted simply to help you cleanse as well as clean in your shower. My favorite method of self cleansing is standing out in the rain as it falls - and it’s getting to be better weather (at least where I am), the ideal time for this! 

Discreet practicing comes down to a lot of [energy work], in my opinion - you don’t need any tools, really, just your own body and an understanding of working with energy. I do spells with my intent and tapping debit machines to make them load faster. I also draw down rain by willing it, and some subtle hand gestures. 

Here are some more resources on discreet magic:

* not my choice of title

So. That was a bit of stuff, lol. I hope it can help you or give you some more ideas. Best of luck, anon! :D

Concerning underdevelopment of zenyuki

Even I’m irritated by the lack of development between Shirayuki and Zen’s interactions. They’ve been together for a long time, you’d think they’d be over the “twice shy” phase of their relationship. They were noticeably more comfortable with each other earlier in the series. So I get what a lot of people are saying. (I also have thoughts about aspects of their relationship that have developed, but really, that’s something separate.)

I guess you could say that as the series progressed, they became less of a #powercouple, which was something I had originally loved about their relationship. This is frustrating since it’s their relationship that first draws you into the story. It’s honestly difficult to picture further development in their relationship, since they are both so caught up in their own lives. They used to be best friends, but now it really is just stolen moments.

That all being said, do I think that Sorata is trying to convey Shirayuki developing romantic feelings for Obi? No. I think people are reading too deeply into a lot of their interactions. But that’s just what I think. As an enthusiastic analyst myself, who am I to tell people that their theorizing may be useless (even if we go about analyzing things differently)? If the time comes when I’m proven wrong about Shirayuki’s feelings though, you’re free to tell me that you told me so. :D

Lastly, I think it’s unfair to suggest that the beginning of Shirayuki’s relationship with Zen was forced. I think it’s hypocritical to vouch for nuance and praise the mangaka for her skill when one ship is shown, but then to say her writing was forced for another. “Sorata has always been a master of nuance,” is what I keep hearing people say. So when the same people say that Zen and Shirayuki’s relationship has always seemed forced, that says something about the writer’s skill (or lack thereof).

Don’t show me Shirayuki’s reaction to Zen’s first kiss and her eventual confession and tell me that “that’s not how someone in love would react”. That suggests something fake about Shirayuki’s character. Her reaction was really a good insight into her character. It showed us that Shirayuki is somewhat disconnected from her feelings and needs to think things through before she understands how she feels. It showed us that she’s very anxious about trying to reach for more than what seems reasonable. It showed us that she’s an overthinker. It showed us that she’s not one to talk other people about emotional problems. All of that insight is relevant in chapters that followed that incident.

Was she “actually in love?” Who can say for sure? That’s a very heavy question. That was probably one of the many things that freaked the hell out of her when she confessed her feelings to Zen! It’s hard to know if you actually have mutual romantic feelings for someone. Shirayuki may or may not have known how she “truly” felt (if you must suggest that her feelings for Zen were forced), but she did know what she wanted. Shirayuki almost always knows what she wants. It’s just a matter of choosing the preferred path.

laserlemonade  asked:

You are probably really busy and if you even read this you don't have to do it but I had an idea: Malec meets Sterek. It would be a cool art idea and I'm writing a fix about it, but I can't draw, so I'm suggesting it to you. Love all your work so much.

ohh my god- i LOVE crossovers! OwO and i have been thinking of drawing a sterek and malec crossover for many weeks! i’m just not totally sure yet HOW i would do it :’D what would the situation be?

maybe something happens in Beacon Hills (because let’s be honest, they NEVER catch a break)? so to defeat the ‘big bad’ they need a powerful magic spell?? and Deaton isn’t strong enough for it so they locate the most powerful warlock? aka MAGNUS! (;D) SO OFF THE GO TO NEW YORK! but the spell needs someone who is ‘conected’ to magic to be transported from one place (NY) to another (BH) and not lose it’s power (idk- i’m just coming up with this as we go xD haha) SOOOO they send Stiles (bc he’s a spark!! ;3) and OF COURSE his friend are over protective and don’t want him to go alone so Scott volunteers to go with him- BUT because Scott is still the alpha in BH derek tells him he should stay and keep the situation under control! and so Derek ends up being the one going with Stiles to the Big Apple in search of the High Warlock of Brooklyn! xD (PLEASE SOMEONE STOP ME- this is getting to long and out of control!) also stiles and derek still haven’t done anything about the BIG elephant in the room and all the sexual tension so they are still in the stage of ‘‘bickering&too long eye sexing& denial’‘ xD of course on their drive (CAR drive! yes a LONG car drive over the state xD) they grow closer and all of that- the usual fanfic stuff ;D then they arrive, meet magnus and later alec (who are VERY much together and so in love) and they work on this spell??? many other things happen, stiles learns more about his spark etc.

so the drawing could be about magnus working on the spell and swatting stiles’ hands away from something that ‘he muSTN’T TOUCH!!!!’ xD haha but what would derek and alec be doing in the meantime? watching from the back? rolling their eyes? talking about books??? IDK xD haha

…. well shit- this ask got out of control :’‘) sorry about that… but as you can see i still have to think about this before i start drawing xD! (am i making my life to complicated? probably yes…. TuT)

anonymous asked:

what are your thoughts about bakugou and midoriya's relationship? platonic, i mean

I live and die for it, every part of the manga in which that relationship is shown progressing is between my favorite parts of the manga and I’ve reread them a hundred times and cried over them way more than necessary - the battle trial one? yes, the end of terms exam? absolutely yes holy shit, the post-license exam fight? god yes fuck me that’s my absolute fav, the rescue arc? shit yes between all the reasons why that arc’s my fave the change in the deku/baku relationship is definitely a worthy of note one

It’s an interesting relationship, a painful one that’s making both of them grow so so so much, a rivalry they both need to better each other and keep each other straight on the path to become two great, all-around heroes - I’m not sure they’ll ever end up having the type of relationship Izuku has with Todoroki or Bakugou with Kirishima, I don’t think it’s possible for them to be friends like that, they’re just too different to properly fit like that and to avoid stepping on each other’s toes every single day of their lives they’d have to change their core personalities too much, but they did end up being able to coexist (Bakugou’s even giving Deku tips!!!) and I do think they’ll be able to cooperate and support each other in the end. If one day they’ll be able to make fun of each other in a friendly manner and egg each other on and be honest with each other without it escalating into a full blown fight I’d truly be happy, that’s probably my main dream for this whole manga. For them to have a healthy rivalry, one in which they can maybe even laugh together. I think it might happen, I’m waiting for it to happen

Anon said: Hi Fran! I’m obsessed with your BakuShimaNari work. Here’s a cute thought to hopefully cheer you up a bit while you’re unable to draw: they’re all in their early 20s and Denki likes to poke/smooth out the little crease between Bakugo’s eyebrows and tease him about getting wrinkles early from all the scowling he does. Bakugo flicks him in the nose and says he’s starting to get crows feet from always grinning like an idiot.

Oh my god. Oh my g o d this is the sweetest thing I’ve ever read. Oh my g OD I’m just imagining them doing that and Kiri in the background watching them like they’re most precious thing in the world I’m dying rip me this just made my whole life thank you so much anon *sob*

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anonymous asked:

Random question: Who's your favorite Superman villain? and why? or if you can't pick, top 3 favorite?

oh man man man you came just in time anon I’m going crazy because DC is bringing back my most favourite Superman villain of all time and I’m sweating here WORRYING if they don’t do him justice I’m gonna die D IE

so yeah, my most favourite Superman villain:

(god i hate it when they draw him hot)

some of you might go Manchester Black? Manchester? the dude in Superman vs The Elite??? i thought he was an anti-hero???!!!

nah the day he decided to target all people that are close to Clark, gave intel to Luthor about who is Superman, tortured Lois and gave Clark a hologram of her dead body i already counted him in villain category.

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Game Night

The last few days have been insane. I couldn’t believe that my closest friend was friends with the one and only Leonardo DiCaprio. How could she have kept that from me for so long!? Either way it was pretty rad. 
It was after the Oscars in which Leo won for best actor; kudos to him! He really deserved it. Not to mention when he dedicated his acceptance speech to global warming, it made me respect him even more. I don’t know how I ended up at a DiCaprio Game Night party, but fate had it that way. 
“Ok, so the first game of the night will be…Pictionary!” 
             He was so handsome in person
My friend jumped up and said that she wanted to be on my team since I could draw decently. Leo chuckled, taking a drag from his vape, and blew out thick white smoke. The party was lowkey, but there were some A list celebs there.  It was too surreal.  Kate Winslet was there, Martin Scorsese, Idris Elba, Johnny Depp, Jason Segel and some supermodels of whom I did not know. I’m sure it crossed their minds that my friend and I were literally nobodies. 

We broke up into 2 equal groups.  My friend, Depp, Segel and myself versus Elba, Martin, Winslet, Leo. Being around all these famous people made me as stiff as a doornail. I did not want to say anything that made me sound like an idiot. We set up the game and it was time for the first round. We went first. 
            Fucking great! D…for difficult words…Pollute…how the fuck am I going                                                        to draw this…
I took a deep breath and nodded when I was ready for the 1 minute timer to start. Quickly I drew a power plant with a nuclear symbol and smoke with dead ‘m’ shaped birds falling to the ground. Everyone on my team were yelling out different answers, none of them being ‘Pollute’. Leo had looked at the card since his team wouldn’t gain anything from it, and he chuckled some more.  I couldn’t tell if he was laughing at me or with me.  Depp kept saying ‘Pollution’ which technically didn’t count and it only frustrated me. BEEP BEEP BEEP. “Gaaaaahhhh! Pollute…The word was pollute.” I said rubbing my forehead. It was Leo’s turn and of course his team got it immediately….damn Elba was great. They were halfway around the board before we got to go again. Finally, we were beginning to do better, with Segel spitting hot fire! Depp was doing well with his simplistic drawings that got to the point.  He was really good too. We were able to surpass them when some wanted to take a smoke break. I saw this as the perfect time to use the bathroom. –Man had I been holding it. 

I was able to relax a bit due to everyone buzzing off of the competitiveness of the game.  Leo offered to escort me to the closet bathroom due to the size of his home.  “It can be a bit confusing.”  “Thanks!” I said.  
“You are really good at drawing!” he said taking a hard pull from his vape.
“…Thanks! Your team is really good! Especially Kate! Too bad she can’t just be the designated drawer!” I responded. 
“Haha! Yeah, we used to play this all the time! Especially when we had downtime on the Titanic set…Your friend is cool too. I’m glad she brought you! It’s rare when you find a non-celebrity who is so chill and not a rabid fangirl, you know?”         Man, this bathroom is hella far 
“I know what you mean! I used to work Guest Relations.  I would always get fans who just took it too far. Thanks for allowing me to be her plus one!”

He smiled and stopped walking.

“You may think this is weird, but, do you want to go out for coffee?”
“….what?…Like, when? Now? But what about the game? Uh, like…um, I mean….I guess…Yes? I mean, of course….um…” I became flustered and I could feel my face turning red. How do you decline an offer like that? You don’t.
“Hahaha, I thought you said you were chill?”
“Being chill and being flustered are too different things! I mean, like, you are so cool and I respect you so much…Like, I’m just plain ole me…”
“Don’t think so little of yourself! It’s such a relief to hang with someone who isn’t a celeb, you know? Some of them are such tools!” He began to laugh and he sweetly kissed me on the cheek.  I blushed a bit and wondered if this was the beginning of something? My thoughts raced. Quickly I ran inside the bathroom and slammed the door. 

I forgot I had to pee. Badly. 

To Be Continued

anonymous asked:

Hiya, Ashlee! Could I bother for just a second? I'm having quite a bit of trouble writing lately; I have an idea set for what I want to write, but I just can't get the juices flowing enough to press my fingers to the keyboard and make progress. There are somethings I REALLY want to get to, including a huge project I want to get moving, but I can't shake away this block holding me back. Do you have any tips on how to break away and get to writing again??? Thanks! -That sweet Anon from earlier. :D

Hey sweet anon!! You’re not a bother at all, I’m actually flattered you’d even think to ask me. :)

I understand perfectly well what a bitch writer’s block can be. I have a few different methods I use to break through it, so I’m just going to throw them all at you in no particular order and hope that one of them helps. 

Disclaimer: some of them will be contradictory because every case of writer’s block is different and what works one time might not work another. Also take everything with a grain of salt because a) I am sadly not a professional author, b) I am probably terrible at giving advice and c) it is very late and I may or may not be high on cold and flu medicine. 

Let’s go!

  • That scene that you can’t get out of your head? That one exchange of dialogue that keeps echoing through your thoughts, even though you have absolutely no idea who’s saying it or why? That little spark for your big project that makes you get butterflies in your tummy, the idea that started it all? Write it down. It doesn’t have to make sense. It doesn’t need any context at all. Don’t bother about stitching it into a larger plot or universe right now - just get it on the page. Yeah, it’s not going to sound as good on paper (or screen) as it does in your head, but it’s no good to anyone if you just keep it up there. The important thing is to just start writing. Worry about everything else later, and just start with what you have. You never know what could flow on from there.
  • But Ashlee, I hear you say, What if I don’t have any scenes or dialogue yet?! Never fear! If all you have is an idea - not even a plot, just a raw, basic, idea - you’re still good to go. 
  • Grab yourself a nice big piece of paper and write your idea down in the middle of the page. That’s right, we’re going to mind map this bitch. I find it helpful to use different colours for different things - one colour for character ideas, one colour for plot ideas, another for sub-plots, another for backstory, etc. etc. Apart from that, there’s no order to this part. Literally scribble all over the page, wherever you like, whatever comes to your mind. If one idea links immediately to another, sweet, draw a pretty coloured line between them and give yourself a pat on the back. If not, it doesn’t even matter. You’ve got plenty more paper to fill, so just leave that lonely little idea floating there in your cloud and move on to the next one: they’re all going to link up eventually, so don’t feel bad for it. 
  • Once you’ve got your awesome multicoloured mind map, step back from it and admire your handiwork. Look at all those words on the page! You did that! You deserve a cookie. Go get a cookie and then come back to your pretty mind map. It’s time to turn it into some not-so-pretty documents.
  • Group ideas based on colour and type them up into separate documents: At this point I normally do one for characters, one for plot and one for whatever the hell else I wrote down in my initial creative frenzy. 
  • Let’s start with the character document. I love characters. I especially love my own characters. They’re like my babies. (My teenaged, fictional babies.) But at this point in the process I don’t give them very much attention. I write down what I’ve got - usually a physical description, age, what their main goal/motivation is and some defining features that have bearing on the plot (eg. selfish, over achiever, etc.). 
  • And then I leave them alone. I’m a big believer in letting characters grow and develop over the course of the plot, so I don’t like to cram too much information on them immediately. Some people fill out massive character forms, but I’m not about that. If I know I want them to start out one way and end up a changed person by the end of the story, of course I write that down. But it is literally in the form of: “Starts out selfish. Develops heart/conscience. Sacrifices own happiness/original goal for others and ends up getting happiness through that act anyway.” Bam. Done. No more detail needed right now. Say bye to your babies and move on.
  • The plot document is next! You’re going to use a lot of headings and bullet points here. Probably. I do, anyway. Now is the time for me to introduce my good friend - outlining! (Outlining and I are actually not friends. We’re more like begrudging students who got paired up for a group assignment and really don’t want to work together but know that we have to in order to get a good grade, so we’re all passive aggressive and complain about each other to our friends for the whole project but end up pulling it together at the end and getting a pretty good mark. But whatevs.)
  • Take the points from your mind map and put them into a rough chronological order. After that, try to fill in any gaps you have, but don’t feel too bad about empty spaces. If you need to write “Something awesome happens here and they escape” just go ahead and do that. No one will judge you. Once you’ve got a big, very rough plot outline down, the fun really begins. 
  • Take that outline and break it down into three acts. Beginning, Middle, End. Simple, right? Now take each of those sections and break them down into chapters, where one big plot point/event/development occurs each chapter. Underneath the chapter number and the summary of the plot development you just assigned to it, break it down into three scenes (by scenes I don’t necessarily mean scenes, like how they use the term in screenwriting, I more mean it in the sense of pacing/emotional beats). In these scenes it’s good to make notes of any new characters or plot developments being introduced.
  • Here’s an example from the first draft of the outline I did for my novel.
    ACT I:
    Chapter 1: Introduce Jenna, Harper, Elle and Gabby as they move into their new dorm for their final year of school, and Jenna finds the weird old book.
    Scene I: Jenna saying goodbye to her dad, moving in with the girls and giving a basic rundown of how things work at this school/are different from what she’s used to.
    Introduce basic physical descriptions and history of the girls.
    Introduce Jenna’s dad being a professor on a research trip, hence the boarding school.
    Scene II: As Jenna’s unpacking and putting her stuff away she discovers a secret compartment in one of her drawers, inside of which is the book with notes about a storm and a shipwreck.
    Scene III: Jenna’s first day of classes.
    Establish Jenna as a good student.
    Introduce Bill the prefect.
    Introduce Chekhov’s Gun!!!!
  • You see some scenes are more detailed than others. I haven’t gone into what each scene really entails, and I haven’t even got a Chekhov’s Gun yet, I just know that I want one. Because Chekhov’s Guns are one of my favourite tropes and I love them. But anyway. The point of this outline isn’t to be super detailed and to have your entire story worked out - it’s simply to give you little breadcrumbs that you can follow when you get lost. They’re just jumping off points that remind you of all the bases you need to cover. 
  • If you have any snippets of dialogue or specific ideas you know you want to include, they’re just added bonuses you can put in their corresponding scenes. 
  • Don’t panic if you don’t have enough information to do an outline like that for your entire story! At first I actually only did an outline like the one above for Act I. Act III got a single paragraph summing up how I wanted the story to end, and Act II only got a few disjointed sentences with lots of question marks at the ends. But it didn’t matter, because I had a starting point, and as I wrote other stuff came to me and it got easier to fill in the gaps for the rest.
  • If you’ve made it this far go get yourself another cookie, because you’re being a real trooper. 
  • As you write, if you come to a scene that’s not working, skip it. Move on. Come back to it later. Maybe you don’t even need it, or maybe you just aren’t looking at it the right way at the moment. Whatever the case, let future you deal with it and just jump ahead for now.
  • If you want to go ahead and write random scenes in no particular order at all, do it. I do it sometimes, and store them in a separate document until I get up to that point in the manuscript. Then I copy and paste them in, do a bit of tweaking and reward myself for how much my word count just jumped with very little effort from my present self.
  • If neither randomly writing nor outlining is helping you, go ahead and step back from the project a bit. Go get another cookie. Go sit in the sun. Go for a drive with the windows down and try to find the exact words to describe how the wind feels against your face. Do not feel guilty for this. Everything is research.
  • When you come back, you don’t have to dive straight back into the proper writing. Make a playlist for your story. Choose a fancast. Make edits. Go searching for random prompts that don’t match your plot at all but will be a good exercise in character. Not everything you write has to have the goal of being in your final draft.
  • That’s a really important thing I’m going to emphasise: Don’t look at this with any sort of finality. First drafts are always crap. They’re meant to be crap, it’s why they’re called first drafts. A lot of the words you write today are not the words that are going to get published, so who cares if they don’t quite flow? They’re there, you wrote them, and that’s all that matters.

I have no idea if this makes any sense at all - I definitely went off on a few tangents - but I hope that you find something in there that can help you get past writer’s block. Feel free to message me if you have any questions or comments, and good luck with your projects!!

joanaabroad  asked:

I'm your Psych anon from last night :) Pretty much love all permutations of this. Had another thought where Derek is Shawn - like where he's getting all this reward money because he's using his werewolfiness to solve crimes? But seriously, if you write any of this, I'll read it, and am more than willing to chat about this if you want a sounding board. Any excuse to start rewatching the whole series :)

Scott as Gus is one option. But consider him as Buzz? Then Lydia could be Gus - doing some high flying career somewhere (pharmaceuticals, but in r&d?), but putting it to the side to follow her and Stiles childhood dream of being super spy/detectives.

Oh man, you’re killing me with these ideas here. 

Derek just trying to help but getting arrested and having to come up with this whole psychic lie to avoid jail time, and Stiles is the detective who doesn’t believe him for a second and just like, he doesn’t stalk him alright, but he stalks him. And Derek is completely aware of this (hello, werewolf?) so he just goes to get coffee for a few hours, has a nice relaxing lunch on the patio at his favorite restaurant, listening to Stiles rant to Scott in their car about how he’s doing this on purpose, alright, he has to be. 

BUT. This is totally some shit Stiles would pull out of his ass! Like, he would say he’s psychic to get out of some shit. And since Scott and Stiles are a package deal, Scott just gets dragged along at first, but then totally getting into solving mysteries and going out and finding them jobs on his own. And he’s the one the department looks to for sane explanations that aren’t full of lies and stupid deflections

But if we’re keeping werewolves, then Derek could be werewolf cop, and he knows Stiles is lying about being a psychic (he’s met real psychics, okay, and that’s not what they do) but he doesn’t have an alternate explanation so he just watches him intensely at crime scenes trying to figure out what he’s hiding, angrily getting more and more interested. While firmly in denial about it, of course, because he’s not about to admit that the shitty fake psychic is maybe way past growing on him.

OH. And if we’re leaving the supernatural elements, then Lydia can be a rival “psychic” detective who was forced to come up with the lie to explain how she stumbled onto so many crime scenes.

FUCK I WANT THIS.

anonymous asked:

So what antics ended up happening at that conference? I can't imagine that it went smoothly lol

 GO D 

ok so trucy’s?? not all that great at school. she’s very smart and obviously has a lot of passion, but just…..not for school. she’s been struggling particularly with math and miles has been focusing a lot of his free time in helping her, but he mainly wanted to set up this meeting to discuss her performance in that area. he really doesn’t want such a bright young girl being held back purely because she’s not school-orientated, esp since she’s doing fine in other areas like reading and writing, and this is a conversation that needs to happen in private between him, the student, and her guardian

so miles is all ready to have a lengthy discussion with the father of his arguably favorite student (not that you’ll ever actually get him to admit that) present as well, he’s ready for a Serious Parent-Teacher Conference

and then he opens the door and finds himself face to face with the really cute and funny guy from the bar a month ago he swore he was going to forget about and he’s just. fuck my entire life im going to get so fired as soon as this is over

the meeting  happens and it’s about as terrible as expected - p/e refuse to make eye contact pretty much the entire time, trucy is just ????? so perplexed by the usually perfectly composed and articulated mr. edgeworth stumbling over the occasional word and why are his and daddy’s faces still so red

like it smooths out somewhat as time progresses and they talk about what needs to be talked about and p/e start at least trying to look each other in the face again, but it’s still super weird in the room up until the end

and then when they’re done phoenix says ‘trucy please go wait outside I need to talk to mr. edgeworth about one last thing’ and as soon as the door shuts behind her miles is IMMEDIATELY like “liSTEN I AM. SO SORRY I SWEAR I DON’T DO THIS NORMALLY” referring to their no-strings attached hookup bc like ?? he’s had to deal with a lot of complaining parents before but never for anything like this, he’s probably terrified that phoenix is going to take this up to the school board or something, he’s had upset parents do a lot more with a lot less, but phoenix is just “nO LOOK IT’S OKAY I GET IT DONT WORRY ABOUT IT I WAS THERE FOR THE SAME REASON MYSELF RIGHT I can tell you’re a good guy and an exceptional teacher I’m not going to hold you accountable for that night alright”

and miles is just so relieved bc he loves this district and his job and “yes alright fantastic thank you mr. wright please do consider what we’ve discussed pertaining to trucy’s performance in my class” 

and phoenix promises he will, he’s glad this meeting happened regardless of how uncomfortable it was bc it has to do with his daughter and as he’s opening the door to leave he’s not even thinking he just says “we probably reached the point where you can drop the ‘mr’ and just call me ‘phoenix’ a while ago, though” and he is. Shocked at what just came out of his own mouth he nearly slams the door shut again as he collects trucy and books it out of the school like oh my god why did i do t hat

like nothing more comes out of that disastrous second meeting other than the name thing because well this has just been an painful experience for everyone involved

but then a few weeks later trucy comes home w a field trip permission form and begs phoenix to be one of the parent chaperones and he obv can’t say no to trucy now can he but he also 100% has Ulterior Motives

and it’s still awkward af when they start out, miles has been internally freaking out about this meeting ever since trucy walked up to his desk a week ago and gave him the chaperone form with ‘phoenix wright’ written in blocky letters across the bottom and phoenix is probably a huge loser and spends far too much time in front of his closet the morning of and it doesn’t even matter they’re going to a botanical garden he’s going to get dirt on his pants no matter what he does

but then when the kids are doing an activity that doesn’t require their assistance or attention they wander off and start talking and hit it off even better than they did at the bar and phoenix starts showing up more often at school to pick trucy up at the front gate and miles is somehow always around when they do and trucy is suddenly getting Bs on all of her math tests and really won’t stop talking about mr. edgeworth now and then finally one of them sucks it up and asks the other out for dinner (”and just to clarify - this would be a date. if you’re interested”) and then suddenly a year has passed and then three and trucy’s starting middle school and i don;t they probably get engaged at this point bc they’re gay and im gay anD

i get so invested in every single one of the aus I wind up drawing lmao im ….so sorry

anonymous asked:

Do you have any tips/links on how to prioritize? When it's not something I really must do (work/school/paying rent etc) I just jump from project to project over and over again, even when it's something I really enjoy and *want* to see finished. How do I figure out (or decide) what to finish first when all of it seem more or less equally important/interesting and nothing has a hard time limit? I just can't get myself to commit and it's so frustrating. Meds isn't an option for me right now.

For this kind of stuff I like to use the quadrants method, at least at first (eventually you get better at it and don’t need to do this sort of thing for prioritizing, but it can take a long time so don’t worry about how long you need to use a particular method).

Basically, you divide a page into four. The top two boxes (A and B) are Interesting, the bottom two (C and D) are Uninteresting, the left two boxes (A and C) are Urgent, the right two boxes (B and D) are Not Urgent.

Box A is Interesting and Urgent. Put anything that you really like to do AND has a deadline in this box. Include the deadlines.

Box B is Interesting and Not Urgent. Put anything that you really like to do BUT doesn’t have a deadline to it in this box.

Box C is Uninteresting but Urgent. Put anything that you don’t like to do AND has a deadline in this box. Include the deadlines.

Box D is Uninteresting and Not Urgent. Everything else goes here.

Within the boxes, you prioritize. Things with deadlines (Boxes A and C) get prioritized by due date; that makes it easier to know what to do first.

The other two boxes (B and D) I recommend the pairs method.

Look at your first two items on the list. Which one do you like to do better? Put it first. Now look at the one that’s left and compare it to the next item. Which do you like better? That goes next. Do this all the way down the list, making sure you check each item against each other across the board.

So you might have painting, reading, drawing, writing, and running on your list. Do you like painting or reading better? Reading. So that’s first. Now look at painting and drawing, which is preferable? Drawing. Okay, that’s second but you didn’t compare drawing with reading yet. Which do you like best? Drawing. Okay! So it’s drawing and then reading. Now compare painting and writing. Oh, you like painting more? Excellent! How about writing vs running? You like running better? Well, do you like running better than painting? No? Okay, so your priority list goes drawing, reading, painting, running, and writing.

NOW, for stuff like personal projects that I’m largely just doing for myself, I keep a list of everything and it’s in order of when I started it. When I really get frustrated with the jumping around, I look at the list and decide I am going to finish the first thing and not work on any of the other things until that’s done. (Doesn’t always stick because shiny and pretty ideas and projects always come along, but it works better than jumping from one thing to the next without any reason or rhyme.)

I think there are other posts about this under prioritizing.

-J

anonymous asked:

What could be some examples of odd metaphorical thinking? I know I frequently use methapors and like comparasions to describe often how i feel and whenever I talk about myself and can't figure out how else to explain it. I use things like "it kinda like I'm watercolors and this is a page" something like that. But I don't do it always.

Being able to use metaphors in speech and as a way of communication isn’t necessarily a sign of neurodivergence. (I assume you’re referring to the criteria for Schizotypal Personality Disorder.) Metaphors can help people understand concepts sometimes, depending on the kind of learner they are. (Some people need things to be more straightforward. There’s nothing wrong with this either.) If you use metaphors to explain how you’re feeling, that’s pretty normal.

The “odd metaphorical thinking” described in the diagnostic criteria more refers to the use of metaphorical speech and thinking that other people simply can’t understand at all! However, it may make sense to you. For you to say you are watercolors on a page is translatable. I’m not sure of the context of how you used that, but I can see it meaning a number of things. Maybe you feel like different parts of you (colors) are bleeding together on a page and making a mess. Maybe you feel “dried up” when left unattended. Maybe the color on the paper doesn’t match the color on the palette, and similarly you feel what’s in your head sounds different when it comes out of your mouth.

If you were to say, “I’m sawdust staring into space.” It’s a little over abstract, in a way. I’m sure you could find some way for that to make perfect sense if you sat and stared at it long enough, but that’s the thing. It’s just a little too abstract. People with this symptom of schizotypal seem to do better explaining their thoughts and feelings in incredibly abstract (or on the flip side, completely concrete) ways. What makes sense to them may not make sense to others who are not like-minded. 

I have no idea where to draw the line between “normal metaphor” and “weird metaphor” though. The criteria is unfortunately flawed in this way. I also don’t like the idea of calling any manner of speech “wrong.” I also only have schizotypal traits though, not full blown STPD. Perhaps Pandora can share more of their experiences of what it’s like to experience the odd metaphorical thinking. I just figured I’d go ahead and answer this as the person who created the checklist.

-Mea

Pandora here, so I have BPD and STPD, so my experience is a little different than someone who solely has STPD.  To give a little background on my experience, I do have odd thinking that expresses itself in metaphors (one example was when I was in a relationship and the thought “I am fire and they are the moon” came into my head and I KNEW I wasn’t referring to myself as the sun so really, what do fire and the moon have anything to do with each other??? It just made perfect sense to me and still does) but I don’t experience this all the time.  My metaphors tend to be dramatic and talking about Big Things rather than mundane things, though you can absolutely have metaphorical thoughts about more mundane things (example: “This salt shaker is a raging ocean”–it makes sense to me, but more people would probably understand “This salt shaker is like holding a dried up ocean in my hand” or something).  As Mea said, sometimes our metaphors become a little too abstract, and the result is that it takes non-Schizotypal people much longer to understand what we’re meaning, if they get it at all.

But back to what I said about not experiencing this all the time.  For my personal experience with STPD and BPD, my BPD can kind of “cancel out” my overly- and abstractly-metaphorical thinking, because my borderline thinking can become very black and white and only deal in absolutes.  My BPD tells me “this is the reality of the situation in concrete terms” even if that “reality of the situation” is totally warped by BPD.  Also because of my BPD I generally don’t voice my “odd” metaphors outloud anymore because I have an intense fear of being judged and rejected or abandoned.

So I don’t really know what it’s like to have overly metaphorical thinking all the time (or on a very frequent basis), because of my comorbidity. 

What I can tell you is that overly or abstractly metaphorical stuff only makes sense to you (and possibly other schizotypal people).  A good way to figure out if you’re using a metaphor that’s too abstract or “odd” is whether or not a non-schizotypal person understands what you mean.  People with STPD or schizotypal traits often make connections between things that non-schizotypal people don’t see any connection to.  I like to conceptualize it as one big word/concept cloud in my head, with arrows connecting words and ideas with no discernible reason other than my own inner sense of connection and instinct.  These connections don’t have to be based in reality, though some of them are influenced by reality.  This word cloud is kind of like my mind map, allowing me to make connections to things based on my own unique thought process.  This is something that some people with BPD can experience too–not thinking in a linear fashion. 

What makes schizotypal thinking “odd” to neurotypicals especially is that it’s virtually never linear.  There’s no movement from Point A to Point B to Point C to arrive at Point D. (Side note: this always gave me a hell of a hard time in math because I could arrive at the right answer in a completely different way than what we were taught, and then when I would try to explain how I did it, my explanation sounded like nonsensical gibberish to my teachers and peers, which is why I learned to conform to a linear way of thinking that was unnatural to me.) 

In my experience, “odd” metaphorical expression or “odd” speech really just means “not thinking or talking in an acceptably neurotypical way.”  It does NOT mean the way you think or make connections between words and concepts or the way you speak is wrong.  It’s not.  It’s just different from the norm.  When it becomes a problem is when it breaks down your ability to communicate at all.  A number of the schizotypal people I know have trained themselves to express their thoughts in a way that non-schizotypal/neurotypical people can understand, which I think is really sad because it should really be non-schizotypal/neurotypical people who should be making an effort to understand us and accommodate us, instead of the other way around. 

“Odd” metaphorical thinking can cause a lot of problems connecting to people because non-schizotypal people can’t understand what you’re feeling or thinking because your metaphors are too abstract.  That’s generally the “line” between normal metaphors and “odd” metaphors.  Where communication is impaired.

Another way “odd” metaphorical thinking presents itself is taking common metaphors and interpreting them in a different way.  For example, lots of people like the idea that “I am star dust” and they find that empowering and gives them a sense of connection to the universe.  But to you, “I am star dust” might mean “I am made of the corpses of stars that were never born and therefore I am a dead thing that never realized its potential.”  So you could be using a commonly used metaphor in a completely different way than other people. Therefore, when you say “I am star dust”, people will never understand what you really mean (unless/until you explain it to them) because it already had an accepted connotation.  Usually when it comes to “odd” metaphors used by people with STPD or schizotypal traits, there’s a lot of other thoughts behind those metaphors that isn’t adequately captured by the statement, or might be left out of the statement entirely.  On the other hand, some people express their “odd” metaphors in very convoluted and long ways.  Where it seems like the metaphor is never going to end and gets harder and harder to follow the leaps between concepts.  

That’s my experience with “odd” metaphorical thinking, at least.  I can’t give you very many examples because I’m not usually in “STPD Brain” when I answer SBD questions (or else I run the risk of you guys not understanding what I’m trying to convey), and because of my BPD, I have a very short and faulty emotional memory where it’s hard or impossible to remember what I was thinking and feeling even the day before.

That’s how I experience it anyways, I hope that gives you a better understanding.

-Pandora

okay

but imagine this concept

haruka nanase, aged 18

know how to user the computer!!!!!

mind-blowing

so

haru knows how to use the computer AND EVEN the internet. he can even type in the address. and write a blog. in fact he’s p popular on pixiv.

(altho he prefers drawr or tegaki because uploading pictures on pixiv is bothersome)

aaaaaaaaaand at first he was drawing only water and water stuff like oceans and waterfalls, and people LOVED THEM (and still do!!) because they were not only aesthetically beautiful but also had Soul, as if the artist was born in that place and knew everything about it. he’s kinda known as that wild dude who draws rad-ass water pics….. but is lazy as heck, as people realised when someone told him to release a book and he was like, ……..that would require me doing addional work. mmmmmgh

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eyeslikeliquidfire  asked:

Got a prompt for your drabbles! Came over to Tumblr just for this purpose lol. Prompt: In an effort to avoid any blunders, Klaus personally goes to MF to investigate the doppelganger. While there, he witnesses human Caroline fighting off Damon in S1 (including her efforts to go against compulsion) and can't help, but notice her strength. It's been a while since he took anyone under his wing so he decides to make Caroline a vampire and teach her his ways, starting with vengeance on Damon.

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anonymous asked:

Hello kel! I'm really sorry to bother you with my problems, but lately I've been stuck with my art. I can't motivate myself to draw a lot or even finish a drawing the day I start it. I've also had a more anime-ish style that I've been wanting to get out of, would you have any suggestions for that? I'm so sorry to bother you! I love your art btw!

HEY ANON it’s no bother! I think that happens when you can’t find something that excites you? I get these long droughts of art block too where I can’t really bring myself to do anything other than doodle until I get some idea that I like and that pushes me to actually finish something 

So i guess the best thing to do is find something that excites you!! Like flowers or space or maybe designing characters! Don’t worry about producing a lot of ‘quality’ work, just draw things that MAKE YOU WANNA DRAW MORE even if they’re just scribbles. Trying new things can help too, so maybe u could try using new methods of coloring/ trying traditional media if u do a lot of digital? 

Style-wise I find that that is actually dependent a lot on what you consume? So try surrounding yourself in the kind of art style you want to develop, STUDY them and see how they translate whatever features into that style. I think doing more life drawings would help too? Just to remind yourself of how facial features would look in a non anime context. Sorry that I couldn’t be more helpful BUT I HOPE YOU GET OUT OF YOUR RUT SOON!!

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