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Halloween 2017 #9: Welcome to Halloween Camp!

Length: Super long

TRIGGER WARNING: CHILD ABUSE

Halloween is a big deal in my house.

My parents are super into it. Our house is the Halloween House on the block – you know the one I’m talking about, the one with all the elaborate decorations that take days to put up and take down. My mom used to hand-sew all of our costumes. Whatever we wanted to be, we got. I remember one year she sewed me my own Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle costume – it must have taken her weeks.

“That’s the rule of Halloween,” she’d tell my brother, Sammy, and me. “For just one day, you get to be whoever you want to be. That’s a gift. Make sure you don’t waste it.”

So it’s unthinkable, now, that my parents would let us spend Halloween anywhere away from home. I’m still not really sure what prompted their decision. My parents deny it to this day, but I think they were having some problems in their marriage and they wanted Sammy and I sent away while they talked it out. I don’t know. I guess it doesn’t matter.

The point is that, on Friday, October 29th, 1999, my parents packed some duffle bags for my brother and me, complete with our handmade costumes, and sent us off to Halloween Camp.

Yeah, you read that right.

See, when you think of sleepaway camps, you probably think of summer, right? Because what kid in their right mind is going camping at the end of October? Even if you don’t live in a frigidly cold climate, there’s school to think of.

The camp was a new thing that had opened up about three hours away from my hometown. It promised a fun-filled Halloween extravaganza for the kids… and a quiet weekend for the parents. My brother and I were actually really excited to go. I know, I know – even then, we were both a bunch of nerds. But it sounded super cool to the both of us – a whole weekend dedicated to Halloween without being under the watchful eye of our overprotective (though admittedly morbid) parents? Count us both in!

So that Friday, my parents took us out of school early – just before lunch – and we started the long drive to the southern half of the state. Sammy and I chatted excitedly the entire time about our weekend away. Mom and dad got us McDonalds, which they NEVER did. We had a really great time.

Sammy didn’t start getting nervous until mom and dad pulled up to the campsite.

“What if we need to call you for something?” he asked. I could hear the worry in his voice. What he REALLY wanted to ask was what if he wanted to call because he was homesick? Would they come get us if he decided he didn’t want to stay? Sammy was kind of a baby about stuff like that, even though he was already eight years old. He hated staying away from home.

“You’ll be just fine, champ. You two will have a wonderful time and if you need anything, anything at all, your brother Ron will be there to talk you through it,” said my dad. I gave Sammy’s hand a squeeze to reassure him. Not because I’m the kindhearted older brother, mind you, but because I didn’t want him crying and whining and ruining this for me. As soon as we had seen the gates of the camp, my excitement had skyrocketed.

The gate to the camp was made of old wood, now painted black with skeletons tied to it. The sign read “Welcome to Camp Halloween” in red, dripping letters. A few bats and spiders hung from the bottom of the sign and waved in the breeze, as though to welcome us. I smiled at the sight. My brother shivered a little.

My parents unloaded our duffle bags and brought us into the camp. A small table was set up, neatly labeled ‘Registration.’ Sitting there were two camp counselors in black shirts with CAMP HALLOWEEN printed in red on the front pocket.

“Hi there, welcome to Camp Halloween, where the spirit of Halloween is never laid to rest! What name are your kids under?”

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i, i love the colorful clothes she wears and the way the sunlight plays upon her hair

Rey/Rose Tico; WC: 4933

Summary: Star Wars Femslash Week 2017 Day 1: Fake Dating AU
Rey has to do some favors for Jess - which involve Rose. 

Notes: this is so bad god . but uh. i tried so yeah this is supposed to b kinda-ish fake dating au 

[on ao3]

When Jess called her in absolute distress, Rey was on her way to the electronics store to get some knick knacks for her current project. She was just rounding the last corner, when her phone buzzed. Hoping it wasn’t something important, she let it ring out. Answering the phone wasn’t one of her favorite things to do anyway.

    As she locked her bike at the store, her phone started buzzing again. Rey was considering letting it ring out again. She really didn’t feel like answering. She dug it out of her backpack and checked who was calling. If it was Finn she would definitely answer. Although he usually texted. He wasn’t that big on calling either. Her screen flashed with a number she hadn’t seen before. A little nervousness started making rounds in her stomach and she decided to ignore it.

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Sherlolly (Sherlock/Molly) in Sherlock Series/Season 3

You’ve been amazingly patient, and I thank you for it. Sherlock last aired here in January/February 2014, shortly after I conceived twins. Yes, twins. Suffice it to say, life has been a whirlwind ever since. However, with the confirmation on the setting of the 2015 Christmas special, I have been inspired to return to Sherlock and Molly and their beautiful dance. You can see my previous review of Sherlolly in series ½ here. As for series three, let’s dive right in, shall we?

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Korrasami season 3 analysis (part 6) - last one of the season!

Finally - the last episode of season 3 - episode 13 “venom of the red lotus” analysis. Second take.

(by the way, don’t feel discouraged to check other parts of book 3 part 5, part 4, part 3, part 2, part 1)

So, we start with Zaheer giving his speech, which sounds like a rumbling of a brainwashed kid with no opinion of his own, just repeating some words he learned. Korra is terrified, to be honest, so was I. No Korrasami here.

Now, when Jinora comes back from spying and Ikki says:“Korra will come to save us, right..?”, I was surprised to hear Jinora’s response (“I think we’ll got to do this on our own…”).She’s an airbender, basically already a master with the strongest spiritual connection that we know of. She just heard that these guys want to end the avatar cycle. I would expect her replay to be: “i think we’ll have to save her this time…” and not so selfish (?. not the best word choice, but hope you’ll get what i mean) one. Again, no Korrasami here.

By the way, poison administration is the only scene in the whole show we see Korra’s forearms. And shape of her lips too.


The gang is rushing towards the cave. Of course, Asami is driving Oogi. There’s nothing this girl can’t drive. But look at her pose.

She’s leaning forward. As if trying to get faster to the place (a lot of people dothe same thing when they driving their cars and being late for a meeting or something - they lean forward). She want to get there - no nanosecond wasted. And she’s also focused as if building a new engine. She does not actually need to “steer” Oogi or do this with so much concentration. I think she’s preparing herself for the coming battle and all the ass-kicking she’ll be doing. And, of course - saving Korra. That’s the most important thing in the world. And fulfilling the mission Korra trusted her with - saving the airbenders.

But then again, Kai is also in the same position as Asami… So maybe this is just a bison driving pose… at least to some extent… (although as far as i remember, both Aang and Tenzin sat straight while doing this). Kai needs to lean forward to hold himself on the bison, Asami, on the other hand, does not need to do that. So i think that’s a psychological moment to get faster to her destination.


They finally see the cave. We have clear visuals on four people: Tonraq, Bolin, Kai and Asami. I can’t really read Tonraq’s expression. It’s not that he’s angry, filled with hate or revenge. He’s an experienced warrior so he knows better than to let emotions take on. But still. His daughter is in a very serious life threatening danger. Maybe even dead by now - he does not know that. And yet he looks at the cave as if thinking: “so this is the place…ok." Bolin is also emotionless, even though his new lover is there. The only people expressing some kind of emotions are Kai and Asami. Their faces looks similar with more planning and action sequences in Asami’s. There’s hurt, cold anger, revenge and determination in them.


(Tenzin: "Find the airbenders. And my family.” Sooo… Tenzin, does this mean: “screw the avatar, screw Korra”..? or “my family” includes Korra too…? Still not very clear on this one.)


And here’s the moment. The moment Asami lets out all of that frustration she was holding ever since the battle in Zaofu.

This guard threw some rocks at them, Su blocked it with that small earth wall and, she was prepared to take him on. But Asami rushed. She jumps through the wall right at him. Will all what was building inside of her. This guy is from Red Lotus. He’s a part of organization who wanted to kill Korra. Maybe even already did that. He’s a part of the organization, who made her do that unthinkable choice: her or the airbenders. They are pure evil. And they must go down hard. The harder, the better. They need to suffer as much, as they made Korra suffer. I saw that look on Asami only when she was fighting the equalists - another personal fight for her.

Heck, even before she attacked him, she stared-to-kill at him. At them.


So the airbenders is Asami’s mission given to her by Korra (“help me save the airbenders, then you can worry about saving me”). Just a moment ago Asami went-for-the-kill and now she changed completely. While unlocking Jinora she’s warm and carrying again. She completed the thing Korra asked her to do. Ok, Korra asked all of them, but still… Asami did good. Asami saved. Finally. Again, if we included the desert incident.


Again, the reunion part is kind of strange. Ok, i get that everyone is happy to see everyone is fine, alive and stuff, but again, Korra. The avatar. Their friend. Daughter. Ex-lover. Crush. And stuff. She’s still missing. And they don’t know anything about her. Where is she? Is she’s even still alive? How can they save her? Tonraq seems a bit displeased with the happiness everyone share (hands crossed, eyebrows furrow. Maybe it’s his natural warrior stance?)

Mako, Jinora and Kai looks the strangest - they seemed surprised. (“Korra? How’s that? What about her?”). Asami? I think she calculates her avail. And the odds it’s not how she would like, so maybe that’s why she does not volunteer herself to go together with Tonraq. (Although i think that Asami could have taken on Ming Hua. And the fight would be very interesting. Long water tentacles vs. airbender-like evasiveness, agility and, of course, electric glove…epic.)


Ok, so Tonraq, Mako, Bolin goes for Korra. Korra goes into avatar state and chases Zaheer. Mako deals with Ming Hua, Bolin - with Ghazan. Tonraq runs ourside - to Korra and Zaheer. Everybody is already there.

Tonraq and Kai are the only ones that demand/declare/propose help to Korra with her fight with Zaheer. From the green airbenders perspective, it’s understandable - they have no idea what the hell they can do and how. They don’t have self confidence and self awareness enough (Kai seems to be the exception). Tenzin, Kya, Bumi are beaten up. Although Tenzin still could command something (but then again, maybe he does not want to ask the new recruits to endanger themselves? But does he not care about Korra? The avatar? His father’s reincarnation? It might end up for good if she dies. Is it the dilemma of “the airbenders or the avatar” on his shoulders now? He looks very Hamlet-like here then). Su? Lin? The fight is going in the air, but still they can throw some rocks at Zaheer at least. Asami? I think the helplessness feeling is back again. The only way she could help take down Zaheer is for anyone to shout Sokka’s style “sneak attack!” while attacking him and, hoping that this would distract Zaheer, Asami could jump on his back and give what he deserves with her electric glove. So what she does is just stands there and worries. And i don’t think that she feels like it’s her place to ask for any of them to risk their lives to save Korra. But then again, who cares about the image in life-death situations..?

There are some strange things here though. We know that Asami worries - her face is all about that, inner prayers and similar stuff, but her body is all about confidence. Her hands would be in more context if they were drown by her side with tight fists - sign of hopeless anger towards Zaheer.


After the fight, Korra is down. Jinora is the first one by her side (she’s the closest one). Then we see Tonraq, Mako and Asami rushing to her. I just wonder why Asami is after Mako and not vice versa.

Mako is also half step closer to Korra than Asami.

(in later scenes, it’s clear that Asami is closer half a step to Korra than Mako. So maybe it’s just a guff. Or maybe Asami moved closer at some point.)

I also wonder why Asami did not rush to Korra’s side together with Tonraq… Maybe she was too terrified. Maybe some rational side of her brain didn’t let her do that.


When Su rushes to Korra to take the poison out, we see that Asami already has her hands in a praying position. She might have held them like that the moment she rushed to Korra. During the poison removal her hands are in the same position.

This indicates a great level of carrying, Love? Sure! What kind? Unknown. Especially since Asami was not the only one keeping her hands like that.

(notice the tear in Bolin’s eye…)

very sensitive people tend to keep their hands like that (it has many interpretations under it: asking for help of the higher power, not feeling alone <- kind of like supporting oneself and some others). I would guess that that’s the case with the airbender - she might be just extremely sensitive and emotional. Ikki? She cares about Korra. I would guess that she sees Korra as her big sister-grandfather. Asami..? Some people interpret this moment as the enlightenment moment for Asami, when she understood her feelings for Korra. Might be. But even if it’s true, then that happened in a subconscious level as consciously she’s way to busy…

Also, the difference between Asami’s hand holding and Ikki’s as
well as the airbender’s is, that Asami keeps her hands closer to her chest. As
if trying to keep something from running away. As if trying to keep her heart
from jumping out of her chest. As if trying to hold life itself. A bit more,
and it seems that her hands would pass through her sternum to her heart 
(ok, heart is on the left side, but somehow people intuitively grab the middle
of their chest when having very emotional, hearty experiences).

Her concern about Korra also seems bigger compared to Mako even if you look only at their faces. It again might be due to Mako’s face inability to express emotions or the fact that Asami, although more rational, is also more emotional than him, but still…

(remember how Asami and Korra agreed that Mako has difficulties with emotional stuff..?)


Now look at Asami (she’s blury, but still) after Su took out the poison and Korra is coughing. She’s more relieved. She still holds some level of concern, but she at least knows that Korra is alive. And will be. And that’s the most important thing. At least, for now.

Also, Asami is the only close person to Korra seen in this picture. In the first one, when Su just ran to Korra, Asami whas standing approximately at the place, where the nameless airbender stands now (look 4 pictures up). So the creators moved Asami so, that she would be present at the scene of poison removal from Korra. Why? The only explanation - she’s more important than the others. Adding the nameless guy creates a feeling of “accidental” appearance.



Now, two weeks after. We are shown that the action takes in air temple island. And what’s the first thing we are shown? Asami’s seductive lips. Why the hell one would want to show that? We know that she has great lips. She is one of the two (thank’s to one of the readers, who’s name i lost somehow, for pointing out that there are more than two lipstick girls) three (four?) characters in the show wearing a lipstick (other being Su, Lin and, might be Kya <- her lips are brownish, so i’m not sure about that). Movies use these kind of shots to increase level of appeal of a character. Or to show the romantic nature of his appearance towards the other character the first one is interacting with.


Asami does Korra’s hair. The easy feeling, that Korra is fine, is still in her. She’s happy about that, but she also emphasises with Korra’s suffering. That is why she tries to sound so cheerful/cheering, speaking in a little higher pitch and exclamatory sentence: “there you go! All fixed up for a formal Avatar appearance - take a look!”

This does not work. So Asami tries something different - making a connection, vocally comfort Korra with her hand on Korra’s shoulder. She wants to show Korra, that Korra does not need to go through her hard time and a rock alone (support from the start to the end). Asami knows what is like to be alone and to have somebody at these kind of moments. And she already made up her mind to stick by Korra’s side - to do whatever, to make Korra’s suffering easier.

Asami might not have experience the exact thing as Korra does, but she had her share of suffering (and not that small one too). So she can relate to Korra probably way better than anybody else. And also she’s the one who can best console in the way Korra needs (Mako definitely not the guy to have around for these kind of moments, Bolin would make a joke with the intention, to make her feel better, Tenzin would give a metaphysical lecture, not sure about her father and her mother. So we are left with Asami. This also explains why Korra, as we will later see, wrote only to Asami).


We come to the most talked-about moment: “if you ever want to talk about”. Asami connects with Korra starting with the words: “nobody expects you to bounce back right away. It’s only been two weeks. You need time to heal.” All concentration on Korra and her needs. By this time, Asami knows Korra pretty well and knows that Korra wants to push herself and be right back in the action, to help everyone, to save everyone. But Korra hates to accept help (remember, she wanted to defeat Amon and all equalists by herself. Alone. Just later she was convinced by Bolin to let them help her). And also, sitting helpless is not something Korra is very good at or used to. And Asami can relate to that too - the feeling helpless part. So Asami tells Korra, that she is ok the way she is now. Even though Korra is probably beating herself up right now for not being able to even take care of herself. In that sentence, Asami basically says, that Korra needs to take care of herself and not beat herself. But Asami does not receive any reaction from Korra. Then she goes a bit further: “I want you to know that I’m here for you. If you ever want to talk - eyes down away from Korra’s eyes - or - eyes back to Korra’s  - anything.” It’s seems that she’s hesitant about the “anything” part. She does feel the “anything” part, but isn’t sure if it’s the right moment, the right place, the right everything to tell it. And also, it might be, that she’s a bit shy to say it too.

After that, she immediately jumps to other topic: “let’s just try to enjoy this today. For Jinora.” Asami knows how much Korra cares for the airbenders. She almost died for them. So, although it might be a little manipulative, Asami will use this card, if it means that Korra will feel even a bit better. Even if it’s ‘fake it till you make it’. And it works. It looks as if Korra finally remembers why this dressing up is all about - Jinora. Why, not only how, she let herself get into this state. So she will try to enjoy this. For Jinora. And for Asami it’s enough.


At the temple, we see Senna running to her daughter to give her a hug. Why would she do that? Unless she just recently got to the air temple. But what kind of mother is she to stay two weeks away from her heavily injured daughter who even can’t dress herself? We know that she’s a carrying mother, so unless it was Korra who insisted that she would stay at home argueing, that Asami already is taking good care of her.

And look at Asami here. She’s happy, that Korra has her family here. They too can show, that Korra is not alone in this, who can support her and, hopefully, cheer her up a bit. Asami knows the need of family support very well.


Raiko is an ass. From the first season, to his death he will be an ass (sadly, Zaheer didn’t take him down. Thought: if elected politician is a reflection of the society, what kind of people live in the Republic city/United nations..?).

Every time I think about Raiko, I want to strangle him, so I won’t write his and Korra’s history. He still manages to be a selfish ass even when Korra nearly died and is crippled now. And he managed to make Korra go more gloomy again. And Asami is great. She feels Korra is uncomfortable immediately and manages the situation as a master airbender does that 2000 years relic which got burned down by Korra in book 1: “we should go inside.” and she makes that apologetic face at Raiko (but probably kicking his ass in her mind big time).


Immediately, Ikki and Meelo rush to Korra. Ikki wants to help and Asami makes that weird, confused face. We didn’t see her interacting with the airbender kids a lot. So this might be why she feels a bit strange next to them.

But then a smile appears on Korra’s face as Meelo gets all comfy on Korra’s lap. And Asami looks different. She looks grateful to the kids. They made Korra feel at least a bit better, so it doesn’t matter.

Ikki here seems to help Asami push Korra. She either holds her hands in front of Asami’s or, at least partially, has them on Asami’s palms (if that’s the case, it might explain the confusion and weirdness in Asami’s face moments ago).

Stairs. And gloomy Korra is back. She can’t even climb the stairs. How pathetic is that?! The mighty avatar. Talking about strong punch below the belt…it’s nothing compared to this.

Lin sympathizes with Korra. She could not save her benders from Amon. Had her bending taken. She also understands how Korra feels. And this is the only time we see Lin looking at Korra with these or similar feelings.

Asami appreciates both Lin’s help and her support. The more, the better? Not sure. But it seems, that Asami thinks, that Korra needs to feel that nobody is pushing her. That everybody understands and let’s her take her time. So, maybe, eventually Korra will let herself take care a bit about herself after feeling all that care from others.


(I can’t get enough of the animation in this show. Everything is so thought through to the slightest detail. This is the best show nick has or had. And, if they won’t show any avatar series, will have.)

And also, notice how the characters are placed. Lin, Su, Pema, Bolin, Mako and Raiko-ass is on the left. Bumi, Kya, Zuko, Tonraq, Senna, Asami and Korra is on the right. Asami stands with the family members next to Korra. Not with the friends. Even though Mako was Korra’s first love and Bolin was the her first friend in Republic city. It’s Asami who stands next to Korra.

What is more, Asami is standin on Korras right (not the first time!!!!!) and also closer to her than her father. This means that of all the people present at the temple, Asami is the most important person to Korra. The closest one.


So poor writing? NO WAY!!!!! That was a great writing! Very subtle, delicate. Great writing! We need to see more of those and not some: “i love you.” and: “let’s have sex” on the second date.


(Sorry for the lack of synonyms and repetitions - english is not my native language, so the smell of lack of expressiveness might be felt. Nevertheless, i hope you enjoyed it! ;) )