First off, Anon. Your IP address has been blocked, so you may or may not see this reply. Secondly though, thank you for that compliment- the ability to “churn” out content I don’t particularly like myself, and still get good feedback on it, must suggest I have some semblance of talent for creative writing- especially since I’ve got very little practical experience pertaining to sexual intimacy. I. however, have probably see more “real life” than you have by the age of 23, than you have in your entire existence. So for me to be comfortable with writing triggering content, you have to think: wow, what has this woman been witness to, to be able to write such content?
I’ve seen Hell on Earth. I see it, everyday.
I don’t see how my hard work every evening writing content for this fandom is discouraging to other writers and harmful. If you want to be “liked” on the premise you believe I am, then go ahead and “churn” out versatile content like I do. I don’t write the same fanfiction in different formats, I don’t take anyone else’s ideas as my own, I open requests regularly and write what my readership want to read.
How do I sleep at night? I dunno Anon, I just do? I have a chronic illness, and serious diagnosed mental health issues as of late last year, which I function with on a high level on a day to day basis because I’m saving lives and helping people. Every day.
I don’t think you have any say in solely deciding who gets to be a “popular writer” in this fandom. I never began writing to become “popular” anyways. Stay in your lane, Anon. Or better yet, if my block didn’t work for some reason or another, then come speak to me off Anon in my DMs.
NOTE TO ALL BEGINNER WRITERS/WRITERS WHO FEEL DISCOURAGED:
Honestly, I have been nothing but supporting of supposedly ‘smaller’ blogs. I honestly don’t give a crap about follower count, or notes, or anything like that. That’s not my intention or motivation to write everyday and post. Imagine if it was- I would have been burned out a long time ago.
Don’t let the type of content I write, or the amount of notes I get, or the people I interact with, make you feel like you’re not worth anything in this fandom. I’ve stated this many times before- I’m happy to read and reblog writing in this fandom from anyone to give signal boosts and encouragement. I’m happy to read anything. I’m happy to write anything. Every piece of fiction has its merits. Every piece of fiction has it’s downfalls. But all fiction is beautiful, and all fiction deserves to be shared and appreciated.
At the end of the day, if you enjoy your writing, others will enjoy it too.
And if you enjoy your writing, then you will also be satisfied with it. You will not seek validation through the amount of messages you get in your inbox, through how many likes you get on your posts, and especially not through how many followers you have on your blog.
If you’re writing and posting for notes or following- you’re posting for the wrong reasons. It’s going to mess with you, and you’ll become bitter, as this Anon has. If your aim was to upset me, and get me to leave again, and stop producing content or something- it didn’t work.
I’ve grown a tough skin from all the abuse I have tolerated on this website. I’ve come back under different aliases, even in my absence as themissimmortal to continue producing content for the fandom that I love. I’ve come back this time, to have a good time with writing, and to stay in touch with some lifelong friends. No amount of Anon Hate you, or any others, throw at me will have me leave again. I’ve written over 300 pieces of writing for this fandom, and I do not plan on stopping. I do not plan on limiting the scope of my writing to address this Anon’s ‘concerns’ about how I gained my following.
Writing on Tumblr has helped me spread my wings, and has given me some semblance of confidence in my choice creative art of writing. I know I am not the best, and I wonder every day why people are reading my works. I am bombarded by the same insecurities everyone who posts on Tumblr is. When I post a piece, I have no real expectations regarding how “good” the stats look on the post.
And that’s why, this time around, I’m happy to be here on Tumblr- writing for this crazy, but largely lovely community. Anon, while you have not truly upset me with your largely narrow-minded words (sorry, there really is no other way to describe your comments- it really only seems like you’re focussed solely on stats), you have struck a chord within me.
This was the reason I left in the first place. I was getting hate for indulging in a hobby that I finally had the time for. I was getting hate for doing something I enjoyed. I was made to feel bad, and discouraged to the point that I still think (a lot of the time) that people only follow me or interact with me because they are obligated to, or are just way too nice for their own good.
While these insecurities continue to plague me, I will not bend.
I will continue to write what I want to write. I will continue to write what readers have requested I write. I will continue to challenge myself in my art, and I will continue to have a good time doing so.
If you have a problem with this, please unfollow and block me.
This type of Anon Hate is intolerable, and wholly unacceptable. You’re the one being discouraging and harmful- not me.
So please stop before you actually end up upsetting someone with your salt-laced words.