I love you.
I’ll love your hands, no matter if they’re stained with red or black. I’ll still love you when you wake trembling, screaming as you are now with your hands around my throat. I’ll love the way your fingers are around my neck and the way you are the one reminding me how dear every breath is. Call me mad, but I’ll love the way you make me choke, and I’ll love you even more as you breathe into me when the shadows pass you the moment our eyes meet again.
I loved you before as a shattered piece not belonging to the rest of the puzzle. I will love you even more now, because there is beauty in your scars and there are stories I still have yet to hear from your lips embedded between the lines of your palms.
I will love you sane or insane, because I am neither sane or insane.
I will love you on the ledge, and I will love you as you lose balance in your feet. And I will definitely love you as you fall into my arms after the fall, and I’ll love you as I murmur by your ear, “that fall wasn’t so bad, was it?”
I will love you when I open the door and find you by the sink, the water running and wasting away as you try to cleanse something I cannot see with my eyes but view only through my heart and in the way your hands jitter helplessly in my own palms. I will love you all over again as I kiss each of your fingers, and dare not dip my hands into the running water besides us. I will love you as I touch all over your hands with the desire to share the red with you, because what’s yours is mine and what is mine is yours.
I will love you surely and slowly, especially when I see the way you were never whole to begin with the moment their hands had way with you. I will love you and remind you that is okay to not be whole, because I will complete you in the hollow spaces of your body which you cannot fill as a single, breathing soul.
I have loved you because it was you all along. I love you because it is still you, all along. I will love you because it will always be you, all along.
I have loved, I love and I will love | j.k.