Thoughts about Yoo Kihyun and his fans. 1837 words.
He looks himself from the mirror when he thinks you
don’t see him. There’s a dim light in the hallway wall, illuminating
the room with a soft, dark orange, creating deep shadows on his face.
He puffs out his chest and takes a pose, but then exhales and moves
closer, inspecting his face. He tries different angles, different
expressions. He pouts, he grins, he bites his bottom lip. He squints
his eyes, trying to look sexy. He pokes the pimples on his neck, just
behind his jawbone. He ruffles and combs his hair and finds himself
disappointed with every position his hair takes. He steps back, and
after looking himself up and down, lifts up his shirt and feels his
flat stomach with his palm, tensing his muscles to see if there’s any
progress. You can’t see what he sees, but as he lets his shirt fold
back to its original place, there’s a sigh coming through his nose.
Suddenly he’s tiptoeing, measuring the view from the mirror with this
Then he comes down and stops moving, and just looks. For
a long time, like he was petrified by his own reflection.
Something itches the back of your leg, and you lift your
other foot to scratch it. You pop a joint, and your place in the
darkness is revealed. His eye-contact with his reflection breaks, and
he turns. His eyes meet you, and there’s a short pause there too.
But he smiles, lets out an awkward puff of air through
his mouth and grabs his left arm with his right hand, trying to
protect himself. He’s embarrassed, and there’s a small tilt in his
head, as if he was afraid you would walk up to him and whack his
head. Without speaking, he switches his weight from one leg to
another, and then leaves, slipping into the darkness. You hear his
bare feet stick to the floor with every step, and then he’s gone.
Christian is the kind of actor that throws things at you, things that aren’t written in the scene that really end up helping you a lot. In the scene on the cliff where I’m crying, I didn’t even know that I was going to be crying that much in that scene, it just kind of happened in the first take. It was because of the help from Christian and how he was doing it with me. He cares so much and gives it so much passion. He hugs Clay at the end of that scene but that wasn’t written in the scene. Christian just did that and it’s those little things that he would do. At the end of episode 9 where I’m freaking out and kicking my bike and then I sit down and play tape 10, and he comes over and sits next to me — that wasn’t in the script either. He just does these things that end up taking these scenes to the next level and makes you care about their friendship so much more. - Dylan Minnette