idk why i wasted time doing this

  • steve: you wrote about me
  • bucky: I don't know what you're talking about
  • steve: you pulled me out of the river
  • bucky: idk why I did that
  • steve: you nearly killed tony because he hurt me. you actually roared like an angry pigeon or something
  • bucky: I don't like him
  • steve: you tried to pull me behind the shield when I was covering you with it
  • bucky: I didn't mean to do that
  • steve: you remembered my shoes and the hotdogs but not that girls name
  • bucky: I have memory problems that's all
  • steve: you left our dates because I ran off, didn't even apologize
  • bucky: your date would've wondered where you went, I found you for her
  • steve: you lied and told me you only knew me because of the smithsonian because you wanted to protect me, to make me go
  • bucky: blame the brochure
  • steve: you made me share an apartment with you
  • bucky: I needed someone to do the dishes
  • steve: you kept my picture
  • bucky: memory problems remember?
  • steve: you didn't like it when I kissed sharon, I can tell your fake smile from your real one
  • bucky: you were wasting valuable time
  • steve: you put yourself back into cryo so I'd stop being reckless and not become a criminal just to keep you
  • bucky: I was tired
  • steve: you made a vow, told me you'd be with me until death
  • bucky: idk why I did that
  • steve: you interrupted my moment with peggy because you were jealous
  • bucky: you deserved applause and attention for your bravery
  • steve: you fell from the train because you were protecting me
  • bucky: wasn't my smartest move
  • steve: you gave me heart eyes at the bar in '43
  • bucky: I was drunk
  • steve: we shared money and everything else like...a couple
  • bucky: it was convenient
  • steve: you're in love with me
  • bucky: yes
  • steve: what
  • bucky: what

anonymous asked:

Top underrated relationships in Naruto?

Well I think underrated can mean two things. 1.) Not explored as thoroughly as it deserved in canon or 2.) slept on by the fans and not appreciated enough for what it was. A few examples of both: 

Naruto/Sakura - So hear me out on this one. Obviously NS has a pretty decent following so this may seem like a confusing inclusion but I do think their friendship is under appreciated. It almost seems like the only people interested in their relationship are those that want them to be together romantically, and anyone who doesn’t ship them doesn’t really care about their interactions. Sakura is such an important person to Naruto and vice versa, outside of any romantic narrative, not enough people care about this. 

Kakashi/Gai - speaks for itself T B H 

Tsunade/Jiraiya - I mean, I have a lot of issues with the way Jiraiya was portrayed in the manga but their relationship wasn’t one of them. Their conversation before Jiraiya left Konoha for the last time really struck me - I mean Tsunade would have died for him in a heartbeat. 

Naruto/Shikamaru - It’s taboo to say anyone but Sasuke is Naruto’s best friend but I honest to god think Shikamaru and Naruto are better “friends” in the traditional sense than whatever you would call what Sasuke and Naruto have. Also special shoutout to Choji/Shikamaru in part 1 who were very flawless. 

Sand sibs - Tbh sand sibs really isn’t that underrated by the fandom but considering how much potential it had the manga really didn’t give it the attention it deserved. Gaara was one of the most popular characters and while his initial change was sparked by Naruto you cannot honestly tell me his siblings weren’t responsible for helping him through the majority of his journey to the light side. This is obviously my bias peeking through but I love them so idc.

Tobirama/Hashirama - I understand why people don’t pay much attention to this cause it was only really covered in one arc but I really enjoyed it? Their dynamic is pretty comedic at times but there’s a lot of fucked up history between them that’s interesting to explore as well. 

Anyway let me know if I missed anybody. There were a lot I wanted to put on here but I couldn’t decide if I would consider them underrated or not. 

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Ain’s Teaser Image, edited with proper translation that doesn’t suck

Hear me, O creations of Ishmael:
I was nothing but a single mass of light,
before the will of God had reached me.

Divine were the words that granted my form,
and sacred was the mission my eyes opened to:
“Thou shalt bestow energy on the weakened El.”

To be born in the realm of God is to live by the words of God;
I shall heed the call and accept the mission,
to fulfill my purpose and return to the heavenly realm.

I say again,
By the sacred mission I have descended upon this land;
My will is God’s will, and my existence is God’s wish.

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I adore how people are just so salty about the nick tmnt. It’s getting to the point to where it’s funny. Like the kind that’s stupid. That kinda funny. Like god forbid people actually enjoy the damn cartoon for once. Shit.

anonymous asked:

can we get more frat boy Shiro headcanons pls 😭😭😭 they're so good ughhhhkhghkjg

SINCE YOU ASKED SO NICELY I WANT TO DELIVER!!!!!!!

  • Shiro once tried to do the prank to the sorority with ordering them like 50 pizzas and was so stoned he actually paid for it with his credit card. 
    • Then when he realized he sucked at the prank, he asked them if he could go over for a slice and they thought his attempt at the prank was so sad they let him have some
  • One time while playing darts, he got hit with one in the shoulder and didn’t even realize it until hours later
  • Shiro rocks the tanks + snapback look 
    • At first he was a lil self conscious because of his scars (still has the prosthetic and the scars from some accident he was in) but his frat bros were very supportive
  • Being one of the older members, he takes on the position of frat older bro pretty easily. Will definitely be the one on the grill using his Dad Voice™ during bbq night
  • Ridden a mechanical bull for the longest of the frat and didn’t throw up. The absolute madman. 
  • Is the record party thrower. Once made a single night party a 3-nighter barely trying 
  • Has taped two big ass 40 oz beers to his hands 
    • Matt: Dude, why would you do that to your hands?
      Shiro: Easy access.
      Matt, laughing: What if you need to pee?
      Shiro: I’ll think of it… when I think of it. 
      Matt: My hero.
  • Shiro has definitely climbed onto a bar a la coyote ugly when he gets wasted. Probably also has fallen off said bar, but he likes to think of the fun times.
The Riverdaily Rundown - 08/23/17

Alright, homebros. The fandom has been blessed with more content, and I have been blessed with an extra hour of sleep, so let’s make this rundown a good one, aye?

3. 2. 1. Go!


So we got a new poster! Yep. A new poster. Normally, I wouldn’t be so excited for just a poster, but we’ve pretty much been starved this hiatus. It’s like throwing a chicken nugget at a captive T-Rex. Will it excitedly eat the damn chicken nugget even though it really wants a couple freshly fried dinos instead? Yes. 

Actually, scratch that. I don’t think a T-Rex could pick up a chicken nugget.

You get the point though, we’re taking whatever we can get at this point. The more excited we act, the less pain we feel on the inside.

Which means that I was happy dancing when I saw the new poster. Here’s a cool comparison of the season 1 and season 2 posters! (x) @sprouseharts


Now that we’ve all taken the time to appreciate the new content, it’s time to do what Tumblr does best: roast the content.

This poster, man. This poster makes me ashamed of myself. It makes me ashamed to be so excited over it because damn. Just damn. 

I can’t even bring myself to say it, but I’m sure someone can. Like maybe Cole? 

Yeah, Cole roasted the shit out of this poster on Twitter. (x) @itstenafterfour

All I’ve been thinking about all day is how bad that poor employee must feel. Cole Sprouse roasted their work. But then I thought harder, and I realized that maybe that dude didn’t have it so bad. I mean, at least Cole acknowledged their existence. 

Headcanon: It was the dude’s intention all along to make an ugly poster. This is all a part of their master plan for World Domination.


Lili Reinhart once again blessed us with a lovely Insta Story. Why is it lovely you ask? Because Lili is in it. Do you even need to ask that question, or do you just choose to waste everyone’s time?

If I was still alive, Lili Reinhart would be murdering me right now. Luckily, I am not alive and am not being murdered. I cannot continue to afford these ghost lawyer bills.

Check out these gifs of her doing awkward shit. (awkward in a good way). (x) @lilirenhart

Lili is also great at teasing us. Is that a good thing? Idk. All I know is that she posted a picture to her insta story, and now I want a brooding boyfriend, two milkshakes, and Jesus H. Christ. (x) @elizabthcoopr


A couple of other Riverdale cast members blessed us with their presence on insta stories, today.

KJ decided to post a close-up video of his face for us to enjoy. (x)  @imppanppan

It’s actually a critically acclaimed short film now. Some reviews include,

“It was riveting, compelling, heartbreaking. It made me feel deep emotions I never knew existed.” - Zac Efron (probably)

“The very last brooding look he threw at the camera brought a single tear to my eye. This truly is a compelling story that will go down in the ages as a classic.” -Barack Obama

“I have died for the world’s sins. I am glad to see that this death has been put to good use. Amazing performance by KJ Apa. He will be guaranteed a spot in Heaven. See you later, buddy. JC out! *mic drop*” - Jesus H. Christ

“ *reenacts a meme* lol. nerd.” - @lilireinhart

We were also blessed with an oddly erotic video of Charles Melton brushing his teeth. I don’t know how I feel about it, and I’m not sure what that says about me as a person… (x) @imppanppan

Madchen also gave us a cute story showing her and Lili getting her tattoos covered up. Personally, I want to see the show throw a random serpent tattoo somewhere on Alice’s body. #neverforgetyourfamilyalice (x) @sprousehartinvestigation


Cole Sprouse posted a weird joke on Twitter again. In case you haven’t noticed, he’s weird. He’s a weirdo. He doesn’t fit in, and he doesn’t wanna fit in. (x) @ruverdale (x) @samantha-with-grace

It’s cool, Cole. We get your internet humor. And if we don’t? Well, we like you enough to laugh anyway.


Fans are also freaking out because RAS has named the 8th episode of Season Two, House of the Devil. (x) @hobooutsider

Why can’t you just be nice to us, RAS? Why can’t you just let our characters be happy. Why House of the Devil. Why couldn’t it be House of the Butterflies!


We got to see the other side of the camera duels battle. Sprousehart fans are having a field day because it seems as though Lili is in the passenger seat of the car. I’m not sure, everytime I try to sneak a peek I get distracted by Cole’s hair. #luscious #patenecommercial? #killme (x) @rarecolesprouse @ruverdale

If it is Lili, though, that confirms that she does, in fact, ride shotgun in cars on occasions. I don’t know how to handle that news, honestly. It’s blowing my mind dynamite!


NOW HERE IS A SHIT TON OF CONTENT!

Gifs! (x) @icegrill (x) @veronicadvalle (x) @patylu18 (x) @archieronniegifs

Textposts! (x) @itstenafterfour 

Aesthetics! (x) @protectjugheadjonesiii (x) @jarchiedale (x) @theshaggingwagon

Fan art! (x) @katherinewinchester (x) @gogenevieveart

Pictures! (x) @betty-and-jughead (x) @jarchiedale (x) @ellabeth01 (x) @sprouseharts

Fan Videos! (x) @leaalda


I lied earlier. I didn’t get an extra hour of sleep, and now I am exhausted. 

It’s all worth it to keep your smiling faces smiling, though. Except I can’t see them. So maybe it’s not worth it…

Night, homies. *Pssssst! Ignore the typos. I’m dead.*

anonymous asked:

why don't you draw ships that you don't ship?

Why don’t people who don’t like ice cream eat ice cream? Why don’t people who don’t like snakes have a snake as a pet? Why don’t people who don’t like latex trousers wear latex trousers? Why don’t people who don’t like westerns watch westerns? Because it doesn’t bring them joy and satisfaction, they don’t want to force themselves to do something only for someone else’s pleasure, wasting their free time for things they don’t feel happy doing. Sometimes you have to do something you don’t like because you have no choice, it’s normal, but I have a choice and I don’t want to draw ships I have absolutely no heart for. So I choose not to draw them. Isn’t it like… obvious?

Y'all mind if I

Rainy Days and Teacups [Tom Holland Smut]

Requests: “Tom smut, where reader (or whoever) breaks up with her BF and runs over to Tom’s apartment so he can comfort her since they’ve been friends for years. Tom comforts her in more ways than possible after they confess their feelings for each other ;)” Anonymous
“694 + Tom Holland ;) literally cannot get enough.” Anonymous (from this drabble list)

Word Count: 2.4k+ ( I have no control)

Rating: M (explicit)

Trigger Warnings: Angst, unsafe sex, smut, break up??

A/N: I hope it is oke that i joyned these two requests, if any of you want me to do it separately I can totally write another one. Also this is a lot of plot, idk why i wasted so much time into this but the real smut is under a break.


You hesitated. Your fist a few inches away from Tom’s door. You took a deep breath and knocked.

“Coming” You heard his voice from the inside. You hoped the droplets of rain on your face would hide the tears on your eyes.

The door opened to reveal your best friend on a hoodie and loose sweat pants.

“Hey.” He said. “Victoria, you alright?” Tom looked worried as soon as you pulled the hood of your jacket back from your head, revealing your face swollen by crying.

You shook your head. “Can I come in?” You asked, your voice a mere whisper.

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Strange Love // Lip Gallagher (part one)

Strange Love // Lip Gallagher (part one)

*beep* text message from Lip :P:
Meet me at mine, no one’s home so I need some company x

You read the text message from Lip and rolled your eyes.

text message to Lip :P:
I live next door. You couldn’t have come to the door and asked me you lazy shit?

*beep* text message from Lip :P:
Soz bub you know how lazy I am. Now come over :(

text message to Lip :P:
fine. be there in 30 seconds.

You giggled as you sent that message. You grabbed your favourite jacket and walked outside to the usually loud and crowded house next door that your best friend lived in. You didn’t bother knocking on the door, you just walked straight in and went upstairs to Lip’s room.

“35 seconds Y/N. I’m not impressed.” Lip teased.

“I can leave ya know?” You raised your eyebrow in a joking manner.

“No don’t!” He yelled as he grabbed you by the waist and pulled you onto his bed. “I want cuddles from my best friend.” He pouted. You laughed at his clinginess before curling into a ball so Lip could wrap his large body around yours.

“Can I ask you something?” Lip asked.

“Sure.” You replied kind of nervous. He flipped you around so you were facing him.

“Will you go on a date with me?”

“What?” You choked. “U-um I can’t.”
“Y/N no. Please you ca-“

“Stop.” You ran your hands through your hair. “I’m sorry Lip. I can’t.”

“What are you talking about?” He said, tears threatening to spill.

“I have to go Phillip.” You said using his full name which took him by surprise. You never do that.

You ran out of his room and downstairs, then straight out the front door. You wanted to go back home but you knew that Lip would go looking for you so you ran to the park nearest to your house.

You got to the park and started thinking about anything and everything.

I constantly worry no one will love me and I don’t quite know why. All of my past boyfriends have either cheated or left after two or more months of being together. Is it something that I’m doing or have done? Am I too clingy? Too ugly? Who knows.

Lip’s my best friend. I can’t date my best friend. He’ll end up leaving too. I can’t lose my best friend even if he was to be my boyfriend. Although, Lip would make a good boyfriend. My friend Mandy used to have a thing with Lip, she always went on about how great he was and how he treated her like the only girl in the world. I’m sure she’d be fine with me dating him right? Wait what am I thinking about… I’m not dating Lip.

Lip’s P.O.V.

I sat on my bed with my head in my hands thinking about how much I fucked up.

Y/N’s my best friend, I can’t lose her. Maybe I came on too strong. I should’ve just eased into it like told her how I feel and then asked her, maybe that would’ve worked. It’s too late now. Maybe I waited too long. What if she had feelings for me before? I shouldn’t have wasted my time on Mandy.

No. Mandy was an amazing girlfriend. Y/N was the one leading me on! It’s her fault she was telling me she needed me and that she loved me… she could’ve just told me the truth ya know? I still love her though… whether it be as a friend or as a girlfriend… I need to talk to her.

-cliffhanger cause why not. part two should be up soon-ish idk lol-

-this was requested: Hi! Can you do a Lip Gallagher imagine kinda based off of Dive by Ed Sheeran? Like where the reader is best friends with Lip and has had a few boyfriends/flings in the past few years but they always end up leaving within a month or two. And then Lip tells reader that be has feelings for them but reader is hesitant about it because of all the other guys. No rush. :)-

Mystic messenger as phrases I heard at university

Jumin: “I signed up for classes, not for asses so you can go out and bang all the girls you want I’ll be here getting my degree.”

707: “Who told you to be sad, we agreed to be sad together. Do schedules mean nothing to you people?”

Yoosung: “I hear screaming can burn calories, is that why I’ve lost a lot of weight recently?”

V: “I have two moods, either showing up late or not showing up at all.

Saeran: "I’m not a bad person, I’m just picky and when I say ‘don’t fucking talk to me.’ I’m just saving my time, the time that you’re trying to waste.”

Don’t ever let anyone tell you transformative work is a waste of time.

Honest to god I am so sick of hearing from people that “fanfiction isn’t real writing” and “headcanons are stupid; what’s canon is canon and you can’t change that” and “why are you looking so deep into it so what if there’s subtext it doesn’t mean anything” so I’m gonna tell a story:

When I did theatre in high school, one of the plays we did was Our Town by Thornton Wilder. It’s one of the great American classics; every high school theatre program has probably done it several times, every actor has been in it, read it, seen it, or at least heard of it at some point in their lives. It’s a pretty well known and established piece of literature. So. For those of you who are not familiar with the piece, there is a character called the Stage Manager who serves as a narrator, to provide background information about Grover’s Corners and its inhabitants and to keep the story moving. This character interacts very little with the other characters and speaks in long monologues, some taking up several pages of the script. When my director decided to produce the play, he figured that the Stage Manager had too many lines for a high school actor to memorize, so he split the role into two. The aim was to cast one boy and one girl and to divide the lines up evenly between them. Aside from the fact that there would now be two actors narrating instead of one, nothing would change.

Then, once the rehearsal process began, we started to play. The actors developed a dynamic together that couldn’t be ignored, and somewhere along the line we began to throw around the idea of the two of them being actual characters, rather than some unknown, omniscient being on the stage. We dug deep into the monologues–lines that Wilder had written for no purpose other than to provide information about a fictional town–and found moments that revealed who our stage managers were in the narrative. Eventually we decided on the two of them being a married couple who had lived in the town. We found opportunities for them to turn their narration into a banter, and for them to reveal the love they held for each other and for their town. When we got to the third act of the play, which is set in a graveyard where many of the characters from the previous two acts are buried, we decided to cement this idea with an action that was not written in the script. The play was done in an interpretive manner, so the graveyard was created by having actors sitting on the floor, representing their own gravestones. At the very end of the play, the two stage managers looked at each other, held hands, then sat down together on the stage floor. The narrative was complete; the stage managers were a married couple who had lived and died in Grover’s Corners, and were telling a story that had happened in the town.

The point is, we took a text written in 1938 and put our own unique spin on it based on the transformative thinking skills of everyone involved. We essentially took a headcanon and turned it into a story told entirely in subtext that fit within the canon of the play without changing a single word of the script. We analyzed the text for things that weren’t there, we created meta from those monologues and used it for our canon-compliant fanfic of the play, which we put on stage and called Our Town. The story we told about the stage managers wasn’t there until we pulled it from the text, put there unintentionally by Thornton Wilder and brought to life by a group of imaginative high schoolers.

So yeah, if you want to be a professional writer, you will eventually have to learn to create characters and settings and plots on your own; but aside from that, creating transformative work can give you a unique set of skills that you can use in any situation. Lots of people who try to accept transformative work as valid will treat it like a stepping stone to “real writing,” but they ignore the merits of transformative work alone. Whether you make fanart or fanfic or fanvid, whether you write detailed meta or short headcanons, you are learning to think analytically and creatively. Transformative work is defined as looking at something and imagining it a different way, and that mindset, that way of thinking is important pretty much anywhere you go in life.

So if anyone tells you transformative work is a waste of time, give them a play and ask them to tell a story that’s not in the script. They couldn’t do it, but I bet you could.

anonymous asked:

How do you stay so chill? Idk if you're like this irl as well (if not whoops) but I guess you can say I'm kinda very hamilton. Hot headed. Stubborn. Any personal tips or things you do not to get mad or annoyed with someone?

remember that Everything Literally Doesn’t Matter and ask yourself why you should waste your energy on some petty stuff

Chentember Project 2017

Hi guys, this is Fran from @kirnjongdaemn and I’m back with a birthday project for Kim Jongdae. This time I want to do things better. 
The project we did last year (and I say we, because of all the beautiful Jongdae stans that participated) was an unforgettable moment, at least for me. The Jongdae cult/community joined to share the happiness that he brings to our lifes and celebrated together during all September, especially during his birthday, on 21st of said month. There were a lot of new friendships formed, new reasons to love him and to love being part of this standom. 
However, it was rushed: a lot of people wasn’t able to participate and the final product was made for me, who is definitely not talented video-editing or editing in general.  In all honesty, Jongdae fans are just as amazing as him, and for that reason I want to try a new project this time that matches the affability, the kindness, the conviviality and the good nature of his fans. I want to keep the community united. 

So this is my idea, and I invite you to participate from it (if you like it, of course).

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Fear

- Bobby x reader

- Angst (ish) + happy ending.

- Your friendship with Bobby got too complicated for comfort. You decided to end thing because you can’t handle the stress and confusion any longer.

-Masterlist

Originally posted by verygood-climax


- “I’ll see you in a bit. I just got out of practice, gonna head home and shower first. Unless you prefer my au naturale scent.”

- “Gross, can you please shower… I shared a tent with you at camp. I wanted to die.”

Being Bobby’s best friend pretty much mean your apartment is his. Whether it be getting away from the boys, wanting to sleep alone, quiet space for working, or just chilling. Having him over so often wasn’t anything strange anymore. After more than once finding him sitting outside your doors waiting for you to get home from work, you just gave him a key.

- “If you fucking bring girls here, i will end you. Just remember, I know all your dirty secrets.”

- “You act like i’m a diary or something. Do I look like that kind of person to you? smh…”

- “Hey i see you be flirting with girls. desperate time calls for desperate measure. Hanbin would probably kill you if you bang some random girl in your dorm.”

- “Yes, mom. I won’t bring girls over.”

You didn’t start out having a crush on him, not even remote interest. However, as he spend more and more time with you, something changed. His action slowly becoming more sweet and meaningful. Whether it’s just him reminding you to eat, or giving you his jacket during cold days. Slowly his care tug at your heartstring and crushing turn into love. You’ve managed to hidden it well thus far. The frustrating part is you don’t even know if you’re special or this is how he’s usually is with girls. Other than the boys, he never brings you around any of his other friends. He does talks about girls but you never had the pleasure of meeting any of them. There were times where he brought you to parties but he stay by your side the whole time. Being possessive or protective is just something in his nature. He doesn’t let you out of his sight for one second, no guys can come within arm length of you. At this point however, you’d rather not risk a great friendship. Usually you’d come home and find him already lounging around your house. Today was one of those rare day you’re actually home before he comes over. You had some time to spare so you cooked up a meal knowing he’d be starving after practice.

- “Honey, I’m homeeee!!!”

- “STFU will you. How many time did i tell you to stop calling me honey.” you call out from the bedroom.

- “Fine! Did you cook babe? it smells so good.” he walks in the bedroom and jump on your bed.

- “Bobbyyyy NO. stop giving me pet names. if you want your dinner to be safe, stop this instance.”

He has a really bad habit of calling you names that make you dream he was serious about you. He chases you into the kitchen to try and save his meal. You just laugh and follow the crazy boy. After eating pretty much 85% of all the food and chatting your ears off, he slumps onto the couch to watch TV. He insisted on helping you clean up but seeing how tired he was, you shooed him off. 

- “I have that new movie  you wanted to watch. Are you planning on staying over?”

- “OMG YESH. You’re the best. If you don’t mind, can I? I just spent 18 hours with Hanbin. constant yelling for 18 hours. 18!!! if i see him for another minute i’ll have nightmare.”

- “Haha, you know he means well. Couch or bed?”

Of course he’d choose the bed. He’s a little too comfortable in your home that it seems like it’s really his apartment and you’re the guest. At first he’d offer to sleep on the couch or the floor. Following one particularly hard day at practice, he hurt his back and was dying in pain. You felt so bad and told him to come sleep on the bed. He refused at first but eventually gave in. Ever since then, he doesn’t even ask to share the bed anymore. Even with the close proximity, nothing ever happen except for innocent sleep. There was an actual barrier make out of pillows and blanket between the  two of you, always. After putting in the movie, he situates himself flat on his belly, head sideway facing toward the TV.

- “Massage pleaseeeee.” he whines loudly.

- “Are you serious? you take over my apartment, then i have to cook for you, and then clean up. Now you want massage. WTF?”

- “Pretty please, my whole back ache. I told you, i’ve been practicing for like 3 days straight. Please.”

- “Ugh, fine”

Hopping onto his back, legs straddling his sides, you begin to work your magic on him. His broad shoulders relax as his whole body melts onto the bed. Hands running over his smooth skin, fingers grace over the dimples on his shoulders’ muscles, a bit of sadness comes over you. You realize some day this would end time come when either one of you get a love interest. It’s all fun and game to you two but outsider might not fondly share the same view. This day might actually come sooner than you’d wanted. You had decided to give up on loving Bobby.

- “Omg, you should do this professionally. You’re so good babe.”

- “What did i tell you about calling me that?” 

You dig your elbow onto his back causing him to yelp out a loud apology.

- “Jeez, you’re so mean. I’m just playing.”

He lays back down and resumes his focus on the movie. You hesitantly speak up.

- “Can I tell you something?”

- “Uhmm.”

- “I actually agree to go grab a drink with Jason tonight…”

Still focusing on the movie, it almost feels like he’s ignoring. All of the sudden, he pushes your legs and gesture for you to get off. Thinking he’s mad, you scoot away to give him some room. Before you got too far away though, his arm wraps around your waist and pull you to lay down with him. Relaxing yourself into being his little spoon, you shed a tear knowing this feeling will cease to exist soon. Just like that most of the movie passed with him holding you tight. When there was 30 minutes left to the movie and the clock ticks 9:30, you whisper to him.

- “Hey, I have to get ready to go meet Jason…” you words cut off by a loud sigh.

- “Do you have to leave so soon?” His arms still tight around you.

- “What’s wrong? you’re never this clingy. Did something happen between you and the boys? or at home? Is your family okay?”

- “It’s nothing… i don’t know.”

You get a bad vibe from his behaviors and keep pressing for answer. Could he have heard a gossip about your potential new boyfriend? You did meet the guy through him.

- “No, Jason is a good guy. He’s actually would be a good fit for you…There’s nothing wrong with him.”

- “Then how come i’m getting the feeling that you don’t want me to go. If you don’t want me to go, i won’t go. It’s just a date, i’m not marrying the guy.”

- “Go, have fun on your date. I’ll probably head back to the dorm later…”

You’re now super uneasy at his words and action. He’s telling you to leave but his body is telling you to stay. You pull out of his arm and sit up to look at him.

- “Jiwon… you know i can tell if you’re lying right? what’s wrong?”

- “Nothing… just go”

Did you hear it wrong? Was the TV too loud? His words sounded like they were resisting on coming out of his throat as he chokes them up.

- “Jiwon… come on. Tell me.” You try your best to meet his gaze but he just shift it else where. “Fine, if you won’t say it to my face then just whisper it in my ear.”

You get back into being his tiny spoon and force him to wrap his arms around you once more. 

- “I… I just really don’t want you to go…” 

- “Why?”

- “I can’t do this… uh, shit… I, never mind.”

- “You know what? I can’t do this either… I’m leaving. Stay or go, whatever is fine with me.”

You were wiggling out of his hold when he grabs onto you super tight. One arm wraps around your chest, hand holding your shoulder. The other one snakes around your stomach. He presses his body as close to you as humanly possible and snuggle his face into your hair. 

- “I don’t want this to end, us to end.”

- “And what is this exactly? What is ‘us’?”

He practically struck you in the gut by saying that. For months now, for you it wasn’t as simple as best friends hanging out. You guys were practically in a relationship with none of the romance or obligation. You had a crush on Bobby, sure but it wasn’t anything serious. Lately, it’s getting harder for you to differentiate love from friendship.

- “…” Silence fell out of his mouth.

- “You don’t even know what this is, do you?” You were gradually getting frustrated. “Sometimes I wonder why you spend so much time here. You’re not a lonely guy. There’re tons of girls, and guys, that would kill to spend time with you but here you are. Day in, day out, wasting your time in this small average apartment with a completely average girl.”

- “IDK, you’re my best friend outside of the industry. I just want to spend time with you…What’s wrong with that? And you’re not average, stop thinking about yourself like that. Even if you were, what’s wrong with being average. I like you the way you are.”

- “Yes, i know we’re close but you literally spend all your free time here. Your phone blows up every time I see you. Sometimes I just sit and watch you make up bullshit excuses not to hang out with your other friends. I mean you literally was just sitting on my couch, not doing shit. So i really don’t know what this ‘us’ is that you’re referring to. What am I to you? a sister? substitute mom? shelter? What, Bobby.”

- “I.. I don’t know…” he stammers.

That only increases your frustration. All this confusion has to stop. When you’re with him, he has never made a move. The moment you want to see someone else he throws you in for a loop and got jealous? This is too much for your heart to handle so you decided to take your chance. What’s the worse that can happen? If things go south, at least you’ll have peace and can finally move on.

“To me, you’re the greatest person in this world. I had a strings of bad relationships, both romantic and platonic. I was betrayed, cheated on, stabbed in the back. For the longest i thought i was treated badly because i deserve it or that was the best i was gonna get. But you, you changed everything. You showed me how a proper relationship should be and made me better. You’re literally the ultimate best friend.  You showed me kindness. You picked me up when i was left wounded by my ex.You showed me a way out. That’s why I will walk through hell for you if you need me to. That’s why i’m your best friend. But fuck, lately it’s been so compilcated. You’re TOO kind to me that it make me soo confuse. You’d draw me into this whirlwind fantasy of thinking i might have a chance with you. You don’t even know how many time I got soo close to confessing to you but then… Then just when I was about to, you gushed hours on end about some girl that wouldn’t give you the time of day, WHILE laying in bed with me. I know these sleepover are purely because you need time away from your hectic life… But shit, it’s so vexing because right after you say craps like “don’t ever date or get marry because i need you”, you go and say friendzone shit to me. I can’t get mad Bobby… I can’t even get jealous when girls that are 10x prettier and more successful than me flirt with you. What right do i have to do that? I’m nothing when it comes to Bobby’s realm of love. That’s why i have to do this, i have to go on this date. I have to end this crazy confusing relationship of ‘us’… whatever ‘us’ is. I can’t keep getting string along like some doll. I don’t want to feel like some left over when you finally move on. I know it’s not your fault, it’s mine for falling for you. But i have to make things clear once and for all. Either you hold up your end of the friendzone bargain or just don’t see me anymore. At the end of the day, I’m nothing more than a comfort net for you and it breaks my heart. So, for the sake of my sanity and my heart… From this day on, i will stop loving you, Kim Jiwon.”

After a few minutes of quietness, you were sure it was done between you and him. His hold still tight, you couldn’t help but feel uncomfortable but there was no way of getting out. Just then, he starts to speak.

- “Please don’t do that… I don’t want you to see him or anyone else. I want you to myself, no other guys in this world can have you. You’re mine and i want to have the right to be selfish when it come to you. You’re wrong. You’re my everything and i prayed so hard that you’d look at me the same way. I can’t stand when you hang out with other guys, guys that would do anything to have you.Guys that can spend everyday with you instead of once in awhile because of some crazy schedule. I can’t help it but stand on the sideline and watch because you seemed so happy. I know I can’t give you all my time so I’d have to let someone else do that. I can’t even tell you how much i love you because i’m scare of losing you altogether. These past couple of months, i’ve been so happy that even the boys noticed. They kept asking me if i have a girlfriend and i love that you’re my secret. I wasn’t trying to string you along, i’m so sorry it came off that way. I was scare if you reject me, i’ll never be able to be in your life like this anymore. You always chase my loneliness away with your laughter and your warmth. One smile and i lose all my strength. I spent nights just watching you sleep, wishing you’d turn around and crawl into my arms. Now and then, I let my heart pretends like you’re my girlfriend… it hurt because you’re mine, but you’re not exclusively mine. I fear the day when you meet someone else and i’d have to let you go. Whenever I’m going to you and someone ask, I want so bad to tell them i’m going home to my girl. I wish i have the courage to tell you that sooner but it’s all too late now… You’re my perfect girl and i lost you because i waited too long.”

At his sweet, shy words, you roll back to face him. He has a painful expression on his face with a few tears stuck in his long eyelashes. Wiping the tears off him, you smile satisfyingly. 

- “I won’t go if you tell me not to… I only want to date so I can forget about you. I’ve been hiding my feeling for so long that I thought the only way to escape them was to let you go. I guess we both just fear rejection.” 

- “I don’t want you to go. I want you to stay home with me. If only I was more of a man and just come out with my feeling. I guess i’m not that good at hiding it… I’m really sorry for hurting you. It’s just you didn’t even show the slightest sign that you see me as more so I was scared” Hand move to stroke your cheeks softly.

- “It’s okay. You’re my man. Everything is just the way it should now… I love you, baby.” you reluctantly whisper, shy still from his confession.

- “I love you more.” he moves closer and places a kiss on your forehead, hands cupping your face.  “As your boyfriend, i forbid you to go on this nonsensical date. You are to stay home and let me hug you. Also, i thought you were allergic to pet name. what happened? ”

You laugh at his sudden boyfriend mode. You always knew he has a cute side but he rarely shows it. All this is so refreshing. 

- “You’re an idiot. I didn’t say i don’t like it, I just wanted you to stop calling me by those names. When you call me those things i wish i was more and it hurt that i couldn’t be. So i just yell at you when you do”

- “You are more, sooo much more. Well you’re gonna have to let me call you by whatever name I want now. Although, I think I like being call ‘baby’ more than ‘idiot’.”

- “Baby” you coo at him, cutting off his laugh.

- “hmm?”

- “I want to kiss you.”

He flashes the biggest smile you’ve ever seen before pulling your chin up and let his lips meet yours. You pull away and smile back at him. His long index reaches over and brushes a few hair strand away from your face.

- “What do you say you call Jason to cancel and we go out to celebrate?”

- “Can we just stay in? I don’t wanna leave your arm.” you whine and he place a haste kiss on your nose.

- “Okay. We’ll stay in for as long as you want if you promise to get rid of the sleep barrier. i don’t need to be cock block from my own girlfriend by a bunch of pillows. I mean, seriously. I couldn’t even “accidentally” cuddle you. I’d know, i tried, it doesn’t work. I hate those pillows so much. You always hug them too, i don’t like that either.”

- “Yes and yes. You’re so cute. I promise i will hug you more than the pillow.”

You giggle at his silliness before digging your face into his chest and letting yourself fall into his scent. He closes his eyes and let the feeling of you against him sinks in. Maybe it isn’t so bad to face your fear once in awhile.

anonymous asked:

I've met several people in my life who have tried to convince me that identifying as attracted to only women is somehow closeminded of me. :/ They try to say that gender shouldn't be a factor in attraction, and that the future should be filled with people date anyone regardless of gender presentation. Idk what to tell them other than why the fuck wont you just let me identify as a lesbian and leave it at that?

Don’t talk to people like that at all when you can help it tbh. It’s none of their business on the first place but I am certainly not gonna tell you that it’s your job to combat their homophobia. If you want to, then sure. But “everyone’s sexualitt is fluid/everyone’s sexuality is supposed to be like mine” types straight up do not believe that gay people exist. I would not waste my time convincing them.

I genuinely don’t understand why everyone is shitting on matpat?? Honestly?? Idk man I asked my sister and she said it was bc his theories were getting silly or smth but whatever the reason it’s just silly to shit on someone for having fun with something they enjoy doing. Yeah some of them are kind of silly and out there but the guys living his life so idk why waste time being bitter about someone else ya feel