idk why i just know that i cant

anonymous asked:

Why are you planning on leaving the fandom?

nothing here really excites me anymore. im glad i made friends and stuff its just..barely any content is being produced and i understand the boys cant pop out videos every second and i also know youtube is biting everyone in the ass but i.idk…jojis probably not gonna finish the lore it seems..max probably isnt going to upload any main channel vids anytime soon..ians doing his own thing…there will probably be little to none cc group vids at all anymore..idk..im just not feeling it as much anymore..

upgayde  asked:

yay !!! oh boy how do i even start,,,, you're so wonderful to everyone and even though you're such an amazing artist you're very supportive of other peoples' creations?? you're also super nice and pretty?? idk i just love you,, you're the Best tbh

upgayde disse para kagenes: OH and i forgot to say in my last ask that im super surprised that we actually talk sometimes,,,, it makes my heart hurt bc you’re the best and i still cant believe im actually friends with you :00

why are u surprised omg youre rly nice to talk to!!!! ;; kdfmkrt i don’t even know what to Respond to all of these compliments bc im just so Happy??fjfdd I WAS LITERALLY FEELING LIKE SHIT THESE DAYS but this made me feel so much better… djfrjgf and i love you too!!! thank you so much for being this nice to me, seriously ;; you guys are so sweet aaa

have you ever finished a book or show and just had the strongest longing to be a part of that universe, where you have special abilities like them and friendships like them, and sure life is hard there but you know you’re special, you’re valuable, and that everything will be okay in the end

Sometimes i miss book tumblr

the book tumblr from before all white people collectively started to freak out and harass everyone who pointed out ableism, lgbtqia-phobia, and racism. I keep wondering how this happened, how did this become a place where its cool and normal to tell friends to kill themselves when they point out flaws in your favorite book, and send your followers after everyone who published a negative review.
Like.
Were these people there all along and just waiting for fascism to make a comeback so they could act on their now socially acceptable bigotry?

Were all just book lovers, damn it. I dont understand why this community broke up over this. All people from back in the day have turned out to be undercover bigots or left the site entirely. I totally gave up on this place, too, after many fruitless and unappreciated tries to revive it.

I dont know why we cant just all get our shit together and just bite our tongue instead of telling people to kill themselves over fucking books.

I want book tumblr back. Seriously. Not everyone in here can be a bigot, there must be some good people left who feel the same way. I just want to talk about books, while acknowledging and pointing out dangerous content without having to fear for my life whenever I do.

But idk. Maybe book tumblr is just dead.

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Vader: [text] luke?? luke pls respond pls
Luke: i dont know what u want me to say
Vader: come back here and we can talk about it ill tell u everything
Luke: absolutelynot
Vader: im not the one who lied to u!!! that was obiwan!!! be mad at him i know i totally am!!!!!!
Luke: um u cut off my hand
Vader: ok so mistakes were made but also im ur dad and u were yelling at me 
Luke: 🙄
Vader: look just come here. the important thing is that obiwans dead and now that we both know the truth you and i can bond and i can explain all of it  
Luke: bens not dead u know
Vader: what
Luke: hes notdead. ive spoken to him. i mean hes not alive either though i think it’s sort of a greyarea
Vader: what the fuck are u talking about son did they give u a lot of pain pills 
Luke: i dont know what he did? but he’s like a ghost that can talk to me sometimes. with the force
Vader: he came back from the dead and he can talk to force users???
Luke: …apparently? anyways the next time i seethat guy hes getting an earful 
Vader: what ur suggesting isnt possible son. u cant cheat death. trust me.
Vader: also if obiwan was a ghost he’d come visit me first
Luke: look i dont knw what to tell u but ive heard and seen him. 
Vader: seriously? like it was really him?
Luke: omg why am i eventalking to u 
Vader: what did he say?
Luke: idk stuff about the force 
Vader: what else? did he mention me at all??
Luke: what is WRONG WITH YOU. youre trying to get me to join u and all u want to know is what ben’s ghost said about u???
Vader: im just curious!!!!!! im sorry but it literally makes no sense that hed talk to u first 
Luke: omfg
Luke: r u jealous??? 
Vader: no
Luke: right

So you know how in the comics Cisco can’t be properly photographed because of his powers? I can’t stop thinking about how that would play out on the show. Like one day years from now Cisco and Cindy are married and living together and their place is just filled with out of focus pictures of the two of them. And they have Barry and Iris over and Cisco picks up a frame to show off and he’s like “oh man this is probably my favorite picture of us” and Barry is like “um…its literally the same blurry mess as every other photo” and Cynthia comes in like “nah. this ones from our trip to hawaii” and she and Cisco are both smiling down at it like “good times good times” and Barry looks over at Iris all confused and she just shrugs back at him

anonymous asked:

So, what are the probabilities of jjp being real?

hmm….that’s a good question anon. because we don’t know what happens off camera or if something is just fanservice. And if they are real, we don’t know if they’re using fanservice as a cover!! It’s just really hard to tell, but I think that it is  real in a sense. They might just be extremely close friends since they’ve been together since JJProject, (which is a REALLY long time) and their close bond could get mistaken for love. But sometimes I feel like those lingering stares and those touches could mean something more??? (I did my research and found some gifs online to help me)

he stares at jinyoung’s lips for a while, as if he’s mesmerized (and last time I checked I don’t see friends staring at each other like that)

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Like I said, something like this could get mistaken for something more even though it’s probably fan service

but for some reason (cause I’m trash) I feel like certain moments are a little off?? like little actions that should be waved off as just being “friends” seems to have a lot more meaning to it than it should? Idk something about the way they interact doesn’t feel like “just friends”……it just doesn’t feel right

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I’m using a lot of gifs where they stare at each other because you cant hide emotion in your eyes. and the way its filled with so much love just….I don’t know. But if you focus on the way how they look at each other, touch each other, and smile at each other….I think you’ll know the answer if they’re real or not.

OK heres some adhd lance headcanons since i just Cant Resist

if this makes it way around i just wanna say: shaladins dont touch this post

ANYWAY

  • lance, staring at a wall of text: haha idk what in fresh hell this says
  • it takes him approximately 2 hours to do anything shiro asks him to bc of Executive Dysfunction
    • shiro: lance we need to form voltron
    • lance, 2 hrs later: ok sure
  • at any given moment he has upwards of 18 stim toys in his pockets. why else would  he need a jacket in space
  • his hyperfixation is cats
    • lance, over comms, while fighting a galra soldier: hey guys did you know that cats only meow to communicate with humans?
  • anytime someone mentions cats he Knows and he Appears so he can infodump
  • he gets distracted doing pretty much Anythign so he ends up putting his belongings in really weird places
    • found his shoes in the fridge once
    • “LANCE WHY ARE YOUR PANTS HANGING ON MY LION”
  • pidge: lance why are you chewing on your napkin
  • lance, completely oblivious: what
  • if he sees anything on the ground that Shouldnt Be There (coins/bottlecaps/etc) he Has to pick it up and will put it in his mouth unless someone takes it from him
    • he gets sick a lot bc of this
  • Cannot hear people when they talk for more than like 5 minutes
    • shiro: (talking about some important thing)
    • lance: wow i bet he thinks i know what hes saying rn. Wild
  • always bouncing his leg to the point where pidge speculates he gets actual exercise. when ppl ask him to stop he just hesitates for like 10 seconds and then continues Bouncing
  • gets bored so much
    • lance: hunk im bored
    • hunk: go do something then
    • lance: i CANT hunk im TOO BORED
  • puts stickers in his mouth more than anything else
    • pidge, horrified: thats not what those are for lance
  • always chews gum bc it helps him think & bc its the only thing that effectively keeps him from putting random things in his mouth
    • always has a pack in his pocket
    • his favorite flavor is spearmint
    • there’s no gum in space so when he runs out he Suffers :(
  • he needs glasses pretty bad but he cant wear them bc seeing the frames in his periphery Ruins his focus
    • he also hates the feeling of contacts so he just walks around not really being able to see anything thats not right in front of him

if you wanna add on 2 this Blease do i love adhd lance thanks & goodnight

anonymous asked:

I would like to point out in like 99% of coffee shop AUs Keith is lactose intolerant and???????? Is this just a Generally Accepted Fanon Thing Or Is It Canon?

WHAT really?? omfg am i reading the wrong coffee shop AU fics or am i just not reading enough🤔🤔🤔 fuck or my memory is messing with me because i dont think ive read about keith being lactose intolerant in any of them so far.😑 i know its not canon but i guess its a generally accepted fanon thing for writers LMFAO but u know what keith cant be lactose intolerant u know why?…because he rode kaltenecker that one time in the space mall😩😩😂👀💦🔍

okay heres a list of things about deh

can we take a moment please i have things to say:

(some of these are just me so)

1) the way evan moves?? like hes rigid but also not?? like wow relatable

2) evans anxiety is portrayed super accurately?? like i feel his pain in the talking to people and writing letters to yourself and losing your anxiety in love and hope and ahhh

3) the word vomit?? sounds real?? ben lets it spill and it just sounds so good and when a lot of other people do the word vomit it sounds manufactured??? but hes so talented and just

4)evan constantly apologizing like me too babe ily

5) at first i loved connor

6) and 1 minute later i fuckin hated his guts

7) and then in the computer lab i was like “my son?? hes so paranoid?? like chronically?? i hope hes gonna be okay!!” and the show r i p p e d m y h e a r t o u t

8) when evans mom (im blanking on her name) starts yelling at him in act 2 and he just goes blank and shuts his mouth i

9) evan like… compulsively lying about like little things and i love him because i do that!! like when he lies about his dad being lucky to have him and then goes back and is like “actually nvm idk why i said that yikes my dad lives in colorado” im so proud of my son

10) this show hits so close to home in everything it does i was crying within like 5 minutes

11) so many quotable lines ahhhh
-“school shooter chic”
-*monotone* “i know, it was funny cant you see me laughing”

12) THE SONGS JFC THEYRE ALL SO NICE????? LIKE REQUIEM IS GORGEOUS AND SINCERLY, ME IS SO CUTE AND ANYBODY GOT A MAP IS FUNNY BUT YOU WILL BE FOUND IS ONE OF THE BEST PIECES OF MUSIC IVE EVER HEARD

ok but, contrary to popular belief, keith is pobably the boyfriend who brags about lance. 

like lance will definitely go up to strangers while they’re together and be like “do you see my amazing bf?? do you??” Keith is just rolling his eyes and trying so hard not to smile its pathetic tbh (im almost positive someone’s already made a post like this so imma stop the lance train there)

but its more like he gushes in secret

like could you imagine that poor boy absolutely gushing abt lance to shiro or allura (no one can take their possible friendship way from me)

“i mean come on, did you not see the way his hair looked today? do you think he knows how cute he is? i mean he talks a big game but does he really know?”

“idk keith why dont you ask him, he is your boyfriend, you know”

“what? no. he cant know how much i like him. that means hes won. he’ll hold it over my head forever.”

but lance already knows how much keith really loves him but being the better boyfriend that he is, he pretends not to know until keith finally tells him (probably like their wedding day or something bc they’re too stupid smh)

update

hey so uhm, i haven’t been doing very well lately. one of the medications that i was taking was causing me to have constant nonstop migraines all day every day for the past 3 months. since discovering this last week i discussed with my doctor about it and he told me i can stop taking it if i want. so i did. and now my depression and anxiety and getting worse. im just making this post to let you guys know whats going on and why i havent responded to anyones asks or messages because its getting to the point where my motivation is at 0 and im barely functioning. i know i still have to pick the botm and i will try to do that later today but idk if i will be able to. my head has been spinning lately i can barely think straight. im supposed to practice mindfulness every day and i havent been able to because i cant get my brain to shut off. im sorry i wish i was better i wish i could help everyone but i cant right now. im seeing my doctor this thursday hopefully we can come to a solution so i can help everyone again soon.

also on another note i made a new “personal/vent/bpd” blog for personal reasons and i will only be giving it out to people who ask so if you wanna know what it is please message me or ask me off anon.

anonymous asked:

So like, if the Knife Man really is the twin WHY go after Agni ONLY ? and HOW did the twin know which bedroom it is that Ciel usually stays in at he townhouse ?? wouldn't he have the mind of a BD or a child and walk around a little aimlessly and ignorant ? idk i just cant wrap my head around the twin theory because I know Toboso is really meticulous with her writing

Honestly, Anon, I’m probably the WEIRDEST person to ask if you’re looking for someone to defend 2CT. I will do my best, however, to answer your question.

First, I don’t think Knife Dude is the twin. The most common theory is that the first person who entered, the one with the gun, is the twin. This is because Soma recognized (or thought he recognized) this person, and showed concern.  After he touched the person’s head, they knocked Soma’s hand away they said to not touch them so casually. As pointed out by @akumadeenglish, this is remarkably similar to something Ciel in the past. Then you have Soma’s reaction to seeing Ciel.

However, Soma really only saw the face of the person with a gun while the Knife Dude kept his face hidden.

So, the idea is that the twin is the shooter and Knife Dude is someone else. The most common train of thought is that it is Polarius and is acting as a butler for the twin.

As for you other questions, the real Ciel would have been in the townhouse most likely before he was kidnapped and that room would have been his. As we saw at Weston, Bizarre Dolls are becoming more and more advanced. Agares could act basically normally for the most part. He didn’t speak or move like a child. If real Ciel is a Bizarre Doll, he could have his memories and dreams of the future, so he probably could function. Of course, he would function more like a ten year old boy, which brings us to the writing on the wall.

‘Tummy’ is an odd choice. While working with the purely connotative definition, it’s more juvenile than words like stomach or even belly. This seems more like a question from a child than an adult. This could be a message from real Ciel even if Knife Dude was the one who carved it into the wall. If real Ciel is a Bizarre Doll, his aging would have stopped at 10, so it could explain the language used.

As for going after Agni, I think this was a message to Ciel. This was a brutal murder that happened in his house, and it does seem like this affecting Ciel greatly. Ciel was never the target. I wrote more about that theory in this post.

I hope that answers your question, Anon. If you have any more, don’t hesitate to ask. Have a lovely day!

9 fav pics of my bias ~~ tagged by rise-and-shinee (thank you ~~)

how do i even start this now ? 

it’s a selfie ik but i mean look at him !!!! ;w; i bet it’s everyone’s favorite and if you said no , you are lying 

how do i even talk about this ??????? no words can describe this i swear to god 

wet jinki . that’s it . wet fucking jinki , no need to explain more ( thanks to the person who took this picture, i love you )

idk why but i really like this picture . it feels unreal for some reasons i’m not even sure of 

idk from where this pic but i’d like to thank the person who took it because it’s just *tears * 

every time jinki wears a suit he looks like he came out of a magazine and this pic says it all 

i wanna snuggle with him so much in this pic T_T he looks so huggable and it hurts 

THIS IS A SIN !  like thank you so fucking much for taking such a pic ????????? i don’t even know how to begin tbh ! is it the outfits ? is it the drink he is holding ? is it the walk ? is it the fucking hair ? is it the whole fucking thing ????????????

look at this fluffy person :W:

this pic gives me so much happiness you cant even imagine 

black and white jinki is everything and this is one of them 

of course , damn of course ugh . the best thing ever happened in life 

i love this pic so much ,am i the only one ??????? he’s so cute and idk just perfect 

of course this one because it summarize onew lol

 jinki in glasses is something we need a lot in life and the best part is , he fucking knows 

*ugly sobbing * he’s just so cute and so squishy 

this looks like it’s from magazine T_T why are you so perfect ?

another black and white edit that killed me into 10000000000 pieces  T_T

because jinki in shorts and the fact that he looks badass in here .


don’t except me to mention only 9 out of millions pic of my bias lol you are lucky they are only 19 

anonymous asked:

I really thought Silver was going to say "it wasn't... enough" jc

people keep saying this but i honestly cant fathom him saying that to james not after he knows that he has lost the same twice over. silver blames himself for this in the same way that james blames himself for miranda’s death. he let her be there. he let her put herself in harms way just like james did with miranda by allowing her to go to charlestown. i know people might parallel silver losing madi with james losing thomas and think silver is going to blame him the same way part of james blamed miranda. but i think the difference there is that james did do everything he could in that situation to keep madi safe. whereas he didnt do anything to save thomas. 

idk i just cant imagine silver being that cold thats why i didnt expect him to say anything hurtful to james in that moment. if hes angry at anyone its at himself about not listening to billy when he said that flint’s war would consume her. like he knew the pattern but he ignored it because he loves flint and he cant choose between him and madi. so i think hes blaming himself for that, not james. he’s battling with himself because he wasnt strong enough to choose between them, even when flint chose for him. even when flint was willing to give up the war and the treasure for him. so no, he cant blame james for this. he could never accuse him of not doing ‘enough’, he has no right to that

a story thing

y’all i was at school yesterday and i had Meant To Be Yours stuck in my head, and i was in English singing it quietly and subconsciously when I got to the the “VERONICAopen the-open the door please part.”

and without thinking in the middle of a quiet classroom i just screamed “VERONICA”

someone save me