idk why i found this so funny but it is believe me

burn through my soul

a  fyre festival au because i have 0 chill, set in the ‘marble hearts collide’ universe bc ria asked for like an 80k companion fic, and because 36 of you seemed to like the idea. basically: it’s half fyre and half ust denial jily and a Big Mess.

for @gxldentrio @petalstofish who asked for more and @fredweasleying who supports james and sirius’ stupidity

most of my info is off the snapchat stories, articles and tweets but i’ve also done a lot of exaggerating, so take all reference to the festival with a bit of salt

It’s Sirius’ idea because, if it involves a stupid waste of money and the promise of celebrity chefs, it will always be his idea. And, because it’s Sirius’ idea, James is in. 

“It’s ridiculous,” Lily says, scrolling through the festival’s instagram. 

“No, it’s luxury,” Sirius says and snatches his phone back, “you wouldn’t understand.”

Remus raises an eyebrow, “she practically lives with you, I think she understands what luxury is.”

“And waste of money,” Peter adds, helpfully. 

“I can’t believe I let any of you into my house, when you’ve just come to insult me!” Sirius pouts, throwing himself dramatically back on the chaise. 

“Criticise your money spending habits,” Remus corrects, and just manages to dodge a throw pillow Sirius launches at him. 

‘What does Potter think, anyway?” Lily asks, looking down at her own phone. 

“Why does Potter’s opinion matter?” Sirius retorts. 

Lily is definitely avoiding eye contact, “It doesn’t.”

There’s a murmur of disbelief, and Lily scowls at her phone, knowing that if she looks up she’ll be accosted by five raised eyebrows, because only Sirius has learnt how to raise both separately. 

“But, seriously, when is Prongs back?”

“Well, Moony, funny you should ask…” Sirius smirks, “he arrived last night.”

Lily’s head shoots up, “but -”

“But what Evans, not happy to see me?” A voice comes from the doorway, and they all turn to see James leaning, not as gracefully as Sirius would have, against the doorjamb with a smirk to match Sirius’ on his face. 

“How long have you guys been planning that?” Peter asks, and he’s not as fast as Remus so a throw pillow hits him in the stomach.

Remus laughs, “probably longer than they’ve been planning this festival bullshit.” 

“Losers,” Lily mutters, finally looking away from James, pretending that her phone screen is more interesting than the bit of chest his loosely tied dressing gown shows. 

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anonymous asked:

leela that liveshow was. a lot. so cute. Dan talking about love made me 👀

it was definitely a lot oh my god. one of my favorites in a long time and a real treasure trove of open stories, asides, opinions, and general insights into his mind, his opinions on work, his life, and of course, yes, his thoughts on love. i almost wondered if he was a little bit tipsy from the sushi dinner he mentioned going on since he’s always sort of told us that he’s pretty sensitive to wine (he was tipsy while editing that sims video when he left the flipside christmas party in december and he’d only had one glass of wine?) because honestly there was so much rambling and vulnerability in this that i wasn’t prepared for. uhhh, brace yourselves bc this is like,, the longest shit i’ve written about them in ages. i can always count on a dan live show to bring out my inner desires to write an actual novel haha

INSIGHTS ABOUT HIMSELF

the meditation bit. that was so lovely on so many levels. to know that he’s tried meditating is one thing. to watch him try to walk us through some of the fundamental tenets of a meditative mindset was another. it was so fascinating to me to hear him confirm the way in which he feels plagued by the onslaught of noise in his life, and crucially, for him, that’s all online noise—he kept talking about imaginary conversations, how all of our communication is text on the internet, and that he ingests so many of those voices constantly and always feels their presence. even though that is a generalizable thing that all of us suffer from, to an extent, in a world where we’re so digitally connected, it’s staggering to think about the scale on which he has to deal with all of the white noise and that all of it is both distressing to him and also inescapable in that it’s the foundation of his career. i just see dan as being someone who is so internally conflicted about so many things and that includes, most centrally, the role of the internet and his presence on it, and it doesn’t take much reaching to understand why he must love and hate it in equal measure.

the hydration campaign. y’all i’ve been trying to track every stay hydrated mention since the one in pinof 8 when they literally made like a psa, with no explanation or context, about the importance of water and staying hydrated and just stuck it in the middle of that vid. i’ve lost track though bc they’ve worked it into nearly every video they’ve made since then and i WANT TO KNOW WHAT ITS ABOUT. i am adamant that it’s an inside joke of some sort. i don’t think they actually give a fuck how much water we drink lol. so today when dan was like “i need to find a way to work that into the next video .. .might already be in it,” and then at the end when he said he needs to leave to go “get hydrated,” i was living bc it was the most open confirmation yet that this is something they’re so intentionally doing and working into their vids. idk if it’s just a funny thing but … my instinct is that it has some sort of deeper meaning that only they know and i’m ANNOYED THEYRE ALLOWED TO RUB THESE JOKES RIGHT IN OUR FACES UGH. jk they can carry on w their married behavior but. i want it all to lead to some sort of announcement that they’re starting a joint bottled water business at the very least. or maybe its just a euphemism for sex. who knows. ugh

dan acknowledging his pretentiousness about music is all i’ve ever wanted. it’s so funny to me how just his self-awareness that he is very pretentious and particular about his tastes is all i needed to forgive him for all of it because what pissed me off more than anything ever about dan’s approach to talking about music were his flimsy attempts at trying to act like he was so accepting and tolerant of all people’s music tastes and that he’s some sort of diplomatic saint who respects and celebrates everyone’s preferences bc … literally no he fucking doesn’t he has never even tried to make it convincing hahah. so him just outright apologizing for it today in his usual self-deprecating fashion was like the funniest, best thing to me bc god at least he knows and realizes and like maybe now he can actually work on talking about music in the deeper and complex ways that he so clearly wants to. also as a music snob in my own right i feel him on this and i’ve always just found it way easier to preface every conversation w the clear statement that these r just my own standards and i’m a douche and i’m never actually trying to disrespect anyone who might like different things than me. anyway, i love dan

INSIGHTS ABOUT WORK & LIFE

i suspected and even posted about the fact that unexpected things might have happened this week that caused phil to be delayed in posting his video and dan to be all but silent on twitter for several days. i speculated dan may not have been in a good place this week based on his silence and also the way he seemed to teeter on the brink of quite overt negativity during last week’s live show. to me, today’s live show seemed fully in the throes of that negative headspace. there was a resurgence of bleak little comments about how he’s tired (of living), how he looks like a rat and doesn’t want to be reminded about the reality of his existence, how his life is a joke, how he can’t comprehend that anyone could draw inspiration from his videos or that his stories could brighten people’s days, etc. etc. all said as casual asides and mostly followed by little laughs as is his norm, but it was very reminiscent to me of the time in early january around his 2016 memes video and his first couple live shows of the year where he talked so frequently about craving death and feeling anxious and judging his own work output too harshly, and the constant pressure of scrutiny from his audience. i don’t think this live show was as bad as all of that but it’s clear that things might be a bit difficult right now and dan confirmed that himself when he stated that it’s been a challenging week in ways he can’t talk about with us yet. i was so interested to hear him say we could ask him about it in like five months though. literally,,, i put it in my calendar for august because i’m just so curious. we have almost no hints to go off of in terms of speculating about what it could be, but to me the fact that we would be able to ask him five months from now seems to suggest that it’s not personal (i jokingly wrote in tags that he and phil had gotten in a tiff this week lol) bc if it was he wouldn’t mention it at all i don’t think and definitely at the very least wouldn’t have given us such a specific timeframe about when we could ask about it. it’s likely work-related bc of that timeframe: a new project of some sort that will be out later this year, for which perhaps several planning meetings or deadlines had to happen/be met this week? it’s hard to say why that would put dan in such a negative headspace but he’s said before that he gets that way when he’s sleep deprived and he did just seem very very tired beneath everything. … also possible it could be about moving? maybe house hunting was very stressful and didn’t go to plan. late summer (five months from now) would be a fitting time for them to have made their move, and really it’s the only other possible thing i can think of with a timeframe that dan would specifically tell us. in any case,,, mark your cals for august y’all bc i actually can’t wait to hear more insights about this week even if we have to wait months for them.

that being said, the new dinof video is coming tmrw or the day after and he was still pretty vague about what it will be about. as i spelled out in completely unnecessary detail after last week’s live show i believe he was going to make the video about dropping the dinof user name but then changed his mind (this is the video he referenced today when he said “i was going to make a video but then decided it should be the next one” before going on like a 3-min rant about how sometimes he just feels the timing isn’t right to post a particular video.) so that leaves the field wide open for what this next vid could be. the only other hint we got was that it could be kink-related because the premium he opened that said “kinkshame me daddy” prompted him to say “well you’ll like my next vid,” but then he quickly walked it back as though to dispel anyone’s expectations that it would be kink-related? it was all a bit confusing. on that subject he did note down the idea of doing a video about going to the dentist back in a february live show, so there’s a high possibility to me that it could be about that since it’s like sort of (maybe jokingly) a kink for him, but he wouldn’t want to tease something that’s mostly NOT about kinks by saying it’s kink-related, hence his rapid back-tracking. but like. tbh who knows … dan is confusing and could pull something totally out of left field behind all of this quibbling. i mostly ardently agree with the way he told us to feel about it, which is to have literally no expectations or theories about what it could be hahah … best advice he’s ever given tbh

confirmation that he and phil will attend playlist this year, and a sort of allusion to the traditional lester clan april holiday in florida. probably means that he will join them again this year. it was kind of nice to hear him basically walk us through how all of their decisions about conventions and travel are made jointly, even months and months into the future, and to have no qualms with sharing that. he also just kept reiterating vaguely that they might have plans at various points of the year and idk about y’all but i feel like he’s trying his hardest to let us know that those plans involve each other and probs always will. could be work things (the same project that may have caused them stress this week), could, as he said in his own words back in january, be “life things.” could be both. but regardless, the plans are always danandphil things, both of them together, and i’m not sure how there is still a strain of people that insists on arguing that a moving apart or separation is on the horizon for this year. all of that is summed up in this one amazing exchange for me, when someone in the chat asks, “are you excited for australia again?” and he answers, “yeah, we are.”

i also really dug the insight about how he likes to structure his work in such a way that he’s working for three weeks straight with no days off and then takes a whole week to lose himself in a game. it’s very dan to be so all or nothing about the way that he works and to become consumed so completely by whatever’s at hand (whether it’s work or leisure) and although i might’ve suspected that that’s how he operates i don’t think we’ve ever heard him lay it out that clearly

INSIGHTS ABOUT PHIL & LOVE

that he opened this live stream with such an earnest celebration of phil (thanking him, literally, for existing and making videos even though it was technically a misspeak) was so lovely and not what i expected but it set a nice tone for the start of this stream. the bants-y way in which he acknowledge the subscriber gap was also a tiny bit noteworthy to me, especially in light of that ask i answered recently about how they must approach the subscriber gap. i argued it def isn’t something they are sensitive about and probs isn’t something they joke about either, but dan sort of showed that he might approach it w humor if the situation calls for it rather than ignore it altogether. interesting. he’s clearly so proud of phil and was a little flustered in talking about how exciting the milestone was. and then, relatedly, so so animated and excited about “promo-ing (awkward pause and sidelong glance) his pal” and the gym video. i fucking loved hearing his version of the story and how surprisingly soft and tender he sounded when he was describing phil on the phone asking for an exercise plan (like, his tone was verging on adoring there) and then the way he looked when he got back. the way that dan says “what happened?” when he’s recounting how he talked to phil after he got home literally set my heart aflutter bc it was sooooooooo concerned-sounding even in a re-enactment, even in front of thousands of people, so i can’t even imagine how worried he must have genuinely been in that moment. the thing w videos is that they allow these real-life stories that happen to dnp to take on a sort of surreal almost fictional feel bc of the storytelling dnp employ—videos have like a real narrative arc and they’re packaged to be entertaining so in some ways it’s easy to forget that this is actually a true thing that happened. phil lester went to the gym and threw up twice from over-exertion and came home in half the time he was supposed to be gone and dan, the worried partner, was there to receive him when he did. and then, of course, to get super angry on his behalf and tell us about it later. i was literally rejoicing to hear dan be so honest about his emotional reaction to this happening to phil bc it might be something he would have usually phrased another way (‘can u believe phil asked for this one thing and got this other thing instead what is wrong with people this is why we don’t go outside’) instead of literally just stating his emotion so bluntly (‘i was actually like really mad … like honestly i was so angry when he told me.’) that difference in communicating how he feels is so hugely important to me and it’s what gave the story so much dimension,, i could literally picture dan and his instinct towards protectiveness that we’ve seen time and time and time again when it comes to phil, just full of irritation, disbelief, and actual anger in that moment and he had no problem with telling us that was what happened. i nearly thought that when he said he couldn’t go to that gym bc he didn’t want to see kyle/leon, that he was saying any real-life encounter with him would end in dan giving kyle/leon an angry speech about his lack of professionalism and total ineptitude at his job. i totally believe that it would.

the other part of dan’s reaction that i feel is worth noting is the way that he immediately said to phil that he needs to learn to be more assertive in a knowing tone as though it’s something they discuss often and, to be honest, it IS something that has come up before over and over in the way that dan portrays phil. that he’s too “polite” to call people out if they’re abusing him online, that he believes in things like etiquette and courtesy, that his personality is adorable and, in not so many words, soft. we even have seen him describe it in certain specific real life scenarios. an example that comes to mind is when they were doing the joint live show in november last year and dan wanted to talk about the sound guy who fucked up his mic at dapgoose LA, subsequently causing him to loose his voice for the boncas. dan clearly wanted to go off about how incapable the sound guy had been but asks phil for permission basically, and phil tempers dan’s response a lot and recounts the situation diplomatically. a random example that also comes to mind from ages ago is in dan’s what not to do at the cinema video from 2012 where he talks about a scenario when he and phil go out to see a movie and he, dan, is assertive enough to both 1. ask for people to completely get up and move if they’re sitting in his and phil’s seats, and, 2. shush them if they’re being too loud. he even acts out phil saying “oh my god you did not just do that, i don’t know you,” and trying to hide. i feel like this is a difference between them that’s sometimes under-discussed  or noticed because the main focus is always on their anxieties and insecurities and general distaste for human interaction. people also focus on phil making small talk with people in social settings and take that to mean that he is more confident and calm. but i earnestly believe that he is more reserved than dan in many ways and that includes in facing negative or stressful situations and dan, despite his own set of anxieties, has always been much more able and willing to demand and ask for what he feels he (or phil) deserves.

obvi the thing everyone wants to talk about (and i’m right there with y’all) is dan’s truly surprising decision to entertain a question about love and then give a definition of it. after a bit of waffling and dithering about whether it is or isn’t a social construct he seems to insist that it is a real feeling and defines it as “the fear of that person not being there mixed with sexual attraction.” super interesting to me because he seems to totally approach this question from his own perspective and experience which is why in the moment he seems to suggest that you need to experience sexual attraction in order to love people (and where does that leave people on the ace spectrum?) and, moreover, that love is definitely a feeling people feel (and where does that leave aromantic people?) he definitely interprets the question to be about romantic love rather than talking about something perhaps “safer” for his usual topics such as platonic love or familial love and it’s for that reason that i definitely think he was trying to say that this is what love means to him and in his own experience because i don’t think he would be so cavalier about conflating romantic and sexual attraction and implying that asexuality and romantic attraction cannot coexist in one person if he had had time to think about this answer rather than spontaneously deciding to answer it on the spot.

but that he’s speaking from his own experience obviously makes his answer profoundly interesting because he settles on, coincidentally or perhaps not, one of the only ways of expressing affection for phil by proxy that he’s ever been okay with sharing with us, which is that he needs phil around bc he can’t bear to be alone. this combined with the protectiveness/defensiveness he exhibits for phil pretty consistently, as well as the occasional recognition of phil’s creativity, are pretty much the full spectrum of ways in which dan ever talks about what he feels for phil in a public setting. it was so strangely emotional for me to hear him confirm that his fear of being alone and being without this hypothetical “love” is so fundamental to the experience of love for him that it becomes a big part of the way he defines it. i mean people make fun of dan’s neediness all the time in so many ways but he straight out confirms here that the feeling of needing your partner near you at all times and staving off the genuinely frightening prospect of the anxiety of being alone are so central to what he takes the experience of love to mean. and that’s true for both of them i feel because as “needy” as dan is, phil is just as attached, chooses to spend all of these moments with dan, chooses to call dan up on stage when he wins solo awards, chooses to travel and socialize and create and live with dan next to him always. the concerning degrees of codependency they exhibit are such common topics of conversation amongst us as outside observers that it’s very nearly startling to hear dan basically say that, yes, this dependency on this other person, this feeling of paralysis when they’re not there, that’s what love is to him, fundamentally. it’s the awareness that your life would be empty without them around. that is … concerning honestly, and as always i have some burning questions about how they make such an unhealthy level of codependency work but like. they do. they so clearly do. they have for so long and they show signs every day of only growing stronger and happier in their partnership, if that’s even possible.

then there’s the sexual attraction bit which like, sure. obvi.

i also thought it was immensely noteworthy that when he read out “some people never find love” from one of the chat comments he didn’t even try a little bit to make it relatable and crack some joke about being forever alone or even just a cheeky little “same.” like just, generally speaking, he approached this whole topic very much with the tone of 1. someone who has definitely experienced the emotion of love, 2. someone who is then trying to articulate the emotion of love as he experiences it, and 3. someone who still feels that emotion and is in proximity to that person to whom it is directed. there were no attempts at trying to say he can’t relate or that he doesn’t know (or to apply it to FOOD which he has said on countless occasions is the number one love of his life,) and if anything he got quite flustered and even red around his ears and cheeks by the end of the whole ramble. flustered but not actually uncomfortable, at least in my assessment. it was really so, so lovely and incredibly insightful. not a topic i ever ever thought i’d hear him venture into and certainly not in a live stream and certainly not in that much depth. to me the whole topic played out almost as though he couldn’t let some overly analytical smartass in the chat reduce this emotion that clearly means so much to him into a mere social construct or even a release of hormones (oxytocin). he needed to push back and play devil’s advocate, but instead of doing that in a contemplative philosophical way he somewhat accidentally got super personal with it and this ramble and completely rare look into dan’s experience w this particularly touchy emotion is what we got. it reminds me a lot of the vyou he answered back in 2012 about whether he believes in love, in which he is quite literally upset and completely rude to the person who asked it, saying “no offense to you but what kind of a stupid question is that?” as though he has never even entertained the possibility that people could not believe that love is a true feeling and emotion. it’s incredible to see that 6 years later dan has evolved in so many ways and is calmer and more thoughtful about so many things, but on this subject little has changed: love is so important to him and there’s no way for him to talk about it without immediately demonstrating that :( :( :(

“hydrate, meditate, contemplate, get a mate.” such a fitting closing line because is there any set of four directives that better encompass who dan is lol? overall such a good live show with so many moments of vulnerability and emotional openness. however dan really is in this moment i hope things only get better and better for him and that he can get over whatever hurdles have been holding him back from dinof and that he can edit/post this video and then let himself take that week off that he mentioned wanting, in order to play games and chill or at least get to a calmer place. love him lots :(((

(live show: meditation and hydration with your new life coach - 2017.03.14)

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“i have a secret”
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the loud laughs from geoff who was sitting across the table, could be heard throughout the restaurant.

shawn decided he wanted to take his team and family out for a nice dinner to celebrate the end of his tour, and of course you came along. as soon as you arrived you excused yourself to use the washroom before anyone started ordering and that’s where you were currently.

you stood in front of the mirror, trying to come up with an excuse for why you couldn’t have any type of alcoholic beverage tonight. you were sure shawn would notice something was wrong, you never turned down alcohol.

you had just found out this morning that you were pregnant but you wanted to keep it from shawn for a bit. even though you were married, and the two of you weren’t not trying to have a baby, you weren’t sure how he would react.

unfortunately, you forgot about the dinner he had planned for the night.

“y/n,” aaliyah’s small figure opened the door. “are you okay in here?”

she opened the door all the way, he mother following behind her. they entered the small bathroom before you could hide the test in your bag.

“is that..?” aaliyah asked, taking the
stick from your hands. “no way! everyone was wondering why you were taking so long in here, i guess i know why.”

karen’s eyes lit up with excitement when she saw the two pink lines, “does shawn know?”

you shook your head, taking the test from her and hiding it at the bottom of your purse.

“oh y/n, you have to tell him soon. he’s going to be so excited!” karen says, “i’m so excited”

“i know you are, i am too but i have a secret, so do you. you can’t say anything, okay?”

they nodded before all of you headed back to the table, where the waiter was already taking drink orders.

you smoothed the back of your tight dress before taking your seat next to shawn, luckily aaliyah and karen was sitting across from you.

everyone was ordering some type of wine, except for aaliyah of course, and someone was going to notice something was off about you.

shawn rested his hand on your thigh under the table as the waiter took his order.

“and for you ms?” he asked, flipping his note pad to the second page.

“she’ll have the same thing as me.” shawn butted in before you could place your order.

“what did you get?”

“red wine, why?”

the waiter looked between the two of you before you spoke up again. “it’s okay, i’ll just have some water.”

he nods before walking to the next table to ask for their orders.

everyone returned to their own conversations, aaliyah and karen had a quiet conversation between themselves while shawn fixed his gaze on you.

“y/n, is something wrong? you never turn down wine.”

you sent him a reassuring smile, “i’m just not in the mood for wine tonight, that’s all. don’t worry too much, okay?”

you pecked his cheek before shawn’s crew turned their attention towards you.

“unless, y/n you aren’t pregnant are you?” brian asks with humour in his voice. the rest of the crew laughs with brian, while karen and aaliyah just look at you.

the table eventually went silent once everybody noticed that you, karen, and aaliyah were the only ones not laughing, along with shawn who continued to stare at you.

“how funny,” you nervously laugh, you weren’t sure how to get out of this.

“y/n,” shawn breaks the silence. you look away, suddenly becoming interested in the wood floors. he placed two fingers under your chin, forcing you to look at him.

“are you pregnant?”

you slowly nodded, trying to find a hint of expression in shawn’s unreadable face.

“you’re kidding.”

slowly, the biggest smile crept on to shawn’s face as he pulled you in to his arms. it was easy since you two were on the booth side of the table.

“i’m gonna be a dad!”

brain, who was sitting next to shawn, patted his back while congratulating him.

shawn kissed the top of your head multiple times, whispering how happy he was and that he loved you.

he finally released his grip on you, and repeatedly kissed you as the rest of the table playfully gagged.

“so there’s a baby, in your stomach, right now?” he asked, placing his large hand over your abdomen.

“small, but yes.”

you leaned your head against his shoulder, as you answered questions from everybody about your news.

“you know what this means?” geoff asked, “shawn can wear dad hats for real now!”

“yes!” shawn cheered, high-fiving geoff.

you laughed at him, “believe it or not babe, i’m gonna wear them all the time now.”

Why Vmin are called the “Soulmate Couple”

Long post

Before I get into this, I’d like to say, that this will provide examples as to how amazingly close vmin are to being considered real life soulmates. It’ll also help anyone who wants to know about vmin’s relationship and how close the two actually are. But overall, it’ll definitely explain why some of the fandom refers to them as already soulmates. Whether it’s viewed platonically or romantically:)

Okay here we go. Pray for me to be able to get all of this in one post.

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I Had Him

Pairing/Characters: pre-serum!Steve x Reader, Bucky Barnes, OMC (Eddie)

Warnings: um smUT liKE I PROMISED A DuH, jealous steve, insecure steve, lmao Sargeant kink like don’t evEN FigHT mE, praise kinkkkk, oral (MR), heaps of dirty talk, unprotected sex (wrap it up before you fuck up) spanking, a bit of angst maybe? Idk reader bewareee

Summary: Inspired by some dream I had the other night and the conversation I had with the lovely @acklesdowneyandhiddles-ohmy

Word Count: 2537

A/N: I’m proud of the title cause double meanings are incredible hA but all I’m gonna say is: Good luck… I’m not an asshole, I just love you guys

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Swapped Contacts (request)

Request: could you do an imagine where the reader gets a new phone and the contacts get messed up so after she hangs out with josh, she texts her best friend a message about how in love she is w josh & “i know ive said it a thousand times before but i just like him so much” and it gets sent to josh instead and he responds back something like “hey this isnt (best friends name) uh, its josh.” or maybe he facetimes her. idk but josh tells her he likes her back n its rly cute aa


A/N: Thank you for your request! I loved the idea and writing it, I hope you enjoy it! :) xx

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Words: 1531 

Triggers: None (at least I think so, if not, please tell me!)

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As soon as you closed the door, after saying goodbye to Josh, you slide down on it. Burying your face in your hands, you let a frustrated groan out.

Even if you had fun hanging out with Josh, it was a slight torture for you. Stupid you and your stupid feelings. Why did you have to fall for one of your closest friends? Especially for Josh, which you will never ever have even the slightest chance with.

But that boy was just perfect, so no wonder that he stole your heart. He was humble, funny and had a heart of pure gold. Whenever you were feeling down or needed a shoulder to cry onto, Josh was there. He was perfect, in every meaning. But that’s the problem, he was too perfect. So perfect that he deserves so much better than you. That’s why you never told him about your feelings for him. You were afraid that you would loose him as your friend, so you decided to say nothing. The only person who knew about your enormous crush was your best friend Amber.


Speaking of her, you needed to rant about your stupid feelings, in order to feel better. It always goes like this whenever you hung out with Josh. You wrote her, telling her how stupid you are for falling for someone who is way out of your league. She would always try to convince you to just man up and tell him, the chances of Josh feeling the same way being there. But you didn’t want to believe her so you stayed by your plan of keeping shut.

You fiddled around in your back pocket of your jeans, searching for your phone. It was new since your old one died. So new, that you had major problems with it. After numerous attempts of finding her number and opening the messenger app, you finally wrote her.

To: Amber <3
I know I’ve said it already like 12532663 times but I feel like every time I see Josh, I like him more and more and it’s just ughh, how does one stop crushing on a guy? He’s so perfect and I’m just me and I will never have a chance with him and that’s driving me insane rn

You pressed send and stood up, making your way to your kitchen. Maybe ice-cream could help your aching heart. After all, Ben and Jerry are always good listeners.


As you drowned your sorrow, you wondered what took Amber so long to answer. Normally she replies within the first five minutes and it’s already 20 minutes later after you’ve sent that message.

After waiting for more 10 minutes, Amber finally replied. Or at least you thought so.

From: Amber <3
Hey this isn’t Amber, (Y/n), uhm, it’s actually Josh

You dropped your phone onto the kitchen isle. Holy frickin’ Cow. After all of the people you had saved in your contacts, it must have been Josh? Why?!

Before you could even think about a way to tell him that the message wasn’t the truth, just a bad joke, you got an incoming FaceTime call from Amber. Or more likely Josh. You hesitated to pick up, would you really want to face him now? After confessing your abnormally big crush on him? You didn’t want Josh to make fun of you.

But sooner or later, you had to face him again, if you wanted to or not. So why not do it now? Maybe he will believe you when you say that it was a joke.

So after ending your internal battle, you accepted the incoming FaceTime call. Just like you thought, it was Josh’s face on your screen, not Amber’s. Dang it.

„So before you say anything, I- The message wasn’t supposed to be sent to you, it was meant for Amber! And I- uhm, it was a joke, okay? Nothing more. Speaking of it, I did mean to send you the message! It wouldn’t make sense if I sent it to Amber, would it? So okay, now that this is cleared up, I have to go do something, Bye!“ You rambled on and on, your face getting redder and redder. Just as you wanted to end the call or more your misery, Josh stopped you.

„(Y/N)! Slow down, okay? So what you’re saying is, what you wrote in the message isn’t true?“ Before you could even register what your head was doing, you nodded. As soon as you confirmed Josh’s assumptions, his face dropped. He kind of looked sad, like you just destroyed his birthday cake he waited for all year. What…?

„Uhh, okay, I should go now. Bye (Y/N)“  Just as you wanted to tell him the truth because there was the slight chance that he may like you back, he ended the call, leaving you with a blank screen.

Josh truly looked devastated, maybe Amber was right. Maybe he does have feelings for you, more than just for a good friend. As soon as the realization hit you, you grabbed your car keys and ran out of your apartment. Maybe you were crazy for doing this, but if there was even the smallest chance of Josh liking you, you knew you had to take it. Even if it meant embarrassing yourself in front of him.


Never before, you managed to arrive as fast as now at Josh’s apartment. Practically running to his front door, you ringed his doorbell like a crazy maniac. You probably looked like one as well.

It took him only a few moments to open his front door, but for you, it felt like a lifetime. And slowly but surely your new found self-confidence and the feeling that he may like you back faded. You started to debate if it even was a good idea to drive to and confront him. But Josh opened his door and now there was no turning back for you.

Josh looked surprised, to say the least, to see you standing on his door step, out of breath with probably smeared ice-cream on the corners of your mouth. You really should have checked your outer appearance before doing this. Before he could even greet you or ask what you were doing at his place, you took your last remains of self-confidence and started to talk. Or more like ramble.

„I lied, okay? I do have this big enormous and stupid crush on you and believe me, I tried everything to get rid of it because you’re my friend and I’m not supposed to have these kinds of feelings for you, but I do and I can’t change it. I’m sorry that I probably destroy our friendship with this, but as I told you that it was only a joke, you looked so disappointed, like you hoped that my crush on you was real. I thought that maybe, just maybe, you feel the same but when I think about it now, it was stupid of me. You’re way out of my league and I’m sorry that I had to tell you about my stupid feelings and that I just made our friendship thousand times more weird and embarrassing, I hope you-“ You couldn’t even finish your sentence before Josh kissed you. Like actually kissing you.

You probably looked like you’ve seen a ghost because you couldn’t take the fact in that Josh Dun was kissing you. But you quickly snapped out of your haze and kissed him back, and oh boy, did it feel good.

After some more moments, the two of you broke apart. You’re still utterly confused on why he actually kissed you. Just as you wanted to speak up, again, Josh interrupted you.

„I like you too, (Y/N), more than in just a friendly way. Or in your words: I have this big enormous and stupid crush on you, too. I just never thought that you would feel the same until you’ve sent that message.“

„Thanks to my dumb mobile phone then, which somewhat switched my contacts around“ You laughed, Josh joining in. Your face already hurt from grinning so much but you didn’t care because he actually likes you and even kissed you.

„Yeah thanks to your phone“, Josh seemed suddenly somewhat nervous again, before speaking up. „Do you wanna be my girlfriend? I mean, we practically confessed our undying love for each other but I wanna make sure that you’re finally mine.“ Josh shrugged, grinning again.

You rolled your eyes because he’s such a dork, before kissing him softly on the lips. „Yes, I’d love to be your girlfriend“

As Josh leaned in to kiss you again, your phone began ringing, showing an incoming call from Josh.

„I’m gonna assume that this is Amber, I’m sorry but I need to take this.“ Josh nodded, signaling you to accept her call.

„(Y/N)! Everything alright? You normally call or write, after you and Josh hung out, I just wanted to make sure that everything’s good.“ You laughed, before telling her that everything is alright and that you do need to tell her some things. And that’s exactly what you did, while you cuddled with your new boyfriend on his couch.

What’s Up, Doc? Pt. 2 (Peter Parker One Shot)

Requests:

“part two for whats up doc? ty! x” - anon

“Please please I’m begging you to post Part 2 of your What’s Up, Doc? fic! Pretty please!!! It is so awesome and it’s adorable when Peter tries to ask reader out, really funny :D” - 1022bridgetp

“PART 2 I NEED ;)” - sebastianstan-theman

“Part two please!? I love this so much 😍” - legendarydazekitten

A/N: I’m glad a lot of you enjoyed the first part! Again, I thought I’d be done with this story by part two but ideas kept flowing in! Part three will be posted if (and only if) requested! Btw, some details don’t align with the timeline of Peter Parker’s MCU character or anything but I made it fit the story so…yeah. Thanks for the requests and support, everyone :) Enjoy and let me know if you liked it!

Summary: Peter Parker’s regular ‘check-ups’ move from the Nurse’s Office to the reader’s bedroom.

Warning: Mentions of injury (and maybe incorrect treatments for them??? idk i googled it)! Captain America Civil War spoilers (not really lol)? Pretty dramatic.

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A/N: This wasn’t requested, I’ve just had this idea in my head for so, so, so long and last night I started writing. I just feel like every one can relate to having put a label on them, idk. I may delete it again.

Word count: 4,286

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The music was loud, actually giving me a rather unpleasant headache. I must admit, I didn’t really want to be at this party, but it was my first day back for months and I think my friends needed to see me make an effort.

Loads of people were here, half of them I didn’t even know, it had taken me an hour and a half to take pictures with people. I didn’t mind that, but I would just rather have been kicking it at home with Aaliyah watching Harry Potter or something.

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Fate. (Harrison Osterfield.)

Requested – Yes.

Prompt – Tom and you have been longtime Internet friends and Harrison has a crush on you but you and Harrison have never met. Tom starts thinking of ways to hook the two of you up.

Warning – Harrison feels.

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Isn’t it crazy how fate works in the most mysterious ways? Everything you do and say leads up to a moment in time that can make or break your life. Every person that you meet can lead to something significant such as meeting the love of your life. Do not take any moment for granted, live with it and see where it takes you even if it is negative. It’s meant to happen for a reason.

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reagans-ramblings  asked:

okay so 1)i love your blog and oc thursday thing (even if i am always too nervous to send my own) 2) i think mythal created the qunari as her personal servants. BEAR WITH ME; mythal is heavily tied to dragons and the qunari are implied to have dragon blood. they have elf ears and the kossith are said to come from somewhere "far away" but they don't actually know why they had to leave. solas has a low opinion of them, even more than humans. its probs just me reaching, but maybe there's a link?

bless you, thanks! i’d love to hear about your kids one day, but i totally get being nervous about sharing <33

as for the mythal-qunari thing….thats super super interesting

because i can never just leave things at that, let’s frickin. roll up our sleeves and really get into this.

kossith = qunari?

qunari are kind of complicated because it’s super unclear whether ‘kossith’ refers to their race, or the culture that the qunari stemmed from. kossith were around pre-qun, but from what we understand qunari place less importance on one’s race than one’s religion/culture (hence the differentiation between ‘qunari’ and ‘tal vashoth’). ‘kossith’ as a term isn’t really used anymore, so it’s really difficult to tell what it actually refers to.

this is only important because WoT tells us:

‘-410 Ancient: A group of kossith is believed to land in the south Korcari Wilds, establishing a colony. They are likely killed off in the First Blight, giving rise to the first appearance of ogres on the continent.’ (vol 1 p 26)

if ‘kossith’ refers to the culture the qunari came from, then this isn’t super important to this discussion. if it refers to the actual race, though, then this is the first time this race is seen in thedas – several hundred years before actual qunari land in 6:30 storm. hell, it’s fifteen years before the first blight, and 200 years before andraste.

either way, of course, the kossith/qunari are the most recent race to turn up in thedas. the qunari who appear in the storm age came from ‘an eastern land across the ocean’ (x), and though the wiki assumes that’s where the kossith also came from, that’s never confirmed.

so. we know for sure that the kossith came first. i’m willing to bet the term refers to the race, if only for the comment about ogres, which would be a weird thing to note otherwise.

so were they created?

both of these sources say that the kossith/qunari ‘land’ in thedas, though – wherever they came from, whether it’s the same place or two different ones, these groups are extra-terrestrial, if you will. if they were created by anyone, it had to be either outside of thedas, or somewhere we haven’t been yet still joined to the main continent (there’s plenty both north and south that we haven’t explored), or i guess created in thedas and then shipped off somewhere else at some point? or like you said, they left for some reason, leaving absolutely no trace behind.

(note that the first kossith were spotted by the korcari wilds, which expands way further to the south than we’ve seen, and also wow guess who we first met living in the korcari wilds? lmao.)

you mentioned that qunari have elven ears, which is kind of difficult to talk about because their ear design actually changes from game to game. compare sten and iron bull, for example:

sten very clearly has the same model of ears as elves in origins. bull? not so much.

something else that changes from game to game is qunari horns. you can see the progression if you look at sten → the arishok → iron bull. this is probably evolving design on the part of bioware – but like we said, qunari don’t pay a massive amount of attention to race, just culture, and we haven’t exactly seen enough qunari to know for sure that these are changing designs and not variations within the qunari race(s). which is a whole ‘nother question entirely, but also super interesting.

horned creatures in thedas

even more than ears, though, qunari’s most defining feature are their horns – something else that’s noticeably lacking from sten. (design changes again? or something else?)

that story about the first kossith in thedas say that they’re where ogres came from (supposedly). and looking at ogres, you can see why people would make that assumption:

big ol’ horns, huh. also check out those ears – now they look elven to me.

this ogre dude bears almost no resemblance to sten, or to bull, tbh. know who he does look like?

not exactly, obviously. the horns are different enough to give me pause (the ogre’s got this nice curly thing going on) but the general size & shape of the horns is pretty damn similar. looking at these two pictures, i totally get where this whole ogre-qunari thing came from. and it’d suggest that the people who came up with the theory believed the original kossith were the same as modern-day qunari, at least.

mythal

ogres aren’t the only things with horns we’ve seen, though. you rightfully pointed out that qunari are linked to dragons – and oh hey, we’ve seen dragons with horns as well, including this guy:

mythal’s dragon. coincidence? maybe. maybe not.

something that doesn’t look like coincidence, though is this:

the first time we see flemeth like this is at the very beginning of da2 – before we’ve seen any qunari with horns. check out the arishok again:

flemeth and the arishok’s horns are almost exactly the same. they both bend backwards from the head, with an upward flick at the end. they both have that smaller horn beneath. and we see flemeth first.

flemeth’s headdress seen in da2 has now become her default #look, whereas qunari are still changing up each game. but we can’t deny this kind of spot-the-difference similarity, especially considering that this is established as flemeth’s look first, before we even see any qunari in da2.

(of course, we also see flemeth appear shortly after an ogre. another coincidence?)

demons

horned creatures in thedas (that we know of) are limited to qunari, some dragons, ogres, and flemeth’s headdress. demons are another story, though.

it’s worth noting that in all three games, the first boss you face is horned. in origins and da2, it’s an ogre. in inquisition, it’s a pride demon.

the only demons with horns (that i can think of, but please correct me if i’ve missed one) are pride demons & desire demons. pride demons actually look a lot like ogres, if you think about it:

they both have those slightly twisty horns, not to mention that they’re fuckin huge. pride demons & qunari don’t seem to have anything in common, really, apart from the stretch of ‘oh yeah horns’. honestly, if anything, pride demon horns look like halla.

desire demons are a little more what we’re talking about, though:

we’ve currently only seen two beings with horizontal horns that go outwards sideways, instead of going back from the head. those two are desire demons, and the iron bull. of course, iron bull’s horns aren’t curly, but they do also head upwards at the end.

demons and dragons

so we know there’s some kind of a link probably between qunari and dragons. WoT tells us that ‘the kossith race prayed to animist gods’ (vol 1 p127), and iron bull tells us that some qunari believe the tamassrans mix qunari and dragon blood to form reavers, qunari with special abilities.

and, you know, if that sounds familiar, it’s probably because it was a major plot point in origins.

the joining is, effectively, a blood magic ritual in which one imbibes dragon blood and gains special abilities/a massively slowed-down version of the taint/some kind of immunity to the taint/who knows, it makes you special okay. and the joining was invented sometime during the first blight, with the grey wardens being founded 100 years after the first kossith appeared in thedas.

considering tevinter’s obsession with ancient elvhen beliefs & magic, it wouldn’t be a massive stretch to suggest that they got the idea of the joining from, i don’t know, some kind of elvhen qunari-making ritual thing. in fact, it’d make a hell of a lot more sense than some dude just being like ‘lol drink this dragon blood it’ll be funny’ & then discovering he can save the world.

know something else about the joining? it can’t be just any dragon blood, of course – it’s got to be archdemon blood. the terminology & lore surrounding all this is kind of messy, in my opinion, but basically: old gods are dragons, who, when freed from wherever they’re hanging out (supposedly in the deep roads) become archdemons and lead the blight.

taking into account that at least some of this is definitely chantry bogus, and our new knowledge about the veil etc throws a lot of it into a completely different light, the whole dragon + demon relationship here is super interesting.

because, like. obviously not every creature with horns has to be related, that’d be silly. but idk, man, there’s a theory that elves are spirits made flesh, and if we’re going with the ‘mythal created the qunari’ theory then is it super far-fetched to suggest she did something involving spirits + dragons to create them?

so is any of this even remotely likely?

i’m not 100% on whether i believe mythal created the qunari, honestly. it feels like something that big would come into play somewhere, but i don’t think the franchise is gearing up for some big qunari-elvhen reveal. i do think both qunari and elves are gonna be super important going forwards, but that’s going forwards you know?

(not to mention the idea that qunari are somehow fabricated or grown in test tubes or whatever makes me super :/ bc they’re coded as poc & particularly meant to parallel islam (which is gross in its own right lmao), but i can’t really talk about it in any more depth than that)

but honestly, when has ‘not likely’ ever stopped me from speculating lmao

if i was gonna argue that mythal created the qunari, here’s what i’d say:

  • qunari designs are deliberately linked to elves (origins) and flemeth (da2), as well as ogres (WoT) and, by extension, other horned beings – especially considering the ogres in origins & da2 perform the same role as the pride demon in inquisition.
  • qunari are also linked in lore to dragons, as is flemeth/mythal. mythal’s dragon is also horned.
  • kossith are also linked to flemeth, as they first turned up in the korcari wilds, the same place we find flemeth in origins
  • the first kossith turned up around 100 years before the joining was invented; it’s highly likely that the joining is at least in part based off ancient elvhen rituals involving blood magic + dragons
  • the qunari have (allegedly) invented their own rituals involving blood magic + dragons, completely independently of the grey wardens. were they also based off ancient elvhen rituals, or passed down to them through their creator?
  • -410 ancient, the first time we hear about kossith, is way way too late for arlathan, which fell in -975; but honestly it wouldn’t be a stretch for the records to have been lost (thanks tevinter), the records to be somewhere we haven’t had access to them (u kno tevinter has a library of alexandria equivalent), or even for mythal to invent this whole practice after the fall of arlathan, as a direct response even maybe (if you watched your empire fall to tevinter, who better to invent than a race constantly at war with them?)
  • looking at the design & genetics of qunari, it’s honestly not a stretch at all to see elven, draconic, & even demonic influences

this is long as heck but basically in short: idk if i completely agree with this theory, but it sure is fun to think about holy hell

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****It’s been a rough week so far so I figured we could use a lil fluffy Roman. Idk if they’ll be more but I’ll try! Enjoy!

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After standing on my tippy toes and using the step stool Roman had gotten me on his last trip to Wally World, I was still unable to reach the large mixing bowl I needed from the cabinet. I didn’t want to but I knew I had to call him for help. Letting out a huff, I called out for him.

“Babe.”

Silence.

“Babe! Can you come ‘ere?”

Again, there was no response. This man needs a hearing aid.

“Roman,” I yelled moving around the island to the doorway of our kitchen. “Roman, come here!”

Finally, I heard his big feet walking across our hardwood floors until he reached the kitchen. A lazy smile stretched across his face, he asked me what I needed.

“Well, for you to clean your ears out.” I sass him turning my back to him going back to the island. “But for now, could you be a doll and grab me my mixing bowl? Please.”

I didn’t have to turn around to know that he had that cocky ass smirk on his face. Roman came and stood next to me, arms folded across his chest. He looked from the bowl in the open cabinet to my face.

“What?” I asked narrowing my eyes at him.

“Why would you put your bowl ALL the way up there?”

“You know damn well you did that, Ro!”

Fake innocence passed across his face making me laugh. His head jerked back seemingly appalled by my assumption.

“Why would I do that, babe?” He asked eyes dancing with humor.

“Cause you wanna see me struggle, jerk.”

“And what joy would I get about seein’ my four foot eleven fiancé struggle to get things?”

“You’d get a lot of joy, Ro,” I murmured. “And I’m five feet!”

Roman fell over laughing but I saw nothing funny. Maybe it was a little funny. There’s no way I’m telling him that. I side eyed him until he felt me staring and straightened up, trying to compose himself.

“How do I know you really can’t reach it? You do have that nice step stool I got ya.” His eyes narrowed at me and I couldn’t help but smile back at him. Even when he was a little annoying shit, I still found him adorable.

“Cause my lovely fiancé moved it to a higher cabinet that even on my stool I can’t reach,” I spoke through a fake smile.

He shrugged like he didn’t believe me as a sigh passed his lips. “I mean just humor me. Hop up there and show me that you can’t reach it. Then I’ll get it for you, doll.” Mumbling under my breath, I stood up on my tippy toes on the stool, reached then looked back at Roman with my brows raised. “See,” I stressed climbing down,“Now can you please get the bowl?”

His shoulders bounced as he let out a boisterous laugh. No matter how I tried to contain it, I laughed along with him. It was infectious. That didn’t stop me from flicking his bare bicep though.

“So not funny, Reigns.”

“It is pretty funny,” He shrugged grabbing the bowl for me. I reached to take the bowl from him but he moved it from my reach, pulling me into him with his free arm instead. Our lips met for a lingering kiss. “But I enjoy seeing you struggle for a reason other than that though.”

“And that would be?”

“You wouldn’t need me for anything if you were any taller.” A shy smile replaced the wide grin he had. Shy Roman is one of my favorite things in the world, right beside Savage Roman. “It makes me feel needed in a way that isn’t sexual.”

“But I thought you like when I need you sexually,” I pouted playfully.

“Oh, trust me I do. But you’re so independent it’s hard to find things you actually need me for.” He shrugged again looking into my eyes. “So you needing me for anything, small or big, makes me feel like I’m doing my job as your man.”


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Drabble. Bucky's wife pregnant and he's on a mission always panicking even though she's like 5 months along. Or.. drunk bucky calling or texting his gf/wife adoring messages. Idk. I'm in the mood for fluff. Sorry

don’t be sorry for fluff! and these are great ideas. just a disclaimer: i personally have never been pregnant so obviously i have no idea what pregnancy is like. so if i miss the mark, i apologize. and i kinda like the second prompt too so i might do that in a different post. this turned out to be longer than i anticipated. i hope you like it! 


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You were supposed to be doing computer work. It was part of this “light duty” shit that Steve forced you on when he found out you were pregnant. At five months, it had become too difficult to explain away the prominent, growing bump as you just getting fat. You kind of thought he did it as revenge for not telling the team sooner. But you didn’t want it to be a big deal. You were having a hard enough time fending off the ones that had known already. Like Wanda, because she could read freaking minds and had known pretty much exactly when you did. Her extra attention to you had gone mostly unnoticed, as well as the way that she’d use her powers to get you things rather than have you actually get up and retrieve it yourself. Admittedly, it was kind of nice, but unnecessary. You explained to her that you didn’t want to sit like a bump on a log for the next nine months. She had backed off some after that. But she was only half the problem. 


The other half of the problem was the one who you let knock you up in the first place. You loved your husband, you really did. And when you showed him the pregnancy test, you had to admit you were nervous. It was just a year into your marriage; the two of you weren’t even out of the honeymoon stage. Which was probably why this happened in the first place. You had been afraid that it was too soon for a baby. Hell, you guys had barely even talked about it. Bucky had seemed indifferent, and you hadn’t put much thought into it either. So your voice trembled as you told him the news, showing him the pregnancy test and explaining what that little plus sign meant. 

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Boyfriend! au - E’Dawn

Here’s a new series I’ve been trying to write in what little free time I have ! It’s a different style, but I think it fits my scatterbrain better than a normal story. So far, I am just going to write for Pentagon, and if people request it enough afterwards, I might possibly write for other groups ! Lemme know what you guys think. Enjoy reading :)

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(gamer! e’dawn)

  • You would be lying if you said you were attracted to hyo jung at first sight (sry edawn)
  • Like ofc ur not blind but the instant you saw him in the gaming cafe he was screaming in defeat…. So ofc ur like what a fuckin nerd lmao
  • Even tho ur no different you’re there to be a giant fuckin nerd too but that’s a okay
  • Luckily for you, the cafe is full the first time you go and you get to sit next to this crazy ass nerd & change ur life forever
  • The real reason why others don’t sit next to e’dawn is because he is the “king” of this cafe and intimidating af to other fellow gamers
  • Even tho you just saw him scream in defeat, that’s literally his first loss in the past month - he’s that good
  • …..at least until you start playing….

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College!AU Joshua
  • major: history
  • minor: religion 
  • sports: tennis team 
  • clubs: student council vice president, plays guitar for the college choir 
  • is the definition of a Model Student 
  • like to the point where the university used photos of him on their pamphlet for freshman orientation. literally like freshmen get it and the first thing they see is joshua smiling holding up a ‘History of the Roman Empire’ textbook
  • joshua regrets agreeing to do the shoot though because jun and hoshi have yet to let him live it down (they once covered his entire dorm room in the pamphlets it took joshua three whole days to get all of them down)
  • his gpa is 4.0 and he’s basically guaranteed to graduate summa cum laude (with highest honor) and he’s already getting emails from prestigious schools that are interested in having him come to then to get his phd and basically joshua is living the Good Life in terms of his future
  • and not only is he book smart, he’s also an angel that donates his time to volunteering to play guitar for free with the college choir on sundays at local churches and giving kids tennis lessons at a nearby orphanage and he’s just a blessing 
  • all of his friends are always in awe of him because like how does he do it,,,, how is he so,,,,, intelligent,,,,,and handsome,,,,,,and then also kind from the bottom of his heart??
  • like sometimes seungcheol is like “joshua, tell me the truth - you’re a robot.” and joshua’s like “seungcheol that’s literally impossible.” and dk makes like robot noises and seungcheol is like “joshua tell us come on tell us the government built you-” and joshua rolls his eyes like please
  • but yeah he’s just an all around genius who’s good at a sport and also sweet to the bone and everyone idolizes him and thinks he’s amazing
  • except
  • for
  • you
  • see joshua’s the vice president of student council and you’re the student affairs organizers and this is the year that the president, who is graduating, is going to pick the new president 
  • and ofc usually vice president steps up to the position but no - you’re going to change that. 
  • see the only reason you didn’t get to be vice president is because you transferred and the almighty joshua hong was already in that spot but you worked your way to one of the top spots next to the president and yOU beT yOUR bUTT haS Got A CHanCe especially considering the fact that you’re the reason every student event the council has planned so far has been a major success and treasurer wonwoo basically loves you because the council budget??? itS LIT (thanks to the entrance fees you made sure got paid for said events)
  • the president even complimented your monthly speed-friendship event, which is basically speed-dating ….. but for making new college friends
  • and joshua, as clean cut and all smiles and rainbows as he seems, knows you’re gunning for the same spot as him
  • and when no one’s looking you two are practically at each other’s neck in sarcastic comments and threats 
  • like he’s always making offhanded criticisms about your events and you’re always bringing up his mistakes in the memo briefs to the council or in the way his stupid glasses get askewed on his nose
  • and to everyone you seem like good friends because in council photos you’re standing beside each other smiling 
  • but then the minute you two get to be alone, it’s just jabs at each other like where he’s like “oh, another talent show? hope it’s not as boring as the last one.” and you’re like “aren’t you wearing that tie because the president wore it yesterday, you shouldn’t - it’s really not your color.”
  • you’re the only person on campus who sees joshua’s smile fade and his eyes turn sharp
  • and you know that he feels entitled to that position because of his dumb gpa and you just ///clenched fist all the time
  • because joshua has beat you in just about everything but this time you’re not going to let him
  • and it’s all going to be decided by the end of the year surprise graduation party the council is planning for the president and since you’re the student activities organizer, you’re the head of it but ever since you started getting ready joshua has refused to butt out
  • like you’ll be talking about budget with wonwoo and he’ll come in and make comments about how you don’t need to buy this or how useless it is to get that and you’re like “don’t you have other work to do like idk kiss ass to the president???” and josh is like “wow you’re so funny, it’s gonna be even funnier when the president ends up not liking the party.”
  • and you and joshua are just both on fire glaring at each other and wonwoo’s like ooooooookkkkkkaaayyyyy ill be going now
  • and literally joshua does not let you live and it frustrates you but you’re also like im going to make this party epic, he’s going to eat his words
  • and like the afternoon of the party you’re watching the volunteers decorate the council’s club room and you’re really happy and suddenly you see joshua and you think oh god
  • but then you see that he’s helping someone hang up the banner and you know,,,,,he seems like he isn’t doing something to ruin it and like for a second you look at him and notice that he’s actually really handsome when his glasses are off and he’s concentrated on something
  • but you’re like what no snap out of it, he’s evil and you concentrate on something else
  • and the night of the president’s celebration, you’re really glad that you went with like an upbeat party concept because the music is loud and everyones dancing closely and like you pull at your own clothes because they’re a bit tight because you’re like “as soon as the president names me the next president, im gonna get wild” 
  • and as you look around to find the president you see him but beside him is joshua and ok like
  • he’s your rival but you admit that he looks really nice wearing casual slacks and a button down that’s been opened at the top just a bit and like he doesn’t look so uptight and so you walk over
  • and the president’s like “this is great, im glad you didn’t make it all emotional with a speech and sad music” and you’re like whaaat ofc it’s 2016 we don’t need speeches (you crumple the speech you had in your hand lmfao)
  • and joshua’s like “it’s an ok party, i agree.” and you like snort like “it’s ok to you because you’re probably only used to parties with like what?? tea and old ladies??” and joshua’s like “excuse me” and you’re like “a goody two-shoes like you wouldn’t know how to have fun.”
  • and the president is like ??? are you two ok because he’s never seen you guys go at it but for some reason, maybe because you put a lot of effort into this, joshua’s comment really pisses you off and you grab his wrist and you’re like come with me
  • and you lead him out of the room and into the hallway and you’re like “why are you saying that in front of the president?” and joshua’s like “because - because-” and you’re like ???? why is it because i did another good job and you’re mad??? and he’s like no … i just im used to arguing with you- and you’re like
  • “ive been trying so hard to get on his good side because it’s the one thing i might achieve that you haven’t taken away from me, seriously, could you please for once just let it go and not try to put me down??” and joshua’s giving you this confused look and he’s like “put you down?? you always start with me first??”
  • and you guys apparently decide that right now right here is where you just let out all your emotions and you’re like joshua you’re perfect at everything just let me have this and he’s like no i can’t i want to be president and you’re like WhY YOU Have so many other responsibilities like let me do this
  • and you’re getting closer to him as you argue and he’s leaning down to you and like it’s heated like usual and there’s this anger but then you can literally feel his breath on your skin and you’re like 
  • “seriously joshua why do you take everything from me?” and he’s like “why do you love annoying me?” and you’re like “you’RE THE ONE that always makes stupid comments about my work-” and joshua throws his hands up like “yeah because have you ever seen how cute you get??” and you’re like what and he’s like what
  • and you’re like cute? i ? get? and joshua’s like
  • “what i mean is your reaction is funny - yeah funny it’s too funny to pass up on and like you poke at me too-” and you’re like “joshua hong. you’re my rival, but do you like me?”
  • and joshua opens his mouth but no words come out and you’re like ,,,,,,,,O H  m y g o d
  • and joshua is like ….. “you like me too, c’mon no one bothers each other so much like we do if they don’t have….mutual feelings right….”
  • and you can see him nervous in front of you for the first time with his eyes darting back and forth and you’re like 
  • well. like you think back on how much time you spent envying him for being so capable of everything and then you look at him and oh god damn it you have actually always found him,,,,,appealing 
  • you just thought it was all jealousy and used it as motivation to want to win but now that he’s here in front of you, sweaty palms and shyly looking down, he’s not your rival he’s your ?@??@@?/ crush //?!?!?
  • and you’re like “i-i-”
  • but you don’t say it, instead you lean in and confirm it by kissing him and you pull back like holy moly i did that and joshua’s like yeah. you …. did that
  • and you’re like,,,,,,,i liked it and he’s like oh thank god i liked it too
  • and it goes from snarky rivals to shy college kids in love and it’s like neither of you can believe this is happening and you’re both like “we’re crazy.”
  • but then you remember that RIGHt thE PresiDENT is mAKINg his CHOice tonight and you both run back inside and there’s the president and he’s like already talking over the room and he’s like 
  • “that’s why im giving my seat to…..wonwoo the treasurer!”
  • you and joshua are like WHAT and wonwoo is like oh god no no not this and he’s being pulled up to the president and you look at joshua and you’re like
  • “i might yell so…..” and joshua takes your hand and is like “me too, let’s go make out somewhere and let the stress out.”
  • and that’s the beginning of a beautiful relationship
  • where instead of wanting to win over joshua, you support him as he’s obviously on his way to being someone amazing and joshua supports you
  • and like when you come into the room holding hands and being cuddly and cute wonwoo is like ????? dont they hate each other and everyone’s like wHat no they’re not capable of hating each other they’re both so sweet and wonwoo’s like yall don’t know the dark truths ive witnessed
  • but you and joshua are literally like the sweet couple now like you learn that joshua is such a worry wart about everything he’s always like are you eating?? are you cold??? did you study??? and it’s cute like before you wanted to see each other fail but now it’s all about helping each other out
  • you go with joshua to see him play with the choir and he’s so good and you feel proud of him and it’s a new feeling but you like it and you cheer him on and when you’re walking back to the dorms joshua asks shyly if you’d like him to maybe play something just for you sometime and ofc you say yes
  • you’re both busy with a lot of work but you always call each other over the phone if you can’t see each other because joshua says hearing your voice really heals him
  • sometimes you’ll jokingly like tease him like you did before and he’ll be like “i know you’re playing, but seriously i hope we’re never like that to each other again,,,,,”
  • wonwoo doesn’t become president because he politely refuses and says either you or joshua should do it but for some reason neither of you agrees and when asked why you like lean against joshua’s arm and you’re like “we realized neither of us wanted to be in the spotlight, we just wanted to win…….and we did”
  • the winning means finding your mutual love for each other like what a win true love is the real prize u guys this is the moral
  • when joshua tells you about the offers he received from schools you’re like omg you’re going to be an amazing author or scholar one day and joshua scrunches up his nose and he’s like “i just want to be a simple teacher and have a normal life”
  • joshua wears a lot of like cardigans and like what you call ‘grandpa clothes’ but they’re all big and comfy so you steal them from him and joshua’s always like ,,,,, “is that mine?” and points to something you’re wearing and you’re like wHAAAA,,,,,yes
  • he thinks it’s super cute but all he can do is bite his lip and look down shyly
  • you guys studying together in the library because you’re the brain power couple and everyone is coming to you for help but when it’s quiet and you two are sitting across the table you hook your legs together and smile to each other hehe
  • when he’s super tired from everything happening he loves laying his head in your lap while you read aloud to him and play with his hair and it just relaxes him when everything seems so hard
  • you find out secret nerd joshua who stays up on weekends till 4 am watching anime on his laptop while also skyping you or something and he gets all childish and giddy about his favorite characters and you’re like how is this the same boy who has like 5 offers from the top continuing colleges in the country???
  • seungcheol asks joshua if he’s a robot once in front of you and you’re like @ seungcheol like are you a parrot, for asking the same question over and over again? and joshua’s like this is when i love your snarky side coming back and seungcheol is floored and dk is laughing his butt off
  • before you and joshua were cold to each other but now he’s basically a soft mushy mess for you and it’s cute you see him blush so much and you’re like i never want him to stop he looks so damN cute you like squish his cheeks in your hands and joshua’s like ,,,,stopppp,, and you’re like ,,,,,,,,you’re so cute and he’s like don’t tease me and you’re like but it’s truE 
  • you’re like joshua when did you first start liking me and joshua’s like ,,, remember the first time we meet and you told me to ‘watch out’ because you were going to come and beat me
  • and you’re like omf ….i said that
  • and joshua laughs and he’s like no ones ever so confidently challenged me at anything, it was kind of a good feeling to have a real rival
  • and you’re like oh my god you liked me because i tried to fight you and he’s like kinda,,,,,,,but now we dont ever have to fight because we love each other
  • and you’re like yeah but what about - tICKLE fiGHts and you  go for his sides and joshua’s like kbadgfbgeirg N Ooooooo and it’s cute he like holds you close to stop you from tickling him and aww you’re like two cute kids
  • the past president of the student council somewhere: hmmm wonder if joshua + you are dating now, i always thought they had a thing for each other LOl

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Dean / Jealousy Looks Good on You

You take a sip of your martini, surveying the lot of people in the crowded bar. Usually you would opt for something stronger, but you weren’t in the mood to get shitfaced tonight. You were so, so tired after a long night of hunting. It was the boys who convinced you to go to this bar, and you were cursing their names mentally for bringing you here.

Speaking of the boys, where were they?

You scanned the crowd to look for their stupid, annoying-ass faces. Your eyes landed on Sam first - obviously, because he’s a giant - and you see that he’s dancing with a girl who is almost two feet shorter than him. You roll your eyes at the laughable height difference; she looked like his child rather than a love interest. Moving on, you try to spot Castiel, but give up after a while, assuming he’s outside or taking care of some angel crap. Finally, your eyes land on Dean, who is shamelessly flirting with a young, very drunk blonde girl. She keeps touching his arm and laughing loudly in an equally shameless flirting fashion. They were perfect for each other - well, at least for a one night stand.

The hunt you had just finished took place in a town that was near your hometown, and you feared seeing anyone you knew. You had seen a few faces you recognized from your graduating class, but you made a beeline in the other direction in order to avoid them. You didn’t think they would notice you, because you looked fairly different compared to your high school years, but you still dreaded the horribly painful small talk that would follow.

Enjoying the fruity taste of your more feminine drink, you try to relax and scroll through Instagram. You probably looked like an absolute loner to all the outgoing partiers, but you didn’t really care.

Someone took a seat that was two down from you; you hardly noticed, immersed in your social media. It wasn’t until they began ordering their drink of choice that you faintly recognized the man’s voice.

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Guilt Part 2

A/N. Sooooo, this was so highly requested that I just had to do another part. (I also wanted to because holy mother of gods I’m so into writing this and I’m stopping myself from making it too fast paced and it’s so hard but yeah) But this will be the penultimate part, I’ve decided. I’m just so invested in portraying Draco as the character he really is - he’s truly a kind and caring person, but of course he’s got this dark side and idk he’s BEAUTIFUL AND HOT. But I hope you enjoyed this, and for some reason this chapter reminds me of ‘Famous Last Words’ by MCR, so if you want to give that a listen, go on ahead :)

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When you go on a park date with Moonbin

This is the fluffier version I promised to do for the lovely (Graduated!) anon who requested a really fluffy Moonbin (or Rocky) date in a park scenario. This is a lot fluffier than the one I posted before even though the concept is the same~ 

this is also a lot better in terms of writing so idk… i personally enjoy this one more than the one i posted earlier but anyway, i hope you liked both~ i mostly wrote this for myself since i wasn’t pleased with the first one ><


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Fluff oh god it feels so good to write some fluff once in a while TuT

Originally posted by wonshik-a


”What?” you asked the smiling boy who was walking next to you, holding your hand gently. He had been taking glances at you while smiling widely for a good ten minutes now.

“Nothing,” he said and looked away but the smile remained on his lips.

“Is my face that amusing?” you asked, raising your eyebrows.

“No,” he chuckled. “I’m just smiling for no reason.”

“Bin,” you nudged him a little. “Is there food between my teeth again? I swear-“

“No, nothing like that,” he laughed and turned to look at you. “It’s nothing bad.”

“Then why are you smiling?”

“It’s a secret,” he teased, making you roll your eyes.

You two kept walking on the sidewalk what went through a park that was filled with people. Some were on a picnic, some were exercising, some were taking a walk just like you and your boyfriend. The weather was nice, it wasn’t too hot but still warm enough for people to go around wearing short-sleeved shirts.

You noticed a young girl running towards you two. She wasn’t looking ahead and ended up bumping into Bin. She fell on her butt and looked up at him.

“Are you okay?” he asked, a little worried and crouched down.

The girl was obviously mesmerized by his looks and just stared at him in awe while he helped her stand up. Bin checked her arms for injuries and when he realized she wasn’t hurt anywhere, he looked at her.

“You should look ahead when you run,” he said gently and the girl nodded, making you chuckle.

Bin stood up and slightly ruffled the girl’s hair with a smile. “Don’t bump into anyone else,” he said and you two continued walking, leaving the small girl behind. You glanced back and saw the girl just staring at the two of you with a look that you found really cute.

“She fell for you,” you chuckled and nudged your boyfriend. “Literally.”

He gave a laugh. “Yeah, she reminds me of you.”

“What? Oh, please,” you gave him a look. “Weren’t you the one who shyly asked for my number after hesitating for a month or something?”

“Oh, yeah,” he smiled widely. “I forgot about that. I was so nervous I almost cried when I really did it.”

You chuckled.

“But I wasn’t the only one. Remember how nervous you were on our first date?”

“Don’t remind me of that,” you whined when the embarrassing memory of your first date hit you.

“You broke like, what, was it three plates? We almost got kicked out of the restaurant.”

“Bin!” you whined. “I was just feeling extra shaky that day.”

He laughed. “Yeah, yeah, I believe you.”

“I can tell you don’t mean it,” you told him.

“No, really,” he was still laughing. “I believe you.”

You gave him a look before looking away with a small smile.

It was nice to hang out with him like this. Usually you two didn’t have much time alone since your and his friends liked to tag along whenever you planned something. It didn’t really bother you since you still had a lot of fun even though there were a lot more people around than you had originally planned but it was nice to be alone with him every once in a while.

“Hey,” Bin said and you looked at him. “Out of all the dates we’ve been on, what has been your favorite so far?”

You looked away and thought about it for a bit. “I think my favorite is probably that one movie night date we had at my place.”

“Do you mean the date when we both fell asleep less than half an hour after the movie started?”

You nodded and chuckled. “And we woke up in the morning, both confused.”

He chuckled too, remembering the date. “It was so funny when we realized we had just fallen asleep on the sofa and slept the night there.”
You two kept chuckling for a while and when you finally stopped, you could feel something fall on your head. You looked up and felt a drop of water hit your cheek.

“Oh, it’s starting to rain,” Bin said and looked up.

Some people were starting to leave and some took out their umbrellas to stay in the park a little longer despite the rain.

You looked at Bin. “Do you have an umbrella?”

“Nope,” he said. “Do you?”

You shook your head. “I didn’t think it would start raining. What do we do now?”

He looked around for a bit and the rain was starting to get stronger.

“Bin?” you called his name.

“I got an idea,” he said and without another word, you two hurried under a pretty big tree. You were quite surprised by how well it blocked the rain.

“There shouldn’t be any lightning so I think this is a pretty safe option,” he smiled widely.

“Let’s stay here for a bit,” you said and ran you fingers through your hair to dry it a little.

Bin helped you and it didn’t take long before you found yourself just standing there, leaning against the tree while he ran his fingers through your hair repeatedly. He was extremely focused on your hair and you observed his expression. You found him cute and chuckled, making him look up from your hair.

“What?” he asked, a little confused.

“Nothing,” you said with a smile.

“Tell me,” he pouted and let go of the strand of hair he had been holding gently.

You couldn’t resist his pout. “You looked so cute while focusing on my hair that I couldn’t help but chuckle.”

“Really?” he grinned.

“Just a little,” you couldn’t stop smiling.

He cupped your face with his cool, slightly damp hands and leaned in for a kiss. It was a sweet kiss that left you with a fluttering heart and slightly pink cheeks. He was smiling widely when he ended the kiss.

“What?” you asked when he just kept staring at you with that wide, cute smile.

“Nothing,” he answered.

“Nothing?” you repeated.

He let out a small chuckle.

“Tell me. Why are you smiling like that?” you asked, curious.

He rested his forehead against yours. “Because I just can’t believe how lucky I am to have you.”

Idubbbz and Tana Mongeau - when you pick the wrong guy to fuck with

Oh boy, this drama is gunna be messy.

This is probably going to be less of a rant and more of a warning annnnd slightly educational.. lol

actually im just really angsty today, seen all this slander about one of the best youtubers to exist, so i gotta vent here we go

What happens when your channel is run-of-the-mill clickbait-y shit, can’t take a joke/dont know what satire is, and you call out the most savage person to ever internet whose entire platform is based on decimating YouTube careers without refute?

Dear god Tana, do you know what you’ve gotten yourself into? I would say she’s oblivious, but I don’t think that’s the case. Her first tweet to idubbbz before all this happened was back in December (I believe? Too lazy to find it rn) where she called him out on his use of “the N word” and “retard”. What I find ironic is that directly after that she told him to kill himself 😂(butthatsnunofmybusiness). Irony is a beautiful thing.

ANYWHO, to anyone who finds these offensive and racist and isn’t familiar with idubbbz, sit the fuck down a moment. (If ur offended and traumatized by “the n word” and other shit like that u may want to shield your eyes in the next part to avoid being traumatized. Wouldn’t want to end up like Tana, would we?) *ahem* now listen up buttercup

1. The term “n***er faggot” and “gay retard” pertain to people who have said it to idubbbz in the past in hate videos. He is parodying those people who tried to demean him by saying those things. it is a long running joke on his channel.

2. His channel content consists of this amazing concept called s a t i r e. If you don’t know what that means, look it up, remember it, don’t forget it, because that term will allow you to thrive on the internets and most likely survive in the real world. With its power you can have fun, and experience freedom in elevated proportions. Any slur he uses is never used in seriousness - like I said, it is a long running parody on his channel. He is not intentionally being racist or offensive or whatever other label you can pull out your ass.

3. Learn to laugh ffs? This dude legit has vids of eating shit out of sewers and dumpsters. Why. Why would you take anything he says seriously

Now to the rant part yey

The thing that pisses me off the most is the blatant. fucking. lie Tana told. She described in her video that Ian had put her in a “choke hold” of some sort, which i’d expect to be around the fucking neck right? And apparently, he was also talking really loudly goading her to say “the n word”

now here’s the reality:


(here’s the OG vid)

wow he’s just choking the life out of her makE IT STOP WHAT A TRAUMATIZING EXPERIENCE

Things i do see: A genius joke

Things i dont see: a choke hold, loud voice, or goading of any kind

For those still confused as to what the joke is, is goes back to her december tweet. he must have found it funny. her tweet is so ironic and priceless how could he not? its the most atypical idiotic white girl tweet from a youtuber, so he decided to show up at her expensive-ass meet and greet to continue the joke (which im hoping was intended for a future content cop in the first place). He’s standing there as if taking a picture with her, and here is the best part. Instead of “say cheese,” he says “say n***er”.

GOD I LOVE THIS MAN

What im most curious about how that’s a chokehold of any kind. Truamatized? GIRL HOLY SHIT I WOULD SELL EVERY LIMB TO JUST BE IN THE SAME ROOM AS IDUBBBZ, LET ALONE HAVE THE FUCKER STAND NEXT TO ME. TOUCH MY PLEBIAN EXISTENCE EVEN. FUCK

some people just arent worthy. the world doesnt deserve you, idubbbz. im sorry.

another thing; she said in her younow mental breakdown that it was idubbbz himself who sent his followers to bully her. bitch where? he didnt say a damn thing (yet). She’s kinda done this to herself entirely, and is now wondering why. First off she started this shit on twitter, then lied, then attacked him on twitter for something he didnt even do?? what. the fuck? he did absolutely nothing but try to make a joke. you know what in some ways i feel bad for her not only because she’s unwittingly screwed with the most immortal community on youtube right now, but because she cant see the problem is her and it’s only going to get worse if she keeps it up jfc. I dont necessarily think she’s the worst person on yt either (though i havent watched many of her vids). If she didn’t blow things out of proportion she might’ve been able to salvage what she had left of her yt career. I guess sometimes mediocre content isnt enough. Often times I hope idubbbz just let’s it go for her sake but…idk, he hasn’t done anything yet and who the hell knows. Honestly I don’t like people being sent hate. But when ur ignorant its gonna fucking happen. Especailly when you think you’re morally superior to someone when you are in no place. ESPECIALLY when you dont know the facts. Choose your battles wisely.

anyway I’m not even entirely pissed at the situation, but ooo the god awful fans of hers. They’re taking e v e r y thing in idubbbz videos out of context and making them ‘offensive’ to push their anti-dubbbz agenda. Like, did yall actually watch the videos?? satire ????? ironic humour ???? do any of you know what this is???? do you even fuckin meme bro ?? ? ? ? why would i expect any less from the fans of this type of melodramatic girl who makes shitty content??? and just slander and misinfo in general dear fucking god when will the sjw trend die

well i only have one last thing to say about this: Tana, say goodbye to your youtube career. you wanted to milk this, you couldnt just solve this in peace. instead of owning up to your mistakes you’re going to play the victim, like every other youtuber that gets destroyed. The rest of the sane internet can smell that content cop from here.

TL;DR: do not fuck with the god of youtube comedy. it will not end as planned. Just go with the joke next time, aight?

nuff said.

A leader has to rule.

Paring: Negan x Reader

Warnings: Some injuries mentioned?, Language, and a couple drama.

P.S: I didn’t knew exactly what I wanted but I think it run out of my initial idea. I use as base some things that happened on the show, and I inclement some things to add more .. idk, “meaning” .I hope you guys like it. And I would love hear what you guys have to say. Xoxo L.

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Negan enters in his room after killing the doctor, “it has to be done” he thought. He sits on the couch and stare into space “how things went through this? Why Sherry leave? And why they had to free Daryl? I was almost making him crack under my hands. Fuck it” he thinks while he got up and went through get so whiskey.

*Y/N POV*

Was a pretty day today, after a while being here in Sanctuary and getting to understand all the point system (not that I worked with it, I’m one of Negan wives after all so I don’t need move a muscle, but I don’t want to get lazy with my ass doing nothing all day just drinking and eventually having sex with Negan, that is something I can’t complain tho.) I get to know that Negan was pretty smart about all that. How he make the saviors work and how he get everyone to fear him.

Going back inside while I had a little escape and getting the top of the trees to think about how my life get into that point. I went to the infirmary to find no one there, and after walking through the huge place I found Eugene, being honest I hated the guy, never understand why Abbe and Rosita keeps him alive since the only thing he does is complain and cry all the time. I honestly always wanted to shot him in the fucking face. I mean we always fight, and since he got into the group we just protected him, my group.. well, ex group, don’t needed that weight on our shoulders. Not more than we already had.

“Y/N, hm, had a time we didn’t see, I thought complete understandable why you leave to live here with Negan. But I thought you was being raped by the amount of males workers that are kept here or being treated as maid, not healthy with a hydrated face and clean clothes and hair. Are you really Negan wife? I mean wives?” Eugene says with a speed that I wanted to tell him to talk slowly or no talk at all.

“Well, hello for you too Eugene. Yes, I’m.” I said calmly like I have nothing to do. And honestly, have I ?

“I don’t know if you’re aware of the conditional that your husband put me to proceed, but since I’m Negan and I am of his trustworthiness. I will work as the sanctuary doctor, being honest I don’t like seeing people in bad physical conditional, and I’m a Doctor, I have doctorate and I am the most capable, but still..” without him finish his sentence I cut him.

“Woll woll woll, WHAT? You’re Negan ? You’re the new doctor ? What the fuck happened here while I was out? Where the fuck is the real doctor?” I said as my chest was going to explode with so many doubt, what the hell had happened here?

“Well, since I think your brain is not filled with the news, I suggest you to look for your husband” Eugene says with that “un-expression” look as always.

I walk through Sanctuary trying to find Negan, after seen some faces with tears and fears, and some faces looking at me with a disgust that I honestly don’t know where it came from, maybe it was cause I have some “value” to Negan, or that I had more comfort.. but if they’re going to hate someone for having privileges they can hate the others wives, at least I work a little bit over here.


When I got to Negan room, hoping he is there to explain me. I open the door and I see him sit on his couch without his jacket, a whiskey cup on hand, and Lucille aside. When he see me he open a small smile. I didn’t wasted time asking about the recent events.

“What happened? Why Eugene is calling himself the new doctor? Why the Doc isn’t there? Why everyone around here is looking at me with a strange face? Why Simon and a bunch of your minions left right now since you guys got all the things you wanted in last week?” I says without breathing between so much confusion overwhelming me.

“Wow, first stop screaming at me. Second I had a fucked up day today right? Daryl run out, Sherry is dead, I had do hear Dwight telling me that the Doc was acting as a bitch towards me cause he helped Sherry run out letting Daryl run out and Daryl killed Fat Joseph … Meaning that my day isn’t the best. So stop looking at my like I shit in your scrambled eggs, cause this is not gonna work Y/N !” Negan says looking really pissed off.

“Wait, Daryl was still here? YOU LIE TO ME? YOU TOLD YOU TOOK HIM BACK TO ALEXANDRIA” I says so pissed. When Negan told me he would let my friends go, I went really confused why he would do that, and one night he was drunk and told that was cause he loves me “as fucking fuck” and he would never imagined that he would do that one day. But if anyone asked me was to me says because Rick had cooperated. That day he was so adorable, drunk and telling so many cheesys lines with some of his “language” that was a funny night. But now he lie to me about Daryl, and I look at him with some fear and rage that I fear what my next actions would be.

*NEGAN POV*

I can’t believe I let it out, I don’t like lying to Y/N, but I couldn’t lost Daryl, he can be a great ass saviour for me one day.

“Okay but I don’t let him. Stop acting like that” I say while I got more whiskey to try get that day a little easier.

“You don’t? Honestly Negan? YOU PROMISE ME, YOU TOLD ME YOU LET THEM GO,ALL OF THEM, INCLUDING DARYL. YOU TOLD ME THA..” Y/N says and I can’t let her finish her sentence. My head exploding with all that happens in that fucking day.

“I KNOW WHAT THE HELL I TOLD YOU, I SAY WHAT I NEEDED TO SAY. YOU WANTED YOUR FRIENDS FREE, WELL THEY’RE FREE. DARYL WASN’T IN ALEXANDRIA, HE WAS HERE, AND UNDER MY CONTROL. YOU SHOULD BE MORE GRATEFUL. I NEVER LET ANY FUCKERS OUT. I LET THOSE BASTARDS GO BECAUSE OF YOU. YOU CAN’T TELL ME WHAT TO DO. I RULE THAT PLACE, NOT YOU, NOT ANY OF THE SAVIORS, NOT ANY OF THE WIVES. AND TALKING ABOUT WIVES WHY YOU DON’T SEAT YOUR ASS WITH THEM AND STOP ANNOYING ME” without I even realized I throw the whiskey glass around the room hitting the wall hard and spilling my favorite whiskey all over the place. I let all my frustration out and when I look at Y/N she was terrified… I fell so idiot. I never EVER had saw her like that, she have tears in her eyes, and a fear that I never saw in any goddamn face; look like I just had killed her favorite animal or something bad like that.

“Doll listen..” I start to say going to touch her arm when she give 2 steps behind getting away from me.

“No. Don’t … Don’t touch me” She is actually in shock, holy fuck.

“Y/N I had a hard day, I didn’t want to kill the doctor I sort like the fucker but I can not lose control over here” I says more calmly that time. Y/N face was blank, I guess she didn’t knew about the Doc. Fuck! … “Y/N listen i know you liked the doctor okay, but lis…” she didn’t let me finish when she whips her tears away.

“NO, YOU LISTEN! .. I .. I” Y/N start to say but I bet she is having that gut pain when you try to say something but your emotions are overwhelming. I start to talk but I immediately shut my mouth since I know she have to say what she is trying to.

“I know I don’t rule here, and I honestly am NOT trying to tell you what the fuck do in that place Negan! But don’t ever lie to me; Daryl is one of the most important people in the world to me. And yes you let my friends go and I do appreciate it!, yes I’m living well here, but do not DO NOT compare me to the others girls!” She says and without me realizing she is putting her finger in my chest like she wants to make a hole there.

I made a hell good action letting her friends go, all the supplies I let go. All the ammo.. everything. And I known that her heart are gentle, and I probably fucked her heart making her knowing that her friend was here but I couldn’t lose a badass that would totally become a crazy Savior to work for me.

“Listen doll, stop acting like that. I know you’re a badass, I know you’re a feisty little one. But don’t appoint to me and mistreat me you can regret that” I says not wanting to making her have scare of me, but I can not let her tell me what to do. She needs to realize where she belong to. I’m the king here.

“You will do what hu? ‘Lucille me’?, Throw me to the walkers? Go to Alexandria and kill more of my friends and make me know that you can do what the fuck you want because you’re Negan ?. You know what ? KILL ME, cause is awful trust someone that don’t care enough to let you know the things that are going on. You killed the Doc! What you have on your mind? Now here don’t have any doctor.. oh oh you want Eugene ? EUGENE CAN’T BRUSH HIS TEETH WITHOUT SCREWING SOMETHING UP NEGAN… you know what? FUCK YOU” Y/N throws her back to me and start walking to the door. I’m exhausted cause of the day but no one will tell me how to do my things, not even doll.

“YOU’RE NOT LEAVING” I says while I close the door and locked it, I turn her around to face me and I hold her body against mine to the door not letting her move. She looks into my eyes with those fucking big ass gorgeous eyes of hers.

*Y/N POV*

While I look at him, that gorgeous motherfucker. I try hold my tears back. I mean after all I saw him doing .. Abbe and Glenn; The psychological terror he made towards Rick; After saw him putting a fucking hot iron in a man face and .. and others unnamed things.. But all I can think is that how fucked up it’s when you’re in love with someone, when doesn’t matters how plenty fucked up things he do, you’ll always look for the good ones. Like how Negan don’t let any of the Saviors had sex or anything that can make the wives sad or scary.. and is not cause is “Negan propriety” he don’t let anyone abuse a woman! And I think that is real good thing, always were a bad world when we think about mans having they way with a woman, and now after the world ended it seems worse! And having people that do not let it happens and especially punish who does it, it’s something really good. Why I can’t hate Negan? Is because that sexy grin on his face? How he look peaceful when he sleeps? How he hug me and make me feel safe?! .. I judged Andrea back there cause of the Governor; I thought it was stupid that she didn’t torn his throat as he slept in Woodbury.. Did Andrea felt for him what I fell for Negan? At least she didn’t knew what the Governor was doing with us, I know what Negan is doing, that make me a bad person?

“Stop looking at my eyes in that way doll. You can not throw all that shit on me and just leave like you’re a motherfucking queen” Negan says looking at me with a expression of anger yet tiredness.

“I don’t think I’m. I just hate when people lie to me. I just want to know what is going on. Why you killed the Doc?” I ask in a calm tone, not wanting him to scream with me, and I honestly am sad. I spent some days at infirmary with the Doc helping with the injured and sick ones, the Saviours always come back with some injuries, and was not bad since they couldn’t stare at my ass, or breast or anything (cause of course Negan). I like doing something, and me and the doctor talks, talks about life before the apocalypse, how he worked with his mother on a market on south of Georgia to pay his med college, how he traveled to New York every yeah for a Medical Meeting and loves the weather… normal things. And now he is dead. And I sure as hell wanna know why.

“He act on my back. He and Sherry plan to free Daryl, and he help Sherry to run away.”

“Doesn’t seems like he did it. Why you think it was him?” I ask still with the door behind my back and Negan close looking down to see my eyes.

“D told me, he went to look Sherry and made sure she was dead”

“And you think he is telling the truth ?”

“Why wouldn’t him darlin’? I don’t think he would lie to me since he don’t want I meeting with the hot iron, I mean not again”

“And because Dwight told you so, you killed th doctor? The one that sewed you thousands of times? That helped me when I went on a bad run with you on that day and get scratch on a old market pile of spikes?”

“Listen doll, if you’re sad cause you think we got no doctor around to stitch our asses up when necessary, don’t worry. Simon just leave to Hilltop to get they doc”

“No Negan, is not cause of this. Is because he was a friend. Was nice having someone to talk besides you. I don’t talk with any Saviour since no one look at me with fear that you might get jealous and rip their faces off; I don’t talk with the wives since they hate me cause I can walk around, I can wear what I want, and since I can spend more time here with you; I like Simon but he barely here; And you know I hate Dwight and hate when he used Daryl things before I told him to give back when you freed him…” I say looking away with a sarcastic laugh “But of course it didn’t made any difference since all was a fairy tale for me think 'Oh Negan might have a heart and care for something besides his own ego’ ” I say and when I see his expression going pissed I say “Oh sorry, I don’t want to get killed too” in minus a second he punch the side of the wall pretty close on my face.

“Fuck it Y/N. Why are you making this difficult? I made what it had to be done. And don’t worry about Daryl, he run out right? So don’t get on your pants.” He says with a expression of pure anger. When I look down he grabs my face on his hands hard and make me look at him “Do not act like that, you know you’re my favourite and you better know that I can change my mind really fuckin’ fast. I can throw you to work with the others normal ass people; I can go to Alexandria and get everything back and maybe bring some old friends of yours to style the entrance of the Sanctuary. Everything can change so stop thinking you’re in a pedestal cause you’re fucking not into one Y/N” he says letting my face go. My eyes tearing of the though of him hurting more my fami..old family*. I honestly don’t care to not be one with privileges anymore, I love him but I don’t care for my feelings that much, I care about my friends. He turns around and go grab another glass of whiskey and sit on his couch and grab Lucille with the other hand and start looking at her..

*Negan POV*

Y/N stay there looking at me with a sad face, God knows how I want to kiss that face and let her know that I did what had to be done. But in the phase I can’t go on my knees and apologize to her.

“Can I go now?” Y/N ask looking at me as a stupid parent just look when they beat they kids. Which is bad cause I know Y/N had “parents trauma” shit.

“Yes, you can” I say looking through the window. I want to ask her to stay, to take a shower with her and sleep. I’m so motherfucking tired.

“Y/N…” I say when she looks back at me .. I can’t ask her to stay. “Ask some fucker to come here to clean the glass around here.” And with that she nods sadly with hurt on her eyes and walk away.

I probably will ask one or two of the others wives to come here to make me nut and forget about that goddamn day, fuck I never would care of killing someone that I would even imagine that was working against me, but seen doll face like that.. a face of fear towards me, after all the nights we shared with her looking at my eyes and with our bodies pressed against each other, a look of pure love and lust, a look that I wanted to froze the time and live forever on those gorgeous eyes, now, now is only fear and disgust. Why I fuck everything I love?.

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