I hope you don't mean me asking but.. why are you depressed? ;-; Sry im a little new here, idk if you answered that thing
When I was younger I had no friends at all, even my cousins at school didn’t want to play with me, I got bullied, harassed sexually by familiars and called names, my dad died when I was 10. I had no friends until high school. That’s when I made a few friends but i was depressed by then. So yea, it developed ever since I was young.