So as some of you may know, my name is Marissa. I’m a 22 year old mother of an adorable 2 year old boy, and for the past couple of years I’ve been in an up-and-down battle with weight. I’ve come a LONG way from where I was, and have been learning more and more about living a “fit” lifestyle along the way. So - I decided that maybe I could start this blog in an attempt to connect with others who may be kind of in the same boat, or struggling themselves with what they can do to see results, or whatever! I’ve been receiving a lot of positive (along with some negative, but you’ll always have someone with something to say!) feedback from my progress posts and with that feedback have come some questions; i.e. how did you do it? what workouts do you recommend for your tummy? are you on a diet? etc. & I kind of wanted to be able to have a place to answer those questions, from my friends and fellow tumblr users as well!
So I guess I’ll give a little background!
I gave birth to my son on August 23, 2012 and I tell you what, that was the best day of my life. There is nothing as wonderful as bringing a precious baby into this world! I loved the feeling of being a new Mommy and snuggling up with my sweet baby boy. Everything was perfect!
Theeeeen I had my 6 week check-up.
I had gained ten pounds since having gave birth to my son. If anything, I should have lost at LEAST 8 pounds. That was kind of the moment, I think, where I hit a mental rock bottom. I was fat. I was fatter than I was when I was 41 weeks pregnant. I couldn’t explain how disgusting I felt.
Not too long after I had already come out of denial that I didn’t look “that bad” for just having a child, I went to the store with my fiance and bumped into a girl I had known in high school - who then proceeded to post online how I was so fat. Another slap in the face. But, I brought it on myself. And that was the worst part. I couldn’t “blame” being fat on being pregnant anymore.
I decided I needed to do something. I was tired of being tired, of getting winded from walking up a flight of stairs, I couldn’t run for longer than a minute at a time. It was pathetic, honestly. Then I started to think about my Lil’ Man and how I’m a young mother… Too young to be too lazy to go out and throw a ball around or play superheroes or go on a walk. Something had to give, and it had to be me and my excuses.
I tried going to the gym, but soon realized that I wasn’t seeing any progress. I was TOO easy on myself… (I still have the worst mental battles when it comes to pushing myself through a workout, but it gets easier!) I would tell myself after 20 seconds of a lightttt jog that it was time for a rest. It was going nowhere, and I was wasting my money on a gym membership.
Then I started searching progress pics on Instagram, and a lot of people were posting “Insanity” pictures. I had done some p90x videos in school, but never really tried a set program. My sister-in-law had a copy of Insanity that she let me borrow, and I was in LOVE! (I sound like a beachbody rep but I swear by the program, I actually just bought the Insanity Max:30 program!)
Along with Shaun T. kicking my ass and making me cry, I started paying more attention to what I was shoving down my throat. Cutting portion sizes/cutting back on junk food snacking has been my hardest obstacle. I tell people I was a black hole that was never satisfied, and that’s loosely accurate. I could eat a whole digorno rising crust pizza and still have room. fjhdajkfhdakfhdak disgusting. (Granted, pizza is the most important food group, this was still a bit excessive.)
I’ve been trying to improve my workouts lately by being more conscious of “little” things that make a huge difference - keeping your core tight, focusing more on breathing, keeping your butt down, knees behind toes, etc. & I can already feel a difference in strength and progress in my workouts!
I just want to have this page here to share my own success, celebrate with others for their own accomplishments in their journey, offer any help I can to anyone who has questions, whatever! I know when I first started trying to make a change, it was hard for me to go and ask for help, even with basic questions. I loved finding other women, mothers especially, who have made a huge change in their lives, because I felt they offered a bit more realistic advice than say someone who’s always been somewhat thin and has been awesome at toning. Losing THIS much excess weight/fat is HARD, and I don’t want anyone to ever feel like they don’t have someone to reach out to, cry to, complain to!
I also acknowledge that I am not a fitness professional, and any advice that I offer has been obtained from personal experience/read/informed by a fitness professional/etc.
I hope this blog is useful to someone, and I hope everyone lives their life in 2015 in a healthy and active lifestyle!