idk what i'm doing with my life if something happens to one of them

anonymous asked:

ok everyone is constantly on about neil and allison and neil and matt but WHERE are my discussions on neil and kevin?? don't even TRY and tell me they're not lowkey besties

OH MY FUCKING GOD MY GUY,,, DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED i wrote a whole fucking essay on neil and kevin trying to get into the extra josten squad i’m never ok. anyway even tho i said don’t get me started,,,, im getting started

OK. LIKE. their relationship is so fucky to start with. neil looks at kevin and sees everything he could have had. he’s just… jealous in a lot of ways. but it takes him like 0 time to realise that actually, kevin’s life has been pretty shit, and he’s IMMEDIATELY protective of kevin. like,, he’s so pissed off at kevin for pressuring him into being on kathy’s show but he totally gets where he’s coming from and as soon as riko starts being an asshat he’s just like “you know what? my life isn’t worth anything. i’ll give it up for kevin. no question.” no doubt, he’s a ride or die motherfucker and he gives it all up for kevin


he doesn’t even last two pages and then he’s just. so fucking pissed he literally can’t even let riko talk anymore. what kind of a gem

oh my god and this is just like… the start. this is the first book. this is pretty much the first time neil shows any type of care for anything except surviving this year. he was gonna run away before he even saw riko, and here riko’s not looking at him and he paints a target on his back for kevin??? i love him

alright and that’s not all. it’s not just neil adopting kevin. kevin straight up adopts that boy too. he loves neil for his exy, and he’s certain he’ll make court, but do you see him inviting anyone else to practice at night? nope. AND AS SOON AS KEVIN FINDS OUT THAT NEIL IS NATHANIEL HE DOES THE SAME THING he doesn’t defy riko or smth not yet but

HE STRAIGHT UP ADOPTS NEIL RIGHT BACK!!! and i dont even have to show u guys this quote its the fucking apex of their relationship-

OH MY GODDDDD he believes so much in neil!!!! he’s so fucking upset that neil can’t have a future. he wants that for our boy as much as we do; like nothing else that has happened has hurt kevin that much. 

and they see themselves in each other. they SEE that they’re basically just alternate timelines of each other - that one small difference could have made either one of them into the other

a BUNCH of their compassion for each other comes because they know what they’re looking at. they’re looking at themselves, if there had been one small change in their lives. and both of them know that it wouldn’t have been good either way - both routes were torture in different ways. kevin has a future, but the moriyamas will always be hanging over them; neil was free for a while, but it won’t last. they KNOW that for each other and that fuels them. there’s a bond there that just can’t be ignored ok??


even nicky comments like “kevin has CLEARLY just done something nice for neil but kevin’s a BRAT” like. kevin cares so fucking much,, he’s like “you know what? if i were in neil’s shoes i would already be fucking wasted. idk if it will help but if he wants to he should be able to. i got u, bro.” what a BOY. i love him they’re the best friends

and okay if anyone needs more- i swear i’m wrapping this post up - when neil thinks about his future, he sees andrew. obviously. BUT HE ALSO SEES KEVIN THERE.

they’re straight up best friends and brothers and i fucking love them

and as a last point, this is extra content instead of book-canon, but


Tips for Seniors/Juniors in High School (Plan on Going to College) College Admissions Advice #1

So when I was a Junior/Senior i remember freaking out about what college I wanted to go to and what I wanted to be and whatever

NOW I know I want to be an educator and help teens through this time because I remember how stressful this process was.

So here’s a 10 Tip thread I made for Jr/Seniors in HS who plan on applying to college

Look first of all, let me just say a disclaimer: I am not a college admissions person, this was just my experience with the California’s college application system.

So in my experience: I had the luxury of applying to 10 colleges (8 pub, 2 Priv) all in California #blessfeewaivers

The schools I applied to all ranged from prestigious to average but most of them happened to be my safety schools.

I wanted to point this out bc that was one of the things you SHOULDN’T DO when applying to college.

  1. Don’t doubt yourself

When applying to college, many people get too caught up on rankings and whether they can get in the college or not.

And I was the same way. I even made a list

When I was applying to college the main factors I looked for in a school were: 1. Prestige 2. Size of school 3. Weather 4. WOKE OR NOT 5. Difficulty to get in 6. How far was it from home 7. Etc

So make a list of what you want in a college. Especially if you want to dorm. You know what you want whether it be a school by the beach, or a school in a large city etc

Colleges won’t fit everything on your list, but if they do, congratulations you have found your dream school.

  1. Apply to dream schools even if your dream school is insane to get into or it’s far away or whatever, apply to it!!


Your dream school is the place you feel like you’d flourish AND fits the criteria you have set for yourself

Nobody should ever make you feel ashamed of your dream school because in the end if you get in you’ll be happy

Also, apply to places even if you doubt you’ll get in. They may not be your dream school but they might turn out to be.

You’ll have a better chance of getting in if you apply compared to the literal 0 chance you’ll have if you don’t apply.

Just have the guts to apply to your “dream school” or a school you really like aight.

But also realize that if you’re applying to less that 5 schools, then maybe you should consider some safety schools.

  1. Apply to safety schools but not too many like me :)))))

These schools are not even schools that are low in “ranking” They are just schools you wouldn’t mind going to but the point is you’ll def get in.

  1. Apply to schools you feel are what you want without focusing on your major too much

Be aware that yes your major might “matter” but apply to places that interest you as a whole. Your major might change. Your school, probably not.

And know what your comfortable with. Personally, I wanted to go to a school close enough to come home on then weekends but still be able to dorm.

  1. Apply to private schools if you fit any of these 1. You got a dank scholarship 2. You’re not planning on dorming 3. Dream school 4. You’re rich 5. You got a fee waiver and why not

Private schools can be fucking expensive. They are smaller and have a “better quality education” but know that price is the main factor.

Many private schools in Cali offer really good education such as Stanford and USC

But unless they offer you a private school education at a public school price they can put you into some serious debt

Many of them also offer very little financial aid but do give out substantial scholarships. I was offered a $26,000 scholarship to a $65,000 school ???

So unless you have a fee waiver, applying to one of those schools and doing the work for it may not be all it’s cracked up to be in the end.

  1. Work on your personal statement EARLY ASF


Your personal statement is the only place in your college application that you can bluntly state: “IVE STRUGGLED IN LIFE PLEASE ACCEPT ME”

Depending on your past you either dread writing about you or you have nothing to write about.

But seriously start early. And if you don’t know where to start, just free write.

I had a dream and the following day I wrote about that shit and I actually used it in my essay. (As a metaphor)

  1. Apply to Financial Aid and Look & apply for scholarships!

My decision on the school I finally chose had SOO much to do with financial aid.

Some schools sometimes will offer you little to no financial aid and if your a broke bitch like me you’re counting on that financial aid

If paying for college is a factor in your decision plan ahead, like start now.

Career Centers are your holy grail when talking about financial aid and colleges in general.

Look for scholarships to apply to ahead of time and get all the shit you need in order for you to submit them. (Letters of Recs)

Speaking of Letters of Rec, if you are planning on applying to a private school, most likely they will ask you for 2 or more letters of rec

So… 8. Make a Bragging Sheet

A bragging sheet is like a resume but for high school. Make a google doc and put down EVERYTHING YOU HAVE DONE IN HS OR ANYTHING THAT IS WORTHY OF MENTIONING

For example - Associative Student Body 2020-2024 - (Leadership Role: if any) [And then put a brief description of what y'all do but in a profesional manner]

My teacher made me do this after I asked him to write me a letter of rec and it helped me sooo much bc

  1. This helps bc it will give your teachers (those who will write your letter or rec) something to say about you in their letter.

And make sure to give it to every teacher/ counselor that way they know exactly what they should put in your LetOfRec

  1. If you’re a person who has done a lot of activities in HS, this will help bc most applications will ask you what you’ve done

  2. Scholarships ask you what activities you’ve done in HS and you’ll have them all written down on this doc and all you have to do is copy it

It honestly comes in handy guys and it’s really easy to make. Google Bragging Sheet/Letter for more info about how to set it up

  1. Do test scores matter when applying to college? ACT? SAT? AP? Answer: Yes and No

AP scores only matter if the schools you’re applying to actually give you credit for the test you’ve passed

However, if you are planning to go to a UC, AP English Scores are SUPER IMPORTANT so pass them at least with a 3. Or retake them if you can.

AP scores are also important depending on your major. If you are heading towards a STEM major they can help you gain credit in that area.

As for SAT and ACT scores, they matter depending on the school you’re applying to.

Applying to a more prestigious school, and having a better test score puts you at a greater advantage

But there are many cases where people get accepted to their dream school having really good curricular activities and average test scores

  1. Don’t stess too much

The actual college application is fairly easy to navigate. Especially the UC app. But do not wait until the last day!!!

For a couple of years now the website to submit your application will crash the day the app is due so try to finish it at least two days before

But if you do your bragging sheet, those applications will be so easy bc all you have to do is copy and paste what you already have.

Colleges want to see that you saw high school as a 3 sided Pie Chart filling in Academics, Sports, and Extracurriculars

They want to see that even if you didn’t play sports, you excelled in academics or vice versa.

  1. In the end, any school is going to help you get to where you want to go as long as you also put in the effort to make your dreams happen.

Maybe some schools will get you there faster but how would I know, I’m barely starting that path myself lol

Edit: I’m so happy you all have found this post enlightening!! It makes me really happy to have passed on some of my wisdom. Go check out the rest of my posts if you want more detailed info and if you have any questions feel free to ask!!!

anonymous asked:

THE RFA BREAK UP POST AH MY HEART!!! Okay. So. What about the MC moving on and finding someone else? And RFA+V+Saeran realize that they still had feelings for her, but it's been a long time(like maybe a year or two) and MC's finally moved on and they just... Don't have a chance? Why am I like this. Why do I want this. I'm awful. (PS I didn't cry when I read the breakup one, no sir, I did not.)

hey i just read your breaking up headcanon and can i ask for rfa+v+saeran regreting their decision but idk maybe its too late or not its up to you

hi can i ask for a sequel of your break up hc like they regretting their choice and trying to get you back

aah these were similar so I figured I could do them all together! hope you like it. A sort of sequel to this


  • It took 14 months for Yoosung to regret everything
  • 14 whole months
  • Once he realises that he does in fact still love you with every ounce of his being, he starts getting weird
  • Like Yandere Mode™ is activated 
  • It starts off with the usual social media stalking, and he even has Seven helping him find out things about your life via what you post online
  • But soon enough he’s becoming obsessive, and Seven stops helping so not to let it get worse
  • But it does
  • Not being able to investigate everything he can about you online makes him jealous of anyone you’re in contact with
  • Talking to the guys in the messenger? Not on his watch
  • He becomes insufferable, constantly inserting himself into your conversations, commenting on everything you post online
  • You’re almost certain you’ve seen him in the corner of your eye whilst out and about a few times
  • But that’s just you being paranoid, right?
  • Either way it eventually reaches a point where he’s on your doorstep, begging you to take him back
  • He’s crying and rambling, and he’s quite possibly has something to drink
  • But you don’t love him anymore
  • In fact you’re unsure if you could ever love him again 
  • So you tell him this, and it sure as hell is not what he wants to here
  • You’re stuck with a blubbering mess at your door, and have to call Seven to come and retrieve him
  • After this things change drastically
  • He knows he doesn’t have a chance with you, you made that extremely clear
  • He stops stalking your online presence, instead turning to the one comfort he has - his games
  • All he ever does is sit at his computer, playing his games, isolating himself from the outside world
  • Because he doesn’t want to be a part of the outside world if he doesn’t have you.


  • It really didn’t take long for Zen to regret his decision
  • Like it was probably about 5 months, if that
  • Even the first night when he went to bed alone he had the seeds of doubt growing within him
  • Unfortunately for him, those 5 months were all it took for you to move on
  • You knew it was all for the best, things just didn’t work out
  • But he didn’t think like that, and he wanted you back
  • He tried to be romantic, turning up at your door with flowers, dedicating his performances to you, leaving you voicemails of him singing love songs
  • But you ignored everything
  • You felt guilty ignoring his efforts so much, but it was the only way you would get him to move on like you had
  • How would he let it go if you let him think he was getting somewhere with you?
  • His attempts start getting more desperate, with more and more drunk voicemails being left throughout the nights
  • One of these nights you hear a thump by your front door, opening it cautiously only to find a passed out Zen on the floor
  • You debate just bringing him in until morning, but that would probably give him false hope, so you grab your phone and call Seven to come and help you
  • The two of you manage to get Zen into the car, and you go with Seven to take him home
  • Once there you take Zen inside, helping him to his bed
  • After fetching a glass of water for him, you see he has start to wake up a little
  • Still drunk and groggy from passing out, he thinks he’s dreaming
  • Crying a little, he reaches his hand out to hold yours
  • I love you so much, please just come back to me
  • But his begging still does nothing for you, so you tell him that things will never go back to how they were, and you quietly turn around and leave to go home
  • The next day is surprisingly peaceful, no calls, no visits, no voicemails
  • This continues for weeks, and althought you don’t hear from him you think he’s moving on
  • But you soon find out that isn’t the case
  • Jumin informs you that Zen is drinking much heavier and earlier than he had been previously, and the reason he hasn’t been contacting you is because he’s usually too drunk to even move, that is of course if he hasn’t passed out
  • You lose count of times you wake up to find him passed out on your doorstep, because no matter what happens or how much time passes, he always finds his way back to you, even when you don’t want him to
  • You are after all the love of his life, and he doesn’t know any different than to go to you.


  • She thought she was doing the right thing
  • She thought she had made the right decision
  • But one night whilst watching Zen’s latest romance film for the 100th time she realises it would have been your 5 year anniversary
  • Had you not broken up two years ago that is
  • She’s been so damn busy with work, she’s barely had time to think about how she feels
  • But here she is, suddenly swimming in memories of the two of you 
  • It doesn’t take long for her to realise she’s full of regret
  • How could she let you go?????
  • It’s late now, so she decides to just sleep on it
  • Waking up she’s hopeful it was just a night of reminiscing 
  • It wasn’t
  • If anything, she feels even stronger
  • She suddenly can’t stop thinking about running her hands through your hair, the glimmer in your eyes, the way your hand fits perfectly into hers
  • Every little detail she overlooked before were now screaming to be seen
  • It also just so happened this was the day of the RFA meeting, and she was going to have to see you
  • She got lost in your eyes as you spoke to the group about the guests for this particular party
  • She doesn’t even know what was said
  • After the meeting she casually makes comment to Jumin about how happy you looked
  • That’s when he says the one thing she never wanted to hear
  • Well it’s probably because of the new girl they’re seeing
  • Her heart literally shatters as he says the words
  • Jaehee doesn’t really know how to handle this??
  • Why at the same time she realised what a monumental mistake she made by ending things with you, did she have to find out there was someone else making you happy
  • Her way of dealing with it is pretending everything is normal
  • Not you or anyone else ever notices, she hides it so well
  • If you had known, maybe you would realised you felt the same
  • But you never find out, so you never reflect on how you feel about her
  • She supports you in your relationship, and seems to get on really well with your girlfriend
  • But when no one is looking, her eyes well up, and the occasional one escapes
  • She cries herself to sleep more often than she’d ever be willing to admit
  • Seeing you and your new girlfriend happy together breaks her heart over and over again
  • She would kill to be the one making you smile like that, just like she used to.


  • He’s always prided himself on his ability to ‘kill his feelings’
  • And when he ended your relationship, he did this easily
  • It didn’t take long for him to revert to his old ways, being stiff and generally unwelcoming 
  • He was civil to talk to, but he was so different to the person who had you inside his head for three years
  • The breakup felt like it had almost killed you
  • It took you a very long time to get over it, because you never had any closure
  • But then you met someone, someone who let you in from the start, who treated you like you were the single greatest thing on earth
  • You still had a lot of hurt in you from Jumin, but this new person was like a breath of fresh air
  • As things get more serious, you start bringing them around the group more
  • Up until the first time Jumin meets them, he had no idea you were even considering dating other people, let alone be in a serious relationship with someone
  • He’s polite, but doesn’t make much of an effort with them
  • He ??? doesn’t ??? know ??? what ??? this ??? feeling ??? is ???
  • It feels like his heart is actually aching, but that’s just illogical, surely?
  • That night he sits with Elizabeth, drinking his wine and trying to figure out what is going on with him
  • The best thing he can think to do is call up the person who knows him better than himself, and he does so, explaining these strange feelings to his best friend
  • V chuckles softly, a hint of sorrow in his voice as he tells Jumin what it is
  • Jealousy
  • He hangs up, shifting Elizabeth and walks over to his penthouse windows, looking out at the night sky
  • V is right, and Jumin knows it, but there’s nothing he can do
  • He is the one who ended things after all
  • He can’t swoop in now and hope to have you back
  • His solution is to obviously stomp out the feelings, but it doesn’t work
  • He cant get you out of his head, you even haunt his dreams now
  • So instead he distances himself from the RFA more and more, only speaking with V on a regular basis
  • RFA parties can’t be avoided, so when the winter party finally arrives, he doesn’t have a choice but to go
  • Seeing you hurts him, but no one could have prepared him for what happened
  • Your significant other proposed, in front of everyone, right in the middle of the room
  • You were so happy and excited you didn’t see Jumin’s tall figure quietly leaving the building
  • But V did, and for a brief second, he almost thought he saw a glistening tear making it’s way down Jumin’s face.


  • About 6 months after that party, you started to feel better
  • To say you were completely over him would be a stretch, but it didn’t feel like the world was crashing around you whenever you saw him
  • As you started accepting the relationship was over and letting go of it, Seven slowly started joining back in with the RFA more
  • It doesn’t take long for the two of you to become relatively close again
  • But it’s different 
  • You still love him, but it just feels platonic now
  • It didn’t seem possible that you would ever get to a place where you could be happy in his presence again, yet here you are
  • The pair of you spend a lot of time together, but you still manage to start dating again
  • A lot of people are uncomfortable with how close you are to your ex, except one
  • They’re so perfect ???
  • You can’t believe it ???
  • If you thought you were happy when you were with Seven, you were wrong, this was genuinely the happiest you had ever been
  • Little did you know that during those months where you were rebuilding your friendship with Seven, it was bringing back more than just platonic love for him
  • Without even realsing he found himself madly in love with you again all of a sudden
  • He just wanted to have you at his side all the time
  • And whilst you did spend a lot of time together, it wasn’t how he wanted it
  • He stalked your new significant other online within an inch of their life
  • Everything they ever posted or was posted about them he found
  • But there was nothing in there to use to get rid of them
  • They were a good person
  • But even so, everday before he went to sleep, he would check again
  • One day he would find something, to keep this person away from you
  • He had to find something
  • Slowly as your relationship progressed, Seven started holding himself back, once again isolating himself from everyone but V
  • He didn’t know how he was supposed to live a life where someone else made you smile the way he used to.


  • A little part of him always harboured some feelings for you still
  • He knew he would never completely move on, but he didn’t expect this
  • It had been a little over a year since he broke off your relationship
  • You were less bitter, so he saw this as a sign of you having moved on
  • But something about that just didn’t sit well with him
  • Had you really let it go?? Did you really no longer have those feelings for him??
  • For a long time it seemed like you would never move on
  • So now that you had, he hated it
  • It didn’t take long for him to realise
  • He was still in love with you
  • The second it was clear to him, he wanted to drop everything and run to you, just to plead for a second chance and tell you how much he loved you, how he had been so stupid to give up such a perfect person like yourself
  • But he didn’t
  • You finally looked happy
  • And if that didn’t make his heart feel light and airy, he didn’t know what would
  • He knew how much he had hurt you, and he didn’t believe he deserved a second chance no matter how much he wanted it
  • So he chose to keep his feelings to himself, never telling a living soul about how much he craved curling up with you every night 
  • How he craved to feel your hot breath on his lips again
  • How he craved to see you smile because of him again
  • He spends his time pretending he doesn’t love you
  • Just seeing you happy and healthy is enough for him
  • Even if not having you by his side physically hurts him
  • Whenever he hears you laugh he has to actively stop himself from daydreaming about a life where you were his once more
  • Unlike the others, it’s not because you’ve moved on that he never gets you back
  • He just thinks it’s for the best
  • But if he had told you how he felt, he would have found out you were still in love with him too
  • Instead you both continue to hurt, both wishing the other would reach out
  • But neither of you ever do, and neither of you ever get over the other.


  • He was wrong
  • He was so fucking wrong
  • He doesn’t even know why he said it
  • Of course he loved you, of course he still loved you
  • But he had said it, and he had shattered your heart into so many pieces he could never fix it
  • So he never tried
  • It took a long time for you to get over it, at least 3 years to be specific 
  • But you got there eventually
  • Looking at him didn’t hurt
  • Being in his presence didn’t make you nauseous 
  • Hearing his voice didn’t make you want to scream
  • What you didn’t know is that it was the other way around now
  • Looking at you hurt 
  • Being in your presence made him nauseous 
  • Hearing your voice made him want to scream
  • He knew he had left it far too long now, and you were finally happy
  • There hadn’t been much if any relationship between you since the breakup, so when he started isolating himself you didn’t even notice
  • It was Seven who reached out to you, telling you something was wrong with his twin but he didn’t know what and he didn’t know how to help
  • So being the person you are, you went over there to try and speak to him
  • It was awkward at first, you had barely spoken in 3 whole years
  • But you wanted to help him so you pushed and pushed
  • Eventually he snapped and and blurts out that he can’t handle his feelings for you anymore
  • You’re taken aback by his confession, which is followed up by a question you dreaded answering
  • With what almost seemed like tears in his eyes, he quietly begged for you to just tell him you still loved him too
  • The only thing he wanted to hear, you couldn’t say
  • He asked you to leave after you told him you didn’t, and you did so without putting up a fight
  • The last thing you wanted to do was make the situation worse
  • For the first time in a long time, Saeran cried himself to sleep
  • He distanced himself from the group slowly, only speaking via Seven
  • But he always kept an eye on you, because even if you didn’t love him, he wanted to keep you safe and happy
  • You were the first person he truly loved, and you would also be the last.

angsty starters ( + sad qoutes / song lyrics. )
  • "I love you enough to let you go,"
  • "I heard you moved on,"
  • "I didn't come here to hurt you,"
  • "Where did you go?"
  • "I'm sorry we fell in love."
  • "We'll do everything on our own."
  • "I'm so sorry,"
  • "You'll never understand."
  • "Please don't go,"
  • "I still love you,"
  • "I don't love you anymore."
  • "I never loved you,"
  • "I can't do this."
  • "We can't be together!"
  • "Will I ever see you again?"
  • "May we meet again,"
  • "I promise I'll do better,"
  • "I just want to see you, one more time."
  • "I'd give anything to see you one more time."
  • "One last time?"
  • "I don't deserve you,"
  • "You don't deserve me,"
  • "People like us don't get happy endings,"
  • "You still love me?"
  • "I never meant to hurt you,"
  • "I understand..."
  • "If you want to go, it's okay."
  • "I gave up everything for you!"
  • "I really need you to trust me,"
  • "Can you listen to me for once!"
  • "I cheated on you,"
  • "You cheated on me?"
  • "Don't expect me to come crawling back,"
  • "Shame on me, you fooled me twice."
  • "You said I wasn't just like anyone."
  • "Did I even ever cross your mind?"
  • "Can we pretend that we're in love?"
  • "I can't lose you,"
  • "Please go,"
  • "Don't you dare die on me!"
  • "I'm not losing you again!"
  • "I'm incomplete without you,"
  • "I will love you for the rest of my life,"
  • "So this is goodbye?"
  • "Kiss me goodbye."
  • "I loved them and they died."
  • "I was a bet?"
  • "You were nothing but a bet."
  • "Can you hold me?"
  • "I loved and I lost you."
  • "It's okay,"
  • "The worst day of loving someone is when you lose them."
  • "It hurts like hell,"
  • "I'm not coming back."
  • "You're never coming back?"
  • "What do you mean you're dying!"
  • "Come back to me,"
  • "What happened?!"
  • "They're dead!"
  • "Where's my love,"
  • "Don't do this,"
  • "I'll see you again."
  • "There's nothing we can do to bring them back."
  • "I don't want to be alone anymore,"
  • "You promised you'd never leave me."
  • "First love, you remember what that's like?"
  • "If I don't have you I have nothing at all,"
  • "I'm not going to fight you,"
  • "You're my friend."
  • "It's too late to apologize."
  • "You left me!"
  • "You left us!"
  • "You chose them over me,"
  • "I need you,"
  • "I was hoping that you'd stay."
  • "I never lied to you,"
  • "You said you might die so what the hell?"
  • "It's a bad joke,"
  • "We can never be the same again,"
  • "You don't need you,"
  • "You're not alone."
  • "You broke my heart."
  • "It made me think of you."
  • "You're my world."
  • "Do I wanna know?"
  • "So sad to see you go,"
  • "This is it, isn't it."
  • "Now I just sit in silence."
  • "Are you okay?"
  • "Are you hurt?"
  • "I'll go with you."
  • "How bad is it?"
  • "My feelings for you are real, they always have been."
  • "Someday you'll understand."
  • "Because I love you,"
  • "There was just something about them,"
  • "I'm sorry for breaking your heart."
  • "It wasn't an act."
  • "Time doesn't heal everything."
  • "This is your fault!"
  • "Tell me what to do!"
  • "I didn't mean for this to happen."
  • "Everythings a mess."
  • "You ruined my life,"
  • "Do you still love me?"
  • "You gotta get up, we have to go."
  • "It's okay,"
  • "It was nothing,"
  • "I'll do something."
  • "You're safe here,"
  • "Don't forget me."
  • "I ruined this,"
  • "You ruined this."
  • "Quiet is violent."
  • "You promised me!"
  • "Stop lying with those words."
  • "If this is some kind of sick joke, you better tell me!"
  • "You're all I have!"
  • "I'm not ready to say goodbye."
  • "I don't want to go,"
  • "I loved you,"
  • "You don't have to do this,"
  • "I'm afraid it's never going to be okay again."
  • "I'm terrified,"
  • "You're a monster."
  • "You're all I have!"
  • "I'm a monster."
  • "Only fools fall for you,"
  • "Everything comes to an end,"
  • "I thought I loved you."
  • "Now I just sit in silence."
  • "It's unbearable."
  • "You're my first love."
  • "I never wanted to hurt you,"
  • "I was here,"
  • "Help me,"
  • "They won..."
  • "You don't love them."
  • "You're breaking my heart,"
  • "I hate you!"
  • "It's a waste of time,"
  • "You're all I want."
  • "I've always loved you!"
  • "I can pretend anymore."
  • "i didn't have a choice!"
  • "What if it's agony now and it's hell later on?"
  • "Love I will let you go,"
  • "I left behind something great."
  • "I want you back,"
  • "I don't regret any of it, not if it kept you safe."
  • "Get over yourself,"
  • "You'll be the death of me."
  • "Everything just fell apart."
  • "What the hell am I doing here?"
  • "I want you so much but I hate your guts."
  • "I found love where it wasn't supposed to be."
  • "You still like them, don't you?"
  • "What are you doing?!"
  • "I did this to protect you!"
  • "Don't cry,"
  • "I'm not crying,"
  • "I'm dying,"
  • "A-Are you alright?"
  • "I'll come back for you."
  • "I've never felt so alone."
  • "You don't love me! You don't even know me!"
  • "I don't even know who you are anymore."
  • "I don't even know who I am anymore,"
  • "Please let me do this for you."
  • "You're one of the lucky ones."
  • "It's never going to be okay."

I’d like to imagine that fahc Michael didn’t really have a proper childhood and that’s where he gets his take-no-shit attitude from, because he grew up on his own taking care of himself. However since he didn’t get proper medical attention as other kids did, he never found out he needed glasses.

So in the very early days of the Fakes, Michael developes his love for explosives. He had always been better with widespread weapons because he wasn’t good at aiming. But then he uses his first grenade. It happens during one of the Fake’s first kinda big missions, so Geoff buys some grenades in case they get surrounded or something else goes bad. The mission is overall a success however as the crew races to getaway, an enemy jeep filled with four goons follows them, shooting at their getaway car. Geoff is driving so he hands Michael the grenade and Michael poked his head out of the car, pulls the pin, and throws it under the jeep.

It’s perfect timing. The grenade explodes underneath the vehicle and sends the car flying into the air, now on fire and anyone who was in the vehicle is certainly dead. Michael laughs maniacally, looking back at the sight. Before the car hits the ground Michael knows he wants to do that again.

From then on Michael spends all his heist money on grenades, mines, and c4s. He trains himself on how to use them since he doesn’t know anyone else who specializes in explosives. He’s the first member of the crew to buy his own grenade launcher by saving up his money. Then he gets his favorite weapon in the whole, wide world; his rpg. And Gavin swears he’s in love with his rpg. He’d carry it with him on every mission even though it was a pain in the ass to.

However one mission Michael accidentally blows up Ryan’s bike (while Ryan is off of it) trying to shoot a helicopter out of the sky. Of course Ryan is super pissed off, thinking Michael did it on purpose, but Michael insists it was a complete accident. The whole time Ryan and Michael are arguing Geoff can’t help but notice Michael is squinting. Geoff also knows this is not the first time Michael has made a mistake like this. So he puts two and two together.

“Michael, How often do you get headaches?” Geoff asks.

“I don’t know? Once a week?” Michael responds.

“When’s the last time you had an eye exam?” Jack catches on.

“A what?”

So they take him to an eye clinic under a fake name and Michael gets his eyes checked for the first time in his life. Turns out he’s near-sighted and almost legally blind. At the age of 23 Michael gets his first pair of glasses.

There’s about a week of Michael staying off of heists and just getting used to his new surroundings. He’d stare at practically every leaf on a tree, or get up early to stare at the sunrise. Once Ryan was cooking eggs and Michael came over to stare at the sizzling pan. During that week he must have said the phrase “You guys see this everyday?” about five hundred times.

He breaks his glasses on the sixth day, carelessly putting them in his back pocket and then sitting on them. They go back to the eye clinic to get another pair and Ray has to give him instructions on how to take care of them and clean them.

Once Michael gets back to heists, his performance begins to skyrocket. Now that he can see more than two inches of front of him he can blow up anything he wants with ease. He even eventually becomes accustomed with machine guns and other longer ranged weapons.
He had been living handicapped his whole life without knowing it. Now that he uses his glasses he’s twice as deadly and the thugs of Los Santos begin to fear the Fake crew member who wears glasses and carries an rpg on his back. He also only blows up Ryan’s bike on purpose now.

Jack is also terrified at the thought that they had a practically blind man handling all their explosive power.

anonymous asked:

I just felt they seemed a little uncomfortable and a bit unenthusiastic about the game like they're only playing it to keep the majority happy. This might be because I've seen other let's plays of the game from people who seemed to have more fun with it but I got the vibe that they were not really wanting to be there, which is absolutely fine! I did find some moments nice and entertaining but overall not my fave and idk about seeing it as a series. I'm open to others thoughts though!

idk? it was a bit too fanservice-y for my taste. just didn’t feel very genuine.

i’m going to respond to these before i write a post about what i loved about this video. to start, i’m genuinely surprised to hear that you thought dnp seemed uncomfortable or disengaged with the game. i couldn’t disagree more? to me a disengaged play through would be if they just read the dialogue really quickly, didn’t provide any commentary, weren’t amused by any of the plot developments, and generally seemed bored? but i honestly perceived them as being incredibly excited about this game. they reacted so positively to so much about it. they appreciated and acknowledged little details like the character design and the art, they really seemed to like that there was a deeper emotional backstory to the central character (dan almost seemed to like put himself in the shoes of the dadsona at one point, when considering how one would handle a situation in which their partner has passed away), they laughed pretty frequently at the dialogue, they had fun playing the bragging contest game, they actually took the time to think about the implications of each new character, discussing the pros and cons of their personalities. 

it’s hard for me to even envision what they would have needed to do to seem more engaged if i’m being honest. like i can’t imagine it? should they have ,, talked more? like? paused every few minutes to earnestly look each other in the eyes and say they’re having so much fun? i’m honestly baffled. to me, if anything, they seemed concerned about getting through each scene quickly but that seemed v obviously bc they wanted to make sure the video length wasn’t horrendous. it’s possible that their quick reading and clicking through each line of dialogue is what struck some people as disinterest? but idk how anyone could read through every bit of that dialogue (there was so fucking much holy shit!) and stay completely high energy and excitable about every line. imo, that approach is what would be fake, disingenuous, and over-performed. i appreciate that there may have been other youtubers who played this game and were much higher energy but that just doesnt seem like dnp’s general demeanor to me? i’d compare this game to their undertale play throughs bc of the sheer length and the amount of clicking around and reading they had to do. dnp, at least in my opinion, very rarely displayed high energy levels during undertale episodes. they would get excited when there were particularly intense fights or when something dramatic happened in the plot, but the vast majority of the game was them being super chill and clicking through the various screens, while still demonstrating that they were excited to see what would happen next and appreciative of all of the beautiful aspects of the game. hell, that’s also how they were in mark of oxin and that’s phil’s own game.  to me nothing about their demeanor in this vid was different than in those past longer vids that we know they genuinely liked, so comparing dnp’s energy levels to other youtubers just seems unfair bc thats just not how they’ve ever acted during longer play throughs. 

im gonna be honest that to me this fear that dnp secretly hated this and were doing it all for the sake of the audience seems more like a product of a general fandom insecurity, namely that if dnp are doing anything remotely queer then it must be to please fans. i hate this audience instinct so much bc it doesnt leave room for the possibility that, hey, dnp might actually be queer and be totally okay with the occasional queer-seeming comment or remark or, in this case, play through of a pretty queer game on their gaming channel. if they’re really so down to please fans with queer content lbr they wouldve cashed in on a fucking chapstick challenge five years ago. i understand that in this case the game genuinely was such a popular fan request and they may not have played it if the audience hadn’t requested it so much (and also if nearly every other gaming youtuber hadn’t already played it), but i think the concern is unwarranted. if dnp were really uncomfortable with a game, they just .. wouldn’t play it. like. (i feel like i say this so often on this blog) they’re in control of their brand and their content. they’ve passed on playing plenty of immensely popular fan requests before (life is strange? mystic messenger? monopoly live stream?) in summary: just bc fans want dnp to do something, it doesn’t mean that dnp inherently don’t want to do it. 

to me there is nothing but positivity to be taken from the fact that dnp felt comfortable playing this, that there wasn’t a shred of discomfort or quibbling over the fact that it was a game about dudes dating dudes, that instead they treated it as completely normal, as just a totally valid, run of the mill (if not exceedingly wholesome and cute) dating simulator. that speaks volumes to me about their growth, about how far they’ve come with what they’re willing to share and explore in their content, about the fodder that theyre okay with providing for audience assumptions and analysis and gifs and screenshots and squealing in caps lock. if they were maybe a tad bit more aware of the audience whilst playing, that just makes sense? this game is pretty much breaking a boundary for them, and they knew going in that it would be discussed to death by their viewers. but i’d rather focus on the fact that there wasn’t a singular comment from either of them that communicated they were uncomfortable or that tried to dilute the queerness of the game. instead they honestly kind of reveled in it? they went out of their way to express what they liked about each new man they saw? they were completely positive and empathetic about a situation in which a man was raising his child on his own after his male partner died? they commented on the dudes’ appearances like it was second nature?

idk. to me it’s awesome, emotional, and incredibly uplifting that they played this game at all, even though they could’ve easily just skipped this fad altogether. but the best part is that they didn’t just play, they seemed to have fun playing, they seemed to really appreciate it. i don’t think they could fake that. they’ve never been v good at acting :) 

a love letter to brown eyes | shawn mendes


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author’s note: bet y’all weren’t expecting this on a monday, huh? i hope this is okay, anon! I’m sorry it’s pretty much all dialogue.

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There were not many secrets between you and Shawn. He knew about the time you threw up in front of your entire second-grade class during a field trip, you found out about all the drama with his friends from school, and you had shared - in length - the most awkward highlights of your terrible first kiss behind the bleachers in middle school.

And somehow, even after all the confessions and conversations a two-year relationship entailed, you were still discovering new sides to the floppy-haired boy that first shyly approached you at a mutual friend’s party two years ago.

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elennemigo  asked:

Hey! Kiss meme: Sherlolly- A kiss that shouldn't have happened. (But totally should! 😍) Thank you!

Prompt taken from-

12. A kiss that shouldn’t have happened

There’s not a whole lot of circumstances where I genuinely feel that Sherlock and Molly really shouldn’t kiss. But this was about the closest I could get in terms of the show’s canon. In fact, this could fit as a canon compliant filler scene set between S3E2 and S3E3. Oh and I know you didn’t ask for angst…but guess what you get lol. XD

Timing Is Everything 

“Oh, hi,” Molly chirped as she saw the familiar six foot form sweep into the morgue. “Working here today?”

“Just stopping by,” Sherlock replied, immediately peering at the body which was laid out on the exam table. “Anything interesting?”

“Routine, actually. Brain aneurism is what it seems like. But he was young, just under forty, so they’ve got to be sure.” Molly paused while arranging some tools, eyeing him in question. “John and Mary-”

“Left yesterday. They won’t be back for another two weeks. Seems awfully long to me,” he huffed. “Though apparently it’s a somewhat standard amount of time for a sex holiday.”

Molly bit back some laughter. “Yes, um, I’d say it’s pretty standard.”

After a moment of silence, he spoke again, though there was a hint of hesitation. “Likely planning your own right about now, I should think.”

Molly looked up for a moment and managed a smile and a nod. “Right, yeah, we are. Another few months now. But it’ll come up fast, especially with all the work involved in planning the wedding. I’m sure it’ll be here and gone before I know it!” Her laugh that followed sounded unnatural, even to her.

She glanced at the empty box of gloves on her tray then, realizing it was empty and that she’d need another one.

“Be right back,” she muttered quickly and shuffled into the supply closet.

The moment she got in she realized the step stool was missing, which meant she couldn’t possibly reach the shelf with the gloves. She’d tried climbing once…that hadn’t ended well. Molly cursed under her breath, feeling suddenly a little on edge anyway, even without this added annoyance.

“Something I can do?” Sherlock asked, leaning in the doorway.

She smiled appreciatively, gesturing to the higher shelf. “Just the um, the glove boxes. They’re all so high and-”

“Not a problem.” Sherlock stepped into the closet and reached up to grab one of the boxes effortlessly and then handed it to her.

“Thanks,” Molly replied with a little smile.

In that moment, Molly felt something instantly shift.

They stood there in that small space, their hands connected only by a stupid box of gloves and their eyes connected by a force that felt almost unnaturally powerful. For a moment she felt like she had been transported back to that moment in the stairwell after their day of case work together. She felt her lips part ever so slightly and saw his eyes dart right to them. And just like months before, Sherlock leaned down and kissed her. Though, this was quite a bit different than the kiss in that stairwell.

Sherlock really and truly kissed her. There was nothing even remotely platonic about it. This was lips connected to lips, warm and soft. And no more than a second later, she felt his mouth open, coaxing hers to do the same.

The box of gloves hit the floor.

Molly gasped against his tongue as she anchored her hands to either side of his neck while his slipped into her hair, unstopped by her loose braid, fingers pressing insistently into her scalp. Both of them desperate to get closer, hold tighter, kiss more deeply.

She could have sworn in that moment that nothing in all her life had ever felt this good. But it was that very realization, and the accompanying tidal wave of guilt, that made her eyes fly open and made her pull quickly away from his lips.

Tears sprung to her eyes almost instantly as she clamped a hand over mouth in horror. Sherlock registered her expression, looking a bit wide eyed and shocked as well.

“Molly- Molly, I’m sorry, I-”

“Oh God, oh God, oh God…” she murmured, her voice shaking as her heart pounded almost painfully in her chest. “I- I can’t believe I just- how could I? How could I do that? Oh God, Tom!”

“No no,” Sherlock said, shaking his head as he quickly and desperately tried to sooth her. “No, it was me. It was all me, and I’m truly…truly sorry. This was not you, it was-”

“No, but it was me!” she all but yelled. “That was my lips and my tongue and my hands too! It wasn’t just you! Oh God!” She buried her face in her palms with a soft groan.

“Stop punishing yourself, this wasn’t your fault! Please, please forgive me, Molly,” he begged softly, taking gentle hold of her wrists to pry her hands from her face. “It was me who kissed you and I caught you off guard so you naturally responded. But of course for you it didn’t mean-”

He stopped short, seemingly unable to finish the thought, and she couldn’t help gazing awestruck into his eyes which looked possibly sadder than she’d ever seen them look before. The sight nearly broke her into a million pieces.

In that moment she wanted to pull him into a crushing embrace and promise him that what they’d just done had meant literally everything to her, more than he could possibly comprehend! That was the only reason she was so destroyed. It wasn’t because she hated what had just happened. It was because of how desperately she loved it.

Sherlock swallowed visibly and released her wrists, clearing his throat and bending down to retrieve the box of gloves. He handed it to her and gave her a tight smile.

“I think I’ll leave you to work in peace today.”

She opened her mouth, words close to tumbling out, though she wasn’t sure what they should be. But she didn’t have the time anyway.

He leaned down to press an especially chaste and quick kiss to her forehead and then he was gone, sweeping out of the room before she had a chance to say or do anything else. Maybe that was for the best. Maybe he was right to do that, and she should be grateful to him. Grateful that he’d saved them both.

But she didn’t feel grateful, or relieved, or saved. She felt empty and lost and weighted down by one of the cruelest doses of irony that life had ever thrust upon her. She was engaged to another man…and now Sherlock Holmes had passionately kissed her.

Molly sighed, long and heavy as she shut the light off in the supply closet and trudged back toward the body. Cutting something open sounded pretty good right now.


anonymous asked:

Mom, I've been feeling so down bc my (ex) girlfriend broke up with me and she just told me that all she ever wanted was sex and i was so in love and idk. You can totally ignore this but if you can could you please write Alex feeling insecure and Maggie reassuring her, that she loves her and its just not great sex. I'm sorry if it bothers you

She spends the nights laying up in bed, a thin sheen of sweat still clinging to her bare skin, because she’s just waiting.

Because it’s happened before.

Faking an orgasm – not that she’s faking now, god, god, she doesn’t have to fake a damn thing anymore – and feeling his (hers, now, and god, god, how could she not have known?) and he’ll be gone in the morning, no matter how many times he told her it was great, no matter now many times he told her she felt incredible; he’ll just be gone in the morning, every time, every guy. Which is fine because it wasn’t ever good for her anyway, she was just trying to feel something anyway, she just always failed again anyway, but you’d think she’d be worth at least a phone call the next day, right?

But it was always just sex, and it was fine with her, it was, because she didn’t want them, with their clumsy hands and careless thrusts, but she wanted… to be worthy. She wanted to be more. More than just a warm body to get off on, in. More than just a good fuck on a Friday night when she should have been at the lab.

It never stung, not exactly, because it was always uncomfortable anyway, always mildly repulsive anyway.

But now?

Now, there’s Maggie.

Now, there’s Maggie, and her laughter makes Alex’s heart backflip.

Now, there’s Maggie, and the way she says her name – over dinner, on the phone, at game night, in the field, underneath her body in bed – makes Alex’s entire body swoon.

Now, there’s Maggie, and she’s smart, and she’s tough, and she’s beautiful… so beautiful.

And Alex is wildly in love.

So when Maggie tears her throat on Alex’s name, Alex tries not to get her hopes up, because it’s probably just sex to her.

And when she asks if it’s okay before she scrapes her nails down Alex’s back, Alex tries not to feel cared for, because for sure Maggie’s done this before, for sure it’s nothing more than common courtesy to her.

And when she tells Alex how amazing it feels to be inside her, how beautiful she is, how incredible her body feels, Alex tries not to let her heart take in the words, because it’s just dirty talk, it’s just sex talk, it’s just… sex.

It has to be.

And she’s a secret agent, and a damn good one, and she prides herself on her poker face, but now?

Now, there’s Maggie.

And Maggie sees right through her.

“Alex, what’s wrong?” she asks as she’s pulling Alex close to her after they’ve both cum – and Alex is still trembling from that, because god, god, god, that’s never happened before – and concern is etched all over her perfect face. “Did I hurt you, babe, did I go too fast, did I – “

“No, no. It’s fine, it was… amazing, Maggie, everything’s…”

But Maggie’s head is tilted and her eyes are soft and her hands are gentle and her face is patient and kind and… something like loving, Alex dares to, maybe, hope.

“You can tell me anything, Alex, it’s okay.”

She’s fought off entire armies, goddammit. She can say an honest damn sentence in bed with a beautiful woman.



“It’s not just sex for you, is it? Like, I mean, it’s great, right, having sex with you, it’s great, it’s amazing, I’ve never… it’s amazing, Maggie, and don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to stop having it, but I don’t just… I don’t just want that, I don’t just want sex, I… but… for you, is it – I mean, I don’t want to be clingy, god, I’m not – “

“Whoa whoa whoa, Danvers, slow down.” She puts a gentle finger to Alex’s lips and Alex kisses it automatically and Maggie’s eyes light up softly, perfectly, and Alex tries not to feel loved, because what if she’s wrong? Because Maggie is perfect, and she’s so… broken, and damaged, and inexperienced, so how could it possibly be anything other than… sex?

“Alex, I would never…” Maggie bites her lip and strokes Alex’s hair and blinks tears away from her eyes. “I get it. Feeling insecure like that. Alex, I feel that way all the time. You… how could a gorgeous, genius woman like you even give me the time of day, let alone… share my bed? I… Alex, those questions you just asked me? I want to ask you those all the time, too. Because I… I’m crazy about you, Alex, and I just… yes, yes, I just want to kiss you, but I don’t only want to kiss you. I want… I want everything with you, Alex, I want to… to build things with you.”

“Like… Legos?”


“You said build things.”

“A life, Danvers. I wanna build a life with you, I… I’m wild about you, Alex. You could never, ever just be sex to me. You are so much more than that, I promise you. And if you ever feel insecure like that? Then I will move entire continents to make sure you know how I feel about you. Because how I feel… how I feel is amazing. I’ve never felt this way before, for anyone. You’re special, Alex. You’re perfect. I promise.”

“So you’re saying you like me?”

“You’re never gonna let that one go, are you?”

“You love it.”

“I do, Danvers. I do.”

anonymous asked:

What proof do we have that Eris is abusive, other than that characters have said he is? Most held a similar opinion of Rhys, what's the difference? That we have a first person narrator who is privy to the backstory of one but not the other? I'm not trying to be aggressive but I want to know your thoughts. I thought showing was more important than telling in storytelling.

Okay then, like, what ‘proof’ have we got for literally 90% of the things in this series???? Feyre is a 19 year old human girl in a world full of immortal fae. You want an eye witness account for everything in this thing, do you?

 How do I know the war happened the way they said it did? Feyre never saw it, she’s only had characters tell her about it. How do I know Rhys actually hated what he did with Amarantha and didn’t just swap sides right at the end? How do I know Rhys’ dad sucked but his mother was a good person, I’ve only heard him tell me about her, I’ve seen it. How do I know Tamlin’s brothers were awful? Never seen them either. How do I know Beron is really that awful either, I mean maybe he’s wearing a mask too and all the characters are just wrong. How do I know Mor is queer? I’ve never seen her with a girl before, I just have her word for it, maybe she lied. How do I know literally anything in this entire series because WE GET TOLD MOST THINGS NOT SHOWN THEM. 

This is what happens when you have a limited first person pov. The character HAS to get told things in order to tell us things like ???? A little bit of common sense please, do you want me to like, historically fact check Prythian for everything that Feyre tells us about it??? 

And tbh SJM has a pretty crappy habit of doing the whole ‘telling over showing’ thing anyway. See: the entirety of the Throne of Glass series, Mor’s powers in ACOTAR (she’s awesome, really, we promise, we just haven’t actually SEEN her do anything), the assertions that Rhys and co are ~the most powerful ever~ have I actually SEEN that? Can I actually see that? No.  Do I really question these things? No. Because I understand that this is the only way I can actually get some information out of this story and if I only went with what I ‘saw’ and disbelieved everything else I’d have literally nothing?? 

And when it comes to the whole Eris thing, like, dude, it’s not just a couple of characters who’ve said he’s abysmal it’s like, wait let me make a list: 

Tamlin: “His father had her put down. Executed, in front of Lucien, as his two eldest brothers held him and made him watch.” That would be Eris. So at best you’ve got conflicting statements here. 

Lucien: “Lucien crossed his arms, leaning against the back of the couch. “I have to agree with Cassian. Eris is a snake.M, yes, Eris, HIS OWN BROTHER. If anyone was going to know Eris was ~not a bad person~ it’d be Lucien. Lucien who lived in that court. Who knew him. Who Eris apparently cared enough to protect/save, according to him. Eris who apparently cares so much about his mother (as we have seen Lucien does SEEN that is SEEN with our own two eyes) Why the hell would Lucien not know Eris was ‘wearing a mask’. Or maybe…Eris really does suck. 

Rhys: “Eris refused to marry her. Said she’d been sullied by a bastard-born lesser faerie, and he’d now sooner fuck a sow. […]Rhys said with soft wrath, “Eris left her for dead in the middle of their woods.” Idgaf how he tries to spin it later, this is what happened.  

Cassian: “You’re working with that prick,” Cassian cut in, whatever catching-up now over, apparently. He moved to Mor’s side, a hand on her back. He shook his head at Azriel and Rhys, disgust curling his lip. “You should have spiked Eris’s fucking head to the front gates.” 

Amren: “Your whole family is despicable,” Amren said to Lucien.

Mor: At Mor, whose face went white with dread. […]Or at Eris, heir to the Autumn Court, as he strolled into the room. 


And I had the terrible sense that Mor had gone somewhere far, far away as Eris set down his goblet and said, “You look well, Mor.”

The sight of him triggers actual real panic attacks and flashbacks that we can literally see from Feyre’s POV. Five hundred years after the fact and Mor is still traumatised enough by what he did to her to react like this even after all that time. 

Then we have Feyre’s POV herself. Through her we’ve seen Eris laughing alongside his other brothers as Lucien was tortured and nearly killed. 

“I don’t suppose your handsome brothers know, Lucien,” she purred.

“If we did, Lady, we would be the first to tell you,” said the tallest. He was lean, well dressed, every inch of him a court-trained bastard. Probably the eldest, given the way even the ones who looked like born warriors stared at him with deference and calculation—and fear.

 Ah, yes, that would be Eris actively promising help to Amarantha in order to damn Feyre and continue her reign. Then there’s the way Eris hunts down Lucien and Feyre in the Winter Court, actively harms them both. So that’s like…Basically every single main character in this book who’s told you Eris sucks. 

What’s the basis for believing that he doesn’t, out of interest? I mean what ‘evidence’ do you have that he is actually wearing a mask, what do you have that’s so strong it goes against the testimony of multiple characters? Oh I know! You have Eris’ word for it and that’s it. Wow. So unbiased. So convincing. Eris tells us he’s not really a bad guy and that outweighs the half a dozen people who tells us he is! That’s just. Damn. What logic. Can’t argue with that. 

Also, like, I’m sorry, but Rhys’ arc was done properly, Rhys’ redemption wasn’t a retcon it was a followed-through on plan. There were hints UtM that Rhys was not as black as he was painted (He killed the Summer Court faerie outright rather than leaving him to suffer, he repeatedly came to visit Feyre in her cell when no-one else would, he was honest with Feyre about the treatment he received at Amarantha’s hands (a vulnerability on his part), he told her why he was making her dance every night as well as the steps he put in place to protect her, he sent music to her and saved her life, he saved her life and Tamlin’s with the kiss (which Feyre is aware of), he tried to save Feyre’s life while Amarantha was torturing her) 

Rhys was a complex, morally grey character UtM and it’s possible to show a different side to him and a ‘mask’ because there were always hints of him wearing one. What if Ianthe told Feyre she was actually a secret agent working for Prythian but she was forced to act the way she did to keep her cover? What if Amarantha said she’d only dominated Prythian that way to save it from something worse and she too was wearing a mask and working for the greater good? What if Hybern said there was a bigger threat facing them and he had an ulterior motive to this war (and also, I mean, how do you really know Hybern is that awful, we’ve only ever had people tell us about him, maybe he’s misunderstood too!!!!)  @valamerys wrote this out far better than I could in this post, read it too. 

My thoughts are pretty simple, tbh: SJM decided to “”””””redeem”””””” Eris, likely to have him set-up to take over Autumn, now Lucien isn’t an option for that before what with the whole dramatic lost son of Day thing and she did a crap job of it. Like this isn’t some grand morality based character debate that’s going on here, SJM just handled this poorly. In order to make him seem not so bad she had to undo all of the canon that she’d set in place before hand and offer ‘alternative’ explanations for what happened that we’ve never heard about. 

If she planned this all beforehand, if Eris was always wearing a mask why weren’t there hints of it before? Why didn’t she have Tamlin tell Feyre he got an anonymous tip-off the day he saved Lucien’s life from his brothers (which is what Eris claimed). Why wouldn’t Lucien defend him a little, say at least he cared about their mother/was sometimes kinder to him than the others? Why wouldn’t Rhys say that in the arranged marriage that petrified Mor, Eris was as unwilling as she was, that he argued against it? (Eris would have gone through with this marriage regardless of what it did to Mor if she hadn’t slept with Cassian) Why wouldn’t Eris stay quiet UtM or not show up to watch Lucien’s torture (which he does repeatedly)? Why, why, why, why, why would SJM not do something to show us that there might be more to Eris? Unless this was just a sloppy, last minute retcon to redeem a gross, abusive character who still to do this day petrifies his victim? 

Like, if you consider showing to be of more importance than telling in stories….You’ve picked a mighty weird hill to die on here with Eris. Because this is literally the worst example of telling not showing in this entire series. There is no basis for anything that happens with Eris’ character in ACOWAR and the only thing we have stacked against the evidence of two and a half books is what Eris says and how he personally spins the story like ????

 Idk dude, we can have a convoluted, let’s bend over backwards to redeem this guy and show he was misunderstood and has been wearing a mask so convincing it’s never ever ever cracked even once this entire time, to anyone! Even people who’ve known him for centuries….Or we go with the simpler: SJM really didn’t plan or execute this story very well at all. Which seems more reasonable?  


okay so i’m not entirely sure if this is right, it could be wrong, i’m up for debate, but i was overanalyzing the trailer again (because what else is there to do lmao) and i noticed something in the bike riding clip?

as we see, will’s ghostbuster costume is a little bit different. it’s a darker color and maybe almost kind of knock-off looking? which is fine i mean joyce probably couldn’t afford the actual thing or something idk not the point, the point is that it is definitely a different color. visibly so.

so taking a closer look at the three on the bikes. the furthest right seems to appear a bit darker? the coloring looks more like will’s suit than the others. which means that it would be him on the far right, dustin on the far left (you can see his hair a bit), and the middle one on the green bike is lucas.

now this is major speculation and i could totally be wrong, but the color of suit definitely appears darker to me. that rider is also the furthest back, so the perspective doesn’t make him look any smaller than maybe will should appear. also, usually when the boys ride, mike is front and center, so why would lucas take the lead now?

now this creates the question: where the hell is mike?

honestly, i’m not entirely sure. but we know that when the boys are at the school in costume they’re together, and later that night (when it’s dark) are trick-or-treating. so whatever causes the three to bike frantically down the road most likely takes place between those two scenes and isn’t so extreme that it keeps them from going out later for halloween. 

that means if something was wrong with will and the boys were going after him it most likely would end up furthering the big plot that has to do with will and the upside down, which would most likely be big enough of an event to prevent them from returning “normal” life afterwards. you don’t race down a road like that if something fairly big isn’t happening.

now what if, since strange things are once again starting to happen, something draws mike away from the others. so far all we know about him for sure is that he’s going to be the saddest lil angsty emo because he thinks el is dead. that’s a fact. so what if there’s something that happens, something unusual, something that maybe convinces him that it could have something to do with el, whether dead or alive. now i don’t know for sure, but i think if the three boys got a call from their “leader” to come quick because something was happening, i could see them tearing through the town to get there. and then when it’s nothing they still pat his back and tell him it’s cool and head out trick-or-treating.

again, total speculation. i could be painfully wrong. but would the duffers really make it that easy? i mean we see three boys on bikes and were going to assume it’s the same three we’re used to, but will’s back and that could change the dynamic completely.

anyways, feel free to argue for or against this. it just like kinda hit me and i was like yOOOO i gotta post this shit. props to leah for listening to my ranting and encouraging me anyways.


But really, the more I watch it the more I realise it’s not only a fantastic Ignis moment, it’s a fantastic Chocobros moment in general? REALLY LONG POST AHEAD + UNFINISHED GAMEPLAY WRITING BUT THIS SCENE

Lemme start with Ignis because duh (if you’ve seen anything out of me the past two weeks, it’s probably been Ignis related). He’s been pretty passive about losing his eyesight up until this point. He calls it a minor sacrifice in the grand scheme of things. When Noctis and Gladio fight on the train, Ignis says nothing, even though part of the argument is his own injury. He only tries to stop Gladio by saying his name; Prompto is the one who tries to break it up (more in a moment. anyway not that Ignis really could break it up rn but you know) He’s been optimistic enough about it, though. “I’ll manage somehow” when you invite him into the mines. “This is considerably harder than I expected” he says about fighting. But sometimes you hear the boys say something and Iggy just sort of sighs. They’re dancing around him, and his injury, and the argument, and this scene is where it culminates.

The first time he actually says that it isn’t okay is because of their friendship hitting a low point, rather than his actual injury. But he is so, so aware of that injury and how it has the potential to drag them down. He still says “I would remain with you all. Til the very end” because these are his brothers and he damn well plans to, but that said.

This is the first time we hear Ignis raise his voice, I think. Not including battle cries and the like. Which is saying a lot because this boy is very, very calculated on his emotions. (ie later on when Prompto falls off the train, you hear the very audible difference in Noctis’s voice vs Iggy’s) He’s Crownsguard, Noctis is his king, he will do anything for him, and believes he has no reason to complain even if he has gone blind. But that’s a Big Thing. His yelling in this scene exactly “I know full well!” is finally, finally his frustration coming out and it’s triggered because of their bickering (or anti-bickering, since they aren’t really… speaking much).

He says he is willing to bow out if he starts to slow them down, which imo is like asking him to suffer a physical injury all over again (he is Crownsguard, Noctis is his king, he will do anything for him) but he still will DO IT because he won’t be a burden.

He goes on to give Noctis what, I think, is a much needed confidence boost. “A king pushes onward always, accepting the consequences and never looking back” and in the opening sentences for the next chapter, it literally uses those same words to describe Noct’s reaction to Ardyn’s trick: never looking back. (Also never looking back is exactly what Ignis is doing right now, which is why the choice to focus the camera so much on his scars in that moment is AMAZING.)

He continues with that to tell Gladio that Noct will be king and he will rule, but “only once he’s ready”. And this is SO important. Gladio’s interaction with Noct is painful at least and rage inducing at worst (more below) but not only does Noct need to hear this, Gladio does, too. They can push Noctis into that throne but he will never be able to lead until he is ready, and that involves coming to terms with some very, very heavy stuff that’s been happening. Everybody doesn’t handle grief the same way and they’re all having a hard go at it in very different ways thanks to the events of late.

So all of this makes this the DAMN GOOD IGNIS MOMENT. But it’s also really good for the rest of them, both in mentioned ways and others, but since I’m apparently waxing poetic 

Prompto, Gladio, and Noctis under the cut ↓ (note: 150% zoom for easier reading)

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What’s in France

Request: Hello! I have a request, how about reader is in love with newt, but she thinks newt loves leta(when they were in hogwarts)(and newt had been distant) which is why she lost contact with him after he got expelled. Angst!! They meet years later and turns out newt realised he loved reader when he lost her. Pls a happy ending! Im sorry if its too detailed, I’m just really excited about this one. Love u!

Word Count: 2,665

Pairing: Newt x reader

Requested by Anonymous

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Newt twists in his bed, kicking the sheets from his chest and running a hand over his face. The moonlight streaks illuminate the small clock hanging crooked on the room’s wall. 2:53. Groaning, he flips onto his stomach, coming face to face with a picture of you breaking into a shy smile.

The familiar tears prick his eyes as he watches it happen over and over, falling back asleep and into a restless dream of you smiling.

“Are you sure you don’t want to come? It’ll be fun. Come on, we can go to The Three Broomsticks and split a glass of butterbeer like we used to.”

“I have too much studying to do.”

You groan and fall onto the couch next to your friend. “Newt, we haven’t had time to hang out in ages.” You deepen your voice to sound like his. “It’s always ‘I’m studying’ or ‘I have to write notes.’ Why don’t you take one break to go with me?”

Newt tears his eyes from the book in front of him, smile forming on his lips. “I’m busy. I need to pass this next potions exam. We’ll go next month, I promise.”

“Newt.” You whine, drawing out his name until he raises his eyebrows at you in false annoyance.

“Fine. You win.”

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even underneath the waves, i’ll be holding on to you

aftg zombie au, “i want to go back for you”. warning: very long
basically, what would happen if neil and andrew were separated during an apocalypic situation.

The news says it first.

The world is ending and everything has gone to shit.

Nowhere is safe and nothing is okay anymore.

Nothing was ever okay, but they make it sound new, like this is something nobody expected to happen. Not here, never here.

It started with a virus. It was like the flu in every other way; the fever that kept people bedridden for days, the sickness and the headaches. It was like the flu in every other way but one: it slowly ate away at people’s insides, made living people into nothing but hollow hosts. Nobody would have expected a kindergarten teacher from the West to lash out her students but it was even worse when she bit one, and then he bit his mother three weeks later and she bit her boss. Like that, the vicious cycle continued. Everywhere there was panic, there was a disaster, there was death.

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hereismykaleidoscope  asked:

i'd like to do my end-of-degree project about something related to queer history (since i'm studying history) but it's very usa centric all what i know and i'm from europe, plus idk how would people react when i tell them (like maybe they'll try to convince me to do another topic) and^this would mean to out myself and this all is dismotivating me from doing it. any idea of where i could look into (i was thinking about asexuality or trans/nb history) or any message of positivity and confidence tx

Alright so there are a number of things we would love to address in this ask. First European queer history, so with that you have two avenues you can go through; a person by person basis (so if you go in depth on one person who happens to be queer such as King Kristina of Sweden then no one can say anything because you are just reporting the facts of a subject) or a queer movement in which case our suggestion is you look at pre-WW2 Berlin for an absolute wealth of information. 

And now for how people will react. I am never going to try and push anyone into come out, and I don’t know enough about your situation to know if it safe, or if it is something you really want to do and will make your life easier, but I will give you some excuses in case you don’t want to come out. 

“I am just trying to be a good ally”

“I am really interested in this period of history/person”

“I find unrecorded history really compelling”

“I have a friend who told me about it and it seemed really interesting.”

But you also can come out this way, if you feel like that is something you want to do and are comfortable with this method then this is a good way. Or you could come out earlier if this isn’t the way you want people to find out, but you want to be out.

Lastly know that no matter what you do or what you decide you are the product of thousands of years of work and lifetimes dedicated to pushing forward queer rights. And whatever you do or do not do, you are a credit to all the people who have come before you just by existing. No matter what choice you make, I am proud of you, and I truly believe that so many of the people I have written about would be too. 

If you decide to research you are furthering the work of giants like Magnus Hirschfeld, and Arthur Kronfeld. If you choose to take a different path and stay in the closet and write in subtext and code you follow the footsteps Oscar Wilde or Greta Garbo. 

And we here are proud of you, for your desire to do this work, even if you don’t end up doing it right now I can promise you the desire will never leave. Whether you end up doing this paper or not this desire is going to find its way into your work, there is no creator who has been able to fully separate themselves from their creations. So no matter what you do, it is going to be amazing, and it is going to make all the people who have come before you proud.

random-b-l-o-g  asked:

Hi, again. I know you guys are probably busy with all the requests you get, so I'm sorry to add on. But how would everyone (RFA+MC) react to Saeyoung and Saeran's father finding them and kidnaping (?) them. Up to you what happens in the end and if MC romanced anyone (idk). I just had the idea and wanted to see your take on it. Thank you very much!

Hey there~! Ahhh no worries, we’re writing them as fast as our schedules would allow us (your other request is still sitting in my drafts, I’m so sorry aaah), but we’re battling the hydra inbox one request at a time~!

I was actually wondering the same thing. Did my thoughts reach you? Lolol I’m just kidding. But what would happen, right? Let’s find out!


Warning : spoilers, possibly triggering themes, violence, foul language.


Chapter 1

July 8, 3pm

Seoul, South Korea

His secretary rambled on as he looked out the window, lost in thought.

What would they look like now?

Have they settled down and built a family?

His former lover had reportedly died during her incarceration through suicide two, no, three years ago. He visited her in prison days before her demise, but she spat at him and never got their location out of her. Even in her last hours, she refused him his children.

Were they still alive?

“…and one more thing, prime minister,“ the secretary adjusts his collar, seemingly uncomfortable with the information he was delivering next.


“I’ve had reports that we’ve finally found them. What do you want to do?“

And he was just thinking about them. How amusing.

“Prepare for extraction. But make sure nobody learns about this, secretary Ahn. Don’t kill anybody unless necessary. I want them alive.“


July 8, 3:30am

New York, USA

Vanderwood was awakened by the shrill ring of his secure line smartphone. He only had a few contacts on it and had assigned ringtones to them so he knew who called without looking at the caller ID. Swiping his screen to accept the call, he sleepily answers.

“MC, do you realize what time it is?“

“Vanderwood, we have a problem.“

“What, did the twins finally burn the house down? MC, I already told you to just use the ta—“

“This is no joking matter, Vanderwood! Saeyoung and Saeran have gone missing, and the only clue I have is the overturned furniture and a trail of blood from the kitchen to the garage!!!“ MC screams into the mouthpiece, prompting Vanderwood to put the phone away from his ear. It was followed by the sound of sobbing and sniffing right after.

A break-in? But how? Saeyoung’s bunker was one of the most secure places he’d been to. Was it one of their enemies?

“Hey. Hey MC, calm down for a bit and tell me everything that happened, okay? We’re still in New York, but I’ll see what I can do on my end,“ he tries to assure her as he made his way around the dark room, putting on clothes as MC relayed the events to him.

The day hasn’t even started and he was guaranteed that it was going to be a looooooooong day.



“So you’re not taking Elizabeth back, Jumin?“ a disembodied female voice asks him.

“Apparently, V took her.“

V? Why would V take her? And why was this voice vaguely familiar to him?

“I haven’t made up my mind about her. But I still think that V will give her the love she deserves.“

Preposterous. How could he not take Elizabeth back? He’d take her any time of the day. What was he saying? Was he dreaming?

A series of loud knocks pulls him back to reality, and he is met with the dark ceiling of the hotel he currently stayed at.

It was a dream. Good. He couldn’t imagine a life without his beloved cat.

The knocking continues, and he turns to the nightstand to look at the time.

4am? Who could it be? He didn’t want to fire a bodyguard for something stupid.

Putting on his robes, he groggily makes his way to the entrance, peeking onto the peephole to see who it was.

Vanderwood? This better be important.

“What is it?“ he asks, not opening the door.

“I’m sorry to be bothering you so early in the morning, Mr. Han. But I just received an urgent call from MC. It seems somebody broke into their house and took the twins away.“

A sudden pounding in his ears makes Jumin wince and he closes his eyes for a while to fight it off. How was MC? Was she hurt?

He removes the chain lock and throws the door open, a worried look in his eyes as he meets Vanderwood’s equally worried ones.

“Tell me more. And contact the hangar. We’re leaving ahead of schedule.“

July 9, 8:30am

C & R International, South Korea


Jaehee tiredly watches as the vendo machine drops a paper cup and dispenses her daily dose of caffeine.

Coffee. She spent long hours of work on researching that one, only for her to have it handed over to another team by her boss.

She finally found her passion, only to be unexpectedly crushed due to her boss’ stubbornness.

The rest of the RFA defended her against Jumin, but the stakes were too high if she disobeyed him. It was hard being a corporate slave.

But something was missing, she just couldn’t remember what it was.

A familiar ringtone disturbs her from her thoughts and she fishes her phone out of her pocket to see the display.

Jumin Han.

Speak of the devil.

“Jaehee, clear your schedule today,“ Jumin says immediately, with not so much as a greeting.

“Excuse me? Mr. Han? Is something wrong?“ Jaehee would’ve dropped her coffee if she’d taken it earlier.

“I’ve just received a report about the twins disappearing, and I believe MC might be in danger. I want you to take a handful of my men and check on how she’s doing. Make sure she’s guarded until — “ the director barks out his orders, giving the poor woman little time to properly process what was happening.

“But… but Mr. Han…“ she interrupts, “… the Chinese investors are due to arrive today. In fact, they should be along any minute now,“ she wanted to go immediately as well, but she was tasked with showing the investors around. She couldn’t just leave her post and hand the job to someone else as she was the only one who studied the investing company’s profile.

“…shit,“ Jumin blurts out on the other line, probably unaware that he’d said it out loud.

He boss rarely cursed aloud, and she knew it was really bad from the way he sounded.

“But I can send over the bodyguards and contact Zen or Yoosung to check on her and move her to a safer location,“ she suggests, mentally listing the things she should do after the phone call. She wanted to check if MC was okay herself, but she was also in a pinch at the moment.

A frustrated sigh on the other end. Silence.

“Very well. Contact them and have the bodyguards accompany them. I’m on my way to the airport as we speak; I should be there by the evening or so,“ and then, without warning, he adds, “… and assistant Kang? Good luck on today. I’m confident that you’d do your best.“

Thrown off by Jumin’s sudden compliment, she stops for a moment and smiles.

“Thank you, Mr. Han. I hope you have a safe flight as well.“

July 8, 12:00am

Choi residence


“Your father will kill you. Mark my words, Saeran. I’m the only one who can keep you safe,“ a familiar woman tells him as she shackles him up again, for whatever reason, he didn’t know.

He only wanted to see the sky and had looked outside the window when she found him. Was that such a bad thing?

His brother wasn’t around to protect him. He was hurting and scared. Where was he?

But as it was, his brother was also hurt from the beating he received the other day. He wanted to protect him as well. If only he had enough strength.

He’d kill the bitch himself.

The scene changes, and the blonde haired woman that he’d come to hate appears before him.

“Your brother left you. He abandoned you; he won’t be coming back for you,“ she tells him, a sort of crazed look in her eyes.

He should’ve escaped when he had the chance. But he didn’t. He was consumed by the hatred coming from the lies the woman spun.

His eyes fly open as he feels a hand on his shoulder, and he comes face to face with a masked person in full tactical gear.

The intruder pulls away from surprise and they look at each other for a few moments before Saeran reaches for the gun under his pillow and shoots in rapid succession. They fall almost immediately, and Saeran grabbed his jacket and hid in the shadows.

He did tell his brother to change the security around the house. That arrogant bastard.

But more importantly, where was he? Was MC safe?

He shoots two more persons down when he meets them by the corridors.

“Target one secured, companion unharmed. Have you secured target two, delta team? Delta team, respond!!!“ a scratchy radio voice streams out from one of the fallen men’s portable radios.

Soldiers? But why? They were off the grid!


Feeling an oncoming panic attack, he curls up in a fetal position and takes deep breaths as his mother’s words from the dream come to him, attacking like a viper and wreaking havoc on his conscious thoughts.

No Saeran. Not now. Your brother needs you. You have to protect him this time.

Taking huge, slow, gulps of air and counting from one to ten, Saeran tries to relax and clear his mind to suppress his panic attack.

You can do this, Saeran.

He moves as fast as he could, shooting down incoming soldiers as he looks for his brother, diving from behind one of the kitchen counters as a group of five men that seemed to be carrying something, or rather, someone, appear from his left. A lone soldier approaches them from the opposite direction.

Had he missed that one? Dammit.

“Target two is on the loose, sir. I’ve just confirmed five men down.“

“Well, shit. He’s bound to be around here then. So much for an extraction. You two, take target one immediately and call for backup!“


No. They’re not taking him anywhere. I won’t let them.

Just as he was about to get up, another soldier walks up to him and he immediately shoots, but an empty click resounds in the silent area.

Out of bullets. Just my luck. Should’ve taken those extra rounds.

“Game over, punk,“ the man smugly states, approaching him, gun drawn.

“Drop the gun and raise your hands over your head,“ another one announces from behind him, weapon aimed at him.

He was surrounded, with no way out. He does as ordered, standing up slowly, arms above his head. Turning to one side, he spots the knife block, and an idea comes to him.

But it seemed the enemy caught up with his train of thought as well.

“Don’t even think about it, kid. Or he’ll get it,“ another soldier warns him, holding his brother close, gun pointed at his temple.

“I’m not doing anything,“ he innocently responds, gears shifting on his mind.

“Yeah? No shit. I can see you move, boy. Hurry up and take him,“ the commander orders, gesturing to the other two with his gun.


Saeran grabs the nearest man, using him as a human shield as he uses his stolen weapon to shoot the man in front of him and the other one holding his brother. He drops the lifeless one as well, and approaches his brother. However, as soon as he kneels beside him, he feels a pinprick on his neck and he falls down, his whole body unresponsive to his commands.

“You put up a good fight, but we win, punk.“

Godammit. How many were there? He couldn’t move a muscle. Trying to reach his sleeping brother, he was suddenly pulled away and lifted to only god knows where.

I’m sorry, brother. I tried. I’m sorry, MC. I… I couldn’t protect him.


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anonymous asked:

Hello! I'm new to seventeen, and I really want to be part of this Fandom, but I honestly don't know how. I've been following your since a long time and I fell in love with seventeen! I really want to know about them. What should I do? Thanks for reading this~

ahh! i’m so glad ur interested in checking out our boys!! idk if you’re used to large groups like svt, but if you aren’t, then learning to attach names to faces can be pretty tough. luckily, svt is split up into 3 different “units” so it’s a bit easier. i hope it’s okay i use @shua​’s fantastic gifs to introduce the boys:

so this is hip hop unit, aka the rappers of the group, although they aren’t bad at singing either. in order from left to right, top to bottom, we get:

  • mingyu: ridiculously tall and ridiculously handsome, and if anyone knows me they know i want to fight him in a tim hortons parking lot. in truth, he’s a really sweet dorky guy, and whatever you do don’t give him something or he’ll drop it.
  • s.coups or seungcheol: leader of hip hop unit and overall leader of svt. has the unique ability to be both a friend and a respected leader. that all flies out the window once anything remotely competitive happens and suddenly he’s out for blood.
  • wonwoo: the designated Deep Voiced Rapper of the group and a total bookworm. he was pretty calm and quiet when they first debuted but has rapidly become more and more insane as time goes on.
  • vernon or hansol: he’s mixed (korean father, white mother) and has a plethora of embarrassing videos of him as a kid you can find on the internet. ridiculously chill but can be extra as fuck when he wants to be.

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and here is vocal unit, the singers! from left to right, we have:

  • jeonghan: a cheater, a swindler, a mastermind, and also the most genuinely caring, nurturing person you’ll ever meet. he used to have super long hair, and when he cut it short again the entire fandom basically lost its shit.
  • woozi or jihoon: THE LOVE OF MY LIFE not only is he the leader of the vocal unit, but he’s also talented and intense and composes all their music. if an introverted, awkward, acerbic cat was a person, that cat would be lee jihoon.
  • joshua or jisoo: originally from LA, he used to be the sweet gentleman guy before he revealed himself to be wild and dorky as all hell. if he went to college, i’m pretty sure he’d be the guy playing the guitar at parties. you know who i’m talking about.
  • seungkwan: one of the main singers. outgoing, great at comedy and variety, talented as fuck, and ridiculously soft-hearted. loves his mother to hell and back and so far has cried over every award/music show they’ve won.
  • dk or dokyeom or seokmin: the other main singer and literally a physical embodiment of pure sunshine. his smile has been scientifically proven to banish negativity within a 50ft radius. he’s Soft and Must Be Protected. also those thighs, holy shit, those thighs.

and finally, performance unit! they are the main dancers and will kill you with their moves. from left to right, top to bottom, we have:

  • dino or chan: the talented maknae of the group. his parents own a dancing studio and he looks up to michael jackson. ridiculously responsible and mature for his age, but the other members prefer to keep treating him like a baby.
  • jun or junhui: one of the chinese members. he used to be a child actor and is basically Perfection. a really sweet and supportive mom friend, but whatever you do don’t try and argue that he’s not hot shit bc he will 100% try to prove you wrong immediately.
  • the8 or minghao: the other chinese member and has crazy b-boying skills & can do flips and shit that basically give me a heart attack. he used to be pretty quiet because he wasn’t used to the language yet, but has since become a Roasting Champion.
  • hoshi or soonyoung: the leader of performance unit and the one who creates most of the group’s choreography. imaginative, energetic, focused, serious when he needs to be, and in general has absolutely no chill. like. at all.

and that’s all the members! what i recommend is to start watching their shows to help you get comfortable with them and get to know their personalities. i recommend watching in order:

  • 17 project: detailing their challenges and tasks up to their debut with adore u, here you get to meet baby!svt and see how hard they’ve worked to gain fans, improve their abilities, and come out as a new group. expect lots of tears.
  • one fine day: set roughly in between mansae and pretty u era, watch svt get thrown onto an island, learn to fish, beg for food, and nearly starve to death if it wasn’t for mingyu. i’m completely serious. that’s the whole show.
  • one fine day in japan: set after boom boom era and only just finished! it’s one fine day season 2, except now they’re chilling in akita, japan, where they frolick in the snow, struggle with the language, eat good food, and engage in the most heated, intense rivalry the world has ever seen. 

there’s also 17tv, back when they were trainees. it’s hard to really watch it all these days, but you can find english subbed video clips on youtube of baby!baby!svt messing around in practice rooms and (usually) being Gay As Fuck with each other. trust me, this is where half the shipping comes from.

and there’s plenty else i’m sure you can find, but this is how you can really get into them! also make sure to check out their music videos, albums, etc. etc. every fandom has their issues, but the svt fandom is in general a pretty great place with lots of cool ppl!!!

(I really hope this works, its just showing me the title of my image but idk maybe that’s normal? Ive never  submitted anything before so :/)

I wanted to thank you for your unbelievable dedication to all your blogs, because, honestly, how do you have the time for all this? You have all these unbelievably well planned out concepts and storylines and all of you art just seems to ooze love and joy for what you do, and you put so much work into this. Like, someone sends you an ask about a funny thought they had and within five days it’s not only a meme but a whole comic and the best thing that has happened to most of us all year. And it’s honestly unreal how much you interact with us, your followers and fans. It feels like we’re all one big family, even if many of us don’t know each other, because we all interact with you, and you’re like that red silken string that ties all of us together. And whatever you do, it’s awesome. How do you do that?! Like, you tell us you’re gonna take a break and basically tell us you’re gonna go shitpost and it turns out what you consider ‘shitposting’ is the mutant AU none of us knew we needed in our lives. And, speaking of shitposting, your shitpost hours with the gang? Do you know how much I love those??? And you know, I noticed that all of the people who got their zines got a Legmon (Legfam saved my life™ through unbelievable wholesomeness, which is also the reason why I’m sending you this here and not on ask-kimdaily) thank-you card, and I thought if there ever was someone who deserved a thank-you, it’s you. So I borrowed a graphics tablet and drew you something. I know it’s not the prettiest (I downloaded the first free digital art program I came across, and it turns out the free version of Mischief doesn’t let you do layers) but I think the thought comes across well enough. I’d like to hug you in person, but alas, interscreenar travel is not invented yet, so Legmon will have to do it for me. 

Admin: OMG I JUST SAW THIS AND IM CRYING ACTUAL REAL TEARS THIS IS SO SWEET???? I’m so so so thankful you took time to write all of this you don’t even know how much it means to me. I was feeling a bit down ‘cause of life these past few days but this just made my entire week :’-(((((( It’s so rewarding to know that my work has brought such a loving community together. Like no joke, all of you are literally the nicest and sweetest and I couldn’t be any luckier to have found such an amazing group of people to share my art with. I’ll work even harder in the future to create a space that gives you guys as much positive experience you guys can have. Making people happy with my art truly really is one of the greatest joys of my life and you guys never fail to let me know. For that, I’m eternally grateful. Anyway, I LOVE THIS IN ITS ENTIRETY AND I WILL FRAME AND PRINT IT AND STARE AT IT FOREVER thank you so much ily and all of u guys :’-(((( 💖💖💘💖💘💗
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anonymous asked:

Do you do SHINee? Could you do a bodyguard AU with them too like you did for BTS? If not I'm so sorry and please just disregard this!!

i usually don’t do shinee but my ult bias is onew so a lil special thing for u


  • is the only one with probably a license to be a bodyguard. as in like he took classes to be able to do this
  • is usually just a friendly dad. likes motivating the other bodyguards with pep-talks 
  • greets you every morning with the same phrase and it’s kinda weird kinda endearing ??? 
  • wears the all black suit, but his ID badge is yellow with pineapples drawn on it and it’s honestly like the cutest thing
  • insists that carrying you over small puddles of water is a must
  • thinks he looks cool with the sunglasses on and it’s true you’re like “onew, you look so serious and suave” and he’s like thank you…….but then does a corny smile in secret 
  • you caught him trying to calm down a crying child but he really didn’t know what to do like it was obvious he was getting nowhere
  • so you went over and scooped the kid up in your arms and just petted their hair and soothed them with your voice
  • and onew watches you with like complete enchantment because he’s like hOW did you DO THAt ………what is the magic trick
  • and you just giggle and you’re like there’s no magic!!!
  • and in that moment onew is pretty sure he’s meet the love of his life (you) and that hopefully in the future ………..this cute impromptu family is…….a real family


  • hums the james bond theme song in inappropriate situations 
  • winks at you whenever you ask him to do something and he’s like “you got it captain *wink wink wink* *finger guns* *failed attempt at backflip*”
  • the other guards are like sT O P being embarrassing but you love it honestly you applaud jonghyun for always having so much energy no matter what
  • bodyguards aren’t allowed to have piercings but jonghyun (if he did have one and let’s say for the sake of this au he does) would totally be like “im not taking out my eyebrow piercing. or another piercing on a part of my body none of you can see”
  • jonghyun turning around to look @ you “unless the boss wants to see-” key probably: “THEY DONT CALM DOWN”
  • switches his ear piece out with his headphones during long meetings or whatever and tries not to be obvious about it
  • but everyone can hear the usher playing at full volume jonghyun please
  • “can i finally have my own gun?” “no jonghyun.” “why not?” “we gave you a baton last time and you bedazzled it” “it was blingbl-” “NO. IT IS A WEAPON.”
  • you were up all night writing up documents for a big official treaty and jonghyun was your overnight guard and at some point it’s 4 am and you’re like i CANt… this anymore
  • and jonghyun appears with some tea and snacks or w/e and he’s like “i know what will help.”
  • and you’re like …….??? and jonghyun’s like “it’s my super secret super special talent show”
  • and he proceeds to literally….touch his elbow with his tongue. and that’s it. 
  • and you’re sitting there, tired out of your mind and there’s bodyguard jonghyun licking his elbow and yoU SWeaR ITS THE FUNNIEST THING
  • you laugh so HARd you fall off your chair and jonghyun rushes over worried but you’re just laughing as he holds you and soon enough he’s laughing too and you two are just being so loud the other guards come in like ???? but it’s just you two laughing and …….maybe after you’re literally sick of laughing you lean up and kiss jonghyun as a thank you for making you feel better and jonghyun may or may not does a victory dance


  • “you see this manicure? you see how nice my nails are? it’s because it makes it easier for me to CLAW OUT YOUR EYES YOU DIPSHIT GET AWAY FROM MY BOSS” 
  • is always the voice of reason, but also the voice of crippling criticism 
  • designer suit, designer shoes, designer gun if that’s possible idk but imagine
  • people underestimate his strength as a bodyguard, but rather than being strong physically key is really smart and always makes sure to have three-four back up plans if anything goes wrong. that and he has good aim so if anything he’ll pick up the nearest object and throw it at an attacker if necessary 
  • this once happened and the nearest object was taemin’s phone. you can imagine how that turned out
  • you and key have inside jokes about everyonE like EVERYONE because key gets all the gossip from all the other bodyguards and he’s just like “heY did you hear what the prime minister of france did, well let me tell-”
  • there was once a time where you were almost kidnapped for ransom and key was the only guard closes to you and for a second you doubted how safe you’d be with only him, but key literally shielded you with his body
  • and even though the other person was stronger, leaving key with a bruised face, key refused to move out of the way and all he did was turn and smile at you, bloodied lip and swollen eye and he promised he’d keep you safe
  • and luckily you were rescued before anything fatal happened but you had run to key who was being taken to the hospital and had cried and he’d only held your hand in his and told you that he didn’t regret anything
  • afterwords, when he returned with some bandages and stuff, you were like really worried and hovering over him all the time and he was laughing about it because you’re not the bodyguard, he is
  • but tbh he liked having all your attention to himself~ 


  • is famous for his suit pants always being too short because he’s so tall
  • “choi why can i see your ankles?” “sorry, i keep getting these pants tailored but……there still too shirt”
  • jonghyun voice: “gimme some of that height there brother”
  • is like slightly oblivious when it comes to anything because he gets enchanted by your presence 
  • like literally you guys will be going over a plan and you’ll take a sip of water or tuck your hair behind your ear and all of a sudden it’s like minho is fixated only on you and key has to literally snap his fingers in front of minho’s face to get him back to attention
  • always says the bodyguards should do a soccer match against one and other but literally no one else wants to and it gets minho all sad
  • is the only one who can probably aim a weapon the right way. is even better then onew who took classes smh
  • got a tramp stamp on his lower back that says flaming good looks with the hot wheels flames and no one lets him live it down
  • you found out at the annual christmas party where jonghyun got (a BIT) tipsy when he shouldn’t have and blurted it out to you
  • and minho, who was staying by your side that night, turned cherry red and was like jONGHYUN and you were like ohohohoh let me see that tattoo
  • and minho got even more red because he’s like,,,,,,it’s on my lower back,,,, and you’re like “oH……well if you ever want to show it to me~~”
  • and minho was like wait. what. you’re .flirting ……….with???? me????
  • and you just giggled and minho went into a trance for like a week because oh my god you flirted with him and it took onew literally coming up to you and telling you to please ask minho out otherwise minho would be stuck in that state of shock for literally The Rest of His Life


  • who even let him get this job 
  • none of the other bodyguards trust him enough to like let him have a solo duty like everyone is like @ each other don’t let the boss out of your sights……….or taemin
  • got his hands on someones gun once and onew was like “everyone on lock down code red someone catch that boy”
  • taemin didn’t get it though like aren’t cool bodyguards SUPPOSED to have guns why does no one trust him is it because he keeps waving the gun around????
  • tbh he doesn’t even need a weapon his sheer presence sometimes scares people away because he has this one smile. that like. looks /off/
  • like he’ll turn and look at someone, tilt his head, smile and just stare deep deep dEEP into their soul
  • and that person will feel like they’ve been dragged into hell itself so they wouldn’t even think twice of messing with taemin
  • which is funny because on the otherside he’s a big giggly kid who stops to pet every puppy he sees
  • you once said you were stressed and taemin was like “do some dance exercises with me to unwind” and you were like omg and the other bodyguards were like no taemin you can just ask our boss to dance with you
  • and taemin, who was going through his playlist to pick a song to dance with you to was like excuse me why not
  • he picked brittney spears’s toxic and ………..well…..
  • you ended up dancing, taemin ended up ontop of your desk dancing, jonhyun ended up singing into your stapler, key caught the whole thing on his phone, minho tried to make sure taemin didn’t step on any important documents, and onew considered writing a resignation letter
  • taemin once did end up alone with you, on accident really because you meet him off duty when you had snuck off to be alone and taemin recognized you instantly and you were like SHHH and he was like “????? oH you snuck out???” and you’re like oh my god
  • and taemin’s like don’t worry, here take this
  • and he like took off his hoodie to give to you and he was like “if you ever wanna go out just tell me ill distract the hyungs for you”
  • and you put his sweater on and it was cute you were like thank you taemin,,,even tho a bodyguard really shouldn’t conspire to let me do something like this
  • but taemin just took your hand in his and was like “let’s have some fun before the hyungs find out and literally try to kill me (—–:”
  • that was the first of many cute sneaking out dates