idk what this is
He’s always like “I swear to god if something happens to you…” or “I’m gonna be mad at you if you die on me.” when I start using a lot because he’s paranoid that I’m gonna o’d or something and he even threatens to take my stash away when I start doing too much.
but he doesn’t know that I deprive myself of food half of the time and he cant do anything about that so I could drop dead one day and he wouldn’t know why.
knowing that hurts me. but feeling like I’m not worth anything because of my size hurts too so i dunno.