idk what i do with my time

idk what this is

He’s always like “I swear to god if something happens to you…” or “I’m gonna be mad at you if you die on me.” when I start using a lot because he’s paranoid that I’m gonna o’d or something and he even threatens to take my stash away when I start doing too much.
but he doesn’t know that I deprive myself of food half of the time and he cant do anything about that so I could drop dead one day and he wouldn’t know why.

knowing that hurts me. but feeling like I’m not worth anything because of my size hurts too so i dunno.

i would consider myself an atheist but i believe in Some kind of gd because when i was like……10 something rly wild happened to me
i was rly into sewing at the time and i was super upset because all of a sudden i couldnt find my fabrics that i was working w and lil me was fuln distraught!!!! so tht night i just like. Prayed for 20 mins bc i didnt know what to do and i asked that i could just find my fabric
and that next morning my f*ther came home with like….. BINS of fabric from the showroom he worked @ because they were switching the samples out AND i found the fabric!!!! idk it was……wild and idt it was just a coincidence

I know it is wrong of me to feel this way but I feel very resentful that reproductive health qua women’s issues are the coalescing point for “resisting” the privatizing & fascist movement that literally I, my home, has served as a proving ground for for a long time now, but also I said this when Eve Ensler showed up to my capitol in what 2012 so idk. and like, how much are people mot listening or paying attention to What Happened in Michigan even still

but it coalesces for a reason! it is undeniable that white cis womanhood INCLUDING its means of resistance adheres capitalism, and that is one thing that pussy whatever is doing.

anonymous asked:

My ex has been keepin me around n leadin me on. I found out she slept with a dude and felt betrayed. She's askin me to keep her in my life now. Idk what I should do. Do I have a right to say if she's still talkin to the dude I want nothing todo w/her

yeah you have the right.. but you are hurt so yeah watch out that you dont hurt yourself more then you are already… Tell her that you need time and tell her how you feel about the boy. she needs to accept that. Think about the situation and ask yourself what you really want. 

About me

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I was tagged by: @lachapiada thank you for tagging me 😭

Star Sign: Libra ♎️ 
Height: 5'3 
Time Right Now: 1:23 pm 
Last Thing Googled: “What was the three fifths compromise was included in the constitution to resolve a conflict over the?” (Lmao I was studying)

Favourite Music Artist: idk I don’t really have a favorite I’ve been listening a lot of Kid Cupi, J. Cole, Kanye West and Majid Jordan

Last Movie Watched: Resident evil: extinction

Last TV Show Watched: The vampire diaries

What am I wearing right now: An oversized t-shirt and shorts

When did I create my blog? August 2016

What kind of stuff do you post? Ummm anything really whatever my heart desires at the moment tbh

Do i have any other blogs? No

Do i get asks regularly? Lol no y'all fake

Why did i choose my URL? Well my middle name is Esme so yea lol I just added sx in front

Gender: female

Pokemon Team: Valor

Favourite Color: Burgundy

Average Hours Sleep: Idek my sleeping
schedule is all types of fucked up

Lucky Numbers: 8

Favorite Characters: idk

How many blankets do I sleep with? 2

Dream job: honestly I just want to help others it makes me really happy so a psychologist or something with children

I’d like to tag : @espressouls @reynitaa98 @thickshortiesss @youcancallmekokaina @ifyouwantityoucangetitt @iiissaa @lispyjan @lloro-na @lordxpvpi @xicanamorenita @cali4niagirl2o @chingona-af @vvestcoastbae @michoacana101 @sk8beef @horchata-daddy @shinjuku-alien @slimlikeabicyclerim @karlanthonisha @humbly-grinding

mom did make me eat.
I ate three spoonfuls of soup and about ¾ cup of rice that my mom made.

I kinda tricked my mom into making half calorie rice.
you know how people say that if you put coconut oil in it and then let it cool in the fridge for a couple of hours, its supposed to make your body only able yo digest half of the calories? yeah well I told her that it just makes it cook better so now every time she makes rice she does that.
so yeah i had that and popcorn today and myfitnesspal says ive had 277 calories but I dont think its accurate.
idk what to do anymore

anonymous asked:

6 and 25 ;)

6. What characteristics do you look for in a girl?

funny! thinks im funny. likes to hold hands and also hold my boobs. likes harry potter. idk wants to talk to me. thinks im worth talking to. doesn’t care if i send them random shit that’s happening in my day. will keep a snap streak going. thinks im pretty probably. as sappy as me. willing to watch hockey with me. also willing to watch a series of unfortunate events with me probably a million more times bc im obsessed.

thanks for 25!!

Hey any followers of mine taking injectable T?

I have a question…
Are you always able to get your full dose out of the vial at the end of each month? I just can’t seem to get mine.
I inject .25ml weekly and am prescribed 1ml. By the time my 4th week on that vial roles around I’ll be lucky if I retrieve 10ml for my last dose from that vial. This week was my 3rd week from that vial and it was looking so low I only injected .15ml instead of .25ml so I could have a decent dose for the 4th week :/

Idk what I’m doing wrong here, I’m unable to legally get what I’m prescribed once a month so I can’t ask for more if a mistake is made

IM NOT EVEN LYING I CRIED NEAR 15 MINUTES STRAIGHT BC OF THE LAST EPISODE OF GOBLIN. i still haven’t processed everything that happened but HOLY CRAP. THIS IS MY FAVORITE DRAMA, HANDS DOWN. i’ve already loved kim go eun, gong yoo, and yook sungjae and now i have a newfound love for lee dong wook and yoo in-na. SO MANY EMOTIONS RIGHT NOW I’M SO SAD THAT IT’S OVER BUT I’M HAPPY THAT THEY ALL HAD A HAPPY ENDING. cries bc i was so invested and now idk what to do with my life now omg

but LOL at the fact that when i was BAWLING my eyes out, my brother came into my room and the first thing i said was, “THIS ISNT A GOOD TIME” while choking on my tears HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

i was tagged by @traumaghost thank u!!

rules: answer the questions then tag people u want to get to know better!

  • nickname: idk does ‘faggot’ count as a nickname
  • star sign: aries
  • height: …5′2″
  • last thing you googled: twin size mattress guitar tabs
  • fave music artist: my chemical romance (surprise)
  • song stuck in your head: rice balls by pink guy
  • last movie you watched: bo burnham’s make happy 
  • what you’re wearing right now: sweatpants and a breakfast club shirt because i suck
  • when you created your blog: i’ve remade like 200 times but i made this one in like november i think??
  • what kind of stuff you post: shitty bands and edgy aesthetic
  • do you have other blogs: yea!! i have @knifepriest and a vent (mutuals can ask for url if u want)
  • why you choose your url: gerard has a puke kink but i definitely dont at all
  • gender: nb boy cryptid
  • hogwarts house: slytherin
  • favorite color: dark green or red
  • average hours of sleep: on weekdays like 4ish, on weekends like 10 or so??
  • lucky number: 19
  • favorite characters: will graham, andy dwyer, bender (the breakfast club)
  • how many blankets you sleep with: as many as possible
  • dream job: guitarist in a shitty punk band?

i tag: @psychoticks, @moon37, @bonniibelle@tiredordead, @joncer, @nurders, and anyone who wants 2 do it

tagged by @java-finch ty i love doin these

Nickname: Fern/fefe/fapis

Star sign: leo

Height: ~196 cm / 6′5′’

Time right now: 12:34

Favorite music artist: 4lung

Song stuck in your head: the kamen rider w op

Last movie watched: the man who fell to earth

Last T.V. show watched: kamen rider ooo

When did you create your blog: july of 2011 i wasnt even 13 yet

What kind of stuff do you post: whatever i feel like. art, memes etc.

Do you have any other blogs: my nsfw/kink blog which idk if i should give it to everyone like this and @fernandaxbox which i made for reasons

Why did you choose your URL: i changed my name to fernanda and i wanted to be or but they were taken so i just slapped ps2 in it bc why not and now it’s also my artist name

Gender: female

Hogwarts house: >_>

Pokémon team: skull bc i dont know anything about pokemon and those guys look fresh af

Favorite color: red? a little dark red?

Average hours of sleep: i try to keep it 8 but most of the times eh

Lucky number: 10

How many blankets do you sleep with: just one

Dream job: idkkk

Following: 1244

Followers: 343

i tag everyone ure all tagged all of u

OH by the way, requests are open again. But I will change my info and put a disclaimer that I’ll do the requests on my OWN TIME and when I feel like I want to draw them, that way they will come out GOOD and not forced. Without requests I realize Idk what to draw most of the time lolll. I have everything secured for Katsucon and was able to get some commissions on my furaffinity so everything has worked out c:


Episode 10, the night before the GPF.

This has got to be just about the cheesiest thing I have ever drawn but these two deserve it. Also this was just supposed to be Viktor pouting, what happened >.<

Anyways yeah give me more vulnerable Viktor and a Yuuri that is very affectionate when they’re alone.

the times my son, harry james potter, was the sass king

  • there’s no need to call me ‘sir’, professor
  • it’s just, you can’t break an unbreakable vow. I’d worked that much out  for myself funnily enough.
  • wow, I wonder what it’d be like to have a difficult life 
  • whatcha fell ova for? I didn’t do it on purpose
  • the task is two days from now. really? I had no idea 
  • did you think we’d be staying in five-star hotels? finding a horcrux every other day?
  • but I am the chosen one
  • tell them I mean no harm. I’m sorry, professor. but I must not tell lies.
  • listening to the news! again? well, it changes every day, you see
  • yeah, you can have a word. good-bye
  • I know what day it is. well done. so you’ve finally learned the days of the week
  • just do what I did, harry! what, drop my wand?
  • an interview? what do you mean? I mean a reporter asked me questions and I answered them
  • It’s time you learned some respect! It’s time you earned it.
  • they stuff people’s heads down toilet the first day at Stonewall. Want to come upstairs and practice? no, thanks. The poor toilet’s never had anything as horrible as your head down it — it might be sick
  • Sure you can manage that broom, Potter?… Shame it doesn’t come with a parachute — in case you get too near a dementor. Pity you can’t attach an extra arm to yours, Malfoy. then it could catch the Snitch for you.