idk what i an even doing anymore

i’m thinkin of changing my blog’s colors back to the old dark purple theme i had going on because i’m not really feelin the whole pastel pink thing anymore

not even sure if i really liked it in the first place

DEATH IS A PLACE. but i forget where it is . . .

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So Idk why my images end up odd sometimes? clicking on them in a full screen mode usually helps but for those who had trouble with the last update, the image was a picture of Gabriel Agreste saying “I know we’ve had our disagreements, but this is unlike you”

and it’s been a while since I’ve done a week day update. I’m just, sorry I wasn’t feeling up to doing an update last weekend. tbh I’m not even feeling right rn, I feel choked up and it’s hard to breathe right and i’m nearly always close to tears. But um, if I didn’t do this, I wouldn’t do anything today. I know something more predictable is best but I can’t seem to keep that promise and so I’ll just update as I go no matter the time or day

and hopefully I can calm down

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death knight player: honestly its disgraceful and disrespectful the way demon hunter npcs think they can just carry on about darkness and sacrifice like they’re so cool and tragic. do they even know who i am. they chose to follow illidan, for some reason, and they get cool tattoos and wings. big whoop. what a hardship. death knights had to claw their way free of the lich king’s will and try to fit back in to the world of who they were in life even though they can never truly go back and everyone they used to love distrusts and fears them and they can never stop killing things or else idk some bad stuff happens. who do these “”illidari”” think they are. my character cant get hard anymore 

demon hunter player: i like the big jumpies

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“I’ve aged a bit.”

Idk if I even qualify as sugar anymore. I market myself as sugar, but I also use phrases like “market myself” so I’m not really sure.

I’ll break it down for y'all & you tell me what you think.

I “specialize” in businessmen from out of town. They’re here for a day or three. They tell me what they want to do, how much they want to spend. I ask for 25% more than what they offer plus expenses (travel, buying new bathing suits, whatever I can make up that sounds relevant) and they give it to me. I’m all theirs for a day or three. Then they leave and I don’t hear from them again until the next time they’re in town.

I’ve had a couple of these guys give their friends my number. So sometimes I’ll get a call or a text from a guy who’s in town for a day or three. Those are my favorite because I can always upsell them. Men are always in competition with other men, even if they don’t know it lol. “Oh, Sven gave you my number? Well Sven and I had tons of fun and he gave me $$$.” I never lie about the number. But if this is a coworker/colleague? He’ll generally offer more than the first guy, just so he can feel like he’s got the bigger dick the next time they’re in a room together.

And I still ask for 25% more lol. Plus expenses.

I still go on POT dates looking for the perfect sugar, but I meet up w guys from out of town two or three times a month and it keeps the bills paid.

It doesn’t feel like sugar, but it doesn’t quite feel like escorting cause I don’t really have rates. Lol wtf am I doing you guys?

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[Part 2/3] Continuation of the Reiner x Geek!Connie au (x)

Still can’t believe that I actually did part 2 and it’s not even finished. Part 3 is still in a VERY slow process. Haha. ha. 

do i even make a good guzma i cant,even fucking tell hdgalahdkjdh,,

i don’t often make text posts anymore so this is a little awkward um

what i wanted to say is; i get too often comments or tags on my work that are something like ‘i wish i could do this’ or ‘why can’t i draw like this’ etc, and it makes me pretty sad. i dont think you should put other artists on some kind of…unreachable pedestal. because it’s just not true…at all

you CAN draw like this, you CAN draw even better than this. i truly believe that given time and effort, anyone can improve at drawing…just like honing any kind of skill

i played the guitar for three years in my teens and i was still awful at it, you know? i never really practiced enough, and three years is not very long. i could kinda play the melody for ‘let it be’ by the end, and i was pretty happy with that. i just never had the drive for it that i have for drawing, so i didn’t stick with it

we all struggle with not being good enough for one reason or another, and it’s normal to get frustrated at our abilities sometimes, but…

if you have the passion for it you can really do pretty much anything

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there ain’t language for the things I’ve seen | an Alison DiLaurentis fanmix

01. little girl, little girl, where’d you sleep last night, not even your mother knows / 02. look out young son, when I bloom, you come a callin’ / 03. I have a honest heart but I have lies on my tongue / 04. I wanna be immortal like a god in the sky, I wanna be a silk flower like I’m never gonna die / 05. I don’t have time to die / 06. I’m so tired of seeing it, so I’ll play dead / 07. just a little girl, and jesus was a woman / 08. this angel has lost her wings, I’m building a monster / 09. I’m broke again and not broken and my homeless heart, it feels no pain / 10. I will dig my own grave / 11. motherfucker I’ll be back from the dead soon / 12. she’s running away, chased by the reaper / 13. I run for miles over broken stones, bleeding feet and aching bones, but I won’t stop tonight, for my body still has fight / 14. the darkness got a hold on me / 15. gypsy queen, you never bleed

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