idk what happened i didnt mean to do this

anonymous asked:

sorry. i was kinda mad when i sent the caps ask. i just hate when people take boys doing feminine things as them being trans women. that is harmful and happens way too often irl, boy does feminine things and is bullied until he forcibly enjoys masculine things. sorry for that last ask, i didnt mean any harm. i just got way too heated. sorry for calling you bitch, it was rude of me. its just kinda cissexist (is that the right word? idk) that people who like fem things must be girls.

Of course, and I get what you mean.

Although there’s a difference between a boy who simply enjoys feminine things, and somebody who desperately wishes to be a girl, is ashamed of their own body to the point where they can’t look at themselves, is more concerned with being buried in a suit than dying, and was all of a sudden having the time of their life, despite being hunted down in the most feared high-security boarding school/conversion camp in the multiverse, the moment somebody referred to them as a ‘princess’.

I’m re-watching Season 1 of TVD and I’ve gotten to episode 19, the Miss Mystic Falls pageant. And I’m starting to notice just how much, even from the beginning, they kind of failed with Elena’s character. 

  • Scene 1: In the dressing room getting ready for the pageant. So, you have Aunt Jenna fixing Elena’s hair and Elena is obviously not all that enthused about the pageant. She is telling Jenna how her mom made it seem like so much fun and Jenna counters that Elena was very excited herself when they had signed up for it before her parents died. And Elena says that indeed she was, but she would be happier if her mom were there to share it with her. 
  • Scene 2: Early on in the episode we see that Elena had completely forgotten about the pageant, only being reminded when Caroline brings it up. It is made to seem that Elena is going to do the pageant because it was something very important to her and her mother before she died. 
  • Scene 3: Then we have the whole monologue of all the girls competing, pleading their case to the judges of the pageant. Why they should be chosen etc. One girl talks about community service that she did…community service done because she got a DUI…L O L. Not gonna be her, apparently. Another mentions that she has already won Miss Mystic before…she’s probably off the table. And another seems to be a very kind, sweet girl…who isn’t from a Founding Family. She is just there to make it seem as if the competition isn’t a special Founders event. It is. So that leaves Caroline and Elena. Caroline lists off her accomplishments. It is a pretty astounding list. No way are any of these girls going to have gotten involved with and done more for this town than Caroline Forbes. Seriously. Elena sweetly gives a speech mentioning that she hasn’t been as involved lately (obviously due to her parents death) where she again puts emphasis on her mother and the values and legacy she thus instilled upon Elena. 

The point? To empathize with Elena right? Cheer for Elena, she deserves it, she’s our girl! Rah, rah, rah!!!

So, I’m gonna go back to my first point. Jenna and Elena talking about her mother. The whole little scene was intended to make us root for Elena, not necessarily just to win the pageant but as a character all together. The whole time it was like there was a neon sign flashing above her head sympathy, sympathy, sympathy. * Applause, applause, applause* Love her! Pick this one! She’s special!

Then Elena gets up to go put on her dress, and the scene cuts to Caroline. Caroline Forbes, bubbly Caroline, in her bright hot pink robe, her make-up table & hair station over-flowing with products. Shallow, superficial Caroline Forbes. The back-up, she tries so hard but she’s never the one, she’s a kiddie pool. Right….right? No. Fuck you. She was never a kiddie pool. 

A literal maybe 8 second cut-to-scene of her all alone looking in the mirror and Caroline Forbes suddenly has ALL of my sympathy.

Earlier in the day it seemed as if she was hoping that Elena would drop out of the pageant because she wants this sooooo bad but she could never beat golden girl Elena. But Caroline has heard this whole conversation, and this used to mean something to Elena too and she has lost her parents and minutes later when Elena wants to drop out Caroline says no, this was important to you once, this IS important. She pushes her fear of always being second to this girl aside, she crushes it to be a good friend to her.

That little glimpse we get of Caroline’s face in the mirror is meant to show us that she sees it, she understands what Elena is going through. She is not blind to it. Christ, even Caroline who wants to win so badly sympathizes with Elena. And it was meant to show that there is more to her, which, !yay! character growth, that’s fantastic! But that is not why Caroline got my sympathy and love in that instant. It wasn’t the look on her face that showed that even she loved Elena, even though she has been competing with her since they were children. 

Caroline was alone. All alone. Both of her parents are still alive but neither are there for her. On this special day that means so much to her, she sits alone. No mother primping her hair, no father wishing her good luck. And Liz is there at the pageant. In uniform as security perhaps, but she never comes to say you look beautiful or I’m proud of you, after she wins. At this point the only champion of Caroline Forbes is Caroline herself. And goddamn it, rip my still beating heart out why don’t you, because it pumps for this girl. 

And then you realize that even though Elena’s parents are dead, she still has people there for her always. The line of Elena worshipers stretches around the block. You kill her parents but Aunt Jenna is here for her, and the Salvatore’s too. Let’s kill Jenna. Oh, but Alaric will step in. Let’s kill him now. But Jeremy is still here and all of her friends and the Salvatore’s who will do anything for her too. Time for her to lose Jeremy as well. But oh wait, we can’t let that stand because her best friend who will die for her a thousand times can fix it. She is a vampire now. But no, she never wanted that. Let’s all risk Apocalypse Now to fix that for her too. 

You made everyone love her and you killed everyone she loves. To show worthiness, and growth, and strength I suppose. She loses everyone and still goes on. Every one in the show will do anything it takes to keep her safe. So she must be someone worth rooting for. Right? No. Because fuck you. 

It took a 10 second scene for me to fall in love with Caroline Forbes and I will love her forever. But damn did you fail hard with Elena Gilbert. 

I don’t know what this is. A jumbled, sticky mess of my Caroline Forbes feels mostly. As soon as this scene happened, and I got the full impact of it again, I had to pause my shit and get all my feels out. I thought I was going to explode. For the record, I never disliked Elena until probably toward the end of Season 3. ….Until I started this re-watch. Now I’m really starting to see why some people hated her from the jump or like me just never cared much about her or got that special ‘oomph’ from her character.

anonymous asked:

Who do you think tops? Kai or Kyungsoo?

well, anon, i think it’s kai, bc im forever #teambottomsoo

and let me explain why

look at that majestic butt sway

i wonder what jongin would do if it was him who stood behind soo

just look at it, his butt looks so plump 

is it bad that i want to slap that butt?

and also we have seen how jongin eyeing that butt, btw ^this is the view that jongin enjoys

i wonder what he was thinking when he saw ksoo’s butt, why he giggled like that?

this too, near the end of the gif his body already turn to the left but his eyes still fixed on soo’s butt (he bit his lower lip when he looked at soo)

jongin was being very subtle here 

shake that booty

jongin plz (and for those who say “omg kai-oppa didnt stare at d.o-oppa, he looked at the floor!”, then why the fuck did he look away when ksoo got up?)

i heard that when we hug our friends (friend in the meaning of platonic friend, not we-are-friends-but-i-have-feeling-for-you friend), we tend to keep our crotch/genital area away from touching our friends’ body (whether the hug is back hug or front hug or side hug), jongin could just lean his upper body and create a little gap between soo’s butt and his crotch so they wouldnt touch, but he didnt, and pressed his crotch to soo’s butt instead,

idk what happened here, i guess this is just another pict that means nothing since camera angle and timing do powerful magic to our shippers’ eyes

tapping the butt

his crotch touched soo’s side

very subtle there mr.kim

kaisoo innocent hug? aww so cute

oh

lets see it from another angle

another reason why i think jongin tops is bc of his powerful hips trust movement

damn that hips movement imagine him grinding on soo with that move 

also i think soo likes it when jongin does the hip thrust 

look at how soo got so happy…

…when jongin did this

soo didnt fix his eyes on jongin’s butt, instead he focused on the whole movement (body wave)

near the end of the gif, when jongin turns around, soo’s eyes/gaze went down, did he look at jongin’s crotch? giggity 

there is this gif set when kaisoo doing hipsthrust when they were facing and eyefucking each other, sadly i cant find the gif in my stash folder but i bet y’all have seen it

another reason why i am in #teambottomsoo bc the way they latch on each other is different, this is prob just me being very biased about ‘who tops and bottoms’ ordeal, 

but i notice when soo latch on jongin, he clings on him, like um how do i explain this? umm, like he treats jongin as his fav big teddy bear (personally, whenever i see him does this [latch on jongin], he gave me clingy and needy koala impression)

they backhugged each other on those picts, but each pict gives me different impression, 

left pict = jongin had his right arm circling soo’s body (waist) - idk i interpret this as protecting back hug? like ‘this guy is mine’? idk how to explain it

right pict = soo rested his head on jongin’s shoulder, basically he leaned his body on jongin, his arms didnt hug jongin tightly (like jongin did in the first pict), i interpret this as seeking comfort back hug? like a lazy back hug, “let me lean on u babe~” idk how to explain it  (idk maybe im overhinking shit as always im deluded so i have the right to do so hah)

do u get what am i saying, man i need an expert here

while [imo] when jongin does this (latch on soo), he has this protective/territorial aura. he likes to drape his entire arm on soo and he also has manhandled soo a lot

omg i just notice ksoo held jongin’s hand 

sure he didnt hug/touch soo here, but he managed to separate yeol from soo with his shoulder

he didnt even do the thumb up pose, whats the point of showing off his hand on soo’s shoulder? they were taking picture, ppl will see it, it wouldl be uploaded/seen by lots of ppl, there were also fancams, imo he did this on purpose

manhandling bae

the point is i sense a lot of dominance from jongin in their relationship, not to mention he is the vigorous one in this ship, and he has this protectiveness instinct towards soo? like that BR event where ksoo fell and jongin ran to make sure soo was okay. also he seems to pamper/adore soo a lot (giving soo chen’s straw [chen didnt want to give it to soo, jongin took it from chen and gave it to soo], he has called soo cute few times, praising soo, when soo does something he has this loving stare [he often smiles when he stares at soo], like “awww”-ing, etc) 

there is a high chance that they switch, bc according to my gay friend, there are more “switchers” in the world (he used the term: ‘vers’ - which is derived from 'reverse’ - to call gay males who take turn) than those who do “only topping” or “only bottoming”

also, for me ksoo seems to be the type to enjoy bottoming, i think he wouldnt want to waste jongin’s hip thrust skill and i think he likes to be manhandled by jongin, beside jongin is one of the main dancers in the group, and i think he wouldnt want to hurt jongin’s bottom (he loves his jonginnie, mmkay?)

and um, my view of ksoo is that.. um, he is kinky and he seems braver to do this. lol it’s just that he seems to be quiet and dont talk a lot; and lots of ppl have said, “its always the quiet ones”

plus there is nothing manlier than taking a dick up in your ass (it takes some balls to do that, again no pun intended), i applaud for those who do the bottoming for their partners /claps/

anyway, i didnt intend to answer this with another super damn long bullshit essay. and sorry for this long post eh not really and sorry to the anon who had asked this for i have neglected your ask, please dont blame me, blame my assignments instead 

A/N: im deluded trash, so dont take my words seriously THEY COULD BE JUST A PAIR OF VERY VERY VERY VEEEERRRRYY CLOSE BROS who suck each other d I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT KOREAN MEN SKINSHIP RULES WE COULD BE WRONG PERHAPS THEY AINT TOGETHER PERHAPS THIS IS JUST ANOTHER ILLUMINATI TRICK 

btw tbh im glad there are lots of ppl who think kaisoo aren’t legit…less attention is better, they seem to be very private individuals, low-key is a must,

i see some ppl are angry on kaisoo tag, please dont feed those haters, just ignore them and be happy inside our delulu bubble, so what if people call us crazy trash? we’re happy this way and its not like those haters who have called us crazy know us irl anyway… it’s internet after all, haters are bound to exist. 

BONUS (why? bc i can): 

totatlly not staring while biting his lip

/gulped/

totally not asking for a kiss from jongin (look at him puckering his lips while he pointed at them and he glanced at jongin)

pointed his lips while puckering them, then sucking them in

still nibbling his own lips 

nibble nibble (did jongin see this shit? did he see how thirsty his bae was?)

totally not looking at each other lips (praise the caption)

the way jongin came to him like he wanted to kiss soo instead of whispering

i see soo’s nose tip touched jongin, that waving hand cant cockblock me from seeing them ha

an anon told me that jongin’s hair got pulled by soo’s lips (his hair stuck on soo’s lips cuz soo’s whispering method) and jongin leaned when soo did this

another version

nosetip

this is just a very casual thing to do between platonic friends

look at jongin pushed away soo’s hand from his [soo’s] knees, then jongin changed his stance (like he was ready to trap soo’s body with his legs), (un)fortunately yeol stopped them to go further (SUCH A COCKBLOCKER WHYYYYYYY GO HAVE FUN WITH BAEK U DORK DONT COCKBLOCK THEM)

maintaining eye contact

the caption says it all

why his hand on soo’s back tho?

mr.kim here seemed to enjoy soo’s singing and dancing

giggity 

i hope u understand why i put the bonus gifs in that particular order  ( ͡°╭͜ʖ╮͡° )

i love this^ gif btw (the others backed away and jongin gave soo his butt) idk why this gif always makes me giggle

OT5; something like good communication; PG-13

that group chat aesthetic with no real plot

also tw for like discussions of mental illness nd whatnot

✨Minho✨: I can literally hear every word of Jonghyun begging them to go harder :x
taem: maybe dont be in the bedroom right next to the one theyre fucking in then

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ummm idid bad thing and i need to rant about it somewhere sry
soooo we did a teacher feedback form thing and i kinda wrote some rly mean things and then i said he was a racist and a mysoginist bc he kinda is but now i feel awful about it and also i dont know if it was actually anonymous and i rly dont want him to come talk to me about it… should i pretend like it didnt happen or go and apologize to him and tell him that i wrote it bc of my mental struglz so he doesnt kill me idk what to do and i feel like shit

The ih ship is so.. gross and boring. I spent a heavy amount of shower time thinking about in what way would it be favourable, and the answer is none.

They get several panel timez in this arc but? Thor quincy got lots of panel time lmao and look where he ended up. How can u even judge something by the amount of panel times, isshin barely gets any and? It doesnt mean their father and son relationship is in any danger. What i’m saying is, the origo ship simply doesnt have a quarter of what irs have in terms of character chemistry, strength of bond, fluidity in dynamics, relevance to the story, thematic parallels, etc. etc.

Ichigo never pined after xxxhime like he did with rukia, and never even placed xxxhime central. She is not his world changer, not his rain dryer, and not his speed stopper. They never never formed a connection beyond camaraderie and basic friendship. It’s just so sad - she has basically been standing there waiting and offering herself up to him. She’s just there for the taking if he ever wants her, you know? It’s just really cheap overall. ☹️☹️☹️ Most recently, in the panels of despair, she wasnt even shown as having affected him in any way. Idk why are ihs so confident? They have nothing substantial, at all. 😐😐😐

What ihs have are blatant misinterpretation, distortion of canon and wishful thinking. They also float by means of exaggeration of reality. Do i need to say it aloud. They laugh at ichiruki fans, but they believed so strongly that xxxhime was definitely a daughter of the soul king. They refused to believe she is a mere human. Didnt they also say that the reason yhwach overlooked her means she must be super special? Where is any of that now? Didnt they say that a confession from ichigo could happen any time after they take down yhwach together. Just, what. They act like they didnt cling onto their crackfic. It is so bizarre. They get some chapters of xxxhime fighting with ichigo as a comrade, they think his connection with, and feelings for rukia are just going to diminish. Man, these gais. 😌😌😌

Well, a few months ago, my best friend (a white guy) and I (a black girl) were walking home and we had some time to talk. He wanted to know who i liked so bad but i could never tell him that it was him. So he asked me that if he guessed who the person was, would i be honest and say yes or no? I said yes. So he was like, “Is that person me?” And i stopped walking and said, “Yes?” I was so nervous. But, he ended up telling me that he likes me. I mean, i had an idea but i wouldn’t believe it until he told me. So, we talked about how life is difficult and complicated but we just looked at each other like…idk but I was fighting myself. I wanted to kiss him sooooo bad but i couldnt do it. Then he told me that he would date me but he doesnt want our friendship to be ruined if we broke up. Now, im in an awkward position because after what happened, i became more shy and quiet. I really didn’t talk to him as much. I just got nervous and anxious. He knows why, i mean, he knows everything. But im just confused. He is confused. I didnt know what to do. A month after that, I was at my Uncle’s wedding. It made me realize what love is and I realized that I loved him. The wedding just ended and my other best friend told me that my best friend went back to his skinny, tall ex girlfriend. I cried the whole summer. I didn’t want to talk to anyone. I was so depressed. He still never told me why…he still never formally told me that they were dating. Im over him now but I got some closure from that. We talked about it but im still mad. I dont like expressing how I feel to people because it always bites me in the ass and he figuratively bit me in the ass by doing what he did. Now, I dont trust him. What can I do? What should I do?
I’m short and chubby…This lowered my self esteem