idk what else to say

The Get Down was a truly wonderful, engaging show. I don’t usually have much in the way of attention span to actually sit down and watch things, but TGD literally captivated me, I couldn’t stop watching and I was really paying attention. It’s such a well-made show, visually and of course music-wise. idk what else to say. I was really looking forward to finding out what happens to these characters, all of whom I really cared about, and now we’ll never know. I’m so disappointed.

I’ve been pretty inactive because in the last week my life has been changed in fundamental ways and it’s terrifying.

I’m going to be alone soon, for a while, and I am scared for the future, I am scared about money, I don’t know how to live alone.

I just.. I appreciate the support this blog brings me, and I feel like a broken record when every week or two I post again about needing help. But here we are.

I am a chronically ill (arthritis, fibro, hypermobility), mentally ill (bipolar, bpd, ptsd, trauma baby), trans person. My bills exceed my income by about 300 dollars a month, this does not include food. I’m saving money for the next 2 months to try to cover the expenses of a year of living on my own, aprox. 3,600 dollars.

Some of that is coming from my etsy store, some from my day job, some from tax returns, some from my wife donating plasma.

However, if you have the time and the spare income, even a dollar will help me keep my head above water. It’ll help me keep my apartment, keep from being homeless and crippled. I just.. need help…

My paypal is offredopheliac@gmail.com, and my etsy is TransSlimes, if you can buy a thing awesome, or if you can donate a dollar, or honestly if you can just reblog this or send an encouraging message. I need all I can get right now.

Thanks for reading,

Casper

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My Secret Romance - Episode 7 Spoilers

they had months to actually spend time together out of the public eye and without stupid media headlines. it was able to flourish without any scrutiny from anyone. which has been rare for taylor, the type of relationship that she needs tbh. now i’m sad in case she didn’t want it to get out just yet coz she was still enjoying the privacy

anonymous asked:

LOOOOng ask ahead. So I was going through your ask joon blog, which is super cute, and I came across a post where joon says he likes drawing and stuff. And that made me remember that actual namjoon is not that great at drawing. But see it got me thinking, why do we make fanfictions or AUs about real people. Because as I see it, we don’t know these people through and through. Obviously celebrities keep some part of their life private. And yet [1]

yet in fanfiction we assign these characteristics to them, either exaggerating or diminishing their qualities to fit whatever we need it to be. And I understand why sometimes people would want to see a person a certain way, but that’s kinda your private ideas, keep them to yourselves, not spread them around. Like how in so many fics namjin ar so soft and pure and angsty and smexy, when in reality they are just two normal guys who do normal things and chill out. Im not trying to be all [2]

HETRO HETRO HETRO, im just saying that whatever their actual orientations may be fanfiction will always be off and incorrect because these are real people who are not ‘open to interpretation’ like fictional characters. And that sort of resonates with my problem for AUs as well. As much as Im a sucker for AU fanfictions there is still something that bothers me. I once asked a ReaderXBTS fic writer how it didn’t feel like going too far by writing smuts about BTS members who are(once again) [3]

) actual living people, and I think the answer I got was that ;but you know we aren’t really thinking its them you know…’ which aside from being sort of against the point of a reader insert fic, gives off the vibe that you literally could have created your own character to put in this story but you are just randomly using their names and some habits to give the impression of a certain person but not actually claim responsibility for it. I hope I don’t [4]

offend by using your blog as an example, but your ‘joon’ and actual namjoon are different people, but it feels as if you’ve borrowed his identity for some cutesy fin drawing (which they are no doubt, cute and funny). If these weird ramblings don’t make sense to you here’s a question. Why do people not want BTS to discover their fanfics, why does it embarrass them. Is it because they know that there is something wrong with writing [5]

fics about real people? What are your thoughts? And Im really hoping that you don’t give me a crap response like ‘They are celebrities, they should kinda expect it, it comes with the job’ because Im holding you to a higher standard [end]

lmao ‘long’ indeed XD

Ok let’s start slowly and get some things out of the way. Firstly, please don’t worry, I don’t mind you using my stuff as an example, so don’t feel concerned about that, it’s all good :D 

The reason people wouldn’t want BTS (or whoever else it may be) to find their fics are numerous and all quite different. But generally it’s because they’re fictional and therefore obviously made up and not representing the actual people properly, not to mention it involves the writer’s own little fantasy so it’s embarrassing. Some reasons are: fics containing ships, fics containing personality types pulled to the extreme, not to mention all the smut, kinks, mpreg(why is this a thing) and all very explicit at that. 

So there’s that. 

I agree with you when you say that x Reader fics not actually portraying that actual person is hypocritical. Cuz it’s true. It is. Like that’s the purpose of a x Reader fic/scenario. But that’s also why I really really dislike x Reader fics/scenarios and avoid them like the plague.

Back to normal fics… I think there’s a few more layers to understand for this.

I’ll tell you what my and my friend’s view on this is, because we’ve talked about it before. 

First of all, in real life, Rap Monster and Namjoon are two different people. V and Taehyung, Suga and Yoongi, etc etc. what you see on TV, on your phone, on stage is not the real person. That’s, unfortunately, not something a lot of people seem to understand, but that is the truth. We as fans don’t know them now and probably will never know them, because when a camera in on, so is this little mask that everyone with that kind of lifestyle needs in order to keep sane. 
In that way, what a lot of fans actually fall in love with isn’t the person,, but the idea of that person. And that’s what’s being portrayed in fics as well. Not the person itself, but the idea. What’s in fics isn’t Namjoon, but Rap Moster. Except everyone calls him Namjoon because imagine reading an intense moment and seeing Rap Monster I think I’d burst out laughing.

So that’s one thing. Secondly, “why use them instead of original characters?”. Well… why make fanart? People write and draw about people or characters because they like them and it’s fun. 
Another reason is because it’s easier to insert a person/character that the reader already has an image of in a scenario. Because then you don’t need to waste time on describing hings about them, because people already know, so you can more quickly get into your story.
There’s an extra layer too and that’s because of exposure. You have ideas, if you write or draw something for the first time the chances of people seeing your work is scarcely close to zero. But if you adapt your idea to fit in with a show, or with characters or with people that already have a following, the chance of your work being seen by others immediately skyrockets. A lot of people read fanfiction. A lot of people like seeing art about their favorites. Whether people like to admit it or not, or whether they even did it unknowingly or not, the fact of the matter is that you as a creator have way of a bigger chance of getting your stuff known if you do it within a fandom. Of course, not everyone does it because of that, but it’s a thought for quite a few people, tho I think that’s more in art than writing. 

There’s also the very easy reason of: It’s fun.

I don’t think it’s wrong to write fict starring celebrities. I think it’s fun and cute and a great release for a lot of people. I think some people push it a bit far, but that’s also mainly just because of my personal preferences. 

There’s plenty of people who are well aware of the fanfics and who’ve actually read a few. Fr example Zico and really everyone in Block B made fun of it one time, Zico talked about some smut ones and even commented that they were too soft lmao. I’m pretty sure they would consider it a milestone to find fanfiction XD

So yeah… don’t think too much about it anon.

I FIXED HIM. Lore’s younger brother bLAH Merula. Call him Mel, Meru, Lula (he hates that one tho pppf)

Geno (loverofpiggies) Reaper (renrink)

OKAY SO he’s kind of a softy but not really. Like he’s a depressed child bc he rlllly doesn’t wanna touch someone and they die outta nowhere (and other reason to be depressed but this one leads to something-) SPEAKING OF HIM TOUCHING SOMEONE AND THEY DIE INSTANTLY HE Actually has a way to prevent that, sorta.

He has to wear a certain amount of these specific golden rings (as you can see on his rope and on his ankle) And he can touch someone without killing them. There has to be 8 total rings. Two on each arm and two on each ankle. When there is the correct amount of rings his eye light and his shirt (under the cloak thing) shows a golden pattern (this is so he can know he has all the rings without there are situations where he can’t see his arms or legs, idk what situation that is but oh well)

If he is missing limb then the ring in his eyes is gone and the design on his shirt is gone to, this means you will die if you make contact with him. This is why he has eight extra on his rope.

His abilitiesss ok- He can float, duh- UHhh you knoOoW, stuff like his parents *shrugs*

ALSO if he likes someone, like, LOVES them; he falls haaard man. t’s kinda hard to meet his standards. So it’s special when he falls in love *wheezes*

so i finally hit the goal i was close to hitting before i got suspended and ended up moving blogs for good,,, and its been a while so i decided to make my 3rd ff lmao. im gonna keep this short bc i cant write mssgs but anyways thanks for following me and reblogging my stuff, it rly means a lot and ily all! 

heres all my favorite blogs, almost all of them are mutuals so i put nonmutuals in italics, sry if i forgot anyone or put someone as a mutual/nonmutual if ur not

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♛ SANDCASTLE KINGDOMS SENTENCE STARTERS

BRANDED

❝ Any day I think I’m gonna break now. ❞
❝ I’m hearing voices in my head. ❞
❝ It’s never making any sense. ❞
❝ I’ve got a burning in my heart. ❞
❝ It’s tearing me apart. ❞
❝ Somebody call the doctor!
❝ Hey, I think I’m losing my mind now. ❞
❝ Having trouble finding a way out. ❞
❝ Shine so bright, this star’s gonna burn out. ❞
❝ I take and don’t know how to give. ❞
❝ You know I never mean well. ❞
❝ I can’t help but to help myself. ❞
❝ The mirror showed somebody else. ❞
❝ There’s dents in every cause. ❞
❝ They don’t take ya very far. ❞
❝ We’re in a special kind of hell. ❞
❝ It’s like a monster in the night. ❞
❝ It’s giving me a fright. ❞
❝ Oh when did I begin?

LIVE LONG ENOUGH TO BECOME THE HERO

❝ I’m down but you know I’m not out. ❞
❝ I’m coming back again. ❞
❝ Can’t break me, I’m not givin’ up. ❞
❝ I gotta prove them wrong. ❞
❝ Take your time ‘cause I’m not taking mine. ❞
❝ Voice in my head said to keep on going. ❞
❝ Don’t let ‘em see you bleed, don’t want your weakness showing. ❞
❝ Tell me it’ll all be fine. ❞
❝ That’s a lie, if I don’t reach out then how could it be mine? ❞ 
❝ My whole world was crumbling down. ❞
❝ What doesn’t kill you’s bound to come back for another. ❞
❝ I’ve found a way to tame my own monster inside. ❞
❝ Yeah we’ll survive the night. ❞

HEROES NEVER DIE

❝ Pull out the stops. ❞
❝ I got a way that we can get it. ❞
❝ Just say the word, I’ll kick it up to eleven. ❞ 
❝ We’re knocking on your door. ❞
❝ Don’t break it up, break it down. ❞
❝ We’ll kill the night. ❞
❝ And we’ll never see the sun. ❞
❝ I’ll call the shots. ❞
❝ Don’t you tell me when I’m done. ❞
❝ Live it up, this life is amazing!
❝ Don’t need to show no mercy, cause heroes never die. ❞
❝ Now listen up, I’m gonna give you a rundown. ❞
❝ Got you in my sights. ❞
❝ You know I’ve got this on lockdown. ❞
❝ This life was meant for me. ❞
❝ Step to the plate. ❞
❝ You gotta show me what you got. ❞

SANDCASTLE KINGDOMS

❝ What can I make and what can I sell?
❝ Am I a fraud or a genuine scam?
❝ Am I a monster or worse, just a man?
❝ But in the end we’re all the same. ❞
❝ To the grave we only take our names. ❞ 
❝ There’s an ocean made of dreams. ❞
❝ But the current strands you out at sea. ❞
❝ I wake up to find the passing of time. ❞
❝ Made my mirror show someone I don’t know. ❞
❝ But all kingdoms drown. ❞
❝ Tides bring them down. ❞ 
❝ My army has fallen. ❞
❝ The subjects stay loyal but don’t wait their turn. ❞
❝ Now blindly they follow their king to the fray. ❞
❝ But s/he has no action. ❞
❝ And they have no say. ❞
❝ But in the end we’re bound to change. ❞
❝ We’re made for more than all of these numbers and names. ❞
❝ We could all go down in flames. ❞
❝ Relinquish these words from my mouth. ❞
❝ The sirens, they sing laments just for me. ❞
❝ I fall to my knees and beg for release. ❞
❝ When my kingdom comes my will be undone. ❞
❝ My world then decides where to hang my hide. ❞
❝ Maybe one day you’ll find humanity. ❞
❝ Until then don’t you dare say that we are the same. ❞