idk this just gives me a lot of feels

hey you guys, im gonna be starting to fundraise to change my name/gender marker! ($200) my parents don’t have a lot of money and are supporting me while im in school full time. i start physio soon and (hopefully) t which i can’t get covered and i feel guilty enough about them paying for that ;-;

i would definitely want to give back even tho what i have to offer isn’t that great. i can draw and do a “irl” giveaway for everyone who helped out? is that lame? idk yall i just really need to get this done and if even a small fraction of u had a dollar lying around we could easily make the goal

i’ve kinda lost all energy to do readings, i feel very lucky to be getting so many but it is very draining and i feel like i keep getting asks that make me uncomfortable so i feel like i need to update my guidelines page a lot and im just losing a lot of ambition for doing it 

there’s something about the style of DAO that i love

it’s just so… it’s very drab.  all rogue armor looks exactly the same.  like, helmet upgrade?  yep it’s the same thing but in a slightly different tint.  mages get those ridiculous hats and the dingy robes.  grey wardens don’t have that flashy blue and silver armor yet they just wear whatever the hell drops off of darkspawn.  ferelden is brown and muddy.  as it should be.  denerim is the crown jewel of the country but it’s just dogs barking and dirt and flies.

when your warden suddenly decides that they’re no longer an archer or mage and grabs a random ass sword to shove through the archdemon’s skull, they’ve marched their way up and down this maker-forsaken land and they’ve got mud and dog shit all over their boots and no part of this journey was even remotely glamorous, because it was about spending days in the deep roads, covered in blood and bile and ichor, so of course you’re gonna make your final blow look at least vaguely fancy, because you deserve that much

and i just.  i love it.

The six of crows duology is honestly one of the best series in ya. You have all this crazy heist shit going on, the con men are being conned, and so on. But then, Leigh also deals with problems like human trafficking, racism and racial prejudices, positive self-image, disabilities, lgbtq+. And that’s not even all.

One of my favourite aspects is kaz and inej’s relationship. Kaz is a broken boy who needs fixing before he can be in a healthy relationship, and throughout the two books, he’s gone through a lot of character development and he’s getting closer to being better. He is not, however, an entirely changed man. And inej knows that and she’s not settling for that shit. Yes, she’s willing to try and help him heal. But she won’t let herself be dragged under with him. She knows when to put herself first and not give him everything of her. She knows she can try to help fix him but at the end of the day it’s kaz who needs to make the final decision to really try to heal himself and become a better man. Not just for inej but for himself. And it’s makes me so glad to see a heroine who doesn’t blindly want to give everything of themselves for the boy they love even if it may hurt them in the process. It makes me happy that inej is willing to wait for a healthy relationship. And it makes me happy that kaz knows this too and is trying to move forward.

Idk. I just have a lot of feels about my little crow children. Plz feel free to add on your thoughts

“It’s weird, because I’ve known him in ways a lot longer than some of the oth­er guys I played with for two weeks, and during the sea­son we play for the ul­ti­mate goal to win the Stanley Cup,” Weber said. “I dream of winning Stanley Cups with him and winning champion­ships with him.

- - -

One day earli­er, the two Predators players took part in one of the most viewed games in hockey history. An es­ti­mated 54.1 million Americans and Cana­dians watched Weber’s Team Canada defeat Suter’s Team USA in the hockey gold medal game at the Winter Olympics.

And despite all the nerves and pal­pi­tations that Weber had expe­ri­enced the pre­vi­ous two weeks, noth­ing could pre­pare him for see­ing Suter, his team­mate and defense partner, wait­ing for a plane back to Nashville.

As they walked to­ward each oth­er, Suter im­me­diately broke the ten­sion.

"Just act the same, I don’t care. You won a gold. I’m happy for you. Just act normal. Don’t hide it,” Suter told him. “If people talk about it, talk about it with them. You should be proud of it.”

With those words, Weber felt at ease.

“He was awesome,” Weber said re­cently. “I didn’t know what to say, but he made it easy and acted like he would any oth­er time, and things were back to normal.”

Me: And it’s just..idk. I feel like a lot of people see that Junhui can be witty or they see that he fits a lot of beauty standards and they just sort of forget that he’s an extremely kind and thoughtful guy, y’know? A lot of people recognize how mischievous he is but I feel like not a lot of people give him credit for also being a really soft and genuine man who cares about everybody - not just his friends.

The cashier at the Supermarket who only asked me if I wanted a bag or not: ?????? Who’s Junhui?????

missing you - tom holland imagine #4

Originally posted by spiderholland

about : Tom is away at SDCC while promoting Spider-Man Homecoming. Things start to go downhill as a Facetime call ensues and jealousy arises. 


Warnings : a teeny bit sad. drunk tom!


-


The ID caller showed up on your phone and you grinned, flopping down onto the bed as you answered the call. Tom’s smiling face filled your screen and you giggled, greeting him with a simple ‘hello Thomas’.

“Y/N! It’s crazy here!” Tom shouted, “I’ve never seen anything like this before! There were thousands of people on the panel it was insane!”

“Are you having fun?” You asked, a small yet tired simper reaches your lips.

“Loads! Everyone’s amazing! Laura is here, Jacob is here, Tony is here, oh and Zendaya is here too!” He continued to ramble on about how everyone had secretly arrived to the convention but your heart sank at her name.

Tom was an extremely sweet person, and he was definitely good-looking. Your biggest fear from letting him leave to Atlanta was him finding someone new. What if he found someone else prettier, smarter and better than you? Maybe he was already tired of you.

And it didn’t help that Zendaya was a part of your worry. She was the kind of girl you’d always want to be. She was gorgeous and successful, not to mention extremely talented. You let your insecurity get the best of you sometimes and you would always feel a bit glum whenever you saw them together. However, Tom wasn’t aware that you felt that way.

“Isn’t Zendaya pretty?” you piped up randomly, playing with the hem of your sweatpants.

“Yes, she is. Why?” Tom sounded confused. He looked at something behind the camera and he laughed, slapping his chest.

“Oh, that’s amazing, Z,” he chuckled before looking back at you on the phone, “sorry babe, were you saying something?”

You were about to say something before he interrupted you, laughing again and talking to someone you could only assume was Zendaya. You could hear her laughter too and you flinched, feeling annoyed. Anger and jealousy was already bubbling inside of you. Rolling your eyes, you scoffed at how he was so oblivious to you on the phone as he dropped his phone to his side so all you could see was his pants.

This was the first time in days he had facetimed you, and you felt so put off by how he wasn’t even paying attention to you.

Pissed off, you pressed the end call button hardly, ending the facetime. You put your phone beside you and picked up your laptop, trying to calm yourself down.

It seemed like the world wanted to rub everything in your face when you clicked on a random song on your spotify. Everything I’m Not by The Veronicas came on and you gasped, throwing up your arms in anger.

“Oh, come on!” You yelled at no one in particular.

The song blasted on your speakers and you sighed, letting it play.

Your phone beeped once.

Twice.

Thrice.

Tom’s face popped up on the screen, indicating a call coming in from him.

You ignored it, letting the ringtone play amongst the loud tunes of The Veronicas.

It stopped for a few seconds before ringing again. This time you decided to decline the call.

A text came in. You peeked.

Tom x : babe, what’s up? u  just hung up?

10. 50 pm

Tom x : y/n? Im gonna call u again.

10. 52 pm

Tom x : why did u decline the call?

10. 58 pm

Tom x : did i do something wrong?

11. 05 pm

You snorted, picking up your phone and typing a quick reply.

Me : idk ask zendaya lmao

Me : im gonna sleep. Have fun at comic con.

Just as you were about to put away your phone, it vibrated.

Tom x : I think I know what’s going on. Are you jealous of Z?

11.08 pm

Tom x : I hope you know I love you, and that I will never eye another girl that’s not you. I understand how you feel, I get sad whenever I think of all the other boys that are with you everyday. So i dont blame you. But you can trust me love. I promise.

11.09 pm

Tom x : z and i are just friends, nothing more babe. Im way too in love with you. Also im sorry if ive been distant. I miss you so much and i havent been able to really talk to you. Ive been very busy with work and everything else i just idk i feel really guilty now.

11.11 pm

 

Tom x : call me back when u wanna talk. Im sorry, i love you. Xx

11.13 pm

You sighed, giving in. You could tell he was feeling really crappy about it as you watched a livestream of the convention. Marvel was holding a livestream for the interviews and you saw Tom pop up in the screen when you opened the website.

His eyes were downcast even though he had a small smile on his face. Tom was less energetic and gave the interviewer half-assed answers. He kept crossing and uncrossing his arms and he fidgeted a lot on his feet.

His iPhone was gripped tightly in his hand, and every few seconds he went to check it.

Probably for my reply, you thought.

When the interviewer ended, you saw him walk away from the camera. The interviewer was about to interview Lupita Nyong’o next when another text from Tom came in.

Tom x : love i really am sorry. maybe u went to sleep already. Im sorry. I love you. Goodnight. Xx

11.25 pm

“Meh screw it,” you mumbled, pressing the call icon on his contact name.

He picked it up immediately after the third ring.

“Hello?” he said quickly.

“It’s okay,” you sighed, slumping on the bed, “sorry, I just got jealous. I shouldn’t have hung up on you like that.

“It’s just..I miss you so much Tom. And we haven’t facetimed in so long and.. I don’t know I was pretty pissed off by how you weren’t paying attention to me.”

“I know, I know,” you could hear his guilt from across the line, “I’m really sorry. There’s just been a lot going on right now.”

You sighed, “okay, now go and have fun. We can talk more later. I’m not mad at you anymore so don’t worry.”

“Are you sure?”

“Positive, I’ll be fine,” You lied through your teeth, even mustering a fake smile.

Tom hummed, before speaking again, “I’ll call you when you wake up. I love you so much, Y/N. Goodnight, love.”

“Goodnight,” you mumbled back as you hit the ‘end call’.

Grabbing a pillow from the top of the bed, you clutched it tightly into your chest as sobs began to rack through your body. The tears didn’t stop flowing, even after half an hour.

You’d think he would notice that you really weren’t okay.

You missed him so much.

And it already felt like, to you, he was slowly drifting away.

-

The next morning was horrendous. You woke up to the feel of your soggy pillow and puffy eyes. Rubbing your face, you snuggled further into your duvet.

There was no way you were going out today. Your heart felt the heaviest it had felt in a long time and nothing seemed to motivate you to get out of bed.

You missed him too much.

Making calls to everyone, you apologised for not feeling well and rescheduled everything.

Nothing mattered more than the ache in your heart. If your mind wasn’t in the game, there would be no point in getting into the game in the first place.

You decided to check your notifications and was surprised by the amount of texts Tom had sent in.

Tom x : Good morning, babe. I hope you slept well. I’m out here in San Diego, in some bar. Missing you. 💛

7.30 am

Tom x : I hope you’re not angry anymore. It’s been bothering me the whole day. I’m still sorry.

7.45 am

Tom x : baEb i lpve you si much…….im sorry yoi think i luv zebdaya….i dont… i love you im sorry

8.30 am

Tom x : jacOb says in Drunk! Haha@ he keeps tellinf me that i should go homE

8.35 am

Tom x : i sAid wherE? LonDon? He saiD no You IdioT the Hotel

8.36 am

Tom x : i saiD it aInt HoME UNLESS y/n is wit me

8.38 am

Tom x : jeusu chrisy i lovw you

9.00 am

Tom x : i jusT PUKED  I WISH YORE HERE Y/N YOU MAKe me FEEL BETTER

9.28 am

Tom x : I MISS YOUUUY

9.35 am

You stared at the screen, taking it all in.

Tom got drunk last night.

Yet, all his words seemed so sincere. Just before you could exit the chat, a new message came in.

Instead, this was from Harrison.

Haz O : hey y/n, i think you probably read the drunk texts tom has been sending. just want to tell you. tom has been drinking a lot for the past 2 hours. he’s upset, y/n. after he puked on the sidewalk, he cried. he cried about how much he missed you and how he didn’t deserve you. that you lie when you say you’re okay. he said that it would be easier if you both broke up. you could find someone better. so, stop being mad at tom. there’s nothing going on between z and tom. If they did, i would’ve told you. he’s feeling so guilty for no reason.

You felt hot tears gathering at the side of your eyes. He was beating himself up because of your jealousy. Guilt took over you as you fumbled to type out a quick reply. A plan was already forming in your head and although it involved a lot of money, you knew it would help in fixing this problem.

It was probably too reckless and spontaneous, but you had enough of missing Tom and clearly, Tom was sick of missing you too.

You : I’m getting on the next flight to San Diego. Take care of Tom for me. x

dating Jongin would include

Originally posted by k-pop-crazy

  • softest person in the world CONFIRMED
  • is really shy about talking to you at first so tries to get someone else to ask you out for him
  • shoves sehun in your direction to ask for your number
  • but is also thrown under the bus by sehun who points to jongin like ‘hes the one who wants your number btw’
  • and jongin has to give this lil wave at you like ‘hi’ so he doesnt look like an idiot
  • but even after texting you for like weeks or months he’s still v v shy and when you have your first date
  • he’ll probably only speak when spoken to and everything will end in a fit of giggles
  • which makes you fall in love with the smol bean even more
  • and he’d be so loyal that it’s unreal and leaves you questioning whether he’s legit
  • he’d always have your back at any given time 
  • and he has to know youre okay at every given moment
  • so he’ll be calling you every night so he can make sure everything is okay
  • and every problem you have he’ll listen to with the most intentive look ever
  • ‘but is everything okay now baby?’
  • ‘well yeah, i’m still annoyed though’
  • ‘want me to take ksoo over and scare them?’
  • aaaaa i want to cry he’s so soft and cute i lov him
  • he’d really like to just lay next to you and watch you do whatever
  • even if you’re just on your phone he’ll look over you with a smile on his face thinking how am i so lucky
  • and when you’re laying next to him he’d rlly like you running your fingers through his hair
  • he finds it very calming
  • if he’s away in another country then he’ll know you guys aren’t going to talk all the time 
  • but still likes the occasional text to tell him youre alive 
  • and every time you do text him he’ll have the biggest smile on his face and everyone knows
  • shows you his choreography for your own opinion on it
  • also likes it when you attempt to try and learn the same choreography  
  • rlly enjoys late night phone calls whenever you’re not together 
  • even if its just about getting ramyun at the 24/7 market near your house
  • he’ll come by and pick you up so the two of you can go together
  • and then sit in the park until it starts getting light outside just so you two can be together
  • most dates end up being in the middle of the night bc you’re both free then
  • and he’d call up your work sometimes and tell them you’re sick so you don’t have to go in bc you didn’t wake up to your alarm
  • but if you actually were sick it would be the best thing in the world 
  • he’d make sure everything with you is perfect and he’d give you all the attention he can
  • and he’d make the best soup for you until you’re well again
  • i feel like he’d like to whine about things a lot and it would make you laugh quite a bit
  • ‘but babeee, it’s so warm today’
  • ‘jongin idk what you want me to–’
  • ‘the air conditioning doesn’t even work!’
  • and sometimes i think he’d just like to get everything off his chest
  • so if something you’ve done irritated him in anyway then you’d know about it
  • and even though i dont think that big arguments w him are v common t
  • here’d be a lot of small arguments where you give him the silent treatment
  • and he comes straight back to you like pls talk to me
  • practically begs for you to pay attention to him again and ofc you do
  • but if he’d do anything small wrong he’d always let you win the argument
  • even if you were n the wrong he’d apologise bc he misses you smiling
  • unless it was something big then.. he’d fight his cause
  • but still
  • a lot of people would be envious bc you are literally the cutest thing
  • and jongin is always holding your hand and dragging you around w him
  • esp at parties you’re both invited to where he has a hand on you at all times so ppl know you’re his
  • and he’d love to show you off all the time
  • especially to his friends
  • he’d be chilling with sehun and then pull up a picture of you and be like 
  • ‘wow isn’t (y/n) beautiful?? i love it’
  • ‘you said this before’
  • ‘yeah but extra beautiful today so i had to bring it up again’
  • but everyone is used to it now so doesn’t mind~
  • and they also like how breathless he gets around you
  • so this is officially the best relationship 
  • jongin will give you everything and more
  • so love him like you mean it pls and take care of him

minseok | luhan | kris | junmyeon | yixing | chanyeol | baekhyun | jongdae | jongin | sehun

drabbles and dating idols would include masterlist

I think the reason I love The Foxhole Court so much is that it shows people with real mental illnesses being in relationships… while being mentally ill.

Too many books are like, “Look at this character with mental illness! BUT WAIT! They meet this person and SUDDENLY!!! NO MORE MENTAL ILLNESS! LIFE IS SUNSHINE AND ALL PAST TRAUMAS ARE NOW FORGOTTEN! AMAZING!”

But AFTG says, “Nah. Here’s this group of kids who are mentally ill, who have been through terrible, horrific traumas and still form friendships and relationships… while being mentally ill. While dealing with the effects of these traumas.”

Neil and Andrew’s relationship doesn’t suddenly make Andrew (or Neil) well. Andrew is still violent, he’s still closed off. Neil still deals with the trauma of his horrible childhood and the things he went through with Riko and his father.

IDK, it just gives me hope when I see characters still struggling even though they have support systems in place. Because that’s reality. No matter how many people stand behind you, no matter how in love you are, there will always be those moments, those days, those times when you can’t escape your own head. And it’s nice to see this and it’s nice to see that support group not crumble just because that character is still working through a lot of stuff.

They just give me feels, ok??

Can we just talk about the way Naveen looks at Tiana?!?!?!!

Especially at the part when she’s dancing during Mama Odie’s solo number. It’s the first time he’s ever seen her completely happy and FREE instead of stressing about work and constantly being tied down by her worries about how she’s going to achieve her goal. He sees a more carefree side to her, and you can tell in that moment while he’s staring at her dancing that he suddenly realizes that he absolutely loves seeing her so happy. That she, more than anyone, DESERVES to be happy. And that because of that he’s going to do anything and everything to make sure that she will get what she’s worked so hard for because her happiness is now the most important thing in the world to him. Like idk these two always just give me a lot of feelings their relationship is so beautiful Aggghhffsdxe@$%fgccfft:$!ewrcf!##!! *CRIES* 😭😭😭

Originally posted by fasmulan

@the anon calling me ugly without make-up. I usually wouldn’t care so much to give a serious answer to a random negative ask but I’ve seen this going on lately with all this “you’re not pretty without make-up” bullshit towards a lot of girls. I know I may not be the prettiest and not even close to pretty but I can tell you one thing for sure: I fucking love myself. It’s neither narcissistic nor snobbish or idk. It’s just nature. We should all love ourselves and work on ourselves to make us better people. I never wanted to go out without make-up cause I’d feel terribly ugly like you said. But I’ve had enough of this. I would never give two shits about a bunch of people who would treat me differently just because some features of my face are accentuated or hidden. I still fucking love make-up as a form of art, not as something that would hide my insecurities. So, from the bottom of my heart, you can fuck all the way off and please stop spreading your negativity. Lots of love.

ART RAFFLE!

I know I’ve already said this, but I honestly would like to thank every single one of you from the bottom of my heart for all your support and love ;v;;;; I’m touched whenever I read the comments and reblogs //idk how I’m supposed to reply lmao// I haven’t been feeling really good about my art lately, but I won’t give up (9*v*)9 thank you to everyone who cared for me, supported me… from likes, to reblogs, to follows… it’s not really the number that matters, but the unbelievable fact that someone out there actually cares about the random stuff that I draw ;7; I put a lot of effort into (most) of my drawings and it just makes me really happy to have people enjoy my art, whether I know you in real life or not <3 So thank you! Now enough of my emotional ranting, here’s how to join the raffle!

1) Like OR Reblog this post

yeh that’s… really it… //how do you hold raffles on tumblr// Doing one of them will give you one number and doing both will give you two *7* Numbers are given based on the order you guys like/reblog.

Prize: A drawing like the one above of any character you want me to draw ( ‘ v ‘ )b (they can your ocs, fanart characters, real people etc… and in any position!) (it can be a bust drawing or a waist-up drawing)

Good luck and this ends on July 31st!

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why i hate the words, "i hope you get better soon"/"i hope youll be healed up soon" as someone with a chronic illness

so, the obvious answer here is that chronically ill means that i wont get better but, theres a lot more to this.

yes, i get that people who say this to chronically ill peeps tend to have good intentions and i know they dont mean to sound ignorant, but the problem is that when they say this, all it proves is that they ARE ignorant, and so are their words, no matter how well intentioned they might be.

i also hate it because it reminds me that im not getting better, and that people dont care enough or generally dont know enough to acknowledge that, so them trying to be comforting, telling me that “itll be okay soon” and “they hope i get better soon” is a lot like giving me a tissue to wipe off spit on my face, but they didnt realize that that tissue is also covered in spit.

like, thanks, the intention is nice and all but it doesnt help and it can make me feel worse. idk if im making sense but honestly im tired of being told that people are just trying to be nice so i should deal with it, like, how about i talk to them and try to make them understand why its not the best thing to say.

i want to tell them that it makes me uncomfortable, that im not sure how to respond because what i was ignorant and frustrating but because they didnt mean to be rude i should just let it be? nah my guy, listen, theres a ton of things you can say that would help, like “im sorry you have to go through that, you shouldnt have to” or “i dont know what to say, but i wish i did” or literally anything else

cause honestly when you say “i hope you get better soon” or “i bet youll be healed in no time”, all youre doing is showing how little you know about my issues and my struggle, because often a part of my struggle is knowing that i wont get better.

unpopular opinion i guess but i dont feel like part 2 was worse than part 1?? i guess I dont feel like they even should be compared bc theyre so different in tone. part 1 was all building up, psuedo fantasy, lighthearted (well…compared to part 2 lol), character establishing type of stuff. part 2 is all drama!!! and real world consequences! so of course ppl are gonna find part 2 worse bc a lot of bad things happen to characters in it, but idk i just feel that this part was more together story wise? remember how fast paced and all over the place part 1 was? part 2 didnt exactly slow down but it at least kept a focus on things, which is why imo part 2 was easier to watch all the way through in one sitting (while it took me like 3 days to watch part 1). more things happened and i was always on the edge of my seat! idk i think we should give part 2 a chance is all, and we shouldnt let it affect whether or not tgd gets a season 2!!!


(the cartoon bits gotta go tho lol. like i said before, they should be their own separate entity like a webseries between breaks)