ok but asexual Jack who has always felt /wrong/ but attributed it to his anxiety and pushed himself to be intimate with people at high school parties and stuff
and he gets to samwell and he has kind of had a reprieve bc he has been in rehab and coaching for so long but now he is back in that frat environment and he forgot how /broken/ it makes him feel. especially Rans and Holster bc they dont mean to make him uncomfortable but they heard all the rumours from Q and they expect him to be this party boy/womaniser and honestly Jack is so far from that it makes him terribly uncomfortable
and just everyone is so open sexually and really comfortable with their sexuality and he knows that is a good thing but?? it still makes him feel bad?? bc he doesnt benefit from that??
idk just asexual Jack struggling with existing in such a hypermasculine, sex-focused environment while also being gay??
(this is lowkey for @hurricanestella btw bc she deserves it)