I have kind of a weird crush on my brother’s friend who’ve I’ve only met 3 or so times, but I think it kind of stems from the fact that he’s gay and I’ve had trouble with my sexuality. I don’t know him that well, but the fact that he’s my brother’s friend means he’s a nice person, and I kind of want to talk about that stuff with him because I don’t know anyone else who has gone through that sort of stuff. I don’t have that many friends. I’ve only really started getting to know people 1/?
I need to meet more people and stuff. So I’m kind of in a situation where it’s cool to hang out and talk about that sort of stuff, but at the same time move on and get to know people. I feel also like that the guy may not want to talk about that sort of stuff with me (idk ok). He did happen to add me on FB and IG as well as liking one of my posts so there’s always that…. in a way it’s more of an admiration crush 3/3
Hey there! Sadly, part two is missing and isn’t in my inbox, but feel free to send it to me again though. :)
So I don’t have the entire picture here, but I get the general idea, I think. And I think that it’s very important to keep in mind; in the beginning, crushes are always awkward. Just like making new friends is always awkward. Of course there are those wonderful exceptions, but 90% of the time it all starts with awkward awkward awkward when you’re trying to form new meaningful relationships. And it’s easy for anyone to say “oh well, you just have to put yourself out there more”, but especially when you’re not that kind of person, it’s all easier said than done.
Don’t feel weird about taking your time, about doing things at your own pace. Especially when you’re struggling with your sexuality, even when you desperately want to talk about it with someone, it’s not something you’d trust everyone and their grandma with, even if that someone is in the same situation or could probably relate, and that’s okay.
As for the guy you like; see where it goes. You don’t have to force anything, but since he added you on several social media sites, that means that there are many harmless ways to interact with each other without it being weird. Start there, and when/if things get more natural and comfortable between you two, you can always still decide to take it one step further. Or maybe you’ll find out that it’s nothing more than what you mentioned; an admiration crush. And that’s alright too.
Just don’t ever push yourself too far, too soon. Whether it’s acting on that crush, or making new friends, or coming out.
I really hope everything works out for you, and remember that you’re fabulous! :D