idk man i dont know

*comes up with self insert/cross over idea*… LETS DRAW IT (i might have another self-insert drawing later… Sooo look forward to that)
Anyway I haven’t drawn a full piece in so long… And this took…6 hours… Everything hurts…

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“demons run when a good man goes to war,
night will fall and drown the sun when a good man goes to war.”

Consider this a 3 am AU written entirely on mobile tumblr in which Neil is a runaway prince and Andrew is a bandit/thief/Robin Hood-esque whatever the fuck with his family + Kevin, and like most of the plot is over and done with.

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“Abram.” The name rolls off of Andrew’s tongue, unfamiliar. “Abram,” he repeats. “Is that a truth?”

“It’s the only truth I know,” Neil responds. “But if ‘Neil’ is a lie, I’d like to keep it so for as long as possible.”

“You are Neil Josten,” Andrew says. His tone holds no room for arguments. Neil has never been good at listening to such things, though.

“I am Nathaniel Wesninski,” he says, barely forcing the words out. “I am Prince Nathaniel Wesninski and my father–”

“You are Neil Abram Josten.” Even if he had not spoken, the conviction behind Andrew’s eyes would have been enough to shut him up. He wonders, not for the first time, how anyone could believe him to be heartless. How anyone could believe him to be The Monster that they’ve all labeled him as. Perhaps Andrew is more human than all of them. Maybe he just knows the truth better than all of them. Maybe, perhaps. “You are Neil Abram Josten and you are one of us.”

It’s the last words that knock the air out of his chest. “I’m one of you?” Neil breathes, eyes wide.

“Don’t be an idiot.” Andrew leans forward to flick his forehead. “You wouldn’t be here if you weren’t.”

“I’m dangerous to you, and your family.”

“So is Kevin.”

“But you have a deal with Kevin.”

“I had a deal with you.”

There’s a silence. A bird chirps. The wind rustles through the trees. The moon just barely shines through the leaves above them.

Andrew lifts a hand and it hovers just beside Neil’s bandaged cheek. He’s giving him a choice. Neil leans to the side, letting him cup his cheek as he closes his eyes. He hasn’t touched Andrew since Riko took him. He is still warm, although the air is cool. He had thought Riko would bring him to is father, and he’d never feel him again. He’d been prepared for that. Now, he doesn’t know if he would ever be able to leave again.

“Your father still believes Riko to be alive and on his way to him,” Andrew murmurs lowly, stroking his thumb along the bandage. “All it would take is a worded letter to your uncle. He would be dealt with–him and his men.”

“And who will take over?” Neil asks. He opens his eyes. “I am not fit to be king.”

“You are a leader, Neil Josten. You will do fine. It is your birthright.”

“I have not been learning to be a leader in years. I am out of practice.”

“Your uncle can help you. You can build an alliance through your father’s death, and he can teach you to be king. He loves you enough to do so.”

“And what of you? And Nicky, and Aaron, and Kevin?”

Andrew is quiet while he ponders this. “What do you want? What is it that you wish for us to do?”

“I wish for you all to be able to find somewhere to rest.”

“Even Aaron?”

“…I suppose. He is your brother. I can retract your criminal status. You can have a place in the palace.”

“So you are planning on becoming king, then.”

“I–.” Neil blinks. He hadn’t realized. “I suppose so.”

Andrew nods. “We shall send a letter to your uncle, then?”

“I do not need him to fight my battles.”

“You will not fight your father.” It’s an ordwr, but it sounds like a plea. Neil is and likely always will be weak to Andrew. He cannot argue when he can hear that something behind his voice.

“Okay,” he murmurs, “we will send for my uncle.”

Andrew looks at him, looks into eyes that Neil hates because they are wholly his father’s. They are eyes that Andrew finds intriguing, he knows. “The era of Wesninski will soon be over,” he says. “You will be a king bearing the name Josten. You are not your father. You will be better than him.” You are better than him, he doesn’t say.

“Andrew…” His hand is still to his cheek. He isn’t inclined to remind him to remove it. “Yes or no?”

Neil has not kissed Andrew since the night before Riko had taken him all that time ago. The last time they kissed, Neil was aware of the time limit hanging above his head. He had wanted to know the feeling of being something to Andrew before he was forced to leave them.

There is still a limit, but he feels like they have all the time in the world. Nicky and Aaron and Kevin sleep, far enough away to not be heard but still be seen. In this moment, it is Andrew Doe and Neil Josten and no one else. This is the one thing Neil has ever truly wanted. Whatever ‘this’ may be.

“Yes.”

It is Andrew who closes the gap. Andrew who presses his lips so, so softly to Neil’s in a way that is odd, but not unwelcome.

It is not a kiss in a haze of lust. It is not one of desperation. It is not one that speaks of a goodbye and the knowledge that ‘this’ will never be anything ever again.

It is a kiss that holds the promise they had made all those months ago, and the silent promise they made just then. It speaks of that 'something’ that Andrew refuses to acknowledge. It speaks of the things they will never tell each other, but know, deep down. It speaks of battles hard won and the freedom that is so, so close. It speaks of whatever Neil Abram Josten and Andrew Joseph Doe are.

It is a kiss that speaks of everything.

8

you haven’t changed one bit since the last time i saw you crawling from the ruins of la Bastille

Cute past!Ardyn with his black chocobo *_*
I want to know more about Ardyn’s past life before he became evil guy…

im so frustrated with how leia was portrayed in the movies. im so frustrated with how leia gets treated in the fandom. blatant misogyny is seen as progressive or empowering, and like, step back for a moment! i know star wars is everyone’s favorite thing, we’ve loved it since we were kids, but even if you love hanleia, even if you love that leia killed jabba, can we admit that han pressuring leia was awful and not romantic? that her repeatedly being ignored when she said she was not interested is not a great quality? that leia being a fucking /sex slave/ is not somehow empowering, that the bikini is a disgusting symbol for how writers felt it was appropriate to treat her? leia was treated pretty awfully in the movies and that’s just the obvious stuff, not even touching on how her perspective is rarely given unless she gets to be “sassy”, when she has many of the same problems and complications that luke has, when she lost her entire planet and was never given time to show her grief? when she found out the man who had tortured her, always opposed her, was present and complicit in the destruction of her planet, was her birth father? leia is a strong character, to be sure, and that’s a good thing, but far too often she’s just pushed to the side, or made into a caricature of whatever is needed for han or luke or anyone to bounce off of rather than her own person. leia organa deserved better and we need to do better and actively be critical of how she was treated.

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pride month challenge
a marvel couple + a mlm couple + a palette of your choice

I was thinking ooh what about Annie and Mikasa doing the whole my boyfriend is better silliness but then it hit me that wouldn’t work at all because Mikasa would never trash talk Armin.

Annie: my boyfriend is incredibly intelligent

Mikasa: yeah I know, he’s the smartest of us all, a incredible strategist and really level headed.

Annie: …wait no your supposed to …

Mikasa: honestly he deserves better then you

Annie: … bitch

Mikasa: :)

Annie: at least my boyfriend’s doesn’t throw temper tantrums like a child

Mikasa: he’s sensitive ok!

Annie: *shrugs*

I kid you not, there was the cutest, most adorable little bird that hopped along next to me for half of my journey to the parking lot today. I came out of the building my last class was in and was walking in the little guy’s direction, expecting him to fly away, but he didn’t and instead chose to walk/hop with me. I may have talked to him a little bit and earned a few odd looks, but seriously, who wouldn’t talk to a bird walking with them? I mean, do birds even do that? Is that normal? I don’t know and I don’t care because it was the cutest thing ever

anonymous asked:

I feel like with queerbaiting the charcters' relationship just plateaus after a certain point, but supergirl keeps developing kara and lena's relationship and we know theyre not even close to being done, hmm

I KNOW. like the thing with queerbaiting is that you can tell its people wishful thinking. usually, it’s not really there, ya know? more like a reading between the lines kind of situation. 

they don't really go on dates, don't have lip bites, don't say things that sound romantic, don't give each other flowers, dont constantly say thing like “always” and keep repeating “friends” to the point of it sounding sarcastic. queerbaiting is usually two characters sharing a couple of glances. but with supercorp every scene is them staring at each other like they are about to blurt out “I love you” or start making out. it’s glancing at each other’s bodies and lips and lip bites. it's teasing in a flirty way, eyebrow raises, blushing, flustered laughs and shy smiles, etc… its these things that the writers have also written in the canon romance (lena also did the teasing, flirting and eyebrow raises with jack. kara also laughed nervously in an exaggerated way with james, and blushes) and even the canon romance for kara is lacking most of these. 

like supercorp has more canonically romantic moments (not read between the lines but in the actual lines and actions shown) than karamel, that is the canon romance right now. because when it comes down to it being flustered, nervous, blushing and going on dates is much more romantic than fighting and kissing.

so lmao people can call it queerbaiting and maybe it is but you can’t deny that this queerbaiting is more like canon romantic interactions and not a product of people’s imaginations. even if it doesn’t become canon. especially when their relationship has evolved and unlike most queerbaiting it isn't the same throughout the whole thing with no actual explanation for those gay vibes you get. so we are getting a whole bunch of actually visible facts (it’s right there on the screen and the audio, you can’t deny what is being shown to us. its not fanfic, its canon) that show us there is something there (even if they don't make them a couple) and not all ships (especially when they are supposed to last on tv shows) are made canon right away. 

to me, it just feels a lot different to any other queerbaiting I’ve seen. considering they would get the same effect without going through the trouble of making it so obvious that even the media noticed it. and without making people start questioning kara’s romantic interest for her canon bf. so lmao why do that when you could create a read between the lines queerbaiting relationship like most shows do? also they already have sanvers so no need to queerbait