idk just felt like doing this

anonymous asked:

i just wanna share but same. im 18 and it totally feels bad to break some1's heart?? like you can totally feel the shift in the mood and in their face but what can i do lmao i totally feel bad afterwards but i couldnt filter my words out bc i tend to be VERY VERY straightforward,,,,,,, my friends also tell me that i tend to look so cold hearted lmao idk nothing new

YEAH i’m very straightforward too i’m definitely going to sound like a cold hearted bitch right now but all those people’s feelings felt like a nuisance??? like this one guy kept asking me out for 2(!!) years and i could’ve actually grown to like him if i didn’t feel like i was nothing more than a test drive for him?? so at some point i snapped and told him just that and asked what he even wanted from me. he said he wanted a girlfriend like me so i told him to go look for “a girlfriend like me” somewhere else

after that there was a girl who rushed headlong into whatever it was between us and grew attached too fast to some version of me she had made up in a few days of knowing me and,,, when i told her i wasn’t ready and asked for a break she kept harassing me via texts and on social media so i had to confront her personally. she kept harassing me after that and trying to guilt trip me for months so………. 

idk i just feel like it’s not working out and confront people and make them upset but i think it’s worth it in the long run. i can’t lie about my feelings and half ass relationships

five word prompts

[inspired by this]

  • “actually… i just miss you.”
  • “alright, i’ll leave you alone.”
  • “and slowly… i was forgotten.”
  • “and then everything just disappears.”
  • “and where do i go?”
  • “anyone could tell from here.”
  • “are you finishing that or…?”
  • “are you stupid or stupid?”
  • “anything, just call me, okay?”
  • “bitch better have my money.”
  • “bro… that’s so… not cool…”
  • “but did you do it?”
  • “call me now. it’s urgent.”
  • "can’t you listen to me?”
  • “cross that. don’t answer that.”
  • “don’t even think about it.”
  • “don’t you dare walk away.”
  • “do it. i dare you.”
  • “did you think i forgot?”
  • “eventually… you just move on.”
  • “even if you still do.”
  • “everything will fall into place.”
  • “fight me, you attractive stranger.”
  • “for once, i need you.”
  • “for once… i was right.”
  • “for once… i was wrong.”
  • “forget i even asked you.”
  • “forget it. you fucking suck.”
  • “fuck’s sake, what’s your problem?”
  • “fuck off. i mean it.”
  • “give and take. that’s life.”
  • “great. perfect. nice. fuck this.”
  • “have you lost your mind?”
  • “hello? it’s me. i was-”
  • “hey… that wasn’t so nice.”
  • “here’s a glass of whatever.”
  • “how about a hug, hm?”
  • “how about you make me?”
  • “i haven’t forgot you yet.”
  • “i can’t be around you.”
  • “i don’t need you, really.”
  • “i don’t need this now.”
  • “is this your first time?”
  • “it’s just a cut, really.”
  • “it wasn’t me, i swear!”
  • “i said i love you.”
  • “just don’t fuck it up.”
  • "just… come back alive, okay?”
  • “just make sure you’ve eaten.”
  • “kick his ass for me.”
  • “killed him? wait, what, literally?”
  • “life really sucks. feel better.”
  • “letting go hurts… a lot.”
  • “let me live, will you?”
  • “no, i don’t need you.”
  • “nothing can hurt me now.”
  • “nothing matters anymore to me.”
  • “okay it was me… so?”
  • “people lie all the time.”
  • “pipe the fuck down, asshole.”
  • “please, you can’t die now.”
  • “please don’t leave me alone.”
  • “quiet. they can hear us.”
  • “quick! give me your phone!”
  • “quicker, you freaking piece of-”
  • “quit it or i’ll bite.”
  • “quit staring! they’ll notice us!”
  • "really? do i look stupid?”
  • “real smooth, tripping over air.”
  • “rise and shine, sweet thing.”
  • “rise and fucking shine, motherfucker.”
  • “seriously? give me a break.”
  • “so… what are we now?”
  • “so… did you miss me?”
  • “so… can we go eat?”
  • “so… when’s the next flight?”
  • “so… how did everything go?”
  • “sometimes, i wish you died.”
  • “so what? you did it.”
  • “time passes slower without you.”
  • “then what do you suggest?”
  • “the fuck? who are you?”
  • “then you tell me why.”
  • “this is not working out.”
  • “this isn’t what i wanted.”
  • “this is all a fucking disaster.”
  • “when did it all happen?”
  • “who knew you’d be here?”
  • “why do i even bother?”
  • “why do i love you?”
  • “why didn’t you tell me?”
  • “you’re just… so, so stupid.”
  • “you can’t be here now.”
  • “you look like an accident.”
  • “you really need to go.”
  • “you know who to call.”
  • "zero fucks given. next please.”
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#WESUPPORTLOUIS & #WESUPPORTELEANOR

Does mod g have a crush? who the hell knows

* ( ; verse names — masterlist of ideas !

out of personal necessity, i’ve decided to collect a ton of possible verse names for future ships of mine. most of these are from random songs by various artists, but some might be popular phrases/quotes or products of my imagination, and they are in alpahbetic order. feel free to take whichever your want, but please like/reblog if you found this helpful. there are currently 123 names on this list (UPDATES ON JANUARY 4TH, +123

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So I can’t be the only one who noticed right? Dan being smol in baking vids 😉

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chibifox2002  asked:

Hello Bendy! What's your favorite thing to do? (I've never asked a question on a ask blog before so sorry if this question is kinda boring)

B: i only like you for your alcohol
MM: so… you still like me.
B: Piss off.

(FUN FACT: Back in the good ol’ mafia days,  if a gang wanted control over a business they would ask for half or more of the entire profit, bleed the business dry, and burn the place down if/when they went bankrupt. If the business owner did not comply to begin with, they would go after the owners family and torture/kill them, and if THAT didn’t go through to the owner, they would be assassinated. Or “whacked” as they liked to put it lmao. But the thing that Moon Man and Bendy have goin on is sort of a special case.
-Mod Moon Man)

Genderflux people who’s gender rarely fluctuates are valid!

Genderflux people who’s gender fluctuates often are valid!

No mater how often your gender fluctuates, you are valid!

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On the night you were born, the moon smiled with such wonder, that the stars peeked in to see you” happy birthday @amazingphil ! 

the types as things they've all said to me

ENFJ: “yeah i’ve take the personality tests a few times and it can never type me, i always get like 50/50 on each of the things, so i’m really balanced; i’m EXXX” (bitch MORE than 2 of you have said this to me, you are all problematic and project those questions onto yourselves you fake ass hoes)
INFJ: “i should start a psychic business and pretend to take people’s fortunes because i’m so good at this.” (this was said after she guessed that her boyfriend would get a 96 on his philosophy exam after he had gotten a 97 on the last one, and was exactly correct. tl;dr every INFJ is a demon)
ESFJ: “i get to take care of you and treat you until you’re better!” said with real tears in his eyes after i had rolled my ankle and it was the size of an actual softball. he held my hand as he said it.
ISFJ: “i’m trying my best!” said very flusteredly (it’s a word, shut up) after we poked fun at the fact that he was still 4 labs behind on homework. he was also on youtube at the time.
ESTJ: “joe hasn’t answered me and we’re leaving for austria for spring break in TWO months and i need a plan for what we’re going to do the first weekend ASAP or i’m going to literally kill him with my bare hands.”
i have no more context to add to this, yall are literally just the most extra people i’ll ever meet.
ISTJ: “i feel like…” and then you proceeded to lie to me because none of you have felt anything, ever.
ESFP: “what’s happening?! should i talk to him?! should i ignore it and be oblivious?! idk what to do im not an intuitive!” said when i was pissed at everybody and he accidentally got the brunt of my rage. you are all pure and naive and just want to have a good time and i respect that; you do you, boo boo the fools, just keep doing you.
ISFP: “i’m about to make a transatlantic flight to austria to instill the fear of god into every one of those girls playing with joe’s heart over there.” said about her little brother while still in her horse riding gear, in between walking from the dinner table to her laptop to watch sherlock and dr. who. im 100% not joking about this, her name is Mary Duran and she paints on the side too.
ESTP: “well, enough of that.” said moments after crying for two minutes, and seconds before throwing a lawn chair across the yard and breaking a window because he didn’t know how else to process his emotions. @everyESTP, pls get help.
ISTP: “HAVE YOU EVER HEARD OF A FUCKING BLINKER. USE YOUR BLINKER BEFORE I SLIT YOUR THROAT.” (this is literally every time i’m in the car with him, no matter what, no matter how long; tl;dr every one of you shouldn’t drive, ever.)
ENTP: “but was kant really that bad?” said by some hoe in one of my higher level philosophy classes as he introduced us to Irrelevantland™. stick to your memes and stop antagonizing every person you meet you bored ass mfs.
INTP: “the old lady thinks i’m going to fix our neighbor’s AC, which means i have about 45 minutes to get to a town 34 minutes away to see if the guy has one of the car parts i’ve been looking for. it’ll cost about $200-$220, but i gotta take the money out in small increments around town so she doesn’t get suspicious.” said by my best friends dad, in reference to his wife and his unhealthy obsession with fixing up old, unusable cars.
ENTJ: “socrates was probably the dumbest person to ever live, and i wrote an entire 12 page paper on it and got an A.” (i have no more to add to this; you’re all just as bad as the ESTJs and must be stopped.)
INTJ: “that was a good burn. i think i’m going to like you.” said to me after i said something witty and sarcastic to my ENFP best friend. p.s. every INTJ has an XNFP best friend, it’s just a fact, accept it).
ENFP: “hey remember how you’ve been telling me for the past three months that im overcommitting myself and doing too many things? well today after my seventeenth breakdown of the semester so far, i realized that you might be right.” (said by my best friend. not much else to add to this, really; you’re all insane.)
INFP: “my friend brought me a puppy between classes today and it was only the second of four times i cried today.”

anonymous asked:

Hi sea! I just wanted to share a thought. Louis said that in the last year of 1d he felt the most confident and i guess i could see it, but when you watch videos or stuff from around TMH era, he seemed more confident to me? Or am i going crazy? look at how he was on stage around that time, his singing, his MOVEMENTS!!! i know his team is responsible for changing him and his mannerisms through the year but idk i feel like he was much more confident way before? what do you think?

Hi!

First, I hope you are having a great day. With Louis’s recent photos, my eyeballs are super happy. I am also feeling hopeful for his music.

I know there is contention in the fandom right now about this issue of confidence, which ultimately has to do with the presentation of Louis’s image. Is he a cool, collected leader/ mogul-in-training/ game player? Or is he a timid/ self-deprecating/ humble also-ran?

I think I would separate it into MUSICIANSHIP and MORALE.

Before Louis auditioned for TXF, he posted this:

https://youtu.be/zVjxRbN-JVs

His technique was confident, he sang on pitch, he had good breath support. We know that he could carry the chorus of many 1D songs during TMH and UAN, including WMYB.

Since then, there have been live performances where, for whatever reason, Louis’s technique has deteriorated. Then again, like the rest of the boys, Louis sang without good training and without the optimal care to his voice– in addition to injurious factors such as consecutive performances, the lack of good rest, poor habits (alcohol, smoking, late eating, etc.).

One Direction fans were so uniformly supportive that their feedback could not be used as reliable criticism. Therefore their feedback came from their handlers– management and label– who used their trust to manipulate their sense of self-worth.

When Louis was told to censor his mannerisms, around early 2013, something changed. Not only did this affect his interaction with his bandmates, it affected his sense of self on stage. His eyes became uncertain every time he averted his gaze. He was made to feel isolated. The isolation showed in his stage persona.

It seems to me that after this, Louis convinced himself that his talent was not in performance but in other aspects of pop music– songwriting, A&R work. The fact that he threw himself into songwriting, and confronted management about stylistic changes in the band’s sound and image (& got Savan fired), shows that his musicianship was as confident as ever. He changed focus from performance to A&R, but he felt stronger in his musical knowledge, and it showed in his songs. To go from writing “Story of My Life” to “What a Feeling” is a huge step. No one who is timid or meek would take a risk/ show an improvement like that.

I want to emphasize that Louis’s feelings did not have to do with self-loathing or shame. He is not a timid person. He is not afraid of confrontation. He does not bow down to intimidation. His actions and feelings were a response to an attempt to manage his image, and by doing so, taking away some of his power.

The portrayal of Louis as someone uncertain of himself, biding time until One Direction came back… well, it’s a pretty lame explanation for someone whose career seems to be stalled for no reason– at least reasons that can be printed.

You’re right. Louis started as a confident person– his stage presence was exuberant and fun. One print interview can’t remove hundreds of hours of tour videos. They can’t erase flamboyant Louis with one rewrite of history.

On the other hand, there’s no doubt in my mind that Project No Control and Project JHO helped boost his confidence– both because fans believed in him, and because these are songs in which performer-Louis could shine as brightly as songwriter-Louis.

I also think that this portrayal of Louis as an underdog helps to explain the excessively dumb stunts he continues to have to do. Lack of self-esteem explains why he’s stuck with a third-rate label, tolerates shitty management and PR, “because he couldn’t do any better.” It’s a tautological explanation from his people, excusing themselves for being so incredibly bad.

That was quite a long answer! Hope it was okay. Tomorrow… sportswear (but what was today?).