i just wanna share but same. im 18 and it totally feels bad to break some1's heart?? like you can totally feel the shift in the mood and in their face but what can i do lmao i totally feel bad afterwards but i couldnt filter my words out bc i tend to be VERY VERY straightforward,,,,,,, my friends also tell me that i tend to look so cold hearted lmao idk nothing new
YEAH i’m very straightforward too i’m definitely going to sound like a cold hearted bitch right now but all those people’s feelings felt like a nuisance??? like this one guy kept asking me out for 2(!!) years and i could’ve actually grown to like him if i didn’t feel like i was nothing more than a test drive for him?? so at some point i snapped and told him just that and asked what he even wanted from me. he said he wanted a girlfriend like me so i told him to go look for “a girlfriend like me” somewhere else
after that there was a girl who rushed headlong into whatever it was between us and grew attached too fast to some version of me she had made up in a few days of knowing me and,,, when i told her i wasn’t ready and asked for a break she kept harassing me via texts and on social media so i had to confront her personally. she kept harassing me after that and trying to guilt trip me for months so……….
idk i just feel like it’s not working out and confront people and make them upset but i think it’s worth it in the long run. i can’t lie about my feelings and half ass relationships