idk if it works too well

here is a q: have any of you experienced significantly impaired memory as an adult, as a result of either mental illness or medication? trauma qua trauma seems like it might be a whole other kettle of brain fish, but we’ll throw that one in there too. do you have tools for dealing with this? ETA: clarification: i am interested in ways of improving my memory (like exercises or whatever? idk ask your grandma) as well as ways of coping with shitty memory.

my memory has never been prodigious but until pretty recently i could hold a lot of detail in my mind at once, and now i can’t remember simple and very recent things and it is like, a pretty serious impairment that is affecting my work and my relationships and my ability to like, cope with myself. i think the main cause may be my meds, which i would like eventually to discontinue anyway, but that’s not a practical short-term solution. 

one approach to this would be like, relentless writing-down of things, listmaking, agenda-keeping, etc. there is a kind of life-admin skill set that i never really learned (partly because i could keep things in my head, partly because, like, undiagnosed adhd?) that i have known i need anyway, but i haven’t figured out how to learn those things as an adult. 

as much as i fucking hate to say this, i think something like a bullet journal might be what i need. a single notebook in which i can keep track of my day-to-day and longer-term things, do both listmaking and regular diary-style journalling, and with space to write down things as they occur to me. i don’t have the first fucking clue how to set one up that would work for me (skills i do not have: design, spatial reasoning, and you know, MEMORY.) but maybe i should try. 

idk what do y’all think

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          all of it there and then gone. he was drowning in the harbor. her limbs were a corpse’s limbs. her eyes were dead and staring disgust and longing roiled in his gut.
          he lurched backward, and pain shot through his bad leg. his mouth was on fire. the room swayed. he braced himself against the wall, trying to breathe. inej was on her feet, moving toward him, her face concerned. he held up a hand to stop her.  
          “don’t.” 
↳ crooked kingdom by leigh bardugo, chapter 26

After this recent Steven Bomb, I’ve been seeing way too much hate on Lapis to the point where it’s kind of bringing me down. So, I’m here to spread some Lapis positivity for those of us that do love her, despite her flaws.

Like, for instance

Her cute snort laugh. Idk what’s goin on with those nasal passages girl but keep it up

Or how about her love of silly noises? Good stuff. Good stuff.

What about her art skills? They’re amazing 11/10 where can I commission her??

Remember that time she wanted to help Greg catch fish? She was so proud of herself and I was too

Or that time she was super into role playing as the crystal gems? (That hair style works so well for her)

Also, the way she said “THE GAH-NET” raised my lifespan higher than she raised that water

How about the way she played baseball in her own Lapis way? (Honestly, she was like the highlight of that episode imo)

Or her carefree dance with Peridot while they played music together (whether you ship them or not, it was cute af)

And of course, who can forget THAT laugh

I could go on, but I’ll end it here. Lapis has her problems, sure. But don’t we all?

I can’t wait for her to come back and give us more of her awkward, dorky, adorable self

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Secrets Out {Part 1} {Part 2} {Part 3} {Part 4} {Part 5}

When you made your way to their dorm later that day with the hat that you had taken, you were nervous to say the least. You wanted to ignore that gut feeling you had yesterday. ‘I’m just being paranoid’ you said to yourself quietly ‘they’re my best friends they wouldn’t just do anything to jeopardize that’ you kept reassuring yourself.

When you got to their dorm. you placed the hat on the countertop closest to you and right away you heard whispers, you couldn’t make out exactly what they were saying but from the words you did hear, you knew it sounded somewhat serious? When you closed the front door to get their attention it immediately went quiet. You fought yourself so hard to not overthink it, you crossed it out of your mind. Gone and forgotten.

You walked in to where they were all sitting, and sat in between Jungkook and Jin, you didn’t know how to explain it but it felt different, the whole atmosphere changed, Jungkook felt uncomfortable around you and Namjoon seemed to have sat straighter when you sat down and you saw it. Remember that pit in your stomach from yesterday? Well it was back and deeper than ever, you wanted to bring it up but you couldn’t seem to find the words and there was an awkward silence before Taehyung stood up making everyone jump a bit. “hey y/n! Let’s go play video games!” “tae-” you couldn’t finish your sentence before Taehyung pulled you up and dragged you to the living room where all the video games were. Taehyung got your mind off everything happening around you, but those slight moments where you would look around to see Namjoon, Jin, and Yoongi standing in the back whispering amongst themselves made you sink back into the depressing state where you question everything. Taehyung quickly picked up on your pauses and brought you back to the games. You felt him trying so hard to make you happy and get your mind off it, he knew about what was going on and he was trying to distract you?

Jimin came into the room being his giddy self but you felt it was forced. Was he forcing himself to be happy around you? why would he do that? Jungkook ignored you at almost all cost, something was eating at him and you were determined to find out what it was. What have they all been hiding? Usually you wouldn’t be afraid to speak up, ask them, but now it seemed as you were the source of the problem. You excused yourself to the bathroom to pick yourself up. when you came out, you must have been really quiet because none of the boys seemed to have heard you. Before you turned into the living room you heard voices you stayed behind the wall determined to find out what they were talking about, how you could fix it. “hyung I really can’t take this anymore every time I look at y/n I feel like crying” you recognized it as Jungkooks voice. “Jungkook you can’t say anything, she’ll be so hurt if we told her” a voice you heard as Namjoons said. “what we did was cruel and I’m also hurt we did that but why now Jungkook? Why suddenly after all this time you feel like you need to tell her now?” “Jin hyung please see where I’m coming from, I like y/n more than just a friend, but I can’t ask her out knowing what we did” Jungkook said he sounded as if he was so close to crying. “guys shut up y/n…” jimin said quietly. You’ve been spotted. You just stood there almost frozen. What have they done that was so bad? You’re going through all these years you’ve been friends with them in your mind. Wondering what has been happening behind your back.

They knew about your problems with trust and ‘friends’ in the past, they knew how you overthink everything, they knew about your anxiety, but it didn’t seem to matter anymore. “y/n…I’m-” Jungkook mumbled. “I don’t know what you did or what it has to do with me but you better tell me… now!” you were angry. That pit in your stomach seemed to have dropped to your feet. Your mind racing with thoughts. “y/n I think you should sit down” Jin said softly following a mumbling in agreement from Jiimin, and Hoseok. You didn’t know what they did but you felt like crying again, you felt like your world was falling apart. Your surroundings turning dark. you sat down in front of them analyzing each of their faces.

Jungkook, Taehyung, and Namjoon looking like at any second they would burst out in tears more than you were, Jin and

Yoongi just look worried like they were thinking about what you were going to do and not having a conclusion. Hoseok is clearly upset with himself he looks like he’s mentally punching himself, he has that triangle mouth that appears when something is really upsetting him. What was going on? Why are they acting like this? What did I do? What happened? Can I fix this? Shit. You were breathing fast while not breathing at all. The silence was painful you were losing your patience. “well someone speak!” you said loudly making them all jump. You looked around once more and all of them seem to be either in tears or near tears. Jin took a deep breath, he grabbed your hand as if to make sure you won’t walk away. “y/n, we….”


A/N: ok so idk how much i like this and i feel like i rushed it and its getting to the problem too fast? idk but there is a lot i want to write that works with this so we’ll see a lot of you have been asking for a pt. 2 and i was so happy a lot of you liked it since it was my first time writing a series type thing, but I’m happy and thankful. i forgot to put the title of the story on the first part but i think ill be calling this series ‘Secrets Out’ what do y'all think? ok i hope you liked this part~ pt. 3? (ps i feel like the angst was weak with this one so I’m sorry)

some trans keith headcanons bc keith is trans

and y’all transphobes can fight me on this i don’t give a fuck!!!!!!

  • he’s MASCULINE this isn’t even a headcanon this is just real life
    • keith is not a feminine trans man he isn’t the type to break gender barriers (not that that’s not awesome it’s just not for him!!) he wants to be very cis-passing and stealth eventually  
    • he would like to be the most stereotypical male possible and so he gets SO EXCITED about the little things that make him feel more masculine, for example: 
      • first time he really started to make his own money and had a means of acquiring it he went on a huge shopping spree to get all these men’s toiletries!!! men’s shampoo, deodorant, cologne….to most people these things seem so mundane but they make him so happy and excited
      • also when he’s shopping for these things for the first time keith tries on like 5 million different colognes and comes home smelling like some awful concoction of strong ‘male’ scents and shiro can smell him from the other room and is like ‘keith hwat the fuck’ and Keith just brings out his bag and is like ‘i couldn’t decide what cologne to buy so i got seven’ ‘and you’re wearing them all right now?’ ‘yeah’
  • has always been kind of quiet at least earlier in life bc he hated the sound of his voice….when he starts T he’s really impatient about it so if he has to talk to strangers he tests out what he’s gonna say in varying low tones for like five minutes when all he has to say is ‘hi can i get a large fry’
  • one time he fucks up his shot (he does subcutaneous which is right under the skin) and gets it too deep into the muscle…it becomes rlly sore and painful and it hurts to walk for a solid three days (this is me self projecting i did this last week dksnsksns) so he basically just lies around and it’s like ‘i never thought i’d say this but sometimes being a man actually is hard’ 
  • shiro is expecting him to maybe cry the first time he gets T because he’s been waiting for it for so long but keith gets so choked up he can’t think of what to say so when the doctor hands him the prescription he just goes blank and says ‘neat thanks’
  • he has like five different binders…,,shiro got him his first one like he helped him pick it out and keith was so grateful..,,shiro, being a great trans older brother to his great trans little brother?? iconic and canon 
  • keith, sputtering: shiro i’m trans
    shiro: oh nice me too
    keith: waIT WHAT’ 
  • he has always been athletic but he likes it especially bc it makes him feel extra masculine!!! lifting weights is his fave as well as sword work obviously and running, but he likes to bench press & makes like specific workout routines and goals for the week, it’s really nice for him, it makes him happy..,,and when he starts T it becomes easier to build muscle so !!! he’s making gains!! 
  • shiro: hey keith it’s your shot day 
    keith, staring at the needle: …it’s okay i’ll do it tomorrow
    shiro, three days later: keith–
    keith: ……it’s okay i’ll do it tomorrow 
  • the ACNE….you’re trying to tell me this boy is trans, on testosterone, and has flawless skin?? no bitch….don’t look at his shoulders…u will find acne hell 
  • when he first gets up in space he realizes he obviously didn’t have his T on him and he kinda panics but. eventually he confesses to allura like he has to come out to her because there has to be some way right??? and it turns out allura is hella supportive (bc oh surprise she’s trans too!) and the alteans have some kind of cool space equivalent that substitutes really well idk i’m not good at coming up with things but it…works ok 
  • keith, a whore for adidas and sports clothing?? u guessed it….that boy wants to lowkey be a jock. like an emo-jock mix 
  • there’s so many more but i’m running out of steam and i should really be doing nanowrimo right now fjeawkljf;lkwea 
  • anyway keith is trans 
Warm Me Up part 1

College wasn’t nearly as terrifying as people made it seem. It wasn’t much of a change. At least not for Will. Being independent wasn’t that different from how it was back home. His mom worked all day and he watched his sister while she did, which meant he had to learn to cook and clean and help her with homework while managing his own.

He’d looked forward to college. To being able to be his age instead of a fatherly brother. What he hadn’t looked forward to were the awkward friendless days and lack of transportation or money. He would forget to eat sometimes, but he didn’t want to make food in bulk like he always did because he was on his own. He had no one to share with.

It wasn’t too bad. He was good at socializing, at talking to people he met in the café or on his way to class or in class. They were just never official friends. They weren’t people Will saw himself hanging out with off campus, or people he found himself taking up to his dorm to watch a movie or play a game.

His campus was relatively small. A college that was hard to get into but not very well known. He saw a lot of familiar faces, but none of them had names in his mind.

As he walked with his head bent over his phone, someone rammed into him at a corner. “Oh s-” He stopped when a pair of hands pushed him back and looked up to see a dark haired guy scowling at him through a grunt of annoyance. “S-sorry,” Will muttered.

The guy gave him half an eyeroll and walked away. Will felt his cheeks flare with embarrassment and anger. He shut his eyes and took a breath and kept walking. As he walked into class, a guy he usually sat beside turned to him excitedly.

“Dude!” he exclaimed, taking Will by surprise because he hardly ever initiated conversation if not for a partner discussion. “Listen, the café is having an open mic night and me and buddy are performing. I wanted to know if you’d come to, you know show support.”

“Oh. Sure what time?” he answered.

“Seven. It goes on until nine, but you don’t have to stay the whole time.” Will nodded and jotted it down on his hand. “Thanks, man.”

“Yeah, no problem.” He smiled and turned his attention to the professor as class started.

Will figured it’d be fun to hear people sing and play their instruments at this thing, so he was actually looking forward to it. He was looking forward to it so much, he got there half an hour early and found himself seated near the front, reading a book as he waited.

Keep reading

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this week was so nice!!! lectures will end in two weeks and I’m a little sad and also a little glad :DDD I’m gonna miss some of my teachers :’) I’m so tired of studying but I need to keep going :)) I’m really looking forward to the holidays because my dog is going to live in my apartment for a week while my family is on vacation and it’s gonna be so nice

how to tackle dreadful classes

yes im back at it again with the horrible intros masterposts!! (honestly im not even gonna try bc the title is self explanatory and im just gonna ruin this post if i go any further oh no i already did it rip)

((WARNING: THIS IS RLY LONG)

1. figure out why you hate this class. is it because you find it boring? you’re not doing so well/you don’t like the challenge? do you dislike the teacher? do you dislike your seat/the classroom/setting? whatever it is, figure it out and then work to eliminate it.

1.a. you find the class boring. this is inevitable because there’s always that one class ;; BUT! you can beat this! throw yourself into the class. find something about the class that you actually like and focus on that for the whole period. examples of this are: your seating (do u sit next to someone cool/nice? maybe a cute person that u rly wanna talk to? [uh don’t let this distract u tho!!]), the benefits of the class (if it’s an ap class, youre earning college credits!! might even help with your major; if its a language class, learning a language is SO important), the setting (is the room aesthetically pleasing? do you get to look out of the window at the blue sky when you’re done with your work?) or even the teacher (lmao i have more teacher friends than student friends). maybe it’s even the fact that it’s’ the first class in the morning, so if you do well in it, it’ll set the tone of your day? idk, just find something that’s not boring and focus on that all period. !!

1.b. you’re not doing well/it’s too hard for you. honey, this isn’t an excuse. even if you suck at a class, YOUR EDUCATION IS HELLA IMPORTANT. once again, throw yourself into the class! find people who are good at the subject and form study groups with them (or just ask ur own friends if ur too scared to talk to new people). TALK TO YOUR TEACHER. dont just sit there crying because you dont know how to solve that equation! ask for help! go on youtube, go on khanacademy, go on kuta, DO SOMETHING. even if you still continue to struggle, your teacher will appreciate the effort! 

1.c. you dislike the teacher. this is probably one of the worst ones lol. why do you not like the teacher? is it because they never call on you? is it because you think they’re too hard on you/they grade things viciously/too much homework and tests? do they always seem to be after you? well, some of these might actually be your fault. many students think that the workload is more than it actually is, simply because they don’t plan and aren’t prepared. or, some teachers target students for being bullies or for talking in class. these are things you can change. however, if it’s something like your teacher never calling on you or coming at you for no reason, that’s something you and your teacher have to discuss. ask them (POLITELY) “i feel like i am targeted/ignored by you during class and it makes me uncomfortable. is there anything i can do to change this?” chances are, your teacher will like that you’ve taken initiative to not only fix your relationship, but ultimately do better in their class. BAM.

1.d. you dislike the setting/your seat. quick fix: if you don’t like where you sit, ask your teacher to move you (dont forget to give a valid reason!! this does not mean lie. i see u) however, if you dont like the actual room…there’s nothing u can do about this; sorry bub! MAYBE if you and your teacher get close, you can help them redecorate one day? this is unlikely but worth a shot.

1.e. if it’s really THAT bad, switch classes, my dude. i know lots of schools have the option to switch classes at a certain time.

2. work to solve whatever the reason is that you hate this class. (mentioned next to each cause above ^)

(i just realized that i didn’t need to number this because there were only two main bullet points)

ok this is literally the worst masterpost ever but !!!!

also: what do do about classes you hate by @tbhstudying!!

[[i really hoped this helped + sorry for the crappy masterpost (’: ]]

-jul

This… has been sitting on my computer for a couple weeks. I’m not gonna finish it. But if you’re curious, it’s some thumbnails for the story I mentioned in this sketch dump here x. I just wanted to animate Nick landing in the cage which is why the camera angle doesn’t change (and I wanted to animate him hugging Judy…). The pacing of this is quicker than it would actually be though, because without any dialogue or the Coyote in the scene it would be a lot of Nick pretty much just staring off to the left. …..Anyway. I thought I should post it. Also, I know he doesn’t movie his tail around nearly as much in the movie but drawing Nick’s tail swishing around was fun haha

KurobasWeek Day 02: Omake - “Time Out”

A little addition to my favorite NG Shuu, the one where Takao steals Shin-chan’s glasses. (ノ´▽`)ノ*:・゚✧ I wondered how he’d get them back…

izuki really needs to put that book away, they’re on the court for crying out loud

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but my love,
he doesn’t love me,
so I tell myself

anonymous asked:

What if Licht was Kuro’s eve

“Neko-san is tired. Let’s get this over with.”

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So I work at Target and today I spotted this and almost yelled. A whole end cap of fidget toys including tangles! As well as koosh balls, thinking putty, and bike chain links!! It’s all for pretty decent prices too! We also have lots and lots of fidget spinners around the store
I live in the us and this stuff is pretty new, so idk about other countries and if it’s at a store near you yet

idk when we’re releasing this but my god does the chapter cover make me laugh LOL

FTM passing - what i've learned

• the goal is to make your figure look like an upside down triangle. women’s figures are more like a regular triangle.
• yes, hiding curves is important, but well fit clothes are more important. you don’t want to walk around with clothes 6 sizes too big or you’ll probably look even more like a 10 year old boy. (unless thats what ur going for idk)
• layering shirts is everything, especially if you aren’t able to get a binder.
• those “ah bra” things that you see on tv are a great binder substitute. get a size smaller than you normally would & you’re set.
• if you have decent sized hips & thin legs, men’s pants probably aren’t going to work for you. what i do is get regular women’s skinny jeans in one size larger than normal, that way it’s a fitted look but still baggy. ALSO, sagging is actually important, believe it or not. it creates the illusion of a lower waistline and smaller hips.
• small feet? get big shoes. it’s fine. trust me. wear two pairs of high socks and/or make sure the shoes have laces that go all the way up & tie those suckers tight.
• the way you carry yourself is very important. be confident, but don’t go sticking your chest out far & wide because. you know. you have chest lumps.
• when sitting, spread out. put your arms on the back of the sofa or on arm rests. no more crossing your legs. keep them spread, or if you must, cross them at the ankle.
• this is one i’ve learned by observation: MEN STAND WITH THEIR TOES TURNED OUTWARD. this also goes along with being confident & taking up space. don’t stand with your toes together, stand with them facing outward slightly and with your legs apart. unless you really gotta pee or something.
• COLOGNE IS COOL BUT PLEASE USE IT SPARINGLY. one little spray will be just dandy. trust me. no one wants to be next to a walking axe can.
• haircuts are very complicated because it all depends on your face shape, so you can look that one up in ur free time. basically, if you’re going for a shorter cut, make sure the edges are clean and fairly sharp. shaving your hairline to make it appear more masculine is an option as well.

YEP THAT’S WHAT I’VE LEARNED SO FAR & ALL THESE THINGS WORK SUPER WELL FOR ME, I HOPE THEY DO FOR YOU AS WELL.

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So I did two more Mr Robot portraits.  I really like painting neon signs!!  I have to try that again it was super fun.  Still practicing, tried to make them kind of themed…I seriously love this show.

Darlene (left) has neon signs from the arcade where they met originally as F Society

Angela (right) has an Evil Corp logo, which was season 2 but it really fits with her character because she didn’t have too much of a personality before that. Lots of eyes and ears because…well…evil corp.

I love how shitty I drew elliot’s circuit boards because his mind works shitty and I liked that.

I might do Mr Robot (Christain Slater) himself but idk, I don’t really like him too much and everyone does art of him so….

i’m still kinda butthurt Shayla died she was my favorite.  <3  She deserves one.

Sincerely, Me

Evan: In an email I received from you two weeks ago I noticed a comma in the middle of a phrase

Evan: It changed the meaning. Did you intend this? One key and you’ve consumed my waking days.

Evan: It says “Dear Evan Hansen,”

Evan: With a comma after dear

Evan: You’ve written “Dear, Evan Hansen”

Hey? DreamWorks? Give me the Keith-Slowly-Turning-Galra I signed up for

My first attempt at this kind of edits,, kinda like how it looks honestly!!