idk if i'll make a part 2

“how big, how blue, how beautiful” sentence starters (pt. 1/2)

tw: alcohol + drugs

❝ don’t touch the sleeping pills, they mess with my head ❞
❝ remind me, what was it that i said? ❞
❝ remind me, what was it that i did? ❞
❝ did i drink too much? ❞
❝ am i losing touch? ❞
❝ what’s with the long face? do you want more? ❞
❝ you’ve been here before. ❞
❝ the water’s coming in fast! ❞
❝ i’d already had a sip, so i’d reasoned i was drunk enough to deal with it. ❞
❝ like always, you could never make your mind. ❞
❝ you inspired a fire of devotion ❞
❝ what kind of man loves like this? ❞
❝ sometimes you’re half in, and then you’re half out, but you never close the door. ❞
❝ now there’s a few things we have to burn. ❞
❝ i was making you a wish. ❞
❝ what are we gonna do? ❞
❝ we’ve opened the door, now it’s all coming through. ❞
❝ tell me you see it too. ❞
❝ i’m happy you’re beside me. ❞
❝ what is it worth when when all that’s left is hurt? ❞
❝ the damage is already done. ❞
❝ come on, is this what you want? ‘cause you’re driving me away. ❞
❝ i don’t know how i don’t just stand outside and scream. ❞
❝ i am teaching myself how to be free. ❞
❝ outside the world seems a violent place. ❞
❝ but you had to have him, and so you did. ❞
❝ some things you let go in order to live. ❞
❝ who made us this way? ❞
❝ i know you’re bleeding, but you’ll be okay. ❞
❝ hold onto your heart, don’t give it away. ❞
❝ i know it seems like forever. ❞
❝ one day this will be over. i swear, it’s not so far away. ❞
❝ i’m gonna be free and i’m gonna be fine. ❞
❝ another drink, just to pass the time. ❞
❝ it’s a different kind of danger. ❞
❝ never knew i was a dancer. ❞
❝ these chains never leave me. i keep dragging them around. ❞
❝ why can’t you let me know? ❞
❝ without your love, i’ll be so long and lost. ❞
❝ are all those bridges now old stone? ❞
❝ it’s been so long between the words we spoke. ❞
❝ i figured out where i belong. ❞
❝ it’s the hardest thing i’ve ever had to do. ❞
❝ can my dreams keep coming true? ❞
❝ i forget all that i’ve been taught. ❞
❝ i can’t keep calm, i can’t keep still. ❞
❝ it’s the hardest thing i’ve ever had to prove. ❞
❝ i went blind for you. ❞
❝ perhaps you don’t exist. ❞

Epiphanies {Gruvia One-Shot}

Hello! So this is my very first Fairy Tail fanfiction! So I’m sorry if it’s not the best! But please tell me what you think, I’ll take any criticism.
Maybe if this is okay, I can write a part 2? Idk, tell me what you think!

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Gray was never one for epiphanies. Lucy always told him that one day he would wake up and realize something he hadn’t realized before. Like that he was in love, for example. But he always rolled his eyes and told her she was being stupid. She had always been more hopeful and romantic then him.

When he told her that he felt dizzy when he saw Juvia dancing by herself, Lucy told him that he was adorable.

When he told Natsu that his chest hurt whenever he saw Juvia laughing at something her best friend, Gajeel, said, he only said that he was stupid.

When Erza saw how mad he got at his cousin, Lyon, for flirting with her, she just laughed and said he should tell Juvia the truth. But what truth?

When his head hurt when her old friend, Totomaru, told Gajeel that he was close to finally getting her to bed with him, Mirajane said that he needed to get his act together fast.

When his mouth went dry when he saw her in her bikini, Loke told him that she was a ‘total babe’ and that if he didn’t swoop in now, someone else would.

Gray stopped telling people what he was feeling.

But he still wondered why he chest tightened when she went on a long mission with Gajeel.

He wondered why she was the only thing she thought about when the mission was taking so long. She used to be a S-Class mage back at Phantom Lord, she could take care of herself. On top of that, she had Gajeel with her. But why did that thought make him worry even more?

Why was he so relieved when she returned? Why did he feel like he could finally breathe when she saw him and squealed?

Why did he get so mad when her face turned red when she was asked about Lyon? She could be with who she wanted to be with, why should he care? Lyon is a disgusting pervert, that’s why. No other reason why he should care, he told himself. He was only looking out for his comrade.

Juvia is his comrade, that’s all. Sure, she was beautiful, and adorable, and funny, and kind, and sweet, and amazing, and strong, and…

She was his comrade, that’s all. Erza was those things too! She’s strong and strong… And strong… And sometimes she was pretty! And…. And Lucy is those things! Lucy is a total cutie and strong and sometimes kind and… All of the girls in the guild were those things! And they were all his comrades! Like Juvia! So of course he was worried about her!

But then why doesn’t he feel dizzy when Lucy dances?

Why doesn’t his chest hurt when Mirajane laughs at something funny?

Why doesn’t he get mad when Erza is flirted with?

Why doesn’t his head hurt when someone makes a comment about Lisanna?

Why doesn’t his mouth go dry when he sees Cana in a bikini?

All of those questions suddenly disappeared when he saw Juvia. The guild was having yet another party and Lucy has coaxed her into dancing.

All of his thoughts disappeared when he saw her dance.

All he could feel was sudden restlessness.

All he could think about was how much he wanted to dance with her.

Photo collage assignment part 1 of 2 !!! I never pass up an opportunity for period fashion. 

Clothes are after Bronzino, photographic elements scanned from a bunch of home decorating magazines !! Now I have to go do a second one of these…..