idk if i should be sorry but

anonymous asked:

sorry this might be a bit. deep? but idk who to talk to about this. i understand the importance of loving your neighbour as yourself. but what if i don't love myself? i dont know how to do that, and so i don't know how i should be loving my neighbour?

”One of the teachers of the law came and heard them debating. Noticing that Jesus had given them a good answer, he asked him, “Of all the commandments, which is the most important?”
“The most important one,” answered Jesus, “is this: ‘Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’ The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no commandment greater than these.”
~Mark 12:28-31

I understand what you mean. I’ve been there. There are days I still struggle with self love. And the journey to self love is long and hard. As I’ve talked about before, there are days I can’t help but despise myself. I often thought of this questions in the past and here’s what I decided:

Those verses are telling us to treat others with basic decency. They’re telling us to show our love for others through our deeds. To treat others the way we would want to be treated. The people who were asking Jesus questions earlier in this chapter were trying to catch Him off guard. They wanted to prove that he was imperfect and not the Son of God. They were self-righteous and wanted to prove themselves greater than Jesus. Jesus telling them to love others as themselves meant putting others before themselves. It meant humbling themselves. 
So how do you love your neighbor if you don’t love yourself? Find someone or something that you love the most. How do you treat that person/thing? With gentleness, respect and honor? That is how you should treat your neighbor. If you see your neighbor struggling, do what you can to ease their burden. If you see injustice, stand against it. Serve those around you. Give compliments and mean them. When you see someone, think what Jesus would do. Don’t allow others to abuse and use you, but don’t be afraid to go out of your way to make someone smile. If that means taking a couple extra minutes to truly listen to someone who just needs an ear or helping someone carry something to their car. Think of something that someone has done for you that made you feel extremely happy, cared for, and taken care of.

As for not knowing how to love yourself, look at God’s love for you as an example. Think of the things that He has done for you out of love. God loves you so much that He allowed His son to bear unbelievable pain and embarrassment just to show you how much you matter, how much He loves you, and how much He wants to know you. One of the biggest parts of my healing process has been to take the lies of the world and the lies I’ve told myself and compare them with God’s word. I ask myself why I hate myself.

One of the most popular is “Because I’m insignificant, unimportant, and I always mess up.” Well, in Psalm 139:13-18, David tells me exactly what God thinks of me. And He thinks the same thing about you. God loved you, thought of you, wanted you before you were born. Before anyone else even knew you or knew you would exist.

For you created my inmost being;
   you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise youbecause I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
   your works are wonderful,
   I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
   when I was made in the secret place,
   when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
   all the days ordained for me were written in your book
   before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
   How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
   they would outnumber the grains of sand
   when I awake, I am still with you. 

Another popular thought I have is “I’m worthless. Imperfect. Stupid.” In Psalm 84, the Psalmist speaks of how he wishes to dwell in the house of the Lord. 

“How lovely is your dwelling place,
   Lord Almighty!”

We’re told in 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 that WE are God’s temple and that He dwells within US.

“Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.”

Therefore “How lovely is your dwelling place” applies to me and you as well. We are lovely. God could dwell anywhere. He could choose any palace or temple, but he chose US because to Him, we are lovely, wonderful, and oh, so worthy.

Those are just a couple examples. I could give you many, many more. But I hope that is a good start. And I hope that answered your question. I’m sorry for such a long response, but this one hit close to home and I feel I needed the reminder myself. 

anonymous asked:

I'm a black American. And I wanted to know what do you think of the Anti-Asian (ness?) in the black community? I know there's anti blackness across all communities. But I never hear about Anti Asian(ness? Idk what other words to call so I'm so sorry for my ignorance).

Hey there!

Well, you’re the first to ask me this on Tumblr so you get the honors lol. But in all seriousness, this is a very sensitive topic so you will get a long answer. I do acknowledge that I am Asian so I hope that some things I say don’t come off as anti-black and if anything does, I deeply apologize as it’s not my intention. I should also note that I personally don’t use or like the terms “anti-Asian(ness?)” or “anti-Asian racism” as I feel like they both appropriate off anti-blackness and anti-black racism. I just say “racism (or prejudice) against Asians.”

Now, some people will say that prejudice against Asians don’t exist in the Black community but that is absolutely foreign to me. Maybe it may not exist in other parts of the country but where I’m from (I won’t say), there is A LOT of prejudice and microaggressions against Asians that come from the Black community. And I will definitely acknowledge there is anti-blackness in the Asian community as I wrote about it here, here, here, and here. But this ask isn’t about anti-blackness in the Asian community so I will now focus on my own experiences.

For the past 23 years out of my 2X years, I’ve lived almost exclusively among People of Color (Asian, Black, and Latinx) and though I went to a middle school and a college that was predominately white, I only grouped up with fellow students of color. So now you know some of my background, I can say that there is a lot of prejudice and microaggressions against Asians from the Black community, or rather I should say Black individuals. Some personal experiences will be shared:

  • When I was in high school (predominately People of Color), I was “with” a Black girl and Black students were always quick to point out my race, guess what I was, teased her because she liked me then whenever other Asian guys would pass by they would tell her there’s a bunch of Asian dudes for her, or say things like, “(Name) got herself an Asian!” as if I was some object to be “gotten” or something.
  • I clubbed a lot throughout college so I obviously loved clubs with predominately Black people because in my opinion, the music and dancers are just generally better lol. But anyways, there were times when some Black people would say things about Asians and I knew they were talking about us but I just ignored them.
  • A few months ago, I was with my female Asian friends and we were walking to a club then a Black woman made some nasty comments about them. While it wasn’t directed towards me, I felt it and it really bothered me throughout the night.

These were just some experiences of prejudice comments or microaggressions that bothered me personally but now I’ll move on to the more serious matters.

I haven’t kept up with any of these areas as of lately but there were lots of crimes last year where Black people were targeting Asian people.

In Philadelphia:

In Houston:

In Sacramento:

In Fresno:

I can keep going with this but crimes against Asians/Asian Americans are extremely under-reported and the only way you would know is if you kept up with the news and crimes against Asians, have friends and/or family that were targeted, or were targeted yourself:

  • My friend’s grandpa was tied up and robbed.
  • A family friend’s house was robbed but luckily the daughter was home and got the robbers caught.
  • Last month, a family friend’s house was robbed and the son was beaten up badly and had to be hospitalized.
  • My mom was robbed.
  • And much more where this comes from.

The common tactic seems to target Asian business owners, immigrants, elderly, or women because there’s an assumption that Asian people can’t speak English and have a lot of money. Though for some cases this may have been true, it’s still prejudice to apply these stereotypes just because someone is Asian and not only that, but to then act on said stereotypes.

I don’t mean to put any Black people on the spotlight or anything but do you get where I’m coming from? There is a lot of prejudice and microaggressions against Asians among some Black people that is largely ignored or not talked about, at least in some places. Obviously it isn’t systematic or institutionalized like anti-blackness so it isn’t the same but that doesn’t mean prejudice against Asians should be ignored.

But like my mom, we know that not all Black people have prejudice against Asians/Asian Americans and that what some Black individuals do is not reflective of all Black people. Overall, regardless of what I’ve experienced, what I’ve seen, or what my friends and family have experienced, none of this has changed the fact that I want to see all Black people uplifted, empowered, to get justice, to truly be free, and to exist anywhere without facing prejudice or racism by anyone.

And I definitely apologize if anything comes off as being anti-black as it’s not my intentions. Thank you for asking and sorry for the long reply.

Angry Asian Guy

anonymous asked:

Did you hear Tae saying Rap Monster, Dance Monster, Vocal Monster, smth else (I didn't hear bc i was laughing at how cute he was) I love him so much sjskdjsk

yesssss he was so adorable in this??? and he said shopping monster im sajkhfjskdh his english is so cute i love him

How early should we line up if we have a general admissions ticket?

sobs i haven’t lined up for any kpop concert with general admission in legit 4 years so i’m not really sure :( also idk what usa fans are like?? so i can’t really say, sorry!!

anonymous asked:

Any new snack ideas?

I know iogo (I think that’s the brand idk) makes this 35 Calorie yogurt and I love it so much, but it’s dairy yogurt, so not so good if you don’t consume dairy.

I’ve been pretty much living off fruits, veggies and cereal lately, so I’m hardly a role model 😂 lol idk I mean I run a recipe blog so I should know this stuff right?

Fruits and veggies make some dope snacks (add 0 cal or low cal sauce if you like), any kind of low cal cereal or puffed grains (rice, kamut, etc.), or try low fat or butterfree (hah) popcorn. One of my favourites is frozen blueberries. I’m sorry I can’t be of too much help, so if any of you have any other recommendations please comment!

anonymous asked:

I got this totally crazy idea for a s5 parallel where the bmol - all monsters should die are the heaven - apocalypse parallel while Dean is on the run because he is considered a rouge hunter teaming up with cas and Crowley making them the tfw parallel. in this case "some Monster deserve to live" putting Dean kind of in the cas position in this constellation as he is the odd one out as a hunter. This is so crazy it probably won't happen but I kind of felt the need to share. sorry

Yeah… idk, it might not happen on an epic scale but it does sort of feel like that’s the mood going on right now, doesn’t it? :P 

I don’t know about how good it would feel for Dean to really turn on his family though because of their choices - he’s going to go along with them even if he doesn’t agree, so he can protect them or at least argue it out with a much better understanding of what sort of awful they’ve gotten themselves into. If he was actually on the run he’d be miserable if he was a rogue hunter but Sam and Mary were still on the inside of it all. Also their loyalty would easily switch back to Dean (I hope) if he could convince them he was in such trouble and would be proof enough about how bad the BMoL are - I’ve seen some speculation they might hurt him or capture him but have to keep it deadly secret from Sam and Mary because obviously they’ll be liabilities if they thought something truly awful was happening.

It’s an interesting idea and would probably make a better fic because you/whoever writes it can suspend disbelief on Sam and Mary not finding out and Dean being a rogue hunter for much longer than they’d want to do it on TV…



Mystic Messenger Fairy Tale AU or Disney Princess AU  (’ 7 ‘)

I don’t know why I make this lololol 

Try to guess which disney princess I use for each character Q3Q

P.S consider this as Halloween fanart since I haven’t make one *get punch*

Downtown chillin’

Fave trio tbh.


oh look… a compilation of youngjae laughing on got2day…


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                                                              for richer for poorer,
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