idk if i like it still

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Happy 23th Birthday to Park Jaeseok, who’s visual is out of this world…

Something I’m super self-conscious about is my inability to remember names.

I’ve heard about Autistic people not able to recognize faces (propoagnosia…I think I misspelled it…) but I have a really hard time recalling names of people I’ve met before. I’ve had friends or casual acquaintances where I’ve gone weeks or months without knowing their names, because I get too embarrassed to ask them to tell me! And it’s so frustrating, because obviously I know who they are, but I just can’t remember their name. 

I don’t know why, maybe it’s an association issue. Like the same way I know PLACES, but I can’t remember street signs or names of familiar boulevards/neighborhoods.etc, despite having lived in a place for years. That’s super embarrassing too, because then I think people will think I’m stupid and treat me like I’m a toddler when I’m not, I just cannot remember the name of the person/place I’m trying to describe.

If anyone else out there has this issue, please know you are not alone! I know how frustrating and alienating it can feel, but please know that you are not “stupid” or “infantile” for these issues! 

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I quickly rushed out of there. Everyone at school didn’t know she was in a relationship, hardly anyone did except my friends. So I didn’t know why I was surprised to hear her friends didn’t know either.

It didn’t bother me most of the time that she had slept with a lot of people. I just didn’t like to hear about it and I think that was normal for anyone in a relationship. Or I wasn’t sure? Nia was my first girlfriend ever, my first friend ever, my first genuine connection to another person ever. Besides my family.

Sometimes I wondered if I hadn’t grown up the way I had, would I still be clinging onto her so tightly?

ok the poses people are making for pets are so fkin cute n also i got s&s a pet so those posts are supposed to start coming out on saturday :~D neatneatneat

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Alright, look… How about I get off early tonight and I buy us a bunch of candy and we can sit around and get fat and we can watch a scary movie together? How’s that for a compromise?
C-compromise?
C-O-M-promise. Compromise. How about that’s your word for the day, yeah? It’s something that’s kinda in-between. It’s like halfway happy.
By 5-1-5?
5:15. Yeah, sure.

Hilda Berg in Threatnin’ Zeppelin

oh and also thnx for comin to the streams when i was making this >:’))

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100 Days of Youtube - (48/100)

MEET DILDDY LESTOWELL - Dan and Phil play: Dream Daddy

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will i ever contribute to the fandom with something actually good? no