idk if anyone else will

does anyone else feel like….idk how to explain it….like completely disconnected from life around them? constantly going “these are my friends” and “this is my home” and “this is my life” and “this is my body” to remind yourself that you’re not just some timeless floating essence and even those mantras are completely useless and you almost never come down from it and you’re feeling like….everything is real but also completely fake at the same time

Recovering past lives:

Close your eyes.

You are in a long hallway. There are thousands of doors to your left and right. Between each door is a marble pillar, elegant and strong. The walls are a deeper shade of your favorite colour. Torches dimly light your path. A long thin carpet lines the floor, straight. Each door is a different design and shape. Open the door to your left. It will take you to a memory. Where are you? WHO are you? Is anyone with you? There is nothing you can do here, this is a memory and it will play out the same each time. Don’t try to force it, let it play out. You can leave by turning around. The same door you entered from will be behind you. No matter where you go, the door out will always be behind you. You will enter back into the hall way. Good luck.

*note: if you encounter a mirror that does not reflect your appearance, step through it

*note-note: If you encounter anyone else walking into and out of doors that you didn’t willing invite in, close and lock all the doors. There should be a key to the doors in your pocket. Proceed to the very last door, it is not marked by any pillars. This door leads nowhere. You control everything in this hallway, the hall is yours. Open the last door and let out the wolves.

*note-note-note: The doors farther down the hall are older. The last door (if you ever reach it) is your first life.

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may 4, 2017 - star wars day!

here’s an old star wars creative spread that i made in my bullet journal after watching rogue one! this layout was inspired by @tbhstudying‘s rainy weather creative spread. to everyone out there taking exams and finishing up the school year, may the force be with you!

currently listening to: “star wars: main title” - john williams

IDK IF ANYONE ELSE HAS THOUGHT OF THIS BUT WHEN JUNGKOOK WAS SITTING ON THE BENCH HE WAS SKETCHING SOMETHING

WHAT IF IT’S THAT PICTURE HE PICKED UP IN HIS SHORT FILM

WAS HE SKETCHING YOONGI?? WHY DOES IT HAVE BLOOD ON IT NOW? I’M GONNA COMBUST I HATE BTS I’M UNSTANNING

some divine feelings
  • finally showering after way too many days of not showering, feeling cleansed and free, like you could just float away
  • floating in a pool, not touching anything but the water so it feels like youre floating in nothingness
  • wearing gold jewelry and makeup, wearing crystals
  • finding glitter randomly on your body, even if you havent been around glitter
  • feeling when someone you love is close to you, even if youre not touching you can feel the warmth of the person
  • having cryptic dreams about nothing specific, but you know it means something
  • looking up at the sky at night and feeling the raw energy of the universe
  • doodling while spacing out, letting your invisible self guide your hand
  • listening to music that you love with headphones or earbuds on, feeling like the music is taking you away to another time, another place, another universe maybe?
  • feeling gentle, and calm, but at the same time powerful and important, a tightness in your chest, telling you that you’re very much alive

So I sketched Otabek with his hair swept to the side this morning, which then prompted this… I have this hc that Otabek and Yuri send each other selfies, because of course they do.

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(cheeky boy :P)

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In reality, Yuri’s reaction is this:

i’m sorry i couldn’t help myself