I know I post a lot about my mental health (or I guess, lack thereof, idk?) and I just want to put out a blanket statement, since I get a fair amount of concerned anons (thank you for caring, seriously) that as dramatic as things may seem sometimes, I’m… okay. When my thoughts get distorted, I like to externalize a lot of things. It helps to vent some of this stuff semi-publicly since I spend so much time on my own. It’s not stuff I feel comfortable talking about IRL, ironically, but I can talk about it here. I can admit things here, for some reason. Anonymity, idk. Even if I don’t respond to your comments and messages, it helps immensely to know that anyone is out there, reading, maybe understanding, maybe working on their own challenges.
I’m not well, but I’m more stable in my marriage than I’ve ever been on my own. I have a long way to go before I’d ever put the word “healthy” next to my name, but I have far fewer hopeless days than I used to. I want to do better, to create more, to be more generous and thoughtful, but I recognize it’s not going to happen overnight, and I have a lot of work to do on myself.
Thanks for being here, even when I’m not at my best.