idk i thought you may like these

I know I post a lot about my mental health (or I guess, lack thereof, idk?) and I just want to put out a blanket statement, since I get a fair amount of concerned anons (thank you for caring, seriously) that as dramatic as things may seem sometimes, I’m… okay. When my thoughts get distorted, I like to externalize a lot of things. It helps to vent some of this stuff semi-publicly since I spend so much time on my own. It’s not stuff I feel comfortable talking about IRL, ironically, but I can talk about it here. I can admit things here, for some reason. Anonymity, idk. Even if I don’t respond to your comments and messages, it helps immensely to know that anyone is out there, reading, maybe understanding, maybe working on their own challenges. 

I’m not well, but I’m more stable in my marriage than I’ve ever been on my own. I have a long way to go before I’d ever put the word “healthy” next to my name, but I have far fewer hopeless days than I used to. I want to do better, to create more, to be more generous and thoughtful, but I recognize it’s not going to happen overnight, and I have a lot of work to do on myself.

Thanks for being here, even when I’m not at my best.

anonymous asked:

I'm a closeted bi. A friend of mine that used to be homophobic is now saying that she was attracted to this girl and hinting that she might be bi. She knows that I'm a supporter of the lgbt and I want to feel happy for her but she made me feel so insecure and afraid of my sexuality in the past...

well i guess its probably a good time to ask her why she used to say those things, like you can just bring it up casually like “remember when you used to say xyz”, “do you still think that way”, or “why’d you say that before” etc. because  who knows, maybe what she was saying internalized homophobia or maybe she thought she could “fit in” by saying those things but now she feels more comfortable with herself. idk these are just possibilities they may not be the reason at all and im not excusing whatever she said or how it made you feel because intent doesn’t mean anything when it comes to impact, i’m just offering what her thought process might’ve been. you could also be blunt with it and just ask her if she’s bi or if she likes girls, and if she says yes then be like same. 

but at the end of the day you’re not obligated to forgive or forget anything that she’s said or how unsafe she made you feel so if you feel like you can’t be yourself around her, whether she’s changed or not, then distance yourself. theres no shame in protecting yourself 

But why...

Don’t we have an Acotar calendar? Something like this maybe. Idk random rambling thoughts for the evening, ignore my crazy.

January-Kallias and Viv
February-Mor
March- Amren
April- Tamlin only because lord of spring
May- Elain and Nesta in the garden
June- The Illyrian boys sparing shirtless
July- Tarquin shirtless in the ocean
August- Helion doing whatever
September-Thesan doing whatever
October- Lucien
November- Cassian cooking
December- Feyre and Rhys

There’s a place between seeing and dreaming, a boundary in reality where longing and wanting swim inside eyes.
And it’s a trick of the light, a slowed heart that projects things on a lazy gaze.
You come like the sun at the end of may, fleeting but warm and trying,
trying so intensely hard to just shine. Your edges are blurred despite how solid you seem, I’ve never met someone so real, and maybe it’s the tint of sunglasses or maybe just because you’re made of nothing but softness.
The thing is, you’re too good for a life like this, I know you’ll end up tearing me apart.
I’ve always been drawn to self destruction,
this might be the most fatal yet.
It goes like this,
you appear within me even when you’re not there beside me, appear with a smile that has my heart pounding out a beat to the soundtrack of your laugh that sets the wind on fire.
There’s something wrong about being addicted to a pair of eyes.
I’m not supposed to be able to see a past I should remember but don’t, I’m not supposed to see a soul dancing in colours, I’m not supposed to see home.
And when I’ve conjured you up again in the darkness from words sent on a lit screen, you ask me questions I can’t answer.

What would sirens sing to you?

There’s only one answer.

A composition made of your eyes and your smile, the bridge of a requiem played by strings set on laughter. The sunlight filtering through frozen parts of things kept locked away.
The way your voice sounds when you say my name.

does anyone else feel like a substitution shouldnt be taken away if a player has a head injury? because I believe the rules are if a player has a concussion scare they must come off and can’t continue play. idk i feel like if you take away the sub it may influence players to lie about the severeness of the injury so they can stay on and their team isn’t cost a substitution. I saw the point brought up by a blogger today and just thought it was an interesting point to share

Sensory Kits (Part 1)

This is the first post in a multi-post series about sensory kits. I figured a lot of you probably know about these already, but this might have ideas you hadn’t previously thought of? Idk. 

What are they?

As you may know/figure out due to the self-explanatory title, a sensory kit is a group of items that help mitigate sensory overload and its related issues. It can include comfort items, communication aids, and fidget/stim toys, to name a few. 

How do I make one?

This part is highly subjective and individual! It depends on how big you would like your kit to be and what occasion you will be using it for. 

Container- 

For a small sensory kit, use a pencil case with a cool texture or pleasing design. It can be placed in a small bag if needed or carried by itself. These are good to leave by the door to grab quickly in case you’ve forgotten sensory items that might be helpful at your destination or during your trip there. You can also keep them in a car, locker, desk, or any random place.  

A medium sensory kit will have as many items as the small one, only with larger items such as a water bottle, medium-large sized stuffed animals, book/art supplies, or technology (such as a handheld game console or tablet computer). This kit can be kept in a drawstring backpack or small cross-body bag. Like a small sensory kit, it can also be placed in a larger bag.  

A large sensory kit will be kept in your living space. This one is not kept in a container and can include large/difficult to transport items such as a weighted blanket, balance board, spinny chair, or exercise ball. 

Items to include- 

When thinking of items to put in your sensory kit, consider all of the senses. For our purposes, let’s pick seven: (potential items to include for that sense are in parentheticals)

Visual- sight. (glitter ball, glitter wand, cellophane bubble stick, stim toys in pretty/soothing colors, mirror, colored flashlight, bubbles, sunglasses)

Auditory- noise. (noise reducing earmuffs, earplugs, acoustic filters, headphones (noise cancelling or other), noise-isolating earbuds, music player, tiny music box that requires you to turn the handle)

Tactile- touch. (virtually every stim toy- tangles, twiddle, stress ball, etc., soft fabric/ribbon, stuffed animal, soft art/makeup brush)

Olfactory- smell. (essential oils, scented lotions, coffee beans, tea bags, face masks, gum, mints)

Gustatory- taste. (food, chew toy, mints, gum, water bottle with iced tea/drink that tastes good)

Proprioceptive- sense of where your body is in space. (weighted/pressure vest, lap pad, putty, chew toy, exercise band)

Vestibular- movement. (This can be hard to fit in a little kit.) (movement suggestion cards- rocking, jumping up and down, skipping, running, flapping your hands/arms. Make a deck out of index cards/half index cards, shuffle, pick a card, and do the thing on it!) 

Other helpful items to include could be: Communication device or notepad and pencil, hand sanitizer, tissues, coloring book/art supplies, book/magazine, cell phone/computer, handheld gaming system, other comfort or distracting items, especially when the kit will be used in a stressful environment.

Hope this helps, and if you have any other suggestions for items please let me know! If you want to share your sensory kit you can submit a post through the main, I will be putting some of mine up soon. 

How to Get Over of Your Fear from Public Speaking

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I KNOW THAT I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE AFRAID OF SPEAKING IN PUBLIC RIGHT?????

Last night while I was scrolling through instagram, I saw @emmastudies post wherein she mentioned that public speaking is one of her fears. And a lot of people also commented that it is one of their fears as well.

I’m going to be honest with you guys. I don’t really have a fear of speaking in public because I really like talking and my sharing thoughts to others (idk if that makes sense haha) I may not fear it but you still get jitters when it comes to your mind.

Some advice that I can give to you is NOT TO OVERTHINK ABOUT SPEAKING IN PUBLIC. If you overthink, you mess up. You mess up, you might embarrass yourself in front of the people you are talking to.

And before speaking always breathe in and then breath out. Breathing exercises work for me when the nerves start kicking in. 

During your ‘talk’/speech, it’s ok to make a few mistakes. If you’re allowed to use flashcards, use them. It will help you know the things you are supposed to say instead of looking the screen if you’re doing a power point presentation. You should also smile to your audience (i was once questioned for smiling too much during a defense haha) I realized if I smile throughout the presentation, I’ll feel good.

Some of my friends (college students actually) said that it’s not really that nerve-wrecking. The fear is the first thing that attacks us instead of the determination. But once you’re there talking, you’ll feel fine ;)

Feel Something

Originally posted by out-in-the-open

Characters: Sam x Siren!Reader, Dean, OFC

Word Count: 2002

Warnings: Spn-like death/murder/violence, Angst, Some Fluff

Request: This idea may seem weird but what if reader is a mermaid. Now stay with me I know you already thinking this idea is crazy but let me elaborate. Reader is a mermaid who feeds off of people’s thoughts. And she believes that she isn’t harming anyone but when people started dying from like brain deca that’s when the duo goes to investigate. Idk this idea came to me after I watched Just My Imagination and this is really long but can you make this happen. Pairing whoever you want(please pick Sam)

A/N: @diesintheshower, I’m so sorry this took forever.  My life kind of spiraled out of control there for a while.  But I really did love your request!  I hope you like this/ I did didn’t muck it up.


You stirred your latte, drawing patters in the foam.

You feigned attention to your book, to your coffee, pretending you were paying attention to anything but the man across from you.  

Still, you found yourself staring at him more than you should be.

Another man would have thought you were flirting with him.  But he was a writer and had eyes only for his work.  What was more, he was in love with one of his characters.  You could feel it, see it in his mind.  

You delved deep into his thoughts, into his work, drinking in the new ideas and the new stories he’d brought with him to the coffee shop today.

He came here daily, to write uninterrupted.  

And you came here daily to feel his stories, to feed off that creative drive.  

You drew your spoon from your coffee, wiping the foam off on a napkin before taking in your reflection in its convex surface. 

Your reflection, a siren’s reflection.

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mikeybound  asked:

This may be taking things too far, but has Keith ever offered Shiro an open relationship?

I’ve been staring at this ask for way too long that I’ve come to a conclusion that no, Keith didn’t offer Shiro an open relationship. OTL

Keith may be insecure that he can’t give Shiro what he wants, when he wants. He knows what he lacks to the point he even thought about maybe he should change. Maybe he should give in to what his husbands wants. But that’s not who he is and it makes him feel uncomfortable and Shiro knows that.

Shiro: Keith… uh, what on earth are you doing? *raises an eyebrow*
Keith: Uh… do you. Idk. Feel like…? 
Shiro: *finally gets the idea* *sighs* Keith, stop. 
Keith: *frowns* Do you… not want to? 
Shiro: It’s not that I don’t want but it seems like you’re forcing yourself. And you know that if we do this, it has to be okay for both of us. And right now, clearly, it isn’t mutual.
Keith: *leans back on the headboard* *closes his eyes* *sighs in relief* Oh god. Bless. Bless you. Forever. Bless you, Takashi. Jesus Christ.
Shiro: *chuckles* Wow. Going religious on me.
Keith: *chuckles* *looks at Shiro fondly* Check this out. *takes Shiro’s hand and places it on his chest* 
Shiro: Oh my god. Your heart is racing.
Keith: *laughs* Yeah. I was so bloody nervous. 
Shiro: Nervous that I’d say yes? *smirks*
Keith: A bit, yeah. *chuckles* I didn’t get to think past that. I was hoping you’d say no to be honest. *removes Shiro’s hand*
Shiro: Then why did you offer? *amused*
Keith: Just thought I’d… *waves hand in the air aimlessly* put it out there.
Shiro: I knew something was off. *smiles* I was like “Is this real life? Is this fantasy? Last time I checked my husband’s all ‘I don’t need it. Takashi. But if you do, just hit me up and we’ll discuss and schedule.’ Schedule, Keith. We schedule things like this. *pokes Keith*
Keith: *laughs* We do, don’t we? Is that weird? I don’t think most married couples make it so formal to even book a schedule.
Shiro: *hums* But we’re not most married couples though. Plus, we gotta be considerate of the time and place and if we have any engagements the following day. I say we’re the better couple. They should follow us.
Keith: *hits Shiro playfully* Don’t make fun of me. *smiles*
Shiro: *grabs Keith’s hand and interlaces theirs* I’m not, sweetheart. Please, don’t ever force yourself, okay? I love you and I don’t give a damn if we’re not as “active” as other couples are in certain areas. Besides, I told you, right? I knew what I was getting into when I proposed to you. So don’t worry about it. I’m not going to leave just because we don’t always throw our pants on the floor. *chuckles* I’m not that stupid. We have kids and we go out of the country often, I say we’re pretty much occupied with other things. Other important things. *wiggles eyebrows*
Keith: Fricking sap. *squeezes Shiro’s hand*

Shiro is Keith’s first love and his one true love. He’d rather have Shiro leave him than share him with someone else who could do better than him. It’s going to eat him up that Shiro could be happy along with someone else, as if a reminder that being Shiro’s husband… he isn’t enough, that Shiro needs an additional one to fill the things Keith can’t. And honestly, that’s just awful. 

So, yeah. That’s a no. XD I was just supposed to answer but the drabble just wrote itself. oops XD

idk if this has been done before but may i introduce: tfc asks!!!!!!!!

aaron: who do you dislike the most and why?
abby: what’s one of the kindest things you’ve ever done?
allison: what’s one of your biggest passions?
andrew: what’s one of your darkest secrets?
bee: do people generally trust you?
dan: do you see yourself as a good person?
erik: what languages do you speak and/or want to speak?
ichirou: do you like people relying on you?
jean: how do you feel about your past?
jeremy: who is someone you’ve helped?
kaleigh: what do you want your legacy to be?
katelyn: who do you love most and why?
kevin: what are you best at?
matt: what’s one of the biggest challenges you’ve had to overcome?
nathan: do you love your family?
neil: what’s your relationship like with your parents?
nicky: what are you proudest about (about yourself)?
renee: who has had one of the biggest impacts on your life?
riko: what’s one of your faults?
roland: how loyal are you to your friends?
seth: are you a hateful person?
stewart: what’s your family like?
tetsuji: how important is power to you?
wymack: what do you have a strong calling for?

i think i may have some form of synesthesia ? like i’ve always associated certain colors with some words/concepts, and i also personify some things (like numbers mostly) and see them as having personalities and relationships. I always thought it was just something weird I did to stay entertained in math class as a kid but it turns out other people do this too. i always thought that you had to physically see or feel the colors, and since i’ve always felt them i never considered that i could actually have it. idk i’ll be doing more research but just wanted to share ~

oh, for fuck sake..!

acrid, stop complaining about your stupid heat! in the grand scheme of things, others have it a lot worse than you do. ever heard of a goddamn period? you may have to deal with uncontrollable cum for a while, but that’s only a temporary deal! girls like me have to deal with painstaking cramps and uncontrollable blood, once a month, for almost our whole lives. so, bitch, shut up and deal with it.

and don’t even think about lashing out at me. i’ll watch my back for the rest of my life, if i have to, but you don’t scare me one bit, acrid!


((I may or may not’ve just spent an hour making an image response to something i thought of yesterday, for an m!a that’s no longer valid… butyourinboxwasclosedsohere))

@bendycraves

Thirteen
The number of times I thought about taking everything I said back that night

Thirty four
The number of times I wanted to forgive you because it was too hard to be without you

Three
The number of times I told you I Ioved you the same day you fucking ruined me

Eight
The number of days I spent in my bed after I found out about her

One hundred, one thousand, one million,
Every day for the rest of my life
The number of days I would’ve loved you if you had fucking let me

—  You always said you liked numbers

(click on the image to get a less-blurry version)

I felt like drawing Sofia in a big poofy hoodie w/ spooky panties

so I drew Sofia in a big poofy hoodie w/ spooky panties

the hoodie design is from the “Green Hazard” skin for DJ Scully from Killing Floor 2 btw because I thought she’d look good in it and I was totally right

i have a couple more ideas in mind for something of a “casual” lineup of all 3 of my OCs in super casual outfits of course, but I think some other ideas i have in mind are of higher priority so those might be a while.

(also made some slight changes to her design, more on that in the Mod Commentary under the break)

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anonymous asked:

please help me HELP ME WHO THE FUCK IS CHIHOKO AND WHY IS EVERYONE TALKING ABOUT HER/HIM/THEM? AND WHY IS VIKTOR JEALOUS OF HER/HIM/THEM??????????

…get ready anon

THIS IS SHACHIHOKO. YES. A FISH STATUE. A FLOPPY FISH STATUE.

WHY IS VIKTOR JEALOUS OF A FLOPPY FISH STATUE, YOU MAY ASK??

well apparently while Yuuri and Viktor were drunk, they were doing some stretches or flexibility poses??? something called the Boston Crab I think, and Yuuri basically said something like “Shachihoko is more flexible than you, Shachihoko does this all the time, up there, always bending” or something (this is not verbatim i wasn’t there at the event okay at this point i am literally a tertiary source)

and Viktor misunderstood and thought “Chihoko” was an ex-lover of Yuuri’s. Who was, idk, more flexible than Vitya is (viktor pls)

so of course Viktor got jealous