idk i need a way to sort these

trash aus
  • i borrowed ur pen and its been 2 weeks and i still haven’t returned it because every time i talk to u, i am reminded of the massive fucking crush i have on u which always ends up leaving me speechless” au 
  • “u caught me dramatically lip syncing/dancing and instead of laughing u joined in v v badly and we did a fucking duet together” au
  • u sat next to me on the plane and idk if ur nervous or something but wHY DO U NEED THE TOILET SO FUCKING MUCH” au
  • “i’m a bus driver and despite my no-coins policy, u always manage to weasel ur way into giving them to me w/ stories that cannot possibly be true” au 
  • i didn’t realise i was staring at u while daydreaming” au 
  • “i have never met u in my entire life but u keep sarcastically responding to my tweets and i wanted to punch u until i saw ur avi and now i sort of want to kiss u” au
  • i thought u had a crush on our friend and u thought i had a crush on the same friend when in reality, we have a crush on each other” au
  • “we fucked last night and i left before u woke up and ur standing in front of me right now… for a job interview” au 
  • we’ve been married for 2 years now and u just had surgery that left u real fucking dopey and u keep telling me that u wanna take me out and marry me” au
  • “this is my first time at a gay bar and i’m kinda nervous so i got real drunk and now ur listening to me rant on and on about how gay two characters are for each other,” au
  • i drunk texted u thinking u were my ex and in the morning i woke up to a hangover and a long ass text from u telling me i could do better and shit” au
  • “i’m a popular fanfiction writer and u catch me writing the latest chapter in a cafe, and we end up talking and i keep going on and on about this cute commenter who i find out is u when u comment on the next chapter” au 
  • ur my best friend’s older brother and u just caught me singing along to my to best friend’s brother by victoria justice with a bunch of dicks drawn on my face.” au
  • “ur in a band i really like but ur band name is fucking stupid so i made an anonymous twitter account with new band name suggestions except it got really popular and now u wanna meet me” au 
  • ur my daughter’s teacher and u asked to meet me after school so i got real scared and now i’m shouting at u about how u shouldn’t make assumptions about a child’s skills due to their disability” au
  • “u helped me shout at some prick at a bar” au
  • ur the really sassy blind kid in my class who always brightens up my day with ur remarks and one day u confront me abt why i always laugh” au
  • “its a school reunion and woah u got really hot and woah we’re fucking in the bathroom” au 
  • we’ve been binge watching this show for a while and then i found out u didn’t ship my otp so i spent the rest of the day convincing u to ship them together” au

if u write any of these, TAG/MESSAGE ME!!!

anonymous asked:

leela that liveshow was. a lot. so cute. Dan talking about love made me 👀

it was definitely a lot oh my god. one of my favorites in a long time and a real treasure trove of open stories, asides, opinions, and general insights into his mind, his opinions on work, his life, and of course, yes, his thoughts on love. i almost wondered if he was a little bit tipsy from the sushi dinner he mentioned going on since he’s always sort of told us that he’s pretty sensitive to wine (he was tipsy while editing that sims video when he left the flipside christmas party in december and he’d only had one glass of wine?) because honestly there was so much rambling and vulnerability in this that i wasn’t prepared for. uhhh, brace yourselves bc this is like,, the longest shit i’ve written about them in ages. i can always count on a dan live show to bring out my inner desires to write an actual novel haha

INSIGHTS ABOUT HIMSELF

the meditation bit. that was so lovely on so many levels. to know that he’s tried meditating is one thing. to watch him try to walk us through some of the fundamental tenets of a meditative mindset was another. it was so fascinating to me to hear him confirm the way in which he feels plagued by the onslaught of noise in his life, and crucially, for him, that’s all online noise—he kept talking about imaginary conversations, how all of our communication is text on the internet, and that he ingests so many of those voices constantly and always feels their presence. even though that is a generalizable thing that all of us suffer from, to an extent, in a world where we’re so digitally connected, it’s staggering to think about the scale on which he has to deal with all of the white noise and that all of it is both distressing to him and also inescapable in that it’s the foundation of his career. i just see dan as being someone who is so internally conflicted about so many things and that includes, most centrally, the role of the internet and his presence on it, and it doesn’t take much reaching to understand why he must love and hate it in equal measure.

the hydration campaign. y’all i’ve been trying to track every stay hydrated mention since the one in pinof 8 when they literally made like a psa, with no explanation or context, about the importance of water and staying hydrated and just stuck it in the middle of that vid. i’ve lost track though bc they’ve worked it into nearly every video they’ve made since then and i WANT TO KNOW WHAT ITS ABOUT. i am adamant that it’s an inside joke of some sort. i don’t think they actually give a fuck how much water we drink lol. so today when dan was like “i need to find a way to work that into the next video .. .might already be in it,” and then at the end when he said he needs to leave to go “get hydrated,” i was living bc it was the most open confirmation yet that this is something they’re so intentionally doing and working into their vids. idk if it’s just a funny thing but … my instinct is that it has some sort of deeper meaning that only they know and i’m ANNOYED THEYRE ALLOWED TO RUB THESE JOKES RIGHT IN OUR FACES UGH. jk they can carry on w their married behavior but. i want it all to lead to some sort of announcement that they’re starting a joint bottled water business at the very least. or maybe its just a euphemism for sex. who knows. ugh

dan acknowledging his pretentiousness about music is all i’ve ever wanted. it’s so funny to me how just his self-awareness that he is very pretentious and particular about his tastes is all i needed to forgive him for all of it because what pissed me off more than anything ever about dan’s approach to talking about music were his flimsy attempts at trying to act like he was so accepting and tolerant of all people’s music tastes and that he’s some sort of diplomatic saint who respects and celebrates everyone’s preferences bc … literally no he fucking doesn’t he has never even tried to make it convincing hahah. so him just outright apologizing for it today in his usual self-deprecating fashion was like the funniest, best thing to me bc god at least he knows and realizes and like maybe now he can actually work on talking about music in the deeper and complex ways that he so clearly wants to. also as a music snob in my own right i feel him on this and i’ve always just found it way easier to preface every conversation w the clear statement that these r just my own standards and i’m a douche and i’m never actually trying to disrespect anyone who might like different things than me. anyway, i love dan

INSIGHTS ABOUT WORK & LIFE

i suspected and even posted about the fact that unexpected things might have happened this week that caused phil to be delayed in posting his video and dan to be all but silent on twitter for several days. i speculated dan may not have been in a good place this week based on his silence and also the way he seemed to teeter on the brink of quite overt negativity during last week’s live show. to me, today’s live show seemed fully in the throes of that negative headspace. there was a resurgence of bleak little comments about how he’s tired (of living), how he looks like a rat and doesn’t want to be reminded about the reality of his existence, how his life is a joke, how he can’t comprehend that anyone could draw inspiration from his videos or that his stories could brighten people’s days, etc. etc. all said as casual asides and mostly followed by little laughs as is his norm, but it was very reminiscent to me of the time in early january around his 2016 memes video and his first couple live shows of the year where he talked so frequently about craving death and feeling anxious and judging his own work output too harshly, and the constant pressure of scrutiny from his audience. i don’t think this live show was as bad as all of that but it’s clear that things might be a bit difficult right now and dan confirmed that himself when he stated that it’s been a challenging week in ways he can’t talk about with us yet. i was so interested to hear him say we could ask him about it in like five months though. literally,,, i put it in my calendar for august because i’m just so curious. we have almost no hints to go off of in terms of speculating about what it could be, but to me the fact that we would be able to ask him five months from now seems to suggest that it’s not personal (i jokingly wrote in tags that he and phil had gotten in a tiff this week lol) bc if it was he wouldn’t mention it at all i don’t think and definitely at the very least wouldn’t have given us such a specific timeframe about when we could ask about it. it’s likely work-related bc of that timeframe: a new project of some sort that will be out later this year, for which perhaps several planning meetings or deadlines had to happen/be met this week? it’s hard to say why that would put dan in such a negative headspace but he’s said before that he gets that way when he’s sleep deprived and he did just seem very very tired beneath everything. … also possible it could be about moving? maybe house hunting was very stressful and didn’t go to plan. late summer (five months from now) would be a fitting time for them to have made their move, and really it’s the only other possible thing i can think of with a timeframe that dan would specifically tell us. in any case,,, mark your cals for august y’all bc i actually can’t wait to hear more insights about this week even if we have to wait months for them.

that being said, the new dinof video is coming tmrw or the day after and he was still pretty vague about what it will be about. as i spelled out in completely unnecessary detail after last week’s live show i believe he was going to make the video about dropping the dinof user name but then changed his mind (this is the video he referenced today when he said “i was going to make a video but then decided it should be the next one” before going on like a 3-min rant about how sometimes he just feels the timing isn’t right to post a particular video.) so that leaves the field wide open for what this next vid could be. the only other hint we got was that it could be kink-related because the premium he opened that said “kinkshame me daddy” prompted him to say “well you’ll like my next vid,” but then he quickly walked it back as though to dispel anyone’s expectations that it would be kink-related? it was all a bit confusing. on that subject he did note down the idea of doing a video about going to the dentist back in a february live show, so there’s a high possibility to me that it could be about that since it’s like sort of (maybe jokingly) a kink for him, but he wouldn’t want to tease something that’s mostly NOT about kinks by saying it’s kink-related, hence his rapid back-tracking. but like. tbh who knows … dan is confusing and could pull something totally out of left field behind all of this quibbling. i mostly ardently agree with the way he told us to feel about it, which is to have literally no expectations or theories about what it could be hahah … best advice he’s ever given tbh

confirmation that he and phil will attend playlist this year, and a sort of allusion to the traditional lester clan april holiday in florida. probably means that he will join them again this year. it was kind of nice to hear him basically walk us through how all of their decisions about conventions and travel are made jointly, even months and months into the future, and to have no qualms with sharing that. he also just kept reiterating vaguely that they might have plans at various points of the year and idk about y’all but i feel like he’s trying his hardest to let us know that those plans involve each other and probs always will. could be work things (the same project that may have caused them stress this week), could, as he said in his own words back in january, be “life things.” could be both. but regardless, the plans are always danandphil things, both of them together, and i’m not sure how there is still a strain of people that insists on arguing that a moving apart or separation is on the horizon for this year. all of that is summed up in this one amazing exchange for me, when someone in the chat asks, “are you excited for australia again?” and he answers, “yeah, we are.”

i also really dug the insight about how he likes to structure his work in such a way that he’s working for three weeks straight with no days off and then takes a whole week to lose himself in a game. it’s very dan to be so all or nothing about the way that he works and to become consumed so completely by whatever’s at hand (whether it’s work or leisure) and although i might’ve suspected that that’s how he operates i don’t think we’ve ever heard him lay it out that clearly

INSIGHTS ABOUT PHIL & LOVE

that he opened this live stream with such an earnest celebration of phil (thanking him, literally, for existing and making videos even though it was technically a misspeak) was so lovely and not what i expected but it set a nice tone for the start of this stream. the bants-y way in which he acknowledge the subscriber gap was also a tiny bit noteworthy to me, especially in light of that ask i answered recently about how they must approach the subscriber gap. i argued it def isn’t something they are sensitive about and probs isn’t something they joke about either, but dan sort of showed that he might approach it w humor if the situation calls for it rather than ignore it altogether. interesting. he’s clearly so proud of phil and was a little flustered in talking about how exciting the milestone was. and then, relatedly, so so animated and excited about “promo-ing (awkward pause and sidelong glance) his pal” and the gym video. i fucking loved hearing his version of the story and how surprisingly soft and tender he sounded when he was describing phil on the phone asking for an exercise plan (like, his tone was verging on adoring there) and then the way he looked when he got back. the way that dan says “what happened?” when he’s recounting how he talked to phil after he got home literally set my heart aflutter bc it was sooooooooo concerned-sounding even in a re-enactment, even in front of thousands of people, so i can’t even imagine how worried he must have genuinely been in that moment. the thing w videos is that they allow these real-life stories that happen to dnp to take on a sort of surreal almost fictional feel bc of the storytelling dnp employ—videos have like a real narrative arc and they’re packaged to be entertaining so in some ways it’s easy to forget that this is actually a true thing that happened. phil lester went to the gym and threw up twice from over-exertion and came home in half the time he was supposed to be gone and dan, the worried partner, was there to receive him when he did. and then, of course, to get super angry on his behalf and tell us about it later. i was literally rejoicing to hear dan be so honest about his emotional reaction to this happening to phil bc it might be something he would have usually phrased another way (‘can u believe phil asked for this one thing and got this other thing instead what is wrong with people this is why we don’t go outside’) instead of literally just stating his emotion so bluntly (‘i was actually like really mad … like honestly i was so angry when he told me.’) that difference in communicating how he feels is so hugely important to me and it’s what gave the story so much dimension,, i could literally picture dan and his instinct towards protectiveness that we’ve seen time and time and time again when it comes to phil, just full of irritation, disbelief, and actual anger in that moment and he had no problem with telling us that was what happened. i nearly thought that when he said he couldn’t go to that gym bc he didn’t want to see kyle/leon, that he was saying any real-life encounter with him would end in dan giving kyle/leon an angry speech about his lack of professionalism and total ineptitude at his job. i totally believe that it would.

the other part of dan’s reaction that i feel is worth noting is the way that he immediately said to phil that he needs to learn to be more assertive in a knowing tone as though it’s something they discuss often and, to be honest, it IS something that has come up before over and over in the way that dan portrays phil. that he’s too “polite” to call people out if they’re abusing him online, that he believes in things like etiquette and courtesy, that his personality is adorable and, in not so many words, soft. we even have seen him describe it in certain specific real life scenarios. an example that comes to mind is when they were doing the joint live show in november last year and dan wanted to talk about the sound guy who fucked up his mic at dapgoose LA, subsequently causing him to loose his voice for the boncas. dan clearly wanted to go off about how incapable the sound guy had been but asks phil for permission basically, and phil tempers dan’s response a lot and recounts the situation diplomatically. a random example that also comes to mind from ages ago is in dan’s what not to do at the cinema video from 2012 where he talks about a scenario when he and phil go out to see a movie and he, dan, is assertive enough to both 1. ask for people to completely get up and move if they’re sitting in his and phil’s seats, and, 2. shush them if they’re being too loud. he even acts out phil saying “oh my god you did not just do that, i don’t know you,” and trying to hide. i feel like this is a difference between them that’s sometimes under-discussed  or noticed because the main focus is always on their anxieties and insecurities and general distaste for human interaction. people also focus on phil making small talk with people in social settings and take that to mean that he is more confident and calm. but i earnestly believe that he is more reserved than dan in many ways and that includes in facing negative or stressful situations and dan, despite his own set of anxieties, has always been much more able and willing to demand and ask for what he feels he (or phil) deserves.

obvi the thing everyone wants to talk about (and i’m right there with y’all) is dan’s truly surprising decision to entertain a question about love and then give a definition of it. after a bit of waffling and dithering about whether it is or isn’t a social construct he seems to insist that it is a real feeling and defines it as “the fear of that person not being there mixed with sexual attraction.” super interesting to me because he seems to totally approach this question from his own perspective and experience which is why in the moment he seems to suggest that you need to experience sexual attraction in order to love people (and where does that leave people on the ace spectrum?) and, moreover, that love is definitely a feeling people feel (and where does that leave aromantic people?) he definitely interprets the question to be about romantic love rather than talking about something perhaps “safer” for his usual topics such as platonic love or familial love and it’s for that reason that i definitely think he was trying to say that this is what love means to him and in his own experience because i don’t think he would be so cavalier about conflating romantic and sexual attraction and implying that asexuality and romantic attraction cannot coexist in one person if he had had time to think about this answer rather than spontaneously deciding to answer it on the spot.

but that he’s speaking from his own experience obviously makes his answer profoundly interesting because he settles on, coincidentally or perhaps not, one of the only ways of expressing affection for phil by proxy that he’s ever been okay with sharing with us, which is that he needs phil around bc he can’t bear to be alone. this combined with the protectiveness/defensiveness he exhibits for phil pretty consistently, as well as the occasional recognition of phil’s creativity, are pretty much the full spectrum of ways in which dan ever talks about what he feels for phil in a public setting. it was so strangely emotional for me to hear him confirm that his fear of being alone and being without this hypothetical “love” is so fundamental to the experience of love for him that it becomes a big part of the way he defines it. i mean people make fun of dan’s neediness all the time in so many ways but he straight out confirms here that the feeling of needing your partner near you at all times and staving off the genuinely frightening prospect of the anxiety of being alone are so central to what he takes the experience of love to mean. and that’s true for both of them i feel because as “needy” as dan is, phil is just as attached, chooses to spend all of these moments with dan, chooses to call dan up on stage when he wins solo awards, chooses to travel and socialize and create and live with dan next to him always. the concerning degrees of codependency they exhibit are such common topics of conversation amongst us as outside observers that it’s very nearly startling to hear dan basically say that, yes, this dependency on this other person, this feeling of paralysis when they’re not there, that’s what love is to him, fundamentally. it’s the awareness that your life would be empty without them around. that is … concerning honestly, and as always i have some burning questions about how they make such an unhealthy level of codependency work but like. they do. they so clearly do. they have for so long and they show signs every day of only growing stronger and happier in their partnership, if that’s even possible.

then there’s the sexual attraction bit which like, sure. obvi.

i also thought it was immensely noteworthy that when he read out “some people never find love” from one of the chat comments he didn’t even try a little bit to make it relatable and crack some joke about being forever alone or even just a cheeky little “same.” like just, generally speaking, he approached this whole topic very much with the tone of 1. someone who has definitely experienced the emotion of love, 2. someone who is then trying to articulate the emotion of love as he experiences it, and 3. someone who still feels that emotion and is in proximity to that person to whom it is directed. there were no attempts at trying to say he can’t relate or that he doesn’t know (or to apply it to FOOD which he has said on countless occasions is the number one love of his life,) and if anything he got quite flustered and even red around his ears and cheeks by the end of the whole ramble. flustered but not actually uncomfortable, at least in my assessment. it was really so, so lovely and incredibly insightful. not a topic i ever ever thought i’d hear him venture into and certainly not in a live stream and certainly not in that much depth. to me the whole topic played out almost as though he couldn’t let some overly analytical smartass in the chat reduce this emotion that clearly means so much to him into a mere social construct or even a release of hormones (oxytocin). he needed to push back and play devil’s advocate, but instead of doing that in a contemplative philosophical way he somewhat accidentally got super personal with it and this ramble and completely rare look into dan’s experience w this particularly touchy emotion is what we got. it reminds me a lot of the vyou he answered back in 2012 about whether he believes in love, in which he is quite literally upset and completely rude to the person who asked it, saying “no offense to you but what kind of a stupid question is that?” as though he has never even entertained the possibility that people could not believe that love is a true feeling and emotion. it’s incredible to see that 6 years later dan has evolved in so many ways and is calmer and more thoughtful about so many things, but on this subject little has changed: love is so important to him and there’s no way for him to talk about it without immediately demonstrating that :( :( :(

“hydrate, meditate, contemplate, get a mate.” such a fitting closing line because is there any set of four directives that better encompass who dan is lol? overall such a good live show with so many moments of vulnerability and emotional openness. however dan really is in this moment i hope things only get better and better for him and that he can get over whatever hurdles have been holding him back from dinof and that he can edit/post this video and then let himself take that week off that he mentioned wanting, in order to play games and chill or at least get to a calmer place. love him lots :(((

(live show: meditation and hydration with your new life coach - 2017.03.14)

tactile ronan headcanons
  • I just think that he touches adam all the time and it’s not just a sexual or even necessarily romantic thing; it’s a “you’re here and important to me so I’m gonna touch you a lot because that’s one of the easiest ways for me to communicate” thing
  • when it’s really hot out adam will Suffer if they cuddle at night because ronan is one of those space heater type dudes. ronan insists on having like, one hand on him though (you know those people who need at least a corner of blanket on them to sleep no matter how hot it is - that’s ronan but with adam’s limbs)
  • speaking of summertime…..adam freckles a lot when he’s in the sun and ronan always has to point out the new ones when they appear. (”was this one here last year?” “idk why would I keep track of that” “wtf parrish you have the entire periodic table memorized and yet you don’t remember what your own shoulder looks like? freak”) (they’re both freaks)
  • I’ve mentioned this before but ronan is pretty much one of those dogs that doesn’t understand it’s way too big to sit in people’s laps
  • if adam ever gets like…a paper cut…ronan is THERE he’s like ok we need to fucking disinfect this let me help you
  • he also definitely DEFINITELY does the thing where one hand is sort of on the small of adam’s back sometimes when they’re in public together, not pulling him around or anything just making sure he’s still there (and to piss off homophobes lbr I could make an entire post abt the various ways ronan accomplishes that too)
  • (for his part, adam absolutely loves how freely and gently ronan touches. it’s completely unfamiliar and a little surprising to him at first - he’s gone a lot of his life without much in terms of positive physical contact - but after a few months of being with ronan he doesn’t know how he managed without it)

having to read a post with my own two eyes where an anon asks “is madd legit” made me lose 40 years on my life

I hate this. I closed out of the Tumblr app on my phone just to immediately open it back up. Is this what my life has come to. I’m trying to take a break from working on things and I just find myself being antsy and restless in bed.

humunanunga  asked:

I gave it some thought, and I did come up with just one thing! I think it may help your artistic growth to practice more diversity in head and body shapes. Personally, I've found that observing the Steven Universe style really helps breaking down body types in a way that's easy to adapt into personal artstyles!

ah!! yeah youre right! i guess i have been slacking with that lately ! but ive been trying my best not to ignore diversity!! (idk if its noticable in the art that i post on here cuz i dont really post that often anymore :’v ) but here are a couple examples of my partice with that sort of thing! (the first two are from back in august of last year so bare with me)

~~~~Warning for tiddies ~~~~

i think i need more practice with male body types tbh ive always had trouble with that (especially chubby males). and ive noticed my headshapes tend to be round most of the time. I’ll be sure to work on that!! Thank you!!

I just really think that when Steve and Jonathan finally become friends, Jonathan is still so stand-offish and reserved that Steve spends a lot of his time trying to get some sign of affection and forgiveness from Jonathan and he just gets ridiculous with it. like always sort of hovering around him and asking him if he needs anything or giving Will rides to school. it’s a really big win for him when he tries to hug Jonathan for like the 6th time and Jonathan finally just stands there and lets him do it instead of side-stepping him. Steve is really overjoyed and won’t let go and Jonathan looks at Nancy in a panicky way like oh-my-God-when-will-this-end and Nancy’s just laughing a little bit

anonymous asked:

did you like the new video? were there any special parts?

oh my god yes, i’m shocked we got the follow-up so soon but i loved it just as much as yesterday’s??? a lot of the same thoughts apply here–dan being so proud, phil being so happy about dan’s praise, both of them bonding over the music from classic games, dan’s interest in phil’s childhood and wanting to know all of these details about how phil made it and how his friends reacted, etc. some standout moments for me: 

  • i mean obviously the angel threesome. what even. i feel like the point i’ve worn out to death on here about phil is that he’s been pushing back on the innocence trope for some months now, and has been increasingly comfortable w sexual comments/innuendo/teasing (and not innuendos that are made in a way where he seems to not be aware of what he’s saying.) and yet i was still hashtag shook to see him discussing threesomes so casually and giggling about it, and honestly weirdly startled to be reminded that phil was just like any other sex-crazed 14 year old boy lmao. i loved that whole bit so much. i love that they kept it in despite the break with phil’s mostly g-rated commentary. i laughed so hard at the way they were trying their best to make it seem innocent with those “tea party” comments,, but there was just no salvaging it. i was obsessed with the way dan was rendered nearly speechless, and how phil just stayed completely calm and was being super cheeky and kind of teasing dan for his reactions. also .. interesting that it was a MMF threesome rather than phil just wanting the main protagonist to have a threesome w two of the angels .. hmmm. then phil saying that alex would be worn out after the second round like …… .. i think i actually blushed wtf
  • the part when they were walking through the space maze and you could see little bits of the sky and phil pointed at one of the stars and said “we’re there, i can see our house” and dan went “awww” and i started to cry lmao. the way phil’s mind works is so beautiful i dont’ even get it ,, like he was just looking at the space background and thought to make this cute af remark that kind of acknowledges the sheer enormity of space but that he and dan exist in that space together, in one home wtf?? ? ? and he said it just to make dan smile??? ? ? and it was so casually done as like a throwaway comment that probs anyone would’ve missed amidst this 40-min behemoth of a video but they kept it in anyway and it was so sweet :( i was rly fucking emotional about it  :( also “our house” in general in any context,,, pls 
  • “this is tumblr we’re talking about, they need that gay shit.” uhhhhh. interesting comment from dan. it hit me in a strange way bc like,, i’ve heard this exact thing said about tumblr way too much by The Straights™ as a way of criticizing this platform and also a way of criticizing the driving force of a lot of fandom (which is obvi a need for more queer representation across all media basically.) but it’s interesting bc it’s also kind of a joke-y thing that people on tumblr and inside of those fandom spaces say a lot (like, ‘gimme more of that gay shit’ lol) and they (we) sort of own up to in a self-aware and humorous way. it’s interesting to me that dan decided to make that comment bc from the most objective evaluation it honestly comes across as derisive/rude/offensive, but he’s sort of implicitly asking us to view him as a Tumblr Resident himself (or even a queer person himself lol) and interpret the comment in a humorous way, rather than a critical one and that seems important to me. like a (hetero) outsider can’t rly make that comment without being completely offensive and horrible but dan felt like he could make it, and in so doing, he sort of puts himself on the same level as us in a way? idk. i need to think about this more 

just generally these two videos have given me so much to think about regarding phil and also dnp’s partnership. both videos felt like such a soft and lovely reminder of exactly why i love them so much. the level to which they are able to celebrate each other and demonstrate how much they have in common, how much their senses of humor align, how much they value each others’ opinions and minds, it’s all just so incredible to watch. and phil… like. this was such an important reminder to me of just how deep his creative talent probably runs. if he was making this at 14 (with all the time and effort and dedication and complex thought that that required), i can’t begin to fathom what he could make now, at 30, with 16 more years of knowledge and experience and exposure to all kinds of films and games and books. i feel like phil could make almost anything he wanted. he probably has innate writing talent and ability, and he clearly has the capacity to imagine and construct original characters and worlds. it brings me back to a central question i’ve always had about phil which is why he doesn’t exercise this creative energy more and why he is happy making things for AP that are, to be frank, somewhat formulaic and frequently just vlogs about his own life. i could ramble on that subject for a while as there are a few ideas in my mind for why he put himself into the AP box (security probably foremost on that list) but i’ll save that for another time. i’m just so happy they chose to make these videos though. it was so incredibly original and refreshing and beautiful to see them have so much fun and share in their love for each other. some of the best dapg content ever, for sure.

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I figured out why Cas healing Dean at the end of 12x19 was bothering me (I never mentioned it was, I’ve just been chewing on this since the episode :P)…

Because of the way Cas powers up with the nephilim, we’re seeing, like, a power boost new and improved Cas scenario, fair enough. But then the first thing he goes and does is heal Dean. They didn’t NEED to break Dean’s arm in this scene - Dagon could have pinned them to the nearest objects without crunching any bones, and that would only break when she was dead, as we’ve seen many times. But they wanted Cas to go heal Dean.

Of course, the problem is - and this is what was bothering me that there was something I was missing - is that Cas CAN heal Dean of a broken arm on any old day right now. He has had his grace back for just over 2 seasons with no apparent dramatic change to it, and no reason to show that he was NOT able to heal someone any more of something as simple as a broken arm, because he’s been off-screen patching up the Winchesters all year, with some comments that he can do that in this season and all (Sam’s “marshmallow foot”, thanks for a mental image I will never get rid of, Dean).

So having Cas heal Dean’s arm was a gesture to show something different than that he was just powered up and helpfully demonstrating his power, which it really seemed like because in a lot of cases Cas heals them only after a bunch of drama where he ends up powered up again - 5x22 is the first time he heals Dean and it’s the way he introduces that he has his mojo back and is a proper angel again. I don’t know why but the framing of it all really tricked me to feel like it was a similar situation - Cas gains a bunch of power, and the first thing he does is demonstrate it by killing a big bad, and healing Dean of an owie. Seems simple enough >.>

Idk if it’s saying he doesn’t NEED that power to help them in reality or that it’s a sort of gesture from him of using this power responsibly and kindly (and Cas using a bunch of power all in one go, because he’s got very used to doing things the human way and not knocking out or healing or exploding everything in his path as necessary). I may just be being slow on this and someone else already has an intuitive thought about this that makes more sense but I missed the point until just now so this is me thinking it through out loud…

anonymous asked:

Also, i don't think C is perceptive when it comes to other's feelings about her. We saw that with L. Literally in every episode L was having the hearteyes with her and it was so apparent that she was into her, and EVEN when she was like "I care about you", C was like "...Okay" and she was so surprised when she kissed her. lol it's a very interesting and kind of funny trait of hers.

It really is, nonny!  I think Clarke and romantic feelings in general is really interesting, because on the one hand she’s really good at identifying her own non-romance related emotions but on the other hand she’s remarkably bad at recognizing romantic feelings– either from others or within herself– until the absolute last minute.

Going all the way back to season one, I think Clarke was the first one to recognize that she actually sort of liked Bellamy as a person and didn’t just reluctantly trust him.  By the time they were debating whether or not to leave the dropship she would have been like “This is Bellamy and he is my friend whether he likes it or not,” whereas Bellamy would have been like “This is Clarke and she is Great but she probably hates me and just sees me as a useful human to have around so we’re maybe sort of friends but not really and also her hair is very pretty” because Bellamy is a goddamn disaster when it comes to literally any of his own emotions while Clarke is decent at anything that’s not romance.  By the time Clarke tore across Camp Jaha to jump into Bellamy’s arms, she definitely would have been able to say “I love Bellamy.”  Not romantically at that point, but she loved him and she’s the sort of person who is able to name that emotion without much trouble.  Bellamy, on the other hand, would have been like “Clarke is my favorite non-Octavia person and idk maybe you could call that love but it’s definitely one-sided because I care a lot about her and I don’t know if she feels the same way about me.”

It’s important to stop here and note that Bellamy’s inability to pick up on how much Clarke loves him is not really anyone’s fault, it’s just that Clarke doesn’t really feel the need to sit around and talk about it (she loves him, what more is there to say?) and Bellamy has not really experienced that sort of direct, open love (everything with his mom and Octavia is bound up in fear and secrets) so it’s mostly just a very understandable miscommunication.  Hell, when Clarke says “Because I can’t lose you too,” she’s surprised Bellamy needs her to say it, and he’s just like, flabbergasted that she sees him as that important.

So in terms of Bellamy and Clarke, I would say that Clarke was the first one to realize she loved him, but Bellamy was the first to realize he was in love.  For Clarke it was a much more straightforward process from enemies to allies to friends to Best Friends Forever, but Bellamy’s low self-esteem and discomfort with someone loving him outside of his utility to them made it harder for him to recognize what mutual love looks like.

But, as you say, Clarke is astonishingly bad at recognizing when someone else has romantic feelings for her– and at recognizing her own romantic feelings– and Bellamy is no different for her.  She’s actually very good at recognizing and acting on sexual desire, as we see with her relationship with Niylah, but when it’s something bigger, something that involves mushy feelings and butterflies, she just…ignores it.  She’s a champ at compartmentalizing her feelings, but she is especially focused on locking up feelings that edge towards romance as we saw with both Finn and L.exa.  

Bellamy, however, is just like “yeah I fell out of the In Love With Clarke tree and hit every goddamn branch on the way down ¯\_(ツ)_/¯.”

But now Clarke is starting to suspect that Bellamy is in love with her and I think her firm refusal to deal with that is both in character and an indication that she’s got some mushy, butterfly-adjacent feelings about him that she’s just not ready to sort out yet.  

medeah  asked:

Hi darling, waiting here impatiently for your thoughts on 12x12, don't you think Dean looked a little bit... wooden? Cas was melting in front of him, inevitably dying a horrible dead and he just... stood there, if you compare it with his reaction in 9x3 or how frantic he was because of Lily, it felt a little numb, indiferent, I would expected stronger emotions, he was paralyzed maybe?

Heya :D

I think he was really emotive, but it was in a very Dean way. I’m still reading @k-vichan‘s perfect pic spam post about the episode but they point out on the way Dean putting on a brave face when he gets to Cas’s side at first, and I think he was trying very had the whole time - all that talk about having worse, and telling Cas he won’t die, he will heal himself the slow way, nope, not happening, no dead Cas on my watch… He didn’t want to go to pieces all over Cas because that wouldn’t help and Dean is fairly good in a crisis. I’ve watched 7x10 recently, which starts with Dean driving and calling ahead to find a hospital, AND checking Bobby and trying to give Sam advice about how to treat the wound. He’s absolutely flipping out but Bobby is human and an obvious headshot basically has him already further along that Cas was until pretty much the black sludge barfing stage. He could still talk to them even while he was suffering horribly the rest of the time, and where there’s long slow suffering there’s hope that Cas is still alive and can be brought back from that. It’s afterwards when Cas is fine again that Dean looks him up and down and really looks like he might cry. Because he was running on a sort of emergency mode and ready to fight etc it’s only when the danger is past he can let go (and honestly he might make it all the way home and until he’s alone again to really let himself feel it… At least if I was writing a really canon compliant fic to fill that space I’d have it all hit Dean like that >.>)

Anyway, I think Dean has a pretty wide range for how he deals with Cas in trouble - when Cas is truly gone or going like in the start of season 7 Dean really breaks and gets emotional because Cas is already dead. In 11x18 for example he’s so emotional because Cas is alive and well and he just needs to be REACHED in order to save him, so the emotional plea IS the fight that Dean needs to have to get Cas back, not a side-effect of trying to do it… Idk, in the context here it seemed like it was an expected sort of reaction from Dean. k-vichan was comparing it to 2x21 where Dean is telling Sam he’s fine after he’s just been literally murdered because Dean’s trying to brave face his way through until he’s past the point he can deny it :P Which I think is a good comparison to use for HOW emotional Dean is :D

(I’m gonna reblog that in a sec but I’ve been reading it for like an hour :P)

anonymous asked:

Could you do Nicky and Erik for the ship post pretty please <3 <3 <3

u got it hot stuff let’s do this

SEND ME A SHIP AND I’LL TELL YOU…

who is more likely to hurt the other?

god they’re so wholesome but nicky can be a lil….. thoughtless? so like. he can talk about boys & good times at palmetto and erik might just. get bummed. alone in germany, you know? 

who is emotionally stronger?

i think erik is a gd rock tbh like he pulled nicky back from the brink and he’ll do it again

who is physically stronger?

Nicky’s so hot for men who can hold him up so tbh erik could toss nicky into the air and catch him np

who is more likely to break a bone? 

they’re both thrill seekers hey like they do the outdoor thing so either of them are pretty much equally likely to fall down a fuckin cliff or smth. Although nicky is SO hyper and he talks w his hands and his whole body so catch him walking backwards and gesticulating and falling into the ocean

who knows best what to say to upset the other? 

nicky has a moutH and he’ll definitely lash out and say dumb things he doesn’t mean (which he does in canon…. a lot) but he’s so kindhearted that I doubt he’d ever really TRY to upset someone??? anyway erik is so bad at even fazing nicky he ends up roasting himself instead

who is most likely to apologize first after an argument? 

this is tricky?? My instinct was Erik bc imagine nicky’s sad face. don’t want that. can’t do it. but also nicky is so grateful for erik and so absurdly in love w him and also just. a talker, so he might apologize first? idk they probably dramatically reunite in the rain and apologize to each other simultaneously

who treats who’s wounds more often? 

they’re always patching up each other’s scrapes and kissing things better they’re so obnoxious,, but also I feel like nicky has this sort of brotherly instinct that never finds an outlet with the twins so he channels it into his bf? like he just wants to take care of someone the right way for once

who is in constant need of comfort? 

tbh Nicky’s had a really. tough time. And erik eclipses the bad shit. Nicky has a lot of days where he hates himself because he wasn’t good enough for his parents or his cousins, he wasn’t good enough at exy or at being a friend. He feels like the weak link in a broken chain a lot

who gets more jealous? 

ERIK holy shit do you know how fuckin flirty nicky is?? like they’re pretty open and understanding but nicky will send pics of himself actively getting kissed on the cheek by some sloppy dude at eden’s twilight and 8000km away erik’s fist clenches

who’s most likely to walk out on the other? 

they’re forever babe, sorry

who will propose? 

erik definitely tries but who knows if he can get a word in edgewise I feel like erik would plan a proposal for a year and then nicky would blurt ‘marry me’ while they’re having sex and erik would have to pull out and have a crisis in the bathroom

who has the most difficult parents?

lmao lmao lmao lmao lmao lmao

who initiates hand-holding when they’re out in public? 

niiiicky because he’s clingy and he wants to show erik off tbh. erik is so game at all times to be held but Nicky does the reaching

who comes up for the other all the time? 

did u read the books 80% of nicky’s dialogue is ‘anyway my boyfriend erik…….’

who hogs the blankets? 

not to say nicky for everything but.. bitch…. it’s nicky. He’s cold all the time my guy he wants A) cuddles and B) 16 duvets and he will take both directly from erik’s flesh

who gets more sad? 

:( nicky probs, we don’t know like. a lot about erik?? but he seems so well adjusted w religion meeting sexuality meeting his inner peace or w/e, and his family sponsored lil american nicky so i think he’s good. But nicky has a lifetime of injustice baked right into him and he’s all skin deep sunshine but you’d be surprised how many bad days he has

who is better at cheering the other up? 

two way street honestly. Erik just holds nicky, and the problems can’t get to him, like. He just gathers him in and listens and it’s a lot like wringing water from a dish cloth tbh. But nicky is a song and dance routine waiting to happen so if erik’s sick or upset or struggling, nicky’s so there and he’s so sweetly engaged and good to you wtf. what a mom

who’s the one that playfully slaps the other all the time after they make silly jokes?

lmao finally this actually applies to a couple I bet you erik does a lot of eye-rolling at whatever nicky says but I also bet you that nicky will slap a boy if he makes a pun

who is more streetwise?

uhhhh gotta go nicky I think?? just bc he’s seen some shit. I think erik knows the ins and outs of german backstreets in a way nicky doesn’t but when it comes right down to it nicky is a fox ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

who is more wise?

I think erik is a machine and he knows all. of. his. shit!! I think nicky finds him super hot bc he’s smart and capable like that’s his number one kink 

who’s the shyest? 

erik holy shit he’s just a moderate english speaker with a big heart and fear in his eyes. Nicky is the loudest mouthed most excitable sweetie and erik is his balance. Like he’s calm and quiet but funny and they work

who boasts about the other more? 

again.. nicky spends the whole series sighing dreamily about erik, he ! loves ! him !

who sits on who’s lap?

tbh if erik’s lap is available and even sometimes when it isn’t nicky will be IN IT. he’ll move erik’s laptop and climb aboard son, if erik is standing and nicky wants to sit, surprise honey we’re both sitting now

Thoughts on Water Fasting

Okay, so I was just introduced today to a concept called “Water Fasting”. This is where you just drink lots of water and don’t eat for an extended period of time. Like as long as a month or even TWO MONTHS. I am not really an expert in medical knowledge, anatomy, or nutrition, but I’m pretty sure I can least several reasons why this is a bad solution for weight loss. However, if you do have any professional expertise in such an area, I absolutely encourage you to reblog this and leave your input along with your credentials potentially.

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Hheyyy….so……yeah I kinda disappeared for 2 months haha. And I’m posting this summary….the 21st ahh..:’’) but it was important for me to post it.

This is my 200th post, and this blog is now a little bit more than 2 years old, and you’re now more than 5000 to follow it…..!!!!??(..SINCE…WHEN?????)(….I’m..sweating.sm)

I’m not very good with words, but. I just wanted to say thank you, for being so kind to me, for your silent support, or just for taking a look at my drawings..!!

((more nervous-talking + ANSWERING ASKS UNDER THE CUT !!))

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@illgiveyouahint replied to your post “.”

I totally understand where you’re coming from. I was also for Sana not having a love interest. But I think them giving Sana interest is sort of a way how to bring the non-muslim fans to care about this season because let’s be real Love sells. I think that now that people are starting to care about Yousef/Sana Julie can create conflict and drop islam on the fans heads because now they will listen.Because now they are invested and now they care. Anyway that’s my take on it

maybe. i mean, you can’t deny that … it’s true: love/sex sells, in media. but like, idk? do you always /need/ to have “romance” in everything, for it to …. mean something big/great/significant? like …. i know people are gonna say “your teenage years are where you have relationships and hook up with people!!!!”, but … that’s not the case for everyone. not everyone /hooks up/ and /gets involved in relationships/. some people don’t want that? some people are okay without it. i’m not saying “don’t show sana lusting”, like, lust is something that people feel, and so, yeah, have her check boys out, she’s human. but … needing this element of “romance” is just …. is it necessary? is it really really really badly necessary? can her story not be told without it? 

but you know, now we have it. and, its playing a huge arc this season. a huge arc. and … like, personally, this is just me saying it from my perspective, but i really don’t … feel much towards it? because i’m a lot more interested in the other stuff. sana praying her salah, the adhaan sounding on the bus, the struggle sana had to keep her focus in her salah, that’s what i’m interested in. those are equally important muslim struggles too, and so, i find myself caring more about that side of things, about that side of islam .. you know, the mundane, everyday, little stuff that we do, that we get judged on, that’s the stuff i’m more interested in. seeing that makes me more happier. 

but that’s just my own personal “preference”, i guess?

anonymous asked:

I feel like YanDev is making the main characters way too 2D (Kizana and Ayano are great examples). If he wants to make the player relate and sympathize with the characters, he needs to add background and reasoning to their personalities. Ayano is probably the worst character because she's just so boring. Sociopaths can be formed by environment, so why not use that for some sort of grounding? Idk. I just feel like they're too 2D to be main characters.

My thoughts exactly… it’s made worse by the fact YanSim is suppose to have a deep story. But you can’t have a complex story without complex characters.

Originally posted by majinkura

“Kurt, You can’t just Bamf into my room randomly! What if i was changing!” You cross your arms in frustration. Lately, Your boyfriend had been coming into your dorm at random times. Of course you loved him and liked him visiting you, But at least he could have warned you of some sort.

“I just vant to see you.” Kurt looked confused.

“Then just knock! Please..”

“Okay… I’m sorry for bamvfing.” He pouted, Hugging you tightly. You couldn’t hold a grudge about Kurt. He was just to damn adorable. 

“No need to be, My blue cinnamon roll.”

derpydoodlez  asked:

Ever considered giving TerrorOhm a chance? (Regarding your lack of Brian ships)

I have a lack of Ohm ships too, so that’s probably not something I’d be into, I’m afraid :(

Tbh I have a hard time shipping people that don’t interact often? Idk maybe Ohm and Brian have cute interactions that I’ve completely missed somewhere along the way, but in general, I tend to need some sort of canonical evidence that the ship could work before I ship it? There’s absolutely nothing wrong with shipping characters that don’t interact much or have never interacted, I’m just not a fan of those pairings personally (I mean I’ve def had ships like that before, but they’re very few in number because I typically have a hard time shipping that type of pairings if that makes sense). I don’t ship Moo/Ohm either for the same reason, even though I love Brock ships. 

That said, even when I do have evidence, sometimes the ship doesn’t click for me? Idk, maybe I’m just fickle :P But yeah, I don’t think that’s something I’d be into, sorry pal <3

okay…some things.

i don’t have much to complain about in regards to the first two episodes largely because i couldn’t figure out what the fuck was going on, but i trust david lynch and mark frost enough to wait this shitstorm out and see where it takes us. the three major complaints i have come away with are:

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