idk i like this sort of kind of a lot

Me: And it’s just..idk. I feel like a lot of people see that Junhui can be witty or they see that he fits a lot of beauty standards and they just sort of forget that he’s an extremely kind and thoughtful guy, y’know? A lot of people recognize how mischievous he is but I feel like not a lot of people give him credit for also being a really soft and genuine man who cares about everybody - not just his friends.

The cashier at the Supermarket who only asked me if I wanted a bag or not: ?????? Who’s Junhui?????

anonymous asked:

what do you love the most about vauseman as a couple?

well god where do I even start.

I guess, thinking about it, one of my favorite things about them is that they’re really messy? they’re just… flawed… & I really like that a lot? like both as individual characters & as a couple. I like that they started in one place & ended up somewhere so different. I like that their love has been presented as both selfish & selfless. I like that it’s been presented through this threading of interwoven intense love & intense hatred. I like that… they’re allowed to be shown in a way that can come off as toxic at first glance but is actually fueled by something so much deeper when you strip all the petty shallow layers away?

I think honestly one of the reasons they’ve kept my attention so long is the journey their relationship & character arcs have gone on? I like that they started out as like… these two stupid kids. I love cocky Alex who thought she was untouchable, & I love naive Piper who just couldn’t see the danger in their world because she was so blinded by Alex. & I love that their relationship imploded because of that. I love that they honestly kind of HAD to separate from each other in order to be able to become people who could be together. & I love that they were always at the back of each other’s minds as they were becoming these new people. like, despite the fact that the breakup was messy & they both sort of acknowledged they’d never really see each other again, they also never really… let go of it? I love that they never falter on the fact that they’re the love of each other’s lives. I love that Alex can sit in a bar how many years later & still confess to loving Piper, & I love that Piper can sit in a courtroom how many years later & still acknowledge Alex as the love of her life. & I love the people they became BECAUSE of all this.

I just like that they’ve come so far? I like getting to see so many different sides of them. again both as a couple & as individual characters. & while I was definitely more into their darker shit in the first few seasons than I am into their domestic fluff in these later seasons, I do still love the domestic shit, even if it’s not as interesting to me. I’m like… beyond thrilled about the marriage proposal. I’ve always sort of gone back & forth on if they’d ever go there, but I definitely never thought it’d be something we’d actually get to see on the show. I just. I love how much their relationship has evolved while all (or mostly. because. season three.) feeling so… natural? & like… good. I love that they can present the relationship to us one way one season & then completely flip in on it’s head in the next, or completely swap Piper & Alex’s roles in it around in the next. idk. I just think it’s really well written. it’s not the sort of relationship you get to see a lot on tv, & it’s ESPECIALLY not the kind of relationship (or characterization) you get to see between women on tv. like say what you will about orange, or vauseman, or piper & alex individually, but we are so lucky to have female wlw characters like them. THAT’S what I like about them. they’re imperfect. & they’re a mess. & it’s something that’s so rare to see in this capacity. & I’m just so grateful for & enamored by it??

anonymous asked:

Did you see how Phil turned into a mess when someone asked about his "bedroom" being small? He's so bad at lying

Phil tries but he is an awful liar I was cackling during his “my bedroom is smaller because…” bit. We know you and dan share the bedroom you actually spend time in mate. It’s okay.

my reactions were 1. i can’t believe someone would even send a message or type into the chat that his bedroom looks so small bc that’s kind of a barbed remark w an obvious ulterior motive 2. i can’t believe phil actually answered that, it is SUCH a weird thing for him to want to address bc he’s very much about disregarding questions or messages that even tangentially touch on their personal lives so it felt like kind of a big deal that he saw that message and decided to actually answer it idk 3. ya he was a bit stutter-y in his answer and i like that he sort of emphasized that he doesn’t use his room for much other than sleeping. it was an interesting explanation in the sense of it feeling like the bare minimum that he needed to say in order to keep up the facade of the room while still drawing more focus to the fact that he spends most of his time in the lounge and “hanging out”–it reminds me a lot of the australia ditl when they go out of their way to show separate rooms but in practice all of their time in the video is spent together and we see phil staying in dan’s room late into the night. jst their whole approach to the beds/bedroom situation has always been interesting and a bit complex but it’s fascinating that there’s a bit of a pattern that it follows. maybe i’m reaching (and i certainly want to think about it more) but those were my thoughts in the moment

Not to be weird about Dean, just I’m sure there’s probably enough close readings of Mystery Spot focused on Sam, but god I love watching this episode from Dean’s POV/enjoying watching the snippets of Dean on a regular fun hunt between things, trying to enjoy himself and live in the moment… Especially the first day before Sam realises anything is wrong, but every time he comes to it fresh, really, deliberately playing up his lack of development over this time while Sam goes through months of refined torture.

Season 3 is all stretched out to fill a year in 16 episodes and 3x09 and 3x10 were all about traumatising Dean about becoming a demon. Cut to him all peppy and hyperactive and just *living* and enjoying himself, trying the special in a diner when he doesn’t know what it is (even though Sam rolls his eyes about that), and enjoying teasing Sam, the music on the radio… Just taking things as they come and having fun with it. Having an episode where Dean is peppy deliberately in contrast to Sam having the worst day of his life over and over, just is really fun and kind of a treat tbh. I like this sort of Dean who’s cheerful and hyperactive and interested in everything, and going out of his way to be a pain in Sam’s butt because it amuses him and…

idk, normally they start taking the case seriously once they know it’s real, even if there was resistance to start with. Something like Plucky’s (another ostensibly Sam-centric episode) has a great Dean because he gets to kick back and tease Sam right the way through the episode. It’s not a formula we get a lot of, so I really appreciate these glimpses of how Dean makes some fun out of their job, and things like the morning routine in this episode really show how Dean acts when he gets out of the right side of the bed on the morning for once… I mean he’s almost certainly playing this up in the face of great pain, but one of my core readings of Dean is that he usually lives deeply in the moment, and so season 3 & 7 having these examples of such fun Dean moments makes a lot of sense to me, because he’s in so much anguish all these seasons…

Small doodle I made whilst listening to the TAZ Finale!

Kind of maybe part of a vague fairy tale AU I have going on, but I mostly wanted to mess around with tonality and PS brushes and stuff. So here. 

Kara is a Lesbian: an analysis by tumblr user aimee the-damnvers-sisters:

Ok so season 1 right we open with Kara being Very Bad at dating, insisting (too adamantly) that she’s not gay then turning around and using coming out metaphors. She definitely has a crush on Cat but not one she expects anything to happen, just one of those “Wow I really Admire her for some reason…” kinds of crushes.

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anonymous asked:

Thoughts on Louis sitting on a roof wearing a tracksuit? Thoughts? Feelings? Shouty words?

WHAT IF HE’S IN AN AU WHERE HE’S ALL MIXED UP AND IN LOVE WITH A DUDE WHO DOESN’T LOVE HIM BACK AND HE CAN’T FIX THE SITUATION AND HE ENDS UP SITTING ON A ROOF IN A TRACKSUIT FEELING SAD 

AND THEN NICK WANDERS AIMLESSLY BY CARRYING A CO-OP CARRIER BAG AND A CARTON OF RIBENA, AND SORT OF STOPS AND LOOKS UP AND SAYS, “DID YOU MEAN TO GET TRAPPED ON A ROOF?”

“I’M NOT TRAPPED,” LOUIS SAYS, EVEN THOUGH HE IS A LITTLE BIT TRAPPED AND GETTING DOWN WAS BECOMING SOMETHING HE’D QUITE LIKE TO DO. 

“OKAY,” NICK SAYS, WHO WAS THREE YEARS ABOVE LOUIS AT SCHOOL AND LOUIS ONCE GOT IN AN ARGUMENT WITH WHEN LOUIS WAS IN YEAR ELEVEN AND IN THE SCHOOL PLAY AND NICK WAS JUST MESSING AROUND AND NOT PUTTING ANY EFFORT INTO BEING IN GREASE. “SEE YOU, THEN.”

AND THEN LOUIS HAS TO, IDK, SORT OF YELL AFTER HIM AND ASK IF NICK HAD A LADDER

OR, LIKE, A STOOL OR SOMETHING

NICK LIVES A FEW HOUSES DOWN AND HE COMES BACK WITH A STEPLADDER, “MIGHT BE A BIT SHIT, MY DAD GAVE IT TO ME SO I COULD CHANGE LIGHT BULBS BUT I MIGHT FALL OFF IT SO I’M JUST KIND OF SITTING IN THE DARK UNTIL THE LIGHTBULBS CHANGE THEMSELVES.”

AND LOUIS CLIMBS DOWN AND ROLLS HIS EYES A LOT AND THEN DOESN’T SAY THANK YOU AND NICK TAKES HIS STEPLADDER HOME AND HIS CO-OP BAG AND EATS CHEESE ON TOAST IN FRONT OF THE TELLY.

THEN THE NEXT DAY LOUIS SHOWS UP AT HIS DOOR IN YET ANOTHER TRACKSUIT BUT WITH A FOUR PACK OF STELLA, AND SAYS, “THANK YOU FOR LENDING ME A STEPLADDER EVEN THOUGH I WAS TOTALLY FINE AND DIDN’T NEED RESCUING EVEN A LITTLE BIT” (LIE) “BUT I THOUGHT YOU MIGHT LIKE A BEER ANYWAY.”

THEN LOUIS COMES IN AND THEY WATCH MASTERCHEF AND LOUIS SCOFFS AT EVERYTHING AND NICK GIVES HIM A PIECE OF CHEESE ON TOAST AND THEN LATER ON THEY WALK TO THE KEBAB SHOP FOR CHIPS AND GRAVY, AND THEY WALK BACK AND EAT THEIR CHIPS ON A BENCH BY THE CANAL, AND NICK SAYS, “YOU GOING TO TELL ME WHY YOU GOT YOURSELF STUCK ON A ROOF?”

AND LOUIS SHRUGS AND EATS SOME OF NICK’S CHIPS AND SAYS, “MIGHT HAVE FANCIED THIS LAD WHO DIDN’T FANCY ME BACK,” WHICH IS APPROXIMATELY 7.5% OF THE STORY, AND WHICH NICK KNOWS IS 7.5% OF THE STORY, BUT NICK DOESN’T PUSH, AND LOUIS STEALS MORE CHIPS, AND NICK LETS HIM. 

FOR NICK’S BIRTHDAY, LOUIS BUYS HIM A TRACKSUIT OF HIS OWN AND THEY SIT IN NICK’S LIVING ROOM (ALL LIT UP NOW, BECAUSE LOUIS LIKES THE ADRENALINE RUSH OF A STEPLADDER THAT MIGHT BREAK AT ANY MOMENT), AND NICK LOOKS ONE WAY AND LOUIS LOOKS THE OTHER, THEN LOUIS SORT OF REACHES FOR NICK’S HAND AND NICK SORT OF REACHES FOR LOUIS’S, AND THEY BOTH CONTINUE TO LOOK THE OTHER WAY, AND NICK ASKS IF LOUIS IS GOING TO NEED RESCUING FROM ANY ROOFTOPS ANYTIME SOON. 

LOUIS SAYS CAREFULLY, “DON’T THINK SO, DO YOU?”

AND NICK SAYS CAREFULLY, “NO, DON’T THINK SO EITHER.” AND THEY GO TO THE CHIP SHOP TO GET CHIPS AND COME BACK TO NICK’S AND THERE’S SOME KISSING, BUT THEY TAKE THEIR TRACKSUITS OFF ONCE THEY GET INTO NICK’S BEDROOM.

THE CHIPS GET A BIT COLD BUT THEY EAT THEM ANYWAY, AFTERWARDS. 

anonymous asked:

One time in French, we were playing the board slap game, where there's a bunch of words written on the board and you have to touch the right one first, and if I'm being honest, it gets brutal. So my French teacher had two yard sticks and told us to go nuts, and we did, except one dude went a little too nuts and shattered it. The whole class froze, and the teacher just looked blankly for a second before saying "half points. You owe me a meter stick."

Idk about you, but I kind of have some sort of minor trauma from meter sticks. In fifth grade our teacher was really fun, there was a lot of hands on things. The one thing I didn’t particularly enjoy was when we did the unit on child labor in the great depression. 

To simulate the stress of factory work, he turned on an excessively loud mechanical audio track (like whistles blowing and metal clanking and loud bangs).On top of that, we had to draw these clocks. Idfk about clocks, we just had to draw them really well very quickly and none of us could. To top it off, he and the student teacher had meter sticks in both hands, slamming on the desks and yelling “FASTER!! THAT LOOKS TERRIBLE! NO DINNER!”

One of the sticks shattered because he hit it on my desk so hard and I was like ten and I freaked out and now I just lose my shit when people start beating things with meter sticks. sorry for the long post

anonymous asked:

Tell us...what's the petty thing for your painting

Oh ahaha it’s so stupid but it deals with my birthday and the chinese calender.
When i was super little i was told that my chinese calender year’s animal or whatever was the golden dragon (i was born in January 2000) and that was really important to me for some reason? I tended to use it as a base for developing who i was (subconsciously of course lol i was hardly aware i was doing that at the time) so i identified really really strongly with it and it became a quiet yet LARGE part of who i was (and am still lol)
Basically though around last year or maybe two years ago i found out that i wasn’t a golden dragon! I was born too early in the year so according to the calender i’ve been a rabbit this entire time!!!
I brushed it off but internally it was a tremendous shake to who i thought i was! I felt like a lot of my life had been a lie (obviously it isnt even close to that level of severity but i tend to dramatize things a LOT especially internal things lmfao) Eventually i realized like.. it doesn’t really mean anything but i am still slightly shaken by it LMFAO.
basically the painting is a representation of like “Um this isn’t me i’m still this thing i’ve deeply identified with and ingrained into my personality for all of my life” It’s stupid but i thought it would be fun to paint lol.
Also the sun in the background is supposed to allude to an event that occurred on my birthday in 2014. There was some sort of like.. idk some kind of fire or forest fire or something (it was really rwally large but thankfully i was at a safe distance from it) and there was an enormous trail of smoke that went across the sky (not covering it but still thick.) It covered the sun and gave the illusion that the sun was red!! I don’t know the science behind it but it struck me as being so funny (not in a “haha” way but like a “Huh i wonder why this happened on my birthday of all days” sort of way). Of course i fully understand it was a coincidence but i still feel it’s special in its own weird way.
BUT YEAH that’s the meaning behind it LOL

i hate that like…… a lot of people say they ship hu//nay as a kind of like….. placeholder for hunk idk?????? but dont actually have any real sort of feelings for it??? i hate that??? bc it makes me, someone who actually really ships and likes hu//nay, feel like everyone else thinks i’m just shipping it as a placeholder ship for hunk too but like no i genuinely love this ship and i love shay and their interactions and i love it so much WHY ARE Y’ALL SO FAKE

anonymous asked:

I wanna know what your other favorite Alec thing in this ep was! Mine were the scenes with Luke. I was hoping for more of them since season 1. And I also loved that Alec clearly threw Sebastian off when he let Luke go.

oooh i loved those too! all the luke stuff in 2x14 was so, so good and i really hope we see more of them working together, and alec slowly gaining luke’s trust and respect, and exploring more of luke’s relationship with the shadowhunters/the clave, since i think he of all the downworlders has the most interesting one being that he was a shadowhunter once himself. 

that being said, though, my actual other favourite alec thing (i mean it was a solid alec episode so there’s so much to choose from) was this 

(sorry he only says it once lol but i had to split up an old gif since it was over 2mb)

alec’s relationship to the lightwood name is honestly a subject of endless interest to me, ever since season one and i’ve been so hoping we get to see that aspect of his identity more and see that idea of the ‘lightwood name’ in alec’s view change and develop as he is, so idk i guess that’s why i liked this little moment so much? 

like my favourite thing is that little smile and moment that he looks down right after maryse says “the last thing we want is to tarnish the lightwood name” like it’s such a subtle little thing, but i feel like it says so much about alec and his growth, that last season he was willing to marry someone he could never love just so the lightwood name would maintain its honour – and after he found out that his parents were in the circle, you could feel the anger from him, when lydia told him, when he told jace and izzy, when he confronted robert in 1x08-1x09. because his parents had forced this family honour down his throat and made him give up so much for it, only to have the whole idea of it turned upside down by the fact that maryse and robert had been in the circle and nothing was what it seemed. 

so that little moment, that little smile, to me (okay i might be reading too much into it but honestly at this point what else is new) shows a moment of reflection for all of that, when maryse talks about the lightwood name, how much the idea of that name and that family honour had been forcing him into being someone he could never be, that impossible standard he had always been made to try and live up to by his parents, and everything that it used to mean to him, and everything that to some degree it still means to him. like, he’s smiling but it’s not a completely happy smile, it’s almost thoughtful, and you see him kind of look away from maryse and then look down, like he’s remembering something almost, remembering everything that he has gone through to “not tarnish the lightwood name” and where it got him (nowhere). like, i kind of just want to see more of this, the struggle of figuring out what that lightwood name means to him now compared to before, so i feel like im clinging onto this as hope that we might. 

now im pretty sure he meant robert and maryse being in the circle as the thing that is “a lot worse” (but it might be a reference to himself and magnus and maybe the wedding thing? it could be both i guess but idk i think it’s more the other one ). i liked how they both sort of laughed at that, the seemingly comedic but really sort of tragic admission that after all of their rigour and everything they both did (and robert and isabelle too), that they couldn’t fix everything – that maryse couldn’t make up for the mistakes of her and her husband by forcing her children to be perfect and carry the name forward, and that alec couldn’t indefinitely deny himself happiness and repress everything about himself in order to maintain their name and honour, because neither of those things worked (more the opposite) actually. so i liked that moment of i guess introspection or understanding that alec and maryse shared there?

and of course alec’s anger at the whole circle thing cooling into this level-headed, almost thoughtful reflection on what the name has gone through because of it was really interesting to me as well. because his anger i think to some degree came from the unfairness of having to give up so much to make up for the sins of the father, being held to a standard they couldn’t hold themselves – and now that he’s coming away from that slowly and becoming open with himself and letting himself be happy, his relationship and response to the lightwood name and everything it’s been through changes as well.so the “it’s been through worse” kind of reflects a shift in the way he relates to his own family name and honour – not something fixed that he has to bear the weight of on his shoulders, but something in flux, something he can mold and change to himself and his own values. so i guess i’m just really interested to see if they explore more about that, and how alec’s identity relates to this almost mythical idea of “the lightwood name” and the family honour as his character grows and develops more. so yeah it’s like 1:30 am i hope this is making sense as my eyes are literally closing right now lmao

anonymous asked:

reading back that old vday post made me realize you've moved really far away from writing more analytical meta about dnp's personality and you now more often just react to their content and things they do on a superficial level. was this a conscious choice? i kind of miss the way you used to write about them and i didn't even realize it

uhhhhh wow hahaha, yes and no i guess. i went through a pretty serious bout of internal angst with the way i was getting lost in this kind of ‘analysis’ of their personalities and personas and approach to video-making and approach to closeting etc. etc. etc. to put it simply i kind of had a minor freakout that people were trusting my opinions on any level. i mean, i obviously think that my opinions are right bc ,, they are my opinions lmao, but i felt some fundamental qualms about being treated as some sort of voice that knows anything w any degree of certainty about what dnp do? and there were days where i would write these long ass posts and then look at them the next day and be like ,, gurl wyd? why are you spending so much time thinking about this and putting it out in this fashion like you’re some kind of authority? idk. at some point people were rly just taking these opinions as fact, or at least thats the vibe i got from my messages, and my follower count grew a lot, and it just seemed less and less like i was writing those posts to organize my own thoughts on what i could take away from any given live show, and rather i was writing them for an audience that was then forming their own opinions on dnp using my words. and im not inherently opposed to that happening, i just stopped wanting to spend all of the time and effort necessary to make sure that every single post i wrote was sufficiently nuanced and respectful and qualified in its conclusions and i found it was much easier, much less time-consuming, and much less stressful to react, uh, to use your word, ‘superficially’ to the stuff they made and did. i mean, imo, i still post a good deal of shit on here that goes beyond surface level reacting to things, just bc my brain works better when im rambling at extreme length about every mundane detail of their lives, but i do agree that the volume of rly lengthy actual analysis, especially about their videos and live shows, has decreased significantly. i’m sorry you miss it!!!!!! i hope this explanation makes a little bit of sense tho. it’s just more fun and way less pressure for me this way, with mostly shorter reactions and answers, the bulletpoints of fav moments or timestamps from videos and live shows, mixed in with long posts every now and then, and the freedom to play around with other types of writing like the ficlets or w/e else. idk!! sorry i didnt mean to go on about this forever but honestly this message caught me off guard and it ended up being kind of nice to reflect on what this blog is and how it’s evolved in the last several months. hope youre good <3333 thanks for reading what i write!!

anonymous asked:

Maybe an unpopular opinion but!!! I don't like their merch written in Japanese. It just feels wrong to me, personally, to buy them bc somehow it feels culturally inappropriate. And i know i shouldn't complain blablabla and I'm not buying that kind of merch from them, but that sucks bc i actually want their merch

i know there are a lot of ppl not that happy with the merch like that and idk my opinion really i just feel bad for the ppl that want merch. it sorta does seem more than a little weird that they continue to make merch based on a country neither of them are from/have only visited once/just admire a lot. just seems pretty .. unoriginal and as you said culturally inappropriate. it’s sort of like trying for a vaporwave aesthetic but only using japanese culture for it? and there still isn’t merch i would fully buy with my own money (sarah got me the hat) and that sucks. i feel like it would just be cool to have some like .. v lowkey and aesthetically pleasing merch like nathan’s or something but they have yet to deliver. i know they work pretty hard on the merch tho it’s just not everyone’s, including my, favorite. 

anonymous asked:

So did either of you acknowledge that you gave her another origami flower? I'm dying at all this cuteness

fkadlfjad;lfkj ok here’s the rest of the story

so. i left the thing on her laptop and then i ran away went to eat lunch, so i didn’t get a chance to stick around and see how she reacted when she first saw it. but then later on my supervisor stopped me and was like “wow i saw the thing!!!” bc apparently flower girl was showing the thing to other people and telling them i made it for her (even though i didn’t like… leave a note or talk to her or anything, she knew)

and then she finished for the day and was doing some grocery shopping before she went home. i was bagging at the time so i was like “oh i hope she comes through my line this is good i can smile at her but i don’t really have to make a lot of conversation bc she’ll probably be talking to the cashier mostly,” but guess what!!!! as fate would have it, right before she was about to check out it was getting kind of busy so i was told to go open another register, and just as i was getting set up she was literally right in front of my aisle with her basket and was like heeeeyyy!!!

so obvs she came through my line, and immediately she was so excited about the thing i made her and she was talking about how my sup wanted one but then “i told her she’d have to advocate for herself & ask you to make her her own because i’m sure as hell not giving up mine!!” (i KNOW!!!!) and she actually had it in her hand and was taking it home with her. and then we just talked about food and stuff (lmao i work in a grocery store, all we ever talk about is food) and anyways i was Normal and not awkward and we smiled at each other a lot and there was a lot of eye contact and it was nice.

and i think—i THINK—she knows that i like her, like she MUST right??? i am the least subtle person when it comes to gay thirst, it’s a problem. i mean i guess all of this could sort of be construed as platonic… just like… a gal… making paper roses for a pal…… but idk there was a lot of eye contact going on as i was checking her out (heh) & i’m really maybe trying to Go For It (in like… an 8th grade flirting kind of way). plus my instagram is literally just portraits of fictional lesbians & i have rainbows coming out of my ass so she must at least know that i’m gay.

i mean the straight people i work with literally see the rainbow sticker on my water bottle and the rainbow pins on my backpack and my converses w the rainbow soles and still have NO CLUE and don’t realize i’m not straight (???? how???? i guess it just never occurs to them because?? heteronormativity??? they’re literally like “omg your shoes are cute i want to get a pair” and every time i want to be like nnNNO. these are not!! for!! you!!!). but anyways flower girl is def not straight and she also has rainbows coming out of her ass so i’m sure if i clocked her she must have clocked me right???

oh OH also back to storytime. my friend told me that apparently as i was going out to get carts (this was right after i came back from lunch so she already had the flower i made her but we hadn’t acknowledged it yet) flower girl looked up from her work (she’s very focused when she works it’s cute) and turned her head to watch me walk out the door so………… idk what that means. i mean i’m literally always watching her walk away, apparently it’s getting really obvious and people make fun of me for it all the time. but yeah she watched me walk away. SO. there’s that.

anyways we’re both working again tomorrow, she’s opening and i’m not scheduled until 11 but i think i might come in a few hours earlier and just set up shop with my laptop and try to make some progress on some artwork or something. i mean i definitely have to come in earlier anyways bc i still can’t drive myself and 11am is an inconvenient time for other people who don’t work random hours. but i might come in extra early like at 8 or something so i can just… sit at a table facing the flower booth and pretend to Do Stuff but actually just watch her work for 3 hours lmao i’m a MESS

end of hiatus

ayyyyyyy!! hi y’all!! that hiatus turned out to be a loooot longer than expected. so much has changed in my life since then – i’m in university now! i never thought that would EVER happen after my anxiety and depression screwed up my high school years and prevented me from graduating. i’ve been in a massive slump for 4 years now, but finally i’ve lifted myself out of it through diligent therapy, meds, and support from my friends and family. i feel so alive now, when only a year ago i wanted the complete opposite of that…

this is a lot more sappy and depressing than i wanted it to be haha, especially since i don’t usually speak about my shitty personal life. but yeah! i’m kind of back now??? sort of??? i finally bought a proper gaming pc so i’ve been playing games like overwatch and civ 6 this entire time, but i’m slowly but surely getting back into ts4. i have a couple of asks in my inbox that i’ll try and get to, but i just wanted to stop by and idk… say hello?? and thank you all for the massive support while i was gone! i have 3.5k followers now which is a lil insane lmao

i’ve been playing around ingame a bit – and by ingame i mean cas and build/buy of course LMAO. i haven’t gotten a chance to try out city living yet so i made a lil sim to do so. anyway, the point is i’ll be posting again soon! love you all, as always, and i hope 2017 will be a happy one for you as well!!  (*´꒳`*)

Omg you guys. Last night i found out that this good friend of mine ACTUALLY KNOWS AARON TVEIT. LIKE FOR REAL.

(We’ve know each other less than a year. And last night this brand new information just came out).

I’m at a beach house with some friends and this guy started singing Les Mis (OF COURSE) and i just turned my head and say: is that Les Mis? He goes: yeap. I love it. You know the movie? Me: of course.

Him: well, i actually know one of the actor? Aaron Tveit?

My head did a full 360. My heart skipped 3 beats. I didn’t even bother to hide my excitement. YOU KNOW AARON TVEIT?!?!?!?!?!?!?! LIKE I LOVE HIM. NO NO, YOU DONT UNDERSTAND. I LOOOOOOOOOOOVE HIM.

He’s like: yeap. When i was in high school i was an exchanged student at his old high school (my friend is probably like 8-10 years younger than Aaron).

Well, my friend joined the school theater program and was cast as the lead in their production of The Fiddler on the roof. He was Tevye. Well, my friend and his (and Aaron’s former) theater teacher/director (Mr. Bennet) became super close and the teacher took my friend to see CATCH ME IF YOU CAN.

They went to a show before it officially opened and then to another one after it opened. My friend was front row.

The professor introduced them and my friend says that IT IS TRUE. AARON IS INDEED ONE OF THE NICEST PEOPLE HE’S EVER MET. They talked a lot about broadway, the entertainment business, how hard is to be an actor.

My friend said HE IS GORGEOUS AND JUST A KIND KIND HUMAN BEING.

While my friend was still in NYC they kept in touch and my friend almost went to the Tonys with Mr Bennet. He then talked to Aaron about the awards and all.

LIKE OMG. OMG. OMG.

It took me all night to process this information. Still am processing.

Idk. I just wanted to share my (sort of) cute Aaron Tveit story. I still love him.

I made a thing! It’s based on this Chuck Taylor promo. Which is sort of idk oddly important to me. It pops into my head a lot when i feel like an embarrassing sadsack goof because it’s like ok maybe but i could be a TRIUMPHANT fuckin goof. I’ll come to the ring with a swamp monster, but I’ll leave with that swamp monster raising my hand. It’s kind of sloppy overall BUT I’m super proud of how the texture on the swamp monster turned out.

update:

Hey!!! I’m Cody, and I’m 16. I live in Pa, in the United States.

Hmm. Let’s see; interests? Well…

- Drawing. I love art and drawing, I’m always doing it

- Anime/Cartoons. Yeah, I’m a pretty big nerd for that sort of stuff. Right now I’d say I’m most into Steven Universe but I like a tonnnnn of others.

- Video games. Don’t even get me started tbh. I love all sorts of games. I play a lot of Overwatch and as of late ARMS so hmu if you wanna play.

- MUSIC. I love music so much. Honestly I appreciate all kinds of music but if you talk to me expect a lot of My Chemical Romance, Hawthorne Heights, Pierce the Veil, BMTH, and all that emo shit. I like the nu-age emo stuff like Melanie and top too, but not as much. I also enjoy punk and pop punk bunches.

“Perfect pen pal”. Idk man. Just someone to talk to, someone that’s fun and interesting. It’s cool to have the same interests but even without that just meeting new people and having conversations is fun. I can get along with almost anyone so don’t be afraid of saying smth.

Here’s some of my social media linkus:

email - heyitscyvonix @ gmail . com

Tumblr - hey-its-cyvonix

Skype - total_inv3rsi0n

Contact me on whatever ya see fit.

Oh yeah and I have a very ironic and sarcastic/cynical sense of humor. From experience I know that people with a more average sense of humor are often turned away from me for that reason and don’t really get it. That’s not to say I can’t have normal, serious discussions, but if that sorta stuff is a nono to you, then yeah. (Look out for rampant use of 80s slang and obscure film references with me) I’m also pretty awkward socially truth be told, so if it seems like I’m not responding appropriately or seem uninterested, I’m not, I’m just very bad at conversation. All-in-all I just want a cool internet friend who I can talk to whenever and maybe form a strong friendship with. Message me on whatever platform if you think we’d get along. Catch you later, dudes.

i love how magnus seemed almost…reluctant to tell alec that he couldnt do anything without thinking about him. like he was kind of like ‘i guess i cant do anything without thinking about you…so i mean i love you and..yeah’. i think it speaks to how new this sort of love is for him but also how hes been hurt in the past before and is unsure of baring his emotions. i dont know i just thought that little detail was so well acted and spoke a lot about magnus