idk i like that

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prince altean keith; pilot of the red lion

I’m pretty comfortable w my gender but sometimes I look at (admittedly good looking) guys and I just feel so…jealous? And not in a “it’s so much harder to be woman” way, though I experience that as well, but in a “I want to be him, I want to look like him and be perceived as him” way. I feel this strongly w fictional characters and random fit men on the street. Sometimes I see a guy and I think wow I’m attracted to him but then I realize that I’d actually prefer to be him rather than date him. Idk it’s hard to explain bc it’s not super often and I don’t know if I’m making up the feeling or what. It’s just confusing lol