idk i just want to edit

christ… this is just not what i wanted today…

some big time idk meme blogs or idk how to describe them but they’re reblogging one of my edits that i was pretty impressed with and they’re just commenting about the whole thing with mark and the la gan/gs thing and it’s like… not what i want on my stuff. like yeah i get it, its a joke and all that but like… fuck man, idk it just bothers me or whatever, idk. edit: its fine to talk about or whatever i don’t care i just don’t want that on my stuff please that’s all i ask.

one of the things that’s incredibly challenging for me personally about inktober is that my art is really inconsistent. So when it’s going well, or even just okay, it’s fine. but then i have a day (or several days) where’ i’m like “FUCK. all of this is utter crap” and the thought of posting it makes me want to die but i made a CommitmentTM  but i just want to crawl into a hole and never show anyone anything i’ve drawn ever again. 

idk what the takeaway is. art is hard? sometimes you draw stuff that’s a hot dumpsterfire of a mess the day after you draw something you’re really happy with? 

At this time last year I had no idea how to make a proper gif or even how to edit something…. and now I can do both.. and idk I’m kind of proud of myself? Like I’m not amazing at either, but I’ve definitely improved and will probably get to the mastery I want to be at one day.

But while I’m here blabbering, I just wanna take a second to thank everyone who’s following me. I never would have gotten to this point without you. Thank you 💖

listen.. going through amanda’s blogs ( @daisyridlay + @teardropsonmyguitar ) has made me love and respect content makers so much more bc wow?? like edits and graphics take a long time to do and content makers don’t do it because they have to but because they want to and it makes me so emo?? and they take time out of their day to provide really amazing content for the fandoms they’re in and they dont get enough credit. the likes to reblog ratio on some edits/graphics is so off that it should be a crime bc they contribute so much but get so little credit and on top of that some content creators have their work stolen from them and they worked their ass off on their content and/or they get unnecessary/rude comments made on the things they’ve made when they didn’t deserve it and im just?? so emo bc fandoms dont thank content creators enough for their hard work!! so, if any of you make gifs/graphics/edits just know that i love and appreciate your hard work a lot and your contribution to fandom doesn’t go unnoticed. the amount of notes you get doesn’t define you as a content creator and your work is valued a lot 💓💗💝💖

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🌟Ensemble Seijou🌟

(※ traced+edited from the official card)

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