Why was Zhan Zheng Xi so cold and distant to Jian Yi in the beginning of 19 Days?
AFTER ALL THESE YEARS I NEVER KNEW MOST OF 19 DAYS IS SET IN THE PAST WHEN THE BOYS WERE IN MIDDLE SCHOOL BEFORE JIAN YI DISAPPEARED FOR 3 OR SO YEARS ON THE SECOND DAY OF HIGH SCHOOL
AND YOU KNOW WHAT BREAKS MY HEART??!!!?!??! I was so freaking confused why in the first 54 chapters, Xi was so violent to Jian Yi and I only realized TODAY that this is because after all the days they spent as best friends, AFTER ALL THE RELATIONSHIP DEVELOPMENT,
After going through ups and downs that threatened their friendship and surviving that,
External imageAnd Xi wanting to understand his best friend more and developing a more gentle side for Jian (his one true love he just hasnt realized it yet coz oblivious af),
External imageAfter all of Xi gradually being able to let his guard down, accept his feelings and have the courage to share them to Jian Yi,
External imageAfter all the times Jian and Xi spent building a relationship that was getting closer to something much more than friendship, JIAN YI’S DAD GETS HIM ALL KIDNAPPED AND SHIT ON THE SECOND DAY OF HIGH SCHOOL?!?!?!?!?!?!
JUST IMAGINE THE PAIN AND ANGUISH XI FELT HAVING LOST HIS BEST FRIEND!!! HIS ONE TRUE LOVE!!! Xi even thought he’d never see Jian again.BRUH WHEN JIAN WAS KIDNAPPED THE FIRST TIME AND WAS GONE FOR TWO DAYS, XI WAS A MESS ALREADY AND LOSES HIS SHIT WHEN HE GOT A TEXT FROM JIAN YI TO MEET UP!! THAT WAS 2 DAYS. WHAT ABOUT 3 OR SO YEARS?!!?!
Have you ever wondered why Xi is so violent and cold to Jian in the first chapters and the original one shot?
Look at the difference between middle school Xi taking care of drunk Jian
External imageand university Xi dealing with drunk Jian. Mind you in the timeline after his disappearance, Jian has been shown to be an alcholic despite not being able to hold his liquor (HINT: HE HAS SERIOUS PROBLEMS).
External imageWell that’s because after losing Jian Yi and thinking he’d never come back, do you think Xi is ready to just let Jian Yi in that easily again considering the pain and suffering he might go through if Jian Yi disappears again? No. It’s not going to be that easy. All that closeness and intimacy from middle school is switch with cold hard distance after Jian comes back.
Obviously Xi still loves Jian. I think that in times that Xi really needs comfort and affection, Xi won’t be able to resist. Why else would he keep letting Jian come over to his apartment all the time? But it’s difficult to return to how things were in the past.
Xi gets defensive through violence over the smallest things like casual flirting or a slight touch unlike back then where he’d only glare or simply tell Jian off when he gets all touchy. I mean Jian gets punched and sht too but its not as violent and cold rejection.
External imageJian must go through so much again trying to close that gap between their relationship but even he has his own secrets and problems that he’s not willing to share.This makes this scene:
External imageeven more devastating knowing shit will hit the fan in the future. Jian Yi did come back after 3 or so years, but it’s going to take a long time for Xi to forgive.
GOD I FEEL SO STUPID FOR NOT REALIZING THIS SOONER OMFG. I GENUINELY DID NOT MAKE THE CONNECTIONS OKAY. OMFG AND WHAT HAPPENED TO TIANSHAN IN THOSE FEW YEARS WHEN JIAN WAS GONE?? Are they the “everyone” Jian was referring to when he said “Getting together with everyone was so much fun.” in one of the first few chapters set after his disappearance? SO MANY QUESTIONS. SO MUCH PAIN.
EDIT: none of the images work and idk what to do. Help? Edit: they work now yay!