idk how i feel about making this though

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Leela, oh man I can't wait to read your response to this video, tbh while I was watching it, half of my brain was just thinking about how much I was looking forward to your reaction

this is so unbelievably sweet and i can’t believe that you look forward to hearing my thoughts so much!! i’m going to be completely dead honest with yall (when am i not tbh) … i was not one of the people who was super jazzed about the idea of a pastel edits video. i totally sided with dan in his past live show responses about the idea–that there’s no cohesive culture or stereotypical tropes around “pastel” that they could try to imitate, and also (though he didn’t say this) that it’s basically just a product of a sort of sexualized trope that tumblr seemed to make up out of thin air. i think i generally felt that at worst it would make them really uncomfortable, and at best it would just be a video of them putting on random pastel clothes and maybe wigs and making fun of the whole concept and that’s about it. so like. god damn, i was not prepared for how good this was nor the boundaries that it pushed, especially coupled with the tweet from dan preceding it. and even though there was still a lot of mockery and grumbling about it, especially from dan, i was not prepared for how much they would genuinely enjoy it and have fun with it. i think that’s just a testament to them and their connection/chemistry more than anything–it seems like there are very few scenarios and situations they get into together that they don’t end up completely loving and enjoying almost purely bc of how much they’re able to make each other laugh and bring each other joy. but also, in this case, bc they were so visibly enjoying the opportunity to touch and flirt and see each other wear a totally different look to their norm (and incidentally those exact things were what made punk edits irl such an incredible video too).

that being said, it wasn’t all just flirting and softness. there was some unexpected depth to this, or at least, a lot of room for me to speculate about what it might mean for them to be making a video like this, speculate about how they might feel about it, etc. and in order to do that i’m going to discuss a whole bunch of things that happened in the vid in three general categories: soft things, sarcastic things, and sexual things lol. one overarching observation to begin though: um. not to objectify but. phil is lookin damn fine. idk if his running/gyming are already having an impact but he somehow looked really well built in that t-shirt in a way i don’t think i’m used to seeing, so. ok. just had to get that out of the way.

1. soft things:

obvi, deeper analysis aside, there was a lot of genuinely sweet, wholesome, lovely shit happenin’ in this vid and it all had me close to tears. first of all. the brief and gut-wrenching return of the music from the blindfolded cat game vid and the dan and phil do poppen kookin vid, aka the softest videos known to mankind. thx phil. also interesting bc that means he def associates that music with softness and maybe he thinks about those videos as being soft and adorable and pure in the same way that we do. then,,,, phil going so high pitched when he talks about dans curls and saying that he’s ‘obsessed’ and dan getting all flustered when phil touches his hair and forgetting how to talk lol. “am i consenting you?” same. just generally, this was a video full of phil being rly into dans neck tattoo and dans curls and,,,, dan. just generally lmao. ik they lie all the time about preparing for videos and make it sound like phil does all the preparation even when dan has a hand in it, but in this case i really want to believe that phil actually went out (or online) shopping for dan and picked out that sweater and dungarees mostly bc he thought it’d be rly cute to see dan wearing them, which is why he also seemed to expend less effort on shopping for his own outfits. i loved his emphatically positive comments about the various elements of the get-up like when he was putting the tattoo on dan’s neck and told him that it would look amazing in such an earnest completely non-sarcastic way!!!! and a bit earlier when dan decided to also compliment phil out of nowhere, ALSO in such a genuine and emphatic and non-sarcastic way, regarding his “accurate cutting out” skills. the way that dan was instinctively so happy with phil’s arm tattoo and his first thought was to tell phil it matches his eyes before he naturally diluted it by slipping into a sarcastic tone of voice. and the way that he was so supportive of phil’s blue wig in a way that went beyond “u look good,” but rather was more along the lines of “u look good AND this fits with this deeper thing about you that i love so much and that shows how deeply i know you, namely the way that you want to make an impact when u enter a room” ahhhhhh goodness i think they both really found each other to be very pretty in these outfits, and doing a video like this is is as much a fun and exciting thing for them to experience as it is for us to watch.

one thing that really stood out to me was the moment when dan talks about feeling like he wants to do some ‘soft’ things after assuming this new persona and then he lists some examples of what those might be: writing a poem, cloud gazing, buying some sorbet, and then phil pitches in with surfing off the edge of a waterfall … which like,,, what? lmao. but the reason this moment hit me so hard is because it was the first point in watching the video that i realized that they were completely avoiding associating the concept of “pastel” with some more generalized concept of “femininity” and rather, just associating it with softness and aesthetic choices, both of which they proceeded to discuss throughout the video with absolutely no gender typecasting attached. so in this exchange, it really struck me that even when they were listing ‘soft activities’ they didn’t say anything about wanting to do activities that are stereotypically girly, nor did they shy away from talking about embracing things that could be perceived in that way like writing poetry or hugging unicorns or eating sorbet or whatever else. really the only mention of gender at all during the video was when phil talks about finding male underwear (on dan’s laptop btw, i just need to point that out) and even then they were just bemused at the idea that men would *want* to embrace the pastel but feel the need to hide it under their jeans lol. idk,, i’ve written about this before at great length (especially last year when dan bought the rhinestoned gatorland hat) but it’s just so lovely to see both of them progress to this point of total comfort with how they might be perceived and give absolutely no mind at all to any nasty stereotypes that people might launch at them for being two men in an extremely close relationship deciding to dress up in pink and touch each other and hold rainbow umbrellas and light up unicorns. like. the very THOUGHT of that happening a few years ago would be totally absurd especially with dan’s own seemingly internalized homophobia and both of their enforcement of gender binaries/heteronormativity. and yet, it’s a point that i will never stop making bc i can’t adequately express how happy it makes me: dan and phil have grown so much. we’ve watched them blossom into these self-assured people who are confident not only in themselves but in their relationship with each other, who are proud not only of themselves but of their relationship with each other, and who no longer feel such an innate need to hide.

2. sexual things:

in a similar vein, there was so much surprisingly overt sexual flirting and innuendo in this video that absolutely was not demanded by the situation at all. with last years halloween baking, one could make the argument that it’d be hard to mess about with melted chocolate and poke sticks into balls without making a lot of innuendos and giggling at them. but,,, there’s nothing in any way sexual about phil clipping on dan’s overalls for him….like. it was a completely innocent thing for phil to do. but dan decided to say “strapping me up on camera there’s a certain audience for this sort of video” while it was happening, as though *inviting* us to interpret this sexually, putting the thought into our heads on his own terms. the same applies to the tweet teasing the video. first of all he didn’t need to tweet at all but he did, to promo a video that wasn’t even on his own channel i want to point out. and if he wanted to promo it he could’ve just done a generic “just got done filming with phil” tweet or even a “wow just got done filming with phil and now we’re so messy” tweet but instead of leaving it there he took it to an explicitly sexual place of his own accord and, again, on his own terms. i can’t think of an explanation for this besides the notion that dan wants us to get used to thinking about them in sexual contexts, and he’s trying to push back a little on the strictly platonic and g-rated image they’ve built for themselves and their interactions. of course one could easily point out as a counter-argument that this isn’t the absolute first time they’ve made sexual comments about themselves. a good fairly recent example, but still pre-baking universe, was when they did the 3 legged ddr video on dapg and dan kept making comments about bondage and whatnot. but that still seems so different to me than many of the examples from this video for two reasons: first because, as mentioned before, the situation in the 3 legged ddr vid, in which they were literally taping themselves together, kind of demands innuendo in a more immediate way than like, strapping on overalls does. and, second, because the comments in that vid still seemed a tad uncomfortable, somewhat like dan envisioning the way that people would be screaming about these moments and sexualizing them anyway, and feeling forced to acknowledge the sexual overtones of the situation himself to get out in front of it. in this video, the difference is that dan truly and happily *went out of his way* to make these sexual and flirty comments, about the overalls, about tattooing phil’s penis or his ass, about phil biting him if he (dan) mentions cotton candy. and on and on. like,,,,, totally unnecessary, totally comments that dan made of his own volition bc he *wanted* to and *chose* to and that is so so important to me.

at the same time, phil, while less vocal in his flirting, broke the g-rated boundaries in his own ways, especially, and probs most memorably, by unzipping his trousers plainly in view of the camera and then plainly in view of dan. i was really shocked to see that and felt like i’d been totally transported back to 2008 lol. they’re both making these conscious decisions to unravel certain parts of this veneer they’ve had in place for so long and it’s something so exciting and monumental to me.

3. sarcastic comments:

as exciting as all of the above is, there hasn’t been a total transformation yet. there was still some visible discomfort with aspects of what they were doing, mostly on dan’s part, but a bit on phil’s as well, and to me it came out mostly in the form of super sarcastic comments sprinkled throughout the video. at 2:38 when dan says “it’s just like so pastel,” in the most mocking voice of all time. pretty much the whole time they are looking thru the example pics and trying not to make fun of the edits, but then basically openly shitting on the whole concept of aesthetic moodboards and whatnot. the “this is so stupid” comment that dan makes around that time. at 5:38 phil saying, “wow dan you look so soft.” this one is less clear but to me it definitely sounded sarcastic and mocky. at 6:59 the voice/face dan uses when he says “these soft knees. woowwwww.” at 9:07 when dan asks, “what is my life? why do i keep agreeing to these stupid videos? … do you deserve this?” and then at the end, phil saying “the things we do for you guys” and promoting dan’s channel, with dan quickly reassuring people his content is “not like this.” there are just these threads of self-consciousness and self-awareness that i don’t think they were fully able to shake, and an awareness specifically that this video seems/feels a lot like pandering, or at least specifically responding to something that was so vehemently requested by the audience and that they’re pretty clearly doing it just to “give the people what they want” (even though of course they ended up appearing to love it and have so much fun with it). this whole aspect of video-making for an audience is always going to be a tricky one for them, because they both pride themselves on originality and creativity and a so-called quality threshold and all that other bullshit, so choosing to make a video that is such a fervent fan request and that doesn’t involve the same creative energy that they’d normally want probably makes them somewhat uncomfortable (esp if that video is one where they have to literally dress up as a popular fan fantasy and touch each other a lot). that’s why it was so particularly interesting to me to hear phil say “well we’re on my channel there’s no integrity here,” because from *our* perspective it’s true that phil seems to care less about the quality threshold that dan talks about, and that he’s happy to put up fluff content (with dan) quite frequently whether it be a phil is not on fire or a day in the life or a baking vid or whatever else. phil’s clearly speaking in amusement and jest when he says his channel has no integrity but undelrying the humor is a clear separation they seem to see between the purpose of their channels and i was surprised to hear it reiterated so directly. this coupled with what we know about phil being more business-minded, having an on-camera presence that seems to be more different from his real self than dan’s, censoring himself, keeping his thoughts somewhat reserved, ,,, there are lots of connections here that i’m seeing but not finding the best words for in this moment. i think what i mean is that phil views his channel as entertainment in the most literal and fundamental way: the purpose is to please the audience, make them feel good and happy, and give them what they want to see. that process doesn’t necessarily require him to put a lot of himself out there. on the flip side dan sees his channel and his content as true artistic endeavors that are representative of who he is, his value as a creator and maybe even as a person since he connects so much of his self-assigned meaning of life to his career. all of this is shit we knew, but. i’ve never heard phil comment so glibly and cavalierly about that divide. the comment felt super important to me.

overall: there’s such a strongly purposive quality to everything dan and phil choose to do. even amongst all of the sensory onslaught of this video, the scenes of dan stroking phil’s arm and phil cooing over dan’s curls and both of them referencing sex and sexual situations so much, it’s this mindfulness, the transparently premeditated nature of it all, that hit me hardest and that i cannot stop thinking about. they’ve made so much progress in such a relatively short space, with their comfort levels and their confidence and their ability to disregard audience perceptions or, if they do regard it, to at least not let it dictate their behavior so damn much. ultimately with a video like this, when so much seems to have shifted, my mind always goes back to the frame-by-frame way in which videos are edited and the consequently frame-by-frame way that dnp watched this video back, looked at every joke they made, every touch they shared, and decided to leave things in as they were. decided to sit and maybe draft a tweet together that very consciously broke down their carefully constructed walls. it all is very deliberate and that matters. this video could definitely in my opinion be remembered as a turning point much like halloween baking if it is followed by more behavior that pushes boundaries, more conversation about defying gender roles and stereotypes, more sexual humor, etc. it was so exciting to watch and i’m so proud of them on so many levels.

(dan and phil pastel edits irl

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the holy uncle trinity of ijs men’s skaters

the signs according to ME, based on what I've absorbed from tumblr even though I don't pay attention to 75% of the zodiac and might not be able to even name them all from memory
  • aries: PISSED OFF ANGRY FILLED WITH RAGE AND ANGER AND IS ALSO MAD
  • taurus: the impression I get is they're similar to aries in that they’re angry and stubborn? but the difference is that while aries will clock you in the jaw, taurus will hold a grudge for the rest of your born days. your born days, not theirs, because they’re going to outlive you out of spite
  • gemini: is what I think comes next? anyway apparently geminis are very social and bubbly and they're people persons (people people?), but also they’re supposed to be all two-faced and gossipy, because twins. which is very mean to say about twins.
  • cancer: no offense to anyone who is a cancer, but my Least Favorite Human that I've ever met is a cancer, so my perception is tainted. cancers cry a lot. all the time. about everything.
  • leo: you know, I honestly don't know what is associated with leo, besides... lion. so therefore, leos are brave. you might belong in august, where dwell the brave of heart. their daring, nerve, and chivalry set leos apart. congrats you're gryffindor now
  • virgo: or is it libra comes first? I think it's virgo. um, anyway, virgo is my moon sign. I respect virgo. the general sense I get is that they're very... anal and particular and organized? their lists are color-coded and have subheadings?
  • libra: or possibly virgo, depending on whether or not I switched the order. BUT YEAH SO, LIBRA, SCALES. ALL ABOUT THAT FAIRNESS AND JUSTICE. common room is next to the kitchen.
  • scorpio: uuuuuuuGHHHHHHHHHHHH I'M SO FED UPPPPPPP I am a scorpio but I don't WANNA BE a scorpio I'm so TIRED of everything being nothing but femme fatale tropes and byronic hero nonsense I'M NOT MYSTERIOUS!!! are people even mysterious in real life? also please stop talking about how sexually charged and passionate I am. please don't do this. you're making this uncomfortable for everyone and I wanna exchange my sign for something else
  • sagittarius: the sense I get is that sagittarius is best personified by a weird kid at summer camp who hardcore believes in aliens and whose knees are full of band-aids
  • capricorn: does capricorn come next? I don't honestly even know. I don't know anything about capricorns. they're represented by a goat though, so that automatically makes them better than every other sign. A MERMAID GOAT, NO LESS. listen, idk what capricorns are like, but I'm trading my star sign. I WANNA BE A MERMAID GOAT. I WANNA BE A MERMAID GOAT MORE THAN ANYTHING.
  • aquarius: the only thing I know about aquarius is that song in Hair
  • pisces: fish. has lots of emotions, but is pretty chill and creative? bunks with sagittarius at summer camp, but personally prefers cryptids to aliens

I just feel like Lance is this type,

*get’s papercut* *complains about it ALL day long* *everyone is annoyed*

*is actually bleeding out* “haha, how many free stays in the pod before i have to pay rent?” *everyone is freaking out*


Like he’d joke about it to make it seem less serious because he’s scared and if he’s joking it’s fine. Litltle things he’ll complain about though, because there’s no real danger there

When you date Joshua

Words: 2314 lmao this is so long

Fluffy af i love this idea too much to not make it fluffy af, sorry y’all

Not requested

i just wanted to do something warm and fluffy~ i hope y’all enjoy this as much as i enjoyed writing it and tell me what you think about it! also JISOO IS SO SOFT IDK HOW TO FEEL ABOUT HIM AND HIS ADORABLENESS? YOU ARE RUINING ME AND MY BIAS LIST BOY, STAY IN YOUR LANE PLEASE

Originally posted by shua


”Good morning,” you greeted the staff that walked past you and they greeted you.

You worked at an entertainment company and did this and that. You liked your job at the music program the most, though. Especially when a certain group was promoting.

“Hello,” a few idols greeted you and you bowed to them politely and smiled a little.

You always got comments on your personality. You were pretty bright, at least according to your co-workers, and everyone said they enjoyed seeing you. Today you felt especially happy.

“Oh, hi _____,” a familiar face greeted you.

“Long time no see,” you smiled widely and he smiled too. It was Mingyu. Seventeen’s Mingyu to be more precise.

“Are the others in the waiting room?” you asked and he nodded.

“Everyone was pretty sleepy so I can’t promise you that they’ll be awake if you go there,” he said.

“It’s okay,” you said. “I’ll go check anyway.”

“See you later then,” he grinned and you both continued to your own ways.

You knocked on the waiting room’s door. “Can I come in?” you asked, trying to keep your voice down just in case they were sleeping.

It didn’t take long for the door to open in front of you. Again, a familiar face greeted you.

“Of course you can come in,” Hoshi let you in. He looked very sleepy and you felt bad for him, thinking you had woken him up.

“Did I wake you up? I’m sorry,” you apologized and he shook his head.

“I couldn’t sleep anyway so don’t worry,” he said and walked over to a sofa that looked like the place he had been resting on.

Most of the members were sleeping in either the chairs or the few sofas in the waiting room. The room was filled with people even though there wasn’t anyone else than the members, you and their manager. That’s why you visited them so early in the morning. It would be even more packed before their recording. You would visit them again after they finished recording.

“Hi,” Dino greeted you, looking a lot more awake than the others.

You greeted him with a smile. “You seem to have slept well.”

“Not really,” he laughed a bit. “I didn’t sleep well at all. I guess the nervousness is making me feel this energetic.”

“Please don’t overwork yourself,” you reminded him.

“Don’t worry, I know this group will be doomed if I’m absent,” he said and almost immediately a few members who had heard him came over to you two. They bickered for a while and you chuckled at the sight. You had missed them.

“I haven’t seen you in a long time,” S.coups stopped next to you and you greeted him. “It’s nice seeing you.”

“I feel the same way,” you said, still smiling.

“Ah, I missed that smile,” Jun said.

“Yah, don’t mess with hyung’s girlfriend,” Woozi said, nudging Jun.

“Jisoo hyung doesn’t get angry even if we say things like that,” Mingyu - who had just returned from the bathroom - said.

“Oh hi!” The8 greeted you cheerfully even though he looked like he was still half asleep.

“Hi,” you chuckled at his cuteness.

The room was quite loud. That was the Seventeen you knew. But you couldn’t feel too happy about it since you were worried about them. They never got enough sleep during promotions so you wanted them to get all the rest they possibly could.

“Where is Jisoo?” you asked Jeonghan who was standing next to you.

“Here,” he led you to a corner which was pretty isolated from the rest of the room. There, in the corner of that isolated corner was your boyfriend, Hong Jisoo, more commonly known as Joshua. You smiled, happy to see him but also felt a little bad for him, looking at the way he had to sleep on the small sofa. Jeonghan left you alone with the sleeping boy and went to join the others. He probably told them to be a little quieter because it didn’t take long before the room was quiet again.

You smiled, adoring the sleeping figure on the small sofa right in front of you.

“I missed you,” you whispered, not wanting to wake him up. You leaned closer to him and gently kissed the top of his head and the familiar, comforting scent of his shampoo made you smile even wider than you already were.

You two didn’t see each other often and when you did, you didn’t have much time. Still, your relationship was going strong. You knew what you got yourself into when you started dating him so the lack of time spent together didn’t surprise you. You were actually surprised because you got to see each other a lot more often than you had thought you would. Whenever they announced they were going to release a new album, you got super excited because their promotion periods were the time when you could hang out the most.

You placed a drink - his favorite drink from the vending machine - on the floor next to the sofa and glanced at him once more before going back to where the others were.

“You didn’t wake him up?” Hoshi looked at you.

You shook your head. “I don’t want him to miss this opportunity to rest. You all need more rest. Try to get some more sleep, huh?”

They all appreciated your concern for them. “You’re really sweet,” S.coups said and went back to where he had been resting.

“Don’t overwork yourself,” Mingyu patted your head while passing by you.

“You too,” you said.

“See you later,” Vernon smiled and you smiled back, walking over to the door.

“Work hard,” Woozi said when you opened the door and turned to look at him.

“You work hard too,” you smiled. “I’ll see you all later,” you said and they hummed in response, a few of them giving you a smile before you exited the room and closed the door behind you.


You stood in the small hallway. In the corner where the smaller and the bigger hallway’s walls met, there was a camera attached to the wall. Idols stopped by it to answer questions written on the cue card that had been taped to the wall and some just stopped by to say hi to the camera. Your job was to keep an eye on the camera and help the idols if needed. Doesn’t seem like an important job but it actually was quite important. The camera wasn’t in too good condition and sometimes the idols had questions so you were there, answering their questions and helping them if needed.

All of the idols greeted you before greeting the camera and you greeted back with a smile like you usually did. You enjoyed seeing all the hardworking idols even though they probably didn’t think the same way about you.

“Work hard,” another group finished answering the questions on the cue card.

“Fighting,” you said to them and they were delighted by your response. A few of the members smiled to you before walking away.

“YO!” a loud voice came from the bigger hallway and soon you saw Seungkwan and Dokyeom walk up to the camera. They sent you small smiles.

“Let’s see what today’s questions are,” Seungkwan looked at the cue card and his excitement made you feel happy.

Slowly the other members arrived too. The hallways were basically blocked because of the group of people standing in front of the small camera. Everyone was there except for Jisoo. You were worried about him for a second.

Is he still sleeping? I wonder if he’s okay…

Before you could get too worried about him, a familiar face popped up behind the members. You only saw a glance of your boyfriend but you saw him so you felt relieved. He pushed his way past the members to stand on the side of the group of people and turned his head a little to look at you. You smiled and so did he.

The members stayed there for a while, talking about random stuff and answering the questions on the cue card. Once they were finished, they came to say hi to you before heading to the stage to record their performance.

They let Jisoo be the last just because they knew he had the most to say to you.

“Hi there,” he said with a sweet smile and hugged you quickly.

“Hi,” you greeted him with a smile too.

“Thanks for the drink,” he said and pecked your forehead. “I enjoyed it.”

“I’m glad you liked it.”

“Joshua!” a staff member called his name.

“Got to go,” he said and ruffled your hair a little.

“Fighting,” you said, lifting your fists in the air.

He chuckled a little before disappearing behind the corner.


A boy group that had already been promoting for a few weeks came to the camera. You were pretty familiar with them but didn’t know the members personally or anything. You had just seen them a lot. They answered the questions and talked about random stuff, just like other groups. After that, they left to go to their waiting room to wait for the last recording to begin.

“Hello,” one of them stayed behind, came over to you and greeted you.

“Hi,” you bowed to him slightly and smiled.

He seemed a little nervous, which made you a little confused.

“Did you want to ask me something?” you asked.

“Kind of,” he said. “It’s sort of personal. Do you mind?”
“What is it?”

“I was wondering if you are single,” he said, leaving you surprised. “Are you?”

“Oh…” your mind went blank for a few seconds.

“I think I like you a little,” he blurted out, nervous.

You just looked at him. You didn’t want to hurt his feelings but you still had to tell him you were dating.

“Um…”

“What’s going on?” a voice asked, making you both turn to see who it was. Jisoo walked over to you two, unaware of what was going on.

He stopped next to you, making the boy in front of you look really confused.

“This is my boyfriend,” you introduced Jisoo to him.

“Oh,” the boy looked embarrassed and a little scared too. “I’m sorry sunbaenim, I didn’t know you were dating her if I had known I wouldn’t have confessed, forgive me,” he disappeared fast as a lightning, probably feeling really embarrassed.

No one knew you two were dating. It had been revealed to the fans and everyone that Jisoo was dating but they hadn’t revealed your identity thanks to Jisoo’s request to keep your identity secret at least until the worst hate calmed down. So, not many people knew it was you who was his girlfriend. Only a few idols apart from the members of Seventeen knew.

“Did I interrupt something?” Jisoo asked.

“Kind of,” you answered, feeling bad for the poor boy.

“Sorry,” he apologized.

Jisoo wasn’t too concerned about other people flirting with you. It did make him a little jealous but he didn’t feel the need to be rude to those people or anything. To him, the fact that you were with him even though you met maybe once a month, was enough proof of you loving him and being loyal to him. He trusted you a lot.

“Did you do well?” you asked him about the recording.

“My best,” he replied and brushed a strand of your hair behind your ear.

“Are you very tired?” you questioned.

He shook his head. “Not really. I got to sleep a lot last night and this morning. Also, I got to see you.”

“That’s good,” you said, glad that he was feeling okay.

“Do you have a lot left?” he asked, referring to your work.

“I think I’m done for now,” you said with a smile. “All of the day’s groups and soloists have already filmed their parts so…”

“Come to our waiting room? I’m sure the others would love to hang out with you too.”

“If you insist,” you said with a smile and looked at him.

“Yes I do,” he said and you two walked to the waiting room.

“I saw the music video,” you said to him as he opened the room’s door and you walked in. “The choreography seems tiring.”

“It is,” Jisoo sighed. “We can thank Soonyoung and rest of the performance unit for that,” he playfully showed his tongue to Hoshi.

“The choreo is fantastic,” the performance unit’s members said.

“Yeah, it is,” you agreed with them.

“Just tiring,” Jisoo added.


“Are you hungry?” S.coups asked you. You were sitting on one of the sofas with Jisoo.

“No,” you lied. You wanted the members to eat as much as possible. You weren’t that hungry anyway.

“Are you sure?” Jisoo asked. “I think I heard your stomach make noise just now.”

You nudged him. “It was probably yours.”

“You should eat properly,” he said. “We worry about you.”

“I worry about you more,” you argued. “So you eat all that food. You can pay me back later.”

“Hyung how did you get her?” Hoshi asked, making you and Jisoo look at him. “I want someone like her too.”

You smiled. “That’s sweet, thanks.”

“Geez, everyone is trying to take you from me,” Jisoo wrapped his arms around you. “What is going on?”

“It’s because she’s just so… fitting for you hyung,” The8 said. “Everyone would like a relationship like yours.”

You couldn’t wipe the smile off your face.

“Well, for your information,” Jisoo started. “She’s my girlfriend and I hope you all respect that just like you have up until now.”

“It’s not like we are going to snatch her away from you hyung,” Wonwoo said. “We’re just envious.”

“Good,” Jisoo said. “Because I’m going to keep holding onto her for a long time.”

Blue Bloods

Jimin x Reader

Royal AU

Genre: Smut/Angst

Words: 3.3k

You’re head of the committee, a six-person council of royalty that determine whether or not people live or die, based on the crimes they’ve committed. It’s not easy, especially with an arrogant Park Jimin at your side. Literally.


Originally posted by sweaterpawsjimin

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I have really complicated feelings about Mary. I actually like that's she's not some perfect mom and has her own agenda. I like her as flawed. But I just don't like that Dean once again was the one who was made to apologise for how he was feeling. And I'm not happy with how she was basically willing to let Cas die over the Colt (though I guess you can make the argument it wouldn't have mattered much). Idk, maybe I just don't like the choices she's making right now? I get she's lost, but still...

Hey anon, I’m totally with you - I think it’s great so many people seem to have complex feelings about Mary. Because that means she’s not a one-dimensional character, but a flawed, realistic person, as you point out.

I also really hate that Dean is getting the short end of the lying stick again, with Mary, Sam and even Cas at the very end of the last episode. He sure didn’t have anything to apologise for, in my opinion, but it was a good way to not let the situation escalate. He compromised - instead of shutting Mary and Sam out & pushing them away because he doesn’t agree with the stance they’re taking re the BMoL, he chose the more difficult - but imho the more mature - path of “agreeing to disagree” and settle the dispute like that.This allows him to stay close to Mary and Sam, which, I’m sure, he hopes will mean that they start trusting him more. The more you push people away, the more they’ll lie, after all.

And the narrative is obviously going to prove Mary and Sam wrong - the BMoL are going to do something horrible (well, more horrible than they have already been doing and it’ll be revealed to Mary and Sam) - possibly related to Cas - that’ll show their true vile nature to Mary and Sam. So in that sense, I’m pretty sure Dean will be vindicated - in the sense that he’ll be proven right all along.

Of course, this is SPN so it’s likely Dean won’t be able to enjoy that little victory at all, because it’s gonna come at a great price.

Anyway, yes, Mary. It hurt me that she didn’t give up the Colt to (potentially) save both Cas’s and her sons’ lives, but then again as you say Ramiel probably would’ve wasted them all anyway, and she likely realized this. I definitely disagree with some of the choices she’s making, but I understand them. Thinking about where she came from (a family of hunters), the trauma of dying in such a horrible way, getting ripped from heaven and thrown into a world you barely recognize, being faced with adult sons that are physically close to your own age, having to deal with your beloved husband’s death…honestly she’s coping better than I would, that’s for sure.

And her motivation for working with the BMoL comes from a good, albeit misguided place. Remember what a long, long road of character growth Sam and Dean have behind them. The many mistakes they made, often multiple times, with heartbreaking and disastrous consequences. She simply hasn’t had that journey yet (well, she’s learned the lesson about demon deals…). And she deserves to have one, and certainly not be judged more harshly (as some people seem to do) for her mistakes than Sam & Dean (and Cas, too). I think she’s looking for a purpose. And while being a parent is a fine and worthy purpose in life, her children are adults. They don’t need her the same way young children would. They grew up without her, and she just hasn’t connected with them on a deeper level yet - these things take time after all.

I don’t know what her endgame is, but I sincerely hope she survives the end of this season, because I think she’s a fascinating character and also because SPN needs to stop killing off all their women. She could become a multi-season semi-regular! why not?

This got long so I’ll stop here - but thanks for sending this, I was planning on talking about Mary at some point on this blog, and your ask was the perfect opportunity for it.

Sometimes i think about how odd it is that james and aleks make me so fucking happy that I light up like a goddamn Christmas tree even though I’ve literally never met them in person and I start judging myself but then cow chop releases a new video and I forget all about it

i want people to know my stance on how i feel about everything in communities like this.
while my blog is completely sfw, my personal life is different. yes, i’m into age play and not just age regression. call me gross, i honestly don’t care. my little space is my safe space, and having sex in some way helps me feel completely safe. maybe its just being dominated, idk.
with all this being said, if you feel uncomfortable following me or want me to unfollow you, i completely understand.
i want to make it completely clear, though, that i can see the difference between whats kink and not.

NCT When You’re Sick

Requested by: anonymous (thanks for the hilarious request 😂 it was so difficult to write this without asking myself “wtf am i doing”) 

Submission: “Heyyy do you take requests??If yes, could you do a nct (127+Ten) reaction to you being sick asking them to leave but they stay and then… you accidently fart for a bit?? Because you know, no one can let it stay inside forever, especially when he’s sick😂😂 Sorry if it’s too childish😅😅 thank you for reading this😍😚”

Genre: fluff?? idek honestly lmao

Enjoy!!! early ps: im so sorry if this is a bit too awkward to read i tried ;000 but i hope you like it @anon!!!


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tbh the mainstream narrative of “deep down i always knew” re: sexuality is really shitty bc though it may be true for some (maybe a lot of??) people it ends up making people (me) feel like they’re faking it somehow, when really you can never be “wrong” about your sexuality….bc it’s yours….

idk i’ve just been thinking a lot about how compulsory heterosexuality shaped my life bc 5 yr old, 11 yr old, 17 yr old, me definitely did not know ~deep down~ that i was gay so when i started to question things at age 19 i felt too old to be thinking about this kind of thing bc i should have Known by then

not to mention the fact that coming out is something that requires a lot of self certainty and confidence that is not required of you if you’re straight. like you have to proclaim to the world that you are something and bc there’s a zero tolerance policy for Being Wrong then you better know for certain when you choose to come out

anonymous asked:

I'm kind of confused about the Draco / Marauders talk but I'll give it a shot anywaylol. So idk I just recovered from a flu and I imagine Draco to be the type of boyfriend who would take car of you and make you soup even though he doesnt know how and he'd probably spill and make a mess but ugh it'd just be so cute

omg yes!

  • like he would always put in 110% effort to make you feel better
  • and stay by your side and supply you with tea and soup no matter what
  • you’d tell him not to get so close or else he’ll get sick
  • but he just dismisses your warnings
  • so draco brings you tea and gives you millions of kisses on the forehead
  • brushing the hair from your face and telling you you still look beautiful 
  • he’ll make sure you’re treated like a princess while you’re sick (and every day of your life with him, really)

anonymous asked:

i was so sure we'd be hit with lesbian vilde content this season but so far she remains compulsively straight as an arrow... do you think there's a chance julie is going back on her word and making vilde really straight? i mean i don't think that's possible... girlie is the gayest of them all... but idk i feel icky about her and magnus. I lost my point but yeah vilde is gay but some ppl gotta see it so julie pls

even though vilde is still together with magnus (i totally agree with you anon i also feel icky about their relationship) i think that so far in the season julie has shown us how vilde is struggling with compulsory heterosexuality. in the first episode i picked up quite a few hints towards lesbian vilde, even theough they were pretty subtle, including how she overshares about sex with magnus (in order to overcompensate) but then complains about actually having to spend time with him and says she’d rather spend the time with the girls. this is the classic closet lesbian mentality - “i like him a lot but i don’t want to see him, touch him or ever spend any time with him” and i think vilde portrays this pretty clearly. also her and eva share another kiss on the train to the party (!!) even though its pretty brief and in the background, she literally asks eva to feed her ice cream and then sounds hurt when eva refuses (sorry vilde but Thats Gay) and lets talk about her instagram post bc come on, that has to say something about her inner struggles with coming to terms with her sexuality.

this is all just from the first episode so i think they’re laying on the lesbian vilde hints pretty strong already…. although they are subtle and it’s very easy for most people to disregard them and say that she’s straight since she’s in a relationship with magnus right now. i honestly think this has got to lead to vilde coming out as a lesbian, but i still have my doubts. i really really hope that julie is not just queerbaiting and actually delivers on all these hints she’s been dropping but for now i’m hopeful!

so yeah rn i’m crossing all my fingers, toes, every other body part in hopes of the rise of lesbian vilde and PRAYING that julie delivers

anonymous asked:

I "love" how antis masked ship wars with social and political activism and defense of an High and Pure Morality, while they're just... ship wars. They dislike x thing so don't want other people to like it because "um it's problematic uwu", while actually they're just uncomfortable with other people liking what they don't lmao What I find extremely frightening, however, is their toxic attitude. Idk where this puritan culture comes from... Protestantism maybe? So weird and worrisome tbh

Exactly though this is what I’ve said so many times antis try to justify how they are through making out it’s for some greater good when legit it isn’t anything of the sort they just dont like ships and feel the need for some unknown reason to be aggressive about it and actively shame people for something they don’t like but then make out they’re the ‘good guys’ so to speak by hiding behind the idea of political activism or whatever like balls to that if you actually give a shit about these issues you claim to be 'fighting for’ donate to a charity go out and make a stand join in in the movements instead of sitting behind a computer arguing at people over a fucking ship from a Netflix show like I don’t see them actually doing anything for any of these causes they are full of so much bull

anonymous asked:

I'm gender non-conforming and I only feel comfortable in men's clothing. They make me feel safe. Idk. The problem is my mom refuses to buy me anything guy related (Even though she knows about me being extremely uncomfortable in females' clothing) using the excuse that I'm "too thin". Any ideas on how to convince her?

Charlie says:

I would counter by buying “men’s” clothing in the childrens’ section and from places that they sell slimmer fitting clothing such as American Eagle, Aeropostale, and Forever 21 (in my experience).  When she sees it fits you, she won’t be able to deny you male clothing on the basis of your appearance (though she might come up with another excuse).

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it’s still kaworu’s birthday i’m not too late!!

i’m not good with character deconstructions or whatever and i had to rush this in order to make it on time for this angel’s birthday but my idea was along the lines of kaworu making his own choices since being with seele, the idea that “kaworu” does not matter (’merely a tool for instrumentality’) is repeatedly engraved in his mind and maybe he thinks about it though kaworu seems pretty cool most of the time! but with shinji, he probably truly felt/feels love for being who he is!! idk! something like that but anyway!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAWORU!!

anonymous asked:

idk if you take requests but your writing is perfect so if you do could you please write a "you know i love you, right?" drabble of andriel?? i would love it omg and if not than please just ignore me! :)

you anons? you know what i like.

It’s Nicky that makes Neil think about it, though not intentionally. 

It would be fair to say that the Foxes have taught him most of what he knows about…people, and about being around them, and how they can make him feel. Other than being afraid of them, that is - Nathan Wesninski taught him that early on, and he hasn’t forgotten the lesson. 

The rest, though, is all his family. Sympathy, guilt, affection, happiness, trust - they’re all things the Foxes have shown him, in word and deed. 

It’s the way that Nicky says I love you. Not to Neil and the others, though he does that both sarcastically and in earnest at the least provocation. It’s how he says it to Erik on the phone, quiet and honest in a way he rarely is. Like the bright and smiling facade has been pulled to the side for just long enough for him to say the words like that.

And Neil hasn’t been with anyone before Andrew, and expected to die before he ever got a chance to anyway. Love like that is a foreign thing to him, and he isn’t sure it’s a language he can learn. Not least because what he feels - quiet and all-encompassing and his - doesn’t seem like that.

It seems like it should be a bigger thing, to be in love - like the movies. But Nicky’s quiet words look a lot more like the feeling that sometimes swells in Neil when he looks at Andrew, when they kiss or when they’re alone together. It looks familiar.

And Neil doesn’t care about hearing those words said to him. Andrew gives him everything Neil needs and wants, everything Andrew has, and that’s enough. It’s more than enough. 

It’s more - he wonders how often Andrew has ever heard it. He’s not the subject of affection, and doesn’t care for it anyway, but Neil hates to think that no one might have ever told Andrew that they love him. Or, worse, that the last person might have been Cass Spear, or someone else equally undeserving of Andrew. 

It’s not that Neil wants to say it, or hear it. But he really wants Andrew to know.


They’re up on the roof. It’s cold but clear, so they’re both bundled into their coats and Andrew is wearing the dark beanie that Renee gave him for Christmas. Neil drags the bottle of whiskey towards himself and takes a slug, hoping it’ll chase the chill out of him.

Andrew is smoking, lazily blowing smoke as he stares out at the darkening sky. The first stars are appearing on the horizon, but Neil isn’t sure whether he’s looking at them or inside. For all his face often indicates he’s blank as inside as out, Neil knows for a fact that Andrew is as introspective as anyone.

“Keep your eyes to yourself,” Andrew mutters.

Neil says, “You know I love you, right?”

He isn’t really expecting a response. He’s therefore surprised to get the frozen non-reaction of a reaction that he hasn’t seen from Andrew in a long time. 

“I don’t…” Neil hurries to say, and then cuts himself off. “I just want you to know. If you don’t.”

Andrew’s gaze flickers to him and then away again. He doesn’t say anything. Neil resists the immediate urge to keep talking, aware that he might just be digging himself a deeper hole. 

There’s a long silence. 

Eventually, Neil says, “What are you thinking?”

All through the beginning of their acquaintance, Neil used shorthand and guessing at Andrew’s thoughts, and he’s happy now to admit he wasn’t always right back then. But asking has never turned him wrong, and Andrew has never hesitated to answer.

He’s expecting that I hate you. It means that he’s the one surprised into stillness when Andrew says, “That you’re operating under the assumption that you’re unreadable again. And that you’re wrong about that.”

It takes a moment for Neil to gather himself. “I don’t think that.”

“You always think that,” Andrew informs him. “You’re always wrong. It’s predictable.”

“I’m not predictable,” Neil says, which is true. Mostly true - it doesn’t always apply to Andrew. 

“You’re transparent,” Andrew replies, finally turning his head to look at Neil straight on. The steady boredom on his face is a sharp contrast with the surprise of before - one or the other of those is a lie. Andrew’s a steady-state reaction most of the time, but even he can’t adjust that quickly.

These days, he usually doesn’t bother. Neil reaches out for the cigarette pack by Andrew’s hip, watches him not flinch at the movement. He rattles it and then leaves it be. “Am I?”

“Very.” 

Neil lies back, his feet still dangling over the edge of the roof into space. The cold leaches through his jacket from the roof, but the view makes it worth it - stars just visible through the lowlight city haze and cigarette smoke. He says, “That’s alright then.”

“Is it?” Andrew’s mocking Neil’s tone from before, curling up at the edges with a coyness that sounds strange on him. It’s meant to shut Neil up, but Andrew should know by now that that’s not the way to do it.

“I told you - I want you to know,” Neil replies. He doesn’t know anything about astronomy. He just knows that the moon looks the same from wherever he sees it, and that staring up at it is saving him from meeting Andrew’s gaze right now. It doesn’t mean he sounds any less certain when he says, “It’s important to me.”

Andrew just said you’re operating under the assumption that you’re unreadable, and also you’re wrong. Neil wonders if what he feels is so clearly written on his face, if it sounds under every word he says. Maybe Andrew is right after all. In this one respect, he kind of hopes so. Becoming predictable to Andrew isn’t so bad.

“All sorts of stupid things are important to you,” Andrew says, a dismissal that has lost its sting from repetition. A familiar old shield, one that Neil sees straight through. Transparent.

Predictability isn’t all bad. After all, Neil isn’t the only one becoming so.