identity-of-the-soul

Imagine Loki

Quick little Drabble for @buckybear97 because they have requested more! I did this right before going to bed. I hope this satiates your hunger for now bb ❤️

He sits by the bath and combs through her hair. The lovely scent of her skin makes his insides coil with anticipation. His eyes cannot leave her body, unable to tear themselves away from her. She is his salvation, his redemption. She has and always will be his weak point, and that is why she is locked away.

He doesn’t like vulnerability. That is what she is to him. She can turn the darkest of nights into a dream. She can turn tears into smiles and fear into hope. With a kiss or a lick or a little touch of her fingertips, she can make all the darkness in him turn to dust.

Yet he despises that. His darkness is his identity. The charcoal colour of his soul is his trademark and she has stripped him of it. So he locks his mouth to hers and keeps her words from turning him into a hopeful being. He thrusts into her painfully in hopes of turning her into his own muse. He pulls her hair and scratches her skin, tasting the sweetness of her arousal in hopes that she enjoys the pain. Because he does.

He is so taken by her, so caged in her love that his amour has turned into hatred. She has made him see clear again, and the things he cannot hide anymore, she can see. The things he used to keep behind the darkness of his soul, she can touch. Even when he is on top of her, making her scream until her voice is raw with pleasure, he can still feel himself abandoning his inky past.

With her, he wants to be good. With her, he is vulnerable. That is why he hates her.

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Singer and 'Glee' actor comes out as transgender and announces his name
Jake Zyrus thanks fans for "love and respect"

The singer, actor and YouTuber whose musical career includes playing Sunshine Corazon on Glee has come out about his transgender identity and name. 

Back in 2014, about a year after publicly coming out as a lesbian, Jake Zyrus told Oprah that he had long struggled with his gender identity. He told her that his soul was male, but that he would not transition to be a “male-male.” This week, though, he announced his new name and online presence as Jake.

On Sunday, the Filipino star announced that he will now go by the name Jake Zyrus, a new moniker that reflects his male gender identity.

“From the bottom of my heart, thank you for the love and respect,” Zyrus captioned an Instagram post that simply bore the words “thank you.” “I love you back and I’m sending peace to everyone.”

The next day, Zyrus ventured further into the social media realm using his new name, tentatively tweeting, “My first tweet as Jake. Overwhelmed. Saw all your love comments and I’m so happy. Finally. I love you, everyone and see you soon.” As an added note, he wrote in a subsequent tweet, “I won’t let anyone ruin this moment. I won’t let anyone ruin my happiness. Thank you to all the beautiful write ups about me.”

Congratulations, Jake! So happy for you. 

Chapitre 113: The Frozen Heart

Which is literally the name of a song on the Frozen soundtrack guys help me. 

I did not walk into this chapter aiming to make a Frozen AU but woops here we are. Syaoran is Kristoph. Sakura is Anna.

And Lava Lamp guy might be Hans. Especially with all that mirror subtext, and Lava Lamp guy quite literally coming out of a mirror.

Unless Syaoran is unknowingly the Hans in this situation and Lava Lamp is the Kristoph.

I literally have no idea. 

All I know is that Fai is Elsa (both in terms of constructing fake personalities and hiding magic powers) and definitely dresses the same.

Mokona is Sven.

Where is Kurogane I just don’t know.

But all that aside, I do appreciate this chapter art being a bright coating of happiness on across a story arc that will SURELY split my heart in two. It’s essentially a token gesture at this point. The previous chapter ended with Lava Lamp guy busting out of Lava Lamp Jail and announcing Syaoran’s name to an empty room. AND NOW HERE HE IS, THE SUNSHINE CHILD WHO’S LIFE IS ABOUT TO COME CRUMBLING DOWN AROUND HIS EARS.

BUT HE WAS HAPPY FOR A MOMENT, AT LEAST.

Soul Eater: Symmetry!

Hetalia: Pasta!

D.gray-man: Beansprout

Fairy Tail: What did they destroy this time?

Naruto: Believe it, baby!

Seven Deadly Sins: Is that edible?

Blue Exorcist: Don’t do that, Rin

Ouran: Tamaki, that isn’t fatherly love.

Hunter x Hunter: Gon, what are you doing?

Inuyasha: For the last time, don’t touch the ears!

RWBY: *lots of laughing and crying*

Tokyo Ghoul: *Gore and identity crisis*

For anyone going through a hard time right now:

Music has the power to help, or so I believe, it picks you up in ways that people sometimes can’t. I recently made a playlist of songs, and if people want I can make it into a Spotify playlist. But here is the songs:

THE LINK FOR THIS FIRST PLAYLIST: [X]

Therapy//All Time Low
Never Too Late//Three Days Grace
Hospital For Souls//Bring Me the Horizon
Friend, Please//Twenty One Pilots
Crash//You Me At Six
Missing You//All Time Low
Never Give In//Black Veil Brides
Hold On Til May// Pierce The Veil
Astronaught//Simple Plan
Kitchen Sink//Twenty One Pilots
Saviour//Black Veil Brides
If I have too, then I have too (Acoustic)//One Last Look.
The Light Behind Your Eyes//My Chemical Romance
Goner//Twenty One Pilots
No One Does It Better// You Me At Six
Satellites// Sleeping With Sirens
Hearts and Flowers// Say We Can Fly
Nothern Downpour// Panic! At The Disco
What a Catch Donnie//Fall Out Boy
I’m A Mess// Ed Sheeran.

Here’s a few other things:

Good Songs that help calm you down or fall asleep:
Behind the Sea (Live in Chicago version) //Panic! At The Disco
Therapy// All Time Low
Fireworks//You Me At Six
Hey There Delilah//Plain White T’s
Oh Ms Believer// TØP
Never Seen Anything (Quite Like You)//The Script
Kiss me//Ed Sheeran


If You Have Lost Someone:
If You Could See Me Now//The Script
Match Into Water// Pierce The Veil
Cancer//My Chemical Romance
Lullabies//All Time Low
Wake Me Up When September Ends// Green Day
This Isn’t The End// Owl City
All Done For You// Black Veil Brides

Remember When/ Dissappear//Issues

When You’re Feeling Misunderstood:
I’m Not Okay//My Chemical Romance.
King For A Day// Pierce The Veil ft Kellin Quinn
Kids In The Dark// All Time Low
Wretched And Divine// Black Veil Brides
Boulevard Of Broken Dreams// Green Day


In a Really Bad Mood? Start A Riot: [X]
Misery Buisiness//Paramore

Bite My Tongue// You Me At Six ft Oli Sykes

You Make Me Sick//Of Mice And Men
Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing//Set It Off
Antivist//Bring Me The Horizon
Save It For The Bedroom//You Me At Six
Heroes// All Time Low
Desolation Row//My Chemical Romance
Juarez//Gerard Way
Fuck You//Sleeping With Sirens (Cee Lo Green Cover)

Ignorance//Paramore

Compromising Me//William Beckett

Gives You Hell// The All-American Rejects


Some cool extras:
Princeton Ave// Issues (Abuse)
Never Lose Your Flames//Issues (Homophobia/Rejection because of Sexuality)
Mama//My Chemical Romance (Gender Identity)
99% Soul//Matty Mullins (Christian music?)(most of his album is Christian music so if you’re looking for good Christian pop I would recommend Matty Mullins or Owl City :))
Migraine//TØP (Schizophrenia)
That Green Gentleman (Things Have Changed For Me)//Panic! At The Disco (For people going through major changes)
Sleepwalking//Bring Me The Horizon (Depression)
A Trophy Father’s, Trophy Son (Broken Family/Home)


That’s all for now but that’s all for now, I might update more? I was just looking at all these cool songs with cool messages so…

Mama’s  Master List

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SERIES

Fairy Tales Do Come True Master List   (Dean x Reader)  complete

Game Changer  Master List    (Assassin AU, Reader, Dean) complete

The Pyre Master List  (Dean x Reader)   complete

Afterwards Master List  (futuristic post apocalypse)  OFC Dean x Angie, Sam x Chelsea   complete

The Holy Series     (Reader x Dean, Sam, Cas) NSFW complete

Chance Encounters  Master List   (Dean x Reader) complete

Love Born of Fire Master List   (Dean x Reader)  in progress



ONE SHOTS

New Beginnings    (Reader x Dean, Sam) (NO Wincest)

Pop Rocks    (Dean x Reader)

One Special Halloween    (Dean x Reader)

Children of Who??    (Dean x Reader x Sam)

The Hunting Lodge    (Dean x Reader)

Never Fear the Reaper    (Dean x Reader)

Hope Renewed    (Dean x Reader)

Better Late Than Never    (Dean x Reader)

Translations are a bitch    (Dean x Reader)

An Amusing Discovery    (Dean x Reader)

Mysterious Man    (Dean x Reader)

The Beginning, Middle, and End    (Dean x Reader)

Twenty Years Later   (Dean x Reader)

Damaged Love    (Dean x Reader)

Mercy on my Heart    (Dean x Reader)

Love Makes the World Move      (Dean x Reader)

A Mistaken Identity    (Sam x Reader)

Twin Souls    (Dean x Reader)

Gravity   (Reader meet Dean and Sam)

What Hurts The Most    (Dean x Reader)

Save Myself    (Dean x Reader)

You Might Be Sorry    (BTZ#2)   (Sam x Reader)

Urban Legend    (BTZ #3)  (Sam x Reader)

A Sign From Above   (Dean x Reagan OFC)



DRABBLES

Daddy’s Cravings    (Dean x Reader)

Barely Anything Left    (Dean x Reader)

The Flames    (Reader Insert)

2 Fingers in a Glass (Dean POV)

Netflix will trip you up everytime (Dean x Reader)

Benny’s Diner  (Benny x Reader)

Cas’ fury (Dean x Reader)

Another Dance, Mr. Winchester?  (Dean x Reader)

Double Dare (Dean, Sam, Reader)

The Double Take  (Dean x Reader)

The Welcome Back Dinner (Sam x Reader, Elizabeth x Dean)

Family has Your Back  (Dean x Reader)

Don’t tell me No  (Dean x Reader)

The Interrogation Room   (BTZ #1)    (Benny x Reader)

Hurt    (Dean)

Happy Anniversary (Dean x Reader)

Alisha’s Blog   (Cas/lil sister)

 

MY CHALLENGES

Mama’s !00 ML

Mama and Angelina’s Fabulous 300 Challenge ML

Mama’s 1K  ML

Mama’s 1.5K “Spread The Love” Promo’s

Mama’s “Shred Some Hearts” Challenge Master List (angst)

Mama’s 100 Quotes of Supernatural Challenge

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12x16 “Ladies Drink Free”
Confessions

I really liked this ending scene with Claire. I think Katheryn Newton did a great job acting wise this episode. But this particular moment here makes my heart ache a little bit in how much one could see it in line with the Winchesters and Mary and Dean in particular. One the one hand the way Claire needed to take a “vacation” from her surrogate family consisting of Jody and Alex, because she felt like a third wheel and also to a certain extent imo to figure out what she herself wanted and who she is unrelated to how Alex shapes her life and how Claire feels Jody wishes a “normal life” for her too. To me Claire from the first time she popped up on screen has been serving as a female and teenage version mirror for Dean. And what Claire did - hunting alone and in secret (and I personally find it really noteworthy that when Claire says that we see Dean and her in the frame - which could be seen as a further alignment)  - imo can be understood as somewhat of a “road trip” of self discovery. A journey that may be scary and tough at many stops on the way, but so important and much needed, because Claire on her own was able to see how her surrogate family helped her while at the same time figuring out who she is aside from the “sister” and “child”. And THAT is something I so deeply want for Dean to experience and being able to figure out as well. So while my hopes here are very likely to not turn into reality I think for Dean it would be very important and vital to go his own way for some time too, figure himself out without having to be “the brother” or the “son”, who reacts and behaves as Mary would like it. One also could read Claire’s escape from family as a Mary mirror too btw in how she basically fled head over heels from her sons and throwing herself into hunting.

anonymous asked:

Do you think Lizzy might know Sebastian is a demon?

Hello Anon! Well, the last time we truly saw Lizzie was in ch116/117 and…

…She seemed more worried about stopping Seb from going to the labs rather than fighting against a real demon, so no, I don’t think that she knew at the time

Of course, there is still a possibility that ever since ch117 Bravat or real!Ciel told her about Seb’s true nature (since Bravat definitely knows and real!Ciel seems to know as well that Seb is the demon who ate his soul 4 years ago), however, assuming that Lizzie is most likely seen as a pawn to hurt our!Ciel [x]…

…it would be wiser of Bravat and co not to tell her, in my opinion. 

Lizzie is currently conflicted about making the right choice between her duty (real!Ciel) and her feelings (our!Ciel) [x][x] so, should Bravat tell her that our!Ciel sold his soul to a demon, she would probably be sadder at the idea of losing him and it could push her to disregard her duty in favor of her feelings.

It might not appear blatant, but I’m guessing that arguing that real!Ciel was in poor “health” is probably the argument that won Lizzie over when it comes to her running away from home:

She decided that she would be here for him, because he was in dire straits, and then she stayed because he is her rightful fiancé.

Lizzie is most likely the ace of Bravat’s side, because she definitely is the person our!Ciel cares the most about (it’s even how Bravat referred to her), which means that they can’t afford to have her changing sides.
So, not telling Lizzie about Seb to keep her thinking that real!Ciel needs her the most (on top of her doing her duty) is the most logical.

Maybe she’ll know before the end of the arc though if, for instance, she changes sides and a very angry real!Ciel drops another bomb on her: the boy she loves not only lied about his identity but he also sold his soul to a demon and won’t live old.

TL;DR no, I don’t think she knows for now. :)

I hope it helps, have a nice weekend Anon!

“… the effort to discover an authentic self, to strip away layers of alienation and culturally imposed identity and find a soul in a clear, unimpeded communion with the sacred is consonant with spiritual quests throughout the ages. Spiritual feminists, no less than medieval mystics, are searching in the ways made available to them through their culture to separate themselves from everything in their hearts and minds that puts them at odds with the divine plan (and therefore with their own best interests), and to find a true harmony between themselves and the universe.”  
~ Cynthia Eller

~ Original Acrylic Painting by Tomasz Alen Kopera
~ George RedHawk animation

Ageless in the Dark

So this about Nesta and what she went through in the Cauldron. Enjoy!

The water hit her as soon as they bent her over the rim.

No… It wasn’t mere water. This was nothing like she had ever encountered before. This was the vessel that had birthed the lands of the world; this was the womb of creation. And it was filled with a roiling, murky fluid, depthless and fathoming. The Cauldron was life. It was death. And it was everything in between.

And Nesta was afraid.

In the span of that one moment, before her entire body could be submerged in those living depths, Nesta experienced not just fear, but unadulterated terror. She forgot Elain, she forgot the Illyrian with shredded wings, and she forgot about the world. In that moment, Nesta could only fear for herself of the unknown, unnatural object; she had no room for any other thought.

Then she was thrown over the ancient ebony rim, and despite her momentum, her shape parted the liquid silently, without a splash.

The inky layers fused over her head, cutting off any light or sound. Nesta was alone, save for this stifling essence; this lonely darkness that suffocated her and chilled her to the bone. She could hear her heartbeat, churning out seconds of her life in tandem with her name.

Nes-ta. Nes-ta. Nes-ta. Nes-ta. Nes-ta…

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Universal concept: Astral Plane

A universal concept for Heart

The Astral Plane is a realm wherein all identity is stored. It houses the soul of all things in their truest form. It is where the true essence of all things are located.

All players, carapacians, underlings and denizens
Some game constructs
All possible alchemical combinations

All of these things have source code, a fundamental piece of information. That source code comes from the Astral Plane where nothing can be created or destroyed, merely split or joined or converted/dissolved into something else.

General layout

The plane is near infinite and consists of millions of ever changing glowing columns. Some massive like a skyscraper, some like a house, and some like a mailbox. These pillars and columns are made from a crystal with their shape, design, and features being different depending on their nature.
These crystal columns store the source codes of every unique, identifiable thing. Each crystal has a name plate that says their true name, making them easy to identify.
Whenever a connection is made between souls, the energy from the crystals spark and create a link of flowing energy. When more lasting, permanent impressions are made, an orb of soul energy leaves a crystal and gets imparted by the crystal corresponding to the thing being spiritually affected.

There are many different types of crystals and they each reflect their source in size, density, color, and placement in relation to others.

The crystals for Breath players are usually floating, reflecting how their soul is not tied down
The crystals for lonely people are usually situated in somewhat isolated meadows
The crystals of Blood players are seen making connections very often, having multiple soul links and channels open at once

Larger, sturdier ones reflect key concepts and forces. They are almost always sending out orbs to create new pillars or making energy connections. Their soul is very “heavy” and “weighted” making them difficult to maneuver, but reliable. These are usually fundamental emotions like love, happiness, sadness, etc. and they are scattered all over the place. Genesis Frogs are the largest of all crystals. They are near impenetrable and house all of their own fundamental feelings as well as any soul within them.

When something is alchemized, the source code for those things join together. A floating orb of pure soul energy comes from their respective crystals and combine, making a new, charged crystal.

The general geography is like an infinite world. Fields, mountains, valleys, meadows, etc.
The weather of this world is created by the flowing of emotions in the general area. Enough sadness in an area will make it rain, enough anger in an area will cause a storm, so on and so on

Player crystals

The pillars for players are about as tall as their respective player. These are unique for their adaptiveness and, if god tiered, aspect energy flows into them, permanently changing their shade and pattern.

When it comes to players, the Alpha takes precedence, reflected in the overall shape, color, energy level, and general aura.
The essence of all timelines is stored within their crystal, though their unique signature will be buried further down.

When a Heart player splinters, their soul does exactly that. Their respective crystal sends out a small chunk of crystal, taking some of it’s energy with it. It splinters off, shaving some of itself off into a new entity, but is still very largely the same soul.

When a player permanently dies and floats through the Void as a ghost, they will eventually be absorbed by the Horrorterrors. When that happens, their crystal glows dimmer and begins to crack until their soul is gone, shattering the crystal into dust and small glowing particles that are absorbed and recycled into the crystals of anything the soul has come into contact with.

When a player goes grimdark, their crystal creates black sparks and makes black energy links with the nearby ground, reflecting the overpowering shadow majyyks infected the crystal, similar to uploading a virus to a computer

Sooo yeah! This is how Heart affects reality on a universal scale, storing the identity and essence of all things and keeping track of all souls in an organized chaos sort of way

anonymous asked:

Is there any character and/or episode that you feel should get more attention/love from the community in the original NGE ?

It’s actually a few characters I feel deserve more love from the Eva community (pertaining to the original show of course!). The same applies for the episode part of the question: it’s also a few.

More down below….


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fucking everything everything everything i do is undercut w/ the knowledge that my dog is dying. i cant eat or sleep or do my schoolwork without thinking about the fact that she’s going to be gone soon and i don’t know how to live without her. from here on out my life is never going to be as bright or warm or familiar as it’s been as it’s supposed to be as it should be. it’s not going to be ok. i’ll be okay, eventually, but the fact that she’s not going to be here anymore will never be ok. it will never be okay that she can’t live forever. i dont know if this makes sense to anyone else i dont care if it does or not i just need to put these thoughts somewhere outside of my head. she’s still here she’s just fading and i feel like im dying with her kinda 

 

Sun:  The Majestic Life Force
Rules Leo. Is exalted in Aries.
Governs creativity, self pronouncement, the ego, identity, spiritual search, soul expression, desires, potential, destiny, inner radiance. Esoterically understood to be governed by a higher heavenly dwelling.
Archetypes: The Golden Child, Divine Child, The Healer, The Creator, The Father

Moon: The Mystic Midwife
Rules Cancer. Is exalted in Taurus. Rules Virgo esoterically
Governs the feminine rhythms, the hidden self, emotions, internal tides and moods, self reflection, indwelling welfare needs, intuition, mysteries, ambiguity, memories, creativity, nostalgia and is understand to navigate one astrologically through childhood
Archetypes: The Mother, The Goddess, The Maiden, The Innocent, The Nurse

Mercury: The Media Network
Rules Gemini and Virgo. Is exalted in Virgo. Rules Aries esoterically
Governs communication, speech, media, broadcasting, telephones, writing, journalism, transport, intellect, thought process, verbal acuity, education, mischief and reason. Mercury is the traditional cosmic trickster
Archetypes: The Journalist, The Child, The Salesman, The Comedian, The Librarian

Venus: The Cupid Cove
Rules Taurus and Libra. Is exalted in Pisces. Rules Libra and Gemini esoterically   
Governs pleasure, romance, love, indulgence, glamour, materialism, joy, charm, seduction, creativity, amiability, parties, socialising, friendship, partnership, unity, the collective
Archetypes: The Lover, Love Goddess, The Tease, The Seductress

Mars: The Fiery Battlefield
Rules Aries and Scorpio. Is exalted in Capricorn.   
Governs conflict, spirit, vigour, energy, impulse, passion, desire, adventure, combat, aggression, confidence, violence, physical strength, destruction, impulse, stamina, romantic pursuit  

Archetypes: The Pioneer, The Rescuer, The Soldier, The Warrior


Jupiter: The Lucky Charm
Rules Sagittarius and Pisces. Exalted in Cancer. Rules Aquarius esoterically
Governs higher intellect, expansion, travel, higher education, philosophy, favour, fortune, prosperity, growth, joy, blessings, honour, laughter, luck, excitability, politics, religious theology, wisdom, success
Archetypes: The Godmother, The Philanthropist, The Benefic, The Politician


Saturn: The Wise wizard
Rules Capricorn and aquarius. Is exalted in Libra.
Governs civilisation, obstacle, ascension, ambition, practicality, wisdom, boundary, time, order, convention, remedial lesson, reality, social systemization, consequences, enlightenment
Archetypes: The Wise Old Man, Father Time, The Judge, The Militant


Uranus: The Electric Bubble
Rules Aquarius. Is exalted in Scorpio.
Governs technology, revolutions, progression, eccentricity, electricity, light, intuition, the New Age, rebellion, individualisation, secularisation, alchemy, science, radical ideas and people
Archetypes: The Outlaw, The Untested Spirit, The Rebel, The Wildchild

Neptune: A Celestial Bathe
Rules Pisces. Rules Cancer esoterically
Governs the collective unconscious, dreams, psychic sensitivity, fantasy, illusion, delusion, deception, allure, intrigue, sedation, drugs and alcohol, trance, mental illness, photoshop, enlightenment, healing   
Archetypes: The Guru, The Healer, The Psychic, The Psychotic

Pluto: Toxic Wasteland
Rules Scorpio   
Governs the underworld, the occult, poltergeists, intensity, destruction, subconscious urgency, God’s will, demons, sex, transformation, rebirth, the conversion of energy the traditional gatekeeper of concealed universal insight
Archetypes: The Detective, The Guardian, The Shadow

 

 

To Those Left Behind

Sakura knows the boy sleeping under the covers is not her son.

She exchanges a tentative look with Syaoran and is relieved when she sees the knowledge in his eyes too. She wasn’t sure he would remember their other son, but the blood of Clow running through his veins, no matter how diluted, gives him enough power. Enough to be a powerful sorcerer in his own right. Certainly more powerful than he was in her memories.

“He’s…” she tries to start and is unsurprised at how difficult it is to get the words out. “He’s not ours…”

A memory made from a wish, of time turned back and she shudders at the feeling. Memories like that always make her feel nauseous, and not only for the disassociation it gives her. Her mind is given memories of giving birth to a black haired boy that is a throwback to Syaoran’s ancestor, Clow while her body remembers giving birth to another boy.

“He’s ours,” Syaoran says firmly, resolutely. As sturdy as a tree and a mountain and his resolve has always been what she loves about him. “His soul…his magic and his existence was brought about by my other self. In essence, he is….”

In essence, he is the same, is what he would have said. Sakura understands what he means.

“My hands remember a different shape,” she whispers. She doesn’t know why she is uncertain. The pain of a mother is burning – lancing through her like a rod. She has just lost her son and gained another, along with a foreign host of memories that stand out in her mind, highlighted by the magic running in her veins.

“Your hands hold, no matter the shape. You will be fine. We will be fine,” Syaoran reassures her.

Her magic is powerful though, stronger than his and she knows that the twin-soul of their son will suffer much hardship unless they do something about it. It’s a relief to know that they could do something about it, unlike their other son.

“His name,” she whispers, feeling her magic stirring deep inside her. “Will be Watanuki Kimihiro. You must bury his name, Syaoran. Bury his real name, lest that Puppetmaster find him and use him as he had used us.”

Syaoran nods. “We will tell him the truth?”

Sakura feels a tear drop at what will happen when they do. “Yes. And he will go to the Shopkeeper and make his own choice.”

The rustling of sheets takes their attention and her son’s twin-soul is stirring. Syaoran gestures and the name buries itself, deep into the recesses of his memory, where only a wizard wielding Clow’s magic could open it.

“Kimihiro,” Sakura says softly. “Good morning.”

He blinks sleepily at her, eyes blue and innocent. Sakura remembers meeting Clow Reed in a dream, or a memory of him. Those same blue eyes blink at her from the bed and it takes all her willpower not to freeze.

“Good morning, mother,” he says. “I had a strange dream. Another boy was yelling at me, not to disappear.”

Sakura manages to hide a shudder. She knows who that boy was, somehow.

“Hold on to that, for a moment,” Syaoran says behind her. “It’s too early for dream interpretation. After breakfast, tell me about it.”

After breakfast, Kimihiro would likely forget the dream. Sakura exhales a quiet sigh of relief. She is not one to run from confrontation, but she would need time to gather her strength to do it first.

“You’re not joining us for breakfast?” Syaoran asks her, recognizing the look in her eyes.

“I have to prepare,” she murmurs, eyes already distant. “If he is to survive, I have to prepare. You have started the first step, I’ll take care of the rest.”

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…I can’t take this

My heart is hurting.

Tonight’s episode is a roller coaster ride and I don’t know whether to laugh or cry.

Mostly cry because my chest hurts right now and I am sad af.

So where do I begin?


Yes we got sexy half naked Lucifer (seriously what is with that close up of his abs?? Clearly Tom’s workouts are paying off)

And yes we did get funny momenta like Ella trying to tell Chloe Marcus is into her. And honestly they were pretty cute together (DECKERSTAR ALWAYS, DECKERSTAR ALWAYS OKAY? Okay).

But the fact that Lucifer isn’t even realizing that he is getting his buttons pushed by Marcus which results in him creating a weed ring (which is so not okay in Chloe’s book) and scaring the living wits out of the suspect, and THEN WE GAVE CHLOE LOOKING OVER LUCI’S SHOULDER SO AS TO LOOK AT MARCUS AND SHE EVEN LEAVES HIM TO GO CHECK ON MARCUS AND LUCI IS SO HURT

LIKE DO YOU KNOW THAT VINE OF THAT GIRL SINGING, “WHEN YOU HEAR THAT HEART SNAP?”

OR THAT BART SIMPSON GIF IN WHICH BART STATES TO LISA OF PINPOINTING THE SECOND WHEN THE PERSON HE’S MENTIONING HAS HIS HEART RIPPED IN HALF??

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CAUSE THAT’S LUCIFER IN THAT SCENE.

ALSO CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE FACT THAT CHLOE GOT MARCUS A FRUIT BASKET AT LEAST A GIFT FOR TAKING A BULLET FOR HER BUT NOT FOR LUCIFER WHEN HE TOOK A BULLET FROM MALCOLM TO SAVE CHLOE AND ACTUALLY DIED? LIKE LEGIT DIIEEEDDD??

Of course Chloe doesn’t believe he died, BUT HELLO? HE TOOK THAT BULLET FOR YOU, GIRL.

Let’s just say for now she doesn’t know that Lucifer went back to Hell for Chloe (essentially making him having to die twice to save her) but my gosh once she finds out, oh man… the guilt though. AND I’M TELLING YOU THERE’S GOING TO BE A BLOWUP FIGHT BETWEEN THEM AND I CAN GIVE A WHOLE LOT OF ANGSTY THEORIES LIKE HOW LUCI LOSES HIMSELF IN A BREAKDOWN AND JUST CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE AND LOSES HIS WILL TO LIVE. CHLOE IS LEAVING HIM AND HIS IDENTITY IS GONE AND HE JUST WANTS IT ALL TO END.

CUE THE SINNERMAN AND SOMEONE’S GOING TO DIE AND I CAN TELL YOU ITS LUCIFER. I’M CALLING IT NOW.

LUCIFER IS GOING TO BE THE ONE DYING THIS TIME AND CHLOE IS GOING TO SAVE HIS ASS NOW.


And then we have Amenadiel and Lucifer talking and Lucifer is just trying to push Amenadiel away after his big bro says he’s going to be there for him by saying Amenadiel reminds him of this soul he used to torture that is so full of self-loathing and lack of self-respect that any attention given to this soul is what gives him existence.

Boi.

BOOIIIIIII.

LUCI YOU ARE DESCRIBING YOURSELF!

HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU PUNISHED YOURSELF? AFTER URIEL’S DEATH. CUTTING OFF YOUR WINGS (I HAVE A THEORY MAYBE ITS NOT JUST THAT HE DOESN’T IDENTIFY HIMSELF AS AN ANGEL ANYMORE BUT HE DOESN’T DESERVE THEM) AND BY BEATING THAT GUY UP BECAUSE YOU COULDN’T PROTECT CHLOE WHEN SHE NEARLY GOT SHOT.

EVEN AMENADIEL SAYS THIS.

“But I wasn’t there.” - Lucifer Morningstar

AND THEN AMENADIEL IS LIKE, “YEAH WE DID THIS DANCE BEFORE BUT I’M NOT FALLING FOR IT AGAIN.” AMENADIEL BEING THE GOOD BIG BROTHER AND HAVING LUCI’S BACK EVEN WHEN LUCIFER DOESN’T WANT IT AND LUCI JUST CAN’T COMPREHEND THAT AND HE HAS A BREAKDOWN/FIT.


Lucifer who has been alone and loathed for all these centuries suddenly finding people who seems to care about him? HE JUST CAN’T COMPREHEND IT.

And when he stares at his own reflection in the mirror he broke, shattered there before his eyes?

You know what I think it signifies?

That not just is his identity broken but also his soul. That oh so lonely soul deep down, that he as a person, is just utterly broken. He is a broken being.


And seeing that shattered soul broke my own heart too.

Why did Hillel say that this is “the entire Torah”? Granted that it is the essence of all mitzvot governing our behavior “between man and man”; but the Torah also includes many mitzvot that are in the realm of “between man and G‑d.” In what way is the mitzvah to “Love your fellow as yourself” the essence of mitzvot such as praying, or ceasing work on Shabbat? The explanation can be found in the answer to another question: How is it possible to love another “as yourself”? Are not self and fellow two distinct entities, so that however closely they may be bound, the other will always be other, and never wholly as the self? As physical beings, one’s self and one’s fellow are indeed two distinct entities. As spiritual beings, however, they are ultimately one, for all souls are of a single essence, united in their source in G‑d. As long as one regards the physical self as the true “I” and the soul as something this I “has”, one will never truly love the other “as oneself.” But if the soul is the “I” and the body but its tool and extension, one can come to recognize that “self” and “fellow” are but two expressions of a singular essence, so that all that one desires for oneself, one equally desires for one’s fellow. Otherwise stated, the endeavor to love one’s fellow as oneself is the endeavor to cultivate one’s own spiritual identity; to see the soul and spirit as the true and ultimate reality, and the body and the material as extraneous and subservient to it. This is the entire Torah.
—  Rabbi Schneur Zalman of Liadi