idek why i made this but whatever

Rejection

Anonymous said:How about the Reader works at the BAU, and she’s had a crush on Spencer for a long time, but keeps getting rejected- i.e. Spencer telling her not to call him Spence - and when Reader and JJ get kidnapped by an unsub, Spencer runs past her to get JJ instead. Reader rejects help from the other team mates despite her injuries, and goes on break? Maybe the the team stands up for her and comes to check on her? (Idek why this is so long, This is why I don’t write)

A/N: I’m not sure how you wanted this to end, so I made up an ending. :) I hope you enjoy!

Originally posted by jeichanhaka


I glanced across the carpeted aisle at Spencer Reid, sitting at his desk. His head was down, and strands of his wild curls fell into his face. He looked intently focused on whatever he was looking at. I found myself so enthralled with him that I was even desperate to know what was on that piece of paper. 

I took a deep breath and got up from my own desk, grabbing my coffee cup as I went. I stopped next to Reid’s desk and he glanced up at me. 

“Hey, Spence, what are you reading?” I asked. Something flickered behind his eyes and he brushed his hair away. 

“Please don’t call me that,” he said shortly, and then his gaze was determinedly set back on the paper, the content of which I still didn’t know. I sighed and went on to get my coffee. 

Spencer Reid had been rejecting me since I arrived at the BAU. After six months, he still barely spoke to me. As for me, I thought he was possibly the most interesting, wonderful human being I had ever met, and I was completely baffled as to why he seemed to hate me so much. As I poured myself some coffee, I glanced back over to Spencer, who was deftly ignoring my existence. 

Sighing again, I headed back to my desk.  



Bloody and beaten, I was more than relieved when I saw the red and blue flashing lights. I didn’t know if they had caught the unsub yet, and that thought hovered at the back of my mind. However, it was largely pushed aside by the intense flood of relief that they had found us. JJ and I had been taken by the unsub, and I didn’t know how long it had been but I did know it was longer than a day. I was certain that the team had been working tirelessly to find us, and as the large door to the building slid open and bright lights flooded in, hindered only by the silhouettes of our team members as they came inside. One of my eyes was swollen shut, but I had plenty of visibility; it was certainly enough to see Spencer as he rushed past me without a glance to get to JJ. 

Even as the ambulances arrived and we went to the hospital, and then were treated for injuries and released, Spencer never so much as glanced in my direction. The rest of the team took turns, all of them coming to check on each of us more than once. 

But not Spencer. When he wasn’t checking on JJ, he was standing out in the hall or somewhere else, as far from me as he could get. After the ordeal of my kidnapping, I found myself without the strength to try to deal with Spencer. It was exhausting, and with everything that was going on made the whole ordeal seem so overwhelming. 

During my leave of absence after my kidnapping, I spent most of my time sitting around doing nothing. I thought a lot about Spencer. 

I couldn’t help but wonder what I had done wrong, if anything, to make him feel so strongly against me. I had been trying, desperately, to get his attention and figure out what I was doing wrong so that I could fix it, whatever it was. 

I was sitting at my apartment one afternoon when there was a soft, rhythmic knock on the door. Still moving slowly, although doing better than I had been before, I headed toward the door. When I opened it, I froze. 

Spencer Reid stood on the other side, his leather messenger bag slung over his shoulder, his expression unreadable. 

“Reid,” I said. 

“Spencer,” he amended quietly. Suddenly, it had become very apparent that this side of Spencer was not the same side I had been exposed to previously. 

“Come in,” I said after a moment, and Spencer stepped into my apartment. He looked around, his calculating eyes scanning my bookshelves. 

“You have a really nice collection over there,” he remarked, and I stared at him. 

“What the hell is going on?” I asked. 

He sighed. 

“(Y/N), I came here to tell you that I’m sorry for acting the way I have towards you,” he said. 

I sat down on my couch and looked up at him for a moment. 

“Sit down, Spencer,” I sighed. He did, perching awkwardly on the edge of my armchair. 

“What happened?” I asked. 

“JJ and Emily happened,” he admitted. “They sat down with me and they told me how much I was hurting you. I…” he trailed off, and sighed. 

“I never meant to hurt you,” he finished. 

“Really?” I asked. “Then why did you treat me that way, Reid?”

“Because,” he exclaimed. “Because I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t know how to act around you, I couldn’t think straight or hear myself when you would talk to me. You messed things up in my brain and I was scared.”

I stared at him. Following his outburst, I could feel myself already beginning to thaw. 

“Scared of what, Spencer?” I asked, my tone more gentle now. 

“Scared that what happened with Maeve would happen all over again if I let myself love someone else the way I loved her.” 

I felt my world slowly spin to a stop. 

I had heard about Maeve; the whole thing had undoubtedly had affected Spencer, but what he was saying to me now made everything fall into place. 

“Oh,” I said softly. 

“Are you okay?” he asked. I looked up to find his expression no longer guarded, but rather filled with emotion. 

“What?” I asked. He bit his lip and sighed slightly, his gaze moving up and down my body. 

“Are you okay?” he asked again. “The abduction,” he explained. “I’ve been worried about you,” he added softly, almost so softly that I didn’t hear him. 

“Yeah, I’m okay,” I said. “I’ll be back at work next week.” 

“I really am sorry,” he said. “I didn’t mean to hurt you, and I’m sorry that I did. I’ll see you at work next week.” He had already stood in a movement to leave, but I stood as well and stepped in front of him, looking up into his inquisitive face. 

“Spencer, do you have feelings for me?” I asked boldly. 

He hesitated, but then nodded slowly. 

“Yes,” he admitted. I leaned in and kissed him, warm and quick on his pale lips. He tasted of cinnamon. 

He stared at me, shocked. 

“How about you stop being mean to me?” I suggested. “And I’ll make some coffee for us both.” 

Spencer nodded slowly. 

“Okay,” he agreed, hesitantly taking his shoulder bag off and setting it down next to the chair he’d been sitting in. 

As he followed me into the kitchen, I shook my head. 

I guess it just goes to show, things aren’t always what they seem. 

Some fanart I made for @pikaiscool ^^ 

I already posted this on my main but I’ve officially lost it in my endless stream of reblogging, so I figured why not make it my first post on my brand new Art Blog™. Just so you know it’s strictly my art over here, not whatever my main is. Idek anymore. Anyway… sorry for the shit bg, I pulled it from my dA and this is how it looks transparent… and the drawing is surprisingly hard to see with a white bg. 

Shen, idk if you’ll see this, but I’m sorry for whatever’s going on. I just thought it worth it to mention that I think you’re an incredible person that deserves everything. I’m sorry that you’ve been struggling ever since you’ve gotten home, but if there’s anyone who can do this, you can. Just keep your head up >w< oh, and one more thing… I’m sorry about all this Witch-hunter shit going on rn, it sucks. That’s really an understatement… just remember that time will work itself out <3 you’ve got this.

Hey, so, I guess this is considered late to add here already and is probably a pretty risky choice, but I’m the owner of the art shop who doesn’t draw LGBT+ shippings. I don’t have a Tumblr but I guess I can post anyways? Not quite sure how this works I’ve never actually been here before.
But anyways, idk how best to start this. I’ve edited a message in my art shop which I guess I’ll just copy+paste here n edit out irrelevant stuff (as in would only really be relevant if I haven’t already mentioned the situation):
“I wish to clarify that I do not hold anything against the LGBT+ community nor do I wish them any harm, and I do not see any kind of LGBT+ romance as sexual when it wouldn’t be if it were a straight couple as I’ve heard people implied. I don’t care if you’re gay or trans, heck, I don’t even care if you’re gay and married, I simply don’t agree with it as it goes against my personal beliefs, much in the same way as I do not agree with atheism. I do not refuse orders from those from LGBT+ and I’m not scared to talk to, be friends with (I already am in fact and I legit don’t care), or order service from them, in other words I don’t treat them or think of them any differently except in the direct aspect of those beliefs. I sincerely apologize for any misunderstanding or offense/harm from this refusal to affiliate. I never intended any harm in refusal to draw LGBT+ content (and again, I will still draw characters who are (and in addition although I don’t think I explicitly stated this I WILL draw LGBT+ characters doing things like holding hands or hugging as long as it is not clearly romantic in manner). I don’t see those of LGBT+ as any less human than anyone else and I really hope you don’t think I do. I also don’t hold anything against whoever shared my art shop in this way or whoever contributed to their argument, although I do wish they had found a respectful way to take their problems with my shop up with me privately. I don’t want to harm anyone, if I do I really want to know what I could fix or do better, I know I’m human like everyone else and I’m willing to hear if someone thinks I’ve made a mistake as long as they present it in a respectful manner.
I’ve also edited my statement that I won’t draw LGBT+ in hopes to make it clearer I hold no ill will towards them. Again, I apologize for any misunderstandings or harm that’s come from it. I realize now that I should’ve been clearer as this can be a sensitive topic.

I noticed one issue I’d really like to address, the story about me commissioning someone and “deleting all traces of their art from my account as well as flipping out” upon learning they were gay/trans is NOT true in ANY way. They’ve provided not a shred of proof and I’m honestly pretty shocked that people would believe them. The closest I’ve come to deleting any trace of art is when I completely cleared my dragons’ bios in preparation for a change of plans with them (which I never got around to), but my posts asking/thanking people for the art are all still there and I’ve saved all of the art I received.”

So on actually being here there are a few more things I’d like to address that I didn’t want to make the focus of my art shop (I don’t even want to leave that message there forever but idek when I can).
There were a lot of assumptions that both op and others made that I’d like to clarify on…

When they said I “don’t believe in gay marriage”, they were using arguments of others who don’t agree with gay marriage. I don’t share these beliefs nor have I ever said so.

About the whole gore vs nsfw vs LGBT+ n light romance stuff thing. Gore has never really bothered me. It’s just always been that way. Idk why or whatever but it’s just normal to me that I wouldn’t be bothered by it, I honestly don’t quite get why people are making such a fuss about just gore in general when it has nothing to do with LGBT+. That they said I’d be willing to draw gore that breaks the rules of FR is also an assumption. I took it that people would get that I respect the rules of FR in putting my basic “anything against its rules” thing, and thus get where the boundaries are. If those rules weren’t in place sure I would draw those things on there but I respect the staff and their decisions.
I don’t like things that are too sexual in manner. That’s kind of another “just always been that way” thing. Some people hate gore and are completely fine with sexual content, some people are vice versa, and some either hate or are fine with both. And it’s not strange that they would, those are two entirely different things. LGBT+ and nsfw are also two entirely different things to me, hence my putting them in two different rules. I didn’t mean for them to correlate in any way and I’m sorry for the misunderstandings in that area.
With the general romance, this is because of my personal beliefs. I’m fine with people holding hands or hugging or other things like that, but as I don’t agree with LGBT+ I would prefer not to draw ship art of that content. And I place stress on the word content because I think this is where most of the misunderstandings come from. I don’t hold a single thing against LGBT+, I see them as equals like I see atheists as equals (as I’ve made the comparison, I know they are different things but I’m just trying to make it clearer how I see this subject since it can be very sensitive and it’s where assumptions and all that eventually come natural after seeing so much of it).

Since I’ve also seen some saying things about their rights and all, I’d like to add that I actually don’t think gay marriage should be illegal, since that’s usually where those kinds of words are based on. I don’t think laws should be based simply on things of that sort that I disagree on.

And I’d like to brush over this again since I was genuinely shocked to see this. I have never, ever said anything derogatory to anyone I’ve ever commissioned, especially not on the grounds that they were a part of LGBT+. I don’t even have any idea if anyone I’ve commissioned even was a part of the LGBT+ community and I don’t care. I’d like to remind everyone that they have no evidence whatsoever for their claim. I’m willing to work with anyone if they think of how I can show proof of otherwise, but really if there wasn’t anything that happened I don’t know where to start myself since it wouldn’t leave anything.
And lastly, you might be better off pming me if you want a reply, like I said I don’t have a Tumblr and I don’t really know how this site works so idk if I can reply to anything else. My username’s already been dropped, I’ve already received a few (thankfully polite and even supportive) messages. The op shared a considerable chunk of what I’ve said (it may have not seemed like much but all you need is a few sentences, sometimes even just one), given away the site and even the topic of my post, and initials for my username. I never really had much of a chance to stay anonymous with all of that so I wouldn’t be surprised with getting more.
Again, I don’t hold anything against anyone here. I’m honestly just scared. I’m not trying to guilt trip anyone but I really am scared because I don’t want to be remembered like this and I don’t want to lose people I might’ve even been friends with if it weren’t for difference of beliefs, I don’t want people to hate me or be mad at me. That’s not something I want to cause and I’m really sorry I did.

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Made some aro wallpapers because I found we were severely lacking in that respect when I was looking for some to use. Sorry about the colors not being perfect. Feel free to use them for whatever! ^.^ Make sure you enlarge them cause otherwise you won’t see the details!

asexual wallpapers | aro ace wallpapers | my other edits

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Akatsuki no Yona - OP 2

anonymous asked:

just wondering why do you think its at all okay or cool or whatever to change a healthy age dynamic into something pedophilic? why would you choose to represent iwaizumi as a pedophile?

Whaa…. Look dude, #age difference and #underage are two different things.

Idek in my mind it was a 19 year old pining after a 22 or something year old??? Like not that big of a deal, more like position kink??

Also I made Oikawa short cus it seemed funny to think if he hit late growth spurt, and became taller later on funny af, but that’s probably just me

I didn’t really know how to answer this because I never drew this stuff pedophilia in mind.

random makeup tips cause why not:

  • to apply mascara on your upper lashes tilt your head all the way back and to apply it on the lower lashes tilt your head down (and also use a left to right rather than up and down movement when doing the lower lashes). this creates more room between the tips of your eyelashes and your skin.
  • i like to work moisturizer -> bb cream -> eyes -> face ->lips, although once you get the application of mascara down to a fine art always apply it at the end so that any powder you use on your face doesn’t end up all over your now wasted mascara
  • hand mirrors save lives (by providing proper lighting), but always look back from your work cause something that might look awesome on a small scale is actually a disaster now living on your face
  • i know people who claim that winging out their eyeliner is the way most convenient to them, but this has never worked well for me. so if you have problems applying eyeliner maybe do what i do and draw the wing part of the line from the outside in towards your eye, i personally get a much cleaner straight line out of it and it’s easier to even out the two eyes. also buy a cheap eyeliner pen (looks like a marker) from essence or elf and graduate to a brush-tipped one never
  • foundation that keeps looking streaky when you apply it probably needs to be tapped on. if you don’t want to invest in a brush (and honestly fingers work just as well in this case) apply a small amount to your middle finger -> smoosh your two middle fingers to get product on both -> start applying it on your cheeks by tapping your skin with your fingertips -> move it by rapidly tapping around your cheeks and then everywhere else -> it looks scary but i promise it evens out naturally if you keep tapping -> build up the foundation as you deem necessary
  • the matte-r the lipstick the longer it usually lasts
  • lip liner is essential for a crisp bold lip, but don’t forget a lip brush (doesn’t have to be expensive) for the lipstick and an angle liner brush (the thin non-fluffy one cut at a slant - also doesn’t have to be expensive) to apply concealer
  • avoid bold lipsticks you haven’t stress-tested in situations where looking like the joker might be a major problem, this applies to high end brands as well and might even change from color to color
  • smudger brushes are probably my most used cause i like to soften my black pencil liner and blend it out. you can also create a soft cat eye by just picking up heavily applied pencil liner and making the wing with the smudger. also use it to apply a dark but not black liner or shadow under your lower lashes really brings a look together
  • the following are makeup sins so use your own judgement but:
  • i absolutely love borrowing my friends’ makeup. unless one of you is sick, or has a sore or whatever, you’re probably going to be fine. i’ve survived without any problems. it’s a great way to check out new colors and products, though you better avoid certain ones if you have sensitive eyes, skin etc,
  • i don’t throw out makeup that hasn’t lost its consistency or doesn’t smell weird etc. i’ve had the same tube of mascara for the past two years and an eyeliner pencil and blush for the past 5 and everything works just fine and they haven’t finished so whatever. i live life on the edge.
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“I don’t run from monsters. They run from me.”

HAPPY NEW YEAR MY FOLLOWERS AND FRIENDS WHO ARE PIECES OF SHIT I hope your new year comes with happiness, prosperity, confidence, miracles, and self love. I wanted to thank the following people who have made my last couple of months on tumblr a second home.  

just wanted to shout out to these guys for being with me throughout the years because they knew me before I deactivated and we’re still friends to this day. I love you guys a lot and I’m sorry for constantly snapchatting but yah get used to it lol (and i swear over the past couple days, i came off as high but im really not lmfao. i just love puns and dumb questions) @miniheartfeels @kago-make-dean-some-pie @the-creepy-unicorn (you guys shes taking art requests on her art blog @drawing-unicorns and shes like phenomenal so go request) @idek-valentine @nikiforov-yuuri @kilin-trash @yer-a-fairytailwizard-natsu

My new mates that I made in like the first couple of months upon reactivation. You guys are like the Tumblr soulmates and I’m so thankful for you guys Punmasters: @erzawesome (bruh I keep on wanting to say your URL is aleena XD) @doctorwhodunit @cant-bokutouch-this WHY ARE ALL YALL DAMN NAME PUNS IM SICK OF YALL

 Tagging people by whatever category lol 

 The Floridians. What’s it like being closer to hell and how do y'all deal with hurricanes: @fucking-dragneel @fairytailsgemini 

 Some part of the USA that’s not close to me obvi: @gruviaforlife @idek-valentine @thecrowalchemist @thatartcorner @thatcrazyfangir1 @miss-zei @cosmicloveoftheages @melichamaa (i think youre from murica. i honestly dont know but just know i love you lol) @daydreamingburrito@lucyheartfiliaxxnatsudragneel @queenheiwa@neato-ft @thespace-dragon @blade-of-hope 

 The shade room: @googler49 @lillitu @madamevil

The Bi Bean Lancaster Machine: @black-cats-bring-good-luck (I really suck at holding convos so I apologize for you wanting to be my friend and I suck at trying to be lol) 

 The gif master: @anime-an-cats 

 The VIP/ Hall of Fame Follower: @khamillahsstrive 

 The “idek how we started but we just clicked”: and did you start drama -__- @senseichoptitties 

 Got damn Europeans like why y'all had to be born there: @rain-on-me @thevampgirl19 (she is my lil sister and ill gladly fight if you steal her away from me) @conyane (youre so precious. i know its legit only been like a couple of days since we started talking but youre honestly adorable and i hope you get out of your shy zone because people will love you just like how i do) @lucyheartfiliavevo @toomusiccheesecake @kasumifates (my response time is horrible so im sorry BUT  I DONT LIKE HOW YOU CAME TO ME SWEET AS EVER and you just lowkey a bish on some real shit like fight me) @pennytf @m-hamartithia 

My fellow Spanish people who plans to help my fluency although idk how so GOOD LUCK BUT I LOVE YALL THOUGH: @ginamontier (the love of the language has brought us together and our constant snapchatting brings us even closer. expect more coming your way cause you are stuck with me mwahahahahaha) @shinywings1 (AGAIN ALL I CAN DO IS APOLOGIZE. IVE BEEN ON AND OFF ON HERE but omg thank you so much like thank you for teaching me about the language as well as your culture as well. youre really fun to talk to like i was so hype when you said you were into fairy tail cause i thought we would only talk when it came to spanish lol) @nymphnayade (i owe you a lot cause youre too sweet and again i suck at responding) 

My fellow lovelies of Asia with time zones that make me wanna kms: @juviarainworld @asrainoyume @baerandish 

 Aye aye matey with a crickey crocodile(do you even say crikey): @meadowofstars 

 The marriage squad: @oneofthewolfchildren @nikiforov-yuuri @gay-trash-cats 

 And all these other lovely people! @be-a-super-human (im sorry for not responding a lot but thank you for the laughs and you just better be apart of a big magazine corporation when you get older) @wendychuu (dude your juvia is fine lol like you dont need to make a ‘better’ one like you wanted to. i reallly appreaciate it because it wasnt expected) @omgsniarf @aerithneko @thedragneellucy @janatscake @smashley-03 @mrsallsunday @liviona @watchmist1412 @awkwardyunyoo22 @leashykitty-chan @rigolotekitten @yvvri @ratcopters @erwiinsmith @wildest-dreams-at-midnight @phantompierce-okamoto @lucyheartfiliathecelestialmage @sanguine-fairy @endragoneel @tsunderegirl13 @tea-lief @jiyu-koya @buberryz @empowerlucy @unashamed-shipper @im-natsu-sure-about-this @imfabulous69 @indayiashow @impracticaldemon @envinxx @celestialgoddesslucy @illustraice @atrailof-whispers @roar-of-the-fire-dragon @roxychild94 @celestialmagelucy @celestiallucyheartfilia @blue-rika @hannahstokesy @zukosfangirl(how many damn blogs do you have lol cause i see them) @swagsorcist @celestialyukino77 @terironi @celestialheartmage  @aerithneko@lumenfairytail @lucy-heartflawless @phantompierce-okamoto @air-of-fire @nalumage @nalu-natic @tardisesandtitans @krystal-tsuki @lord-rogue @faelise @seilahtheshipper @natsu-dragmeme @natsu–firedragon @mangiepieft @avnai @seulil @alwaysnarichtsu @miraclealchemist @minammi @moonlustelara @fangirlingatmidnight @phantompierce-okamoto @passionmangas-mb @sagventurous @saradauchiha @akamethereaper @iceskatinghoe @heavenlybodiedjellal @icequeen009 @dreamsofria @stardresss @startgj @selenba @indayiashow @flip-a-dip-me-off @shadowhawthorne @starburstskies@llamabeansforllamas @doginshoe @christinelucka @dragneelmedown@lilawinters112299 @eesaflo @raprap-kun @tendous-satoris @pokenuzleaf @skyfairhurst @the-mystifiying-walnut @larakurdi28 @faesass @pityamnesia @fairiesinthemeadow @theshelbylee @infinitefangirlsquared @endragoniru @elieglory3173  @schizo-baby @gruviiaaa @msmanga14 @hymad@sunflower–sasuke @acilegna8 @juviin @pessimistic-neon-narwhales 

 My hands hurt now lol #mobilelife

My lovely romanian lettuce is taking requests @drawing-unicorns so mmmhmm go do that right now. go follow. go request and yes i know i did this twice

okay im done but thank you guys for everything!

anonymous asked:

its an app?? i dont like it. it seems like theyre giving in to society or whatever??? like with the book and now a game, they're just like copying everyone else i guess. where did all of their creativity go smh

i’m ok with the app!! it’s original!!! it’s a game not smth that tells us when their vids are out or whatever !!!!! it’s original content !!!!!!

like i don’t get why people are like “lmao APP ! smh so UNORIGINAL !!!!!!!!” like um i can see if it were a dumb app like marcus or joe’s app (or whoever else has an app idek does joe even have one i think he does i don’t watch them) but it’s literally a game !!!!!!!! that phil made up !!!!!!!!! with his own head !!!!! it’s like you’re saying that any app creator is unoriginal for creating an app ????

i can get why ppl are upset about the $$$ but not the fact that it’s literally an app