idek if that word exists lmao

anonymous asked:

Hey Nai so I know last year during hiatus you made sort of like a fanvid masterpost do you think you can link it to me? Also do you have any new ones? It's only been 3 days and the hiatus is already hitting me hard lol

this hiatus already has me on the floor i will never understand how i managed to survive the almost 11 month hiatus between s2 and s3 i already want death.

okay so here’s the old list and i’m going to make an actual kind of proper list this time. or at least try to. let’s see how this goes.

Post Season 4 Fanvids

10 000 MILES

  • okay like… holy shit?? this is so soft and tender and sweet but at the same time it’s gonna rip your heart out and crush it in front of your face so y’know. hope you like pain!
  • (bonus: this person has made a fanvid for every. single. episode. this season. honestly, the highlight of my thursdays were getting up and watching these lmao)

YOU WERE ALWAYS COMING HOME

  • omg omg omg omg GUYS my heart hurts this is just so… idek i have no words to describe it, it’s just so great and like most vids on this list, it’ll leave you crying

I LEFT HER BEHIND (OCEANS)

  • this motherfucking song is the bane of my existence like i just need to hear the first few words and then boom. tears. it’s cool i’ve accepted that this is what my life is right now.

I LEFT HER BEHIND (ALL I WANT)

  • i think i’ve said this before but ‘all i want’ is the bellarke song for me. i know the show uses an original score (fuck you tree adams for making me cry with ‘bellamy and clarke’ and ‘i see you’) but this is bellarke for me.

I SEE YOU

  • speaking of ‘i see you’ SOMEONE MADE A BELLARKE VID TO THAT TOO like bitch have mercy on my soul please this isn’t fair at all who gave you the right

WHAT’S A SOULMATE?

  • i think on my original list i have a video of the same name but LISTEN. the what’s a soulmate bit breaks me every time (is it from dawson’s creek i think it’s from dawson’s creek) and it’s just so so good.

THE BRAIN AND THE HEART

  • okay. okay okay okay okay. this video is almost ELEVEN MINUTES LONG. yes. you read that correctly. eleven. 11 minutes. i cried like 3 different times. i craved the embrace of death. i will never be whole again.

SAY SOMETHING

  • i’m saying something alright. that something is ‘yea what the fuck m8.’

LOVER I’LL BE HOME

  • i wanna set myself on fire it’ll probably hurt less

LIGHTS WILL GUIDE YOU HOME

  • i know that fix you by coldplay is generally overused in fanvids and gifsets and shit but like. ask me if a give a fuck when i’m bawling into my pillow. because the answer is no. i could not care less.

HOW THEY FELL IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER

  • this is pretty much bellarke from 1x01 to 4x13 and i’m just here clutching my blanket pointing at my screen going ‘look at my babies! look how much they’ve grown!’ i’m a wreck tbh.

TELL ME SOME THINGS LAST

  • this isn’t fair. why do all these videos hurt me like what the fuck.

MY WAY OF STAYING SANE

  • yo fuck you this song choice is… wow. and ouch. mostly ouch. it’s so soft but it hurts so much.

ARMS

  • it’s cool it’s fine lemme just go outside and scream until my lungs give out hahahaha i’m fine

OTHER FANVID RECS:

i’m not gonna go off too much on these because like. this is already getting long. sorry i can’t shut up.