So, I hadn’t really intended to address the matter but I’m receiving a lot of asks and pm’s about it + it’s in the press here so i might as well just get it out of the way real quickly. Two metastases (new tumors created by the main one) have been found in my dad’s liver and it’s shitty but that’s just the way it is. I’d rather not discuss it and while i really am super appreciative of all your support and kindness I would rather not receive asks or stuff about it. I’m finishing up final exams and shit and i just need to focus on the things that i actually have control over (like my grades). so thank you all and i hope this answered your questions.
I’m too lazy to send individual asks so I’m just gunna tag some of my closest friends on here!!
@kollectionn - omg where do I even start C, you were the first fic writer I ever really spoke to on a personal level and I love our friendship (as much as you want to murder me) I am honestly your biggest fan, I’ve known you since the start of the year but i was a fan before I realised it was you whoops!!! I fangirled so hard when you messaged me on my birthday and I fangirl everyday as your friend. I have really seen the growth and development in your writing as your series has grown, no-one can set a scene and build a world the way you do and I scream constantly that you let me be apart of it, I’m just so excited for what’s to come! I love you!! You also bribed me into posting my first fic and are always happy to edit and give feedback to help me improve and I can never express how grateful I am for that ❤💕
@pikayeollie my supporter and hypewoman I’m putting you here because you inspire me and encourage me and I wouldn’t be writing if I didn’t have such a great support system with you at the heart!💕
@eradikeats-writes we’ve only know each other a few months but you are one of my best friends and wife here, I’ve only started reading your works over the last month BUT HOLY SHIT MATE YOU ARE SO TALENTED YOU REALLY KNOW HOW TO MAKE A BINCH CRY. I love your writing style it’s like reading art and it’s something i’ll never tire of, basically I am a fan for life and I love you! I also appreciate your hype, support and help in my own writing and I’ve learnt alot from you already 💚💚
@praisekinkchenanon my other wife!! I remember when you first sent me bits of your writing and I was hooked. You single handedly snatched my ass from mork and handed me off to Jaebum with your words so thanks for that. I am also a huge fan of your exo series!! (Sweats cuz of the sin) I love the different approach to the universe and I’m not being biased when I say I love your writing and will literally eat up anything you put out!! 💕💕
@rudeboywonho PLEASE STOP HURTING ME IN YOUR QUEST TO HURT OTHERS I AM FRAGILE!! In all seriousness you are another writer who’s works I am in love with (on top of being the best and most devious friend mwuhhaha) anyway your Kihyun vamp series I am very much looking forward to and I want to fight you over the many drabbles you’ve nearly killed me with! 💚
@kpopfanfictrash shady shanna you are my arch nemesis you have hurt me so much and you are also one of my favourite tumblr writers. I have followed you for the longest time and I’m still in shock that you choose me as a friend. Most of the things I say to you are incoherent screamings but i also want to say how much I look up to you as a writer, you really do inspire me and this is the gushiest thing you’ll ever get from me and I will be back to the usual hoery shortly. Anyway I love you and our shared baekhyun mullet enthusiasm!!! ❤❤
@the-porcelain-doll-xo I binge read your entire masterlist in a weekend and what a WILD RIDE THAT WAS!! I am a falfan for life! You are also one of the sweetest and most disgusting hoes I know and I really love you for that! You are another writer I really look up to and if I can get to a tenth of your level I will feel accomplished!! Working alongside you really drives me to work harder and I just appreciate what you create so much 💕💕
@yoonseoksofty my sopemate!! I feel you underestimate your talents alot and I just want you to realise how amazing you are!! I am 100% here to support you in all the soft youngjae and yoonseok you want to produce!! 💚
@baebae-goodnight an actual moodboard queen and my fellow rookie writer. We both started writing around the same time and you have been another massive support. You really help me look deeper into what I write and build feelings and surroundings. I am also your number 1 fan and hypewoman and will continue to rave about your work even when you feel unsure about it!
@daegusoftboys your writing has literally moved me to tears or made my break our into a sweat. When I first met you i thought you were this nice soft writer who left me with warm fuzzies BINCH WAS I WRONG!
hey lads this is a reminder that even the shittiest days can get better or you’ll at least get through them. today i felt worse than i have in months, i was having a full on mental breakdown and I was honestly really close to just ending it all but it got better and I’m genuinely in a good mood right now. tomorrow might be bad again but yknow if it is I’ll be ok. reach out to someone when you feel bad, ask for help, spend time with a loved one if you can, it’ll be ok
Hi Aurora okay first tysm for your blog It's so lovely to have another person so passionate about my fave things (i.e hp and period dramas) Anyway, i recently read the HP series (again) and found myself feeling SO MUCH. I genuinely teared up at so many different touching parts and I was just wondering what are your favorite most heart-wrenching/emotional parts from the books? I realize this is a lengthy quesition so feel free to never answer this or take a year.
ye S SS i love being passionate ab things and sharing that passion w my followers!!!!! i love yall esp when u ask me questions like this where i get to talk ab my fave things everrrrrrrrr (ps thank u so much for letting me take forever to answer this ur so cute to say that ilysm)
ok so literally i will cry my way thru the entire series when i reread bc harry potter has so much emotional weight for me and so many memories that go along with it. but i decided to limit myself to just 10 bc otherwise id be sitting here typing all day. so w/o further ado:
AURORA’S TOP 10 MOST TEARFUL HARRY POTTER MOMENTS:
((in no particular order))
HARRY READS LILY’S LETTER IN DH: listen harry doesnt actually spend a lot of the books angsting over the fact that he doesnt have parents but in moments like this u remember he IS AN ORPHAN AND IT GETS ME SO HARD. fuk like just picturing harry crouched on the floor of sirius’s bedroom reading that letter… rereading it… crying… wow.gif!!!!! the line that makes me cry eveRY TIME is “She had made her g’s the same way he did : he searched through the letter for every one of them, and each felt like a friendly little wave glimpsed from behind a veil.“ LIKE RIP RIP RIP ABORT ABORT ABORT ITS TOO SAD!!!!!
THE LOST PROPHECY IN OOTP: JESSESCREAMING.JPEG!!!!!!!!!!!! listen ,,, i talk ab this chapter so much on my blog. it is my #1 favorite moment in my #1 favorite harry potter book which is my #1 favorite series of all time. SO ITS A PRETTY BIG DEAL. harry’s reaction to sirius’s death… his anger at dumbledore… his grief… his discovery of his fate… its beautiful writing and its so painful but so amazing to read. LIKE!!!!! MY BABY!!! HE’S LOST SO MANY PEOPLE!!!!!!!! MY SWEET SUMMER CHILD!!!!!!!!!! “I DON’T CARE!“ Harry yelled at them, snatching up a lunascope and throwing it into the fireplace. “I’VE HAD ENOUGH, I’VE SEEN ENOUGH, I WANT OUT, I WANT IT TO END, I DON’T CARE ANYMORE!” “You do care,” said Dumbledore. He had not flinched or made a single move to stop Harry demolishing his office. His expression was calm, almost detached. “You care so much you feel as though you will bleed to death with the pain of it.”” LIKE LITERALLY WHEN I GET TO THIS POINT I HAVE TO TAKE A BREAK BC IM CRYING SO MUCH I CANT MAKE OUT THE WORDS!!!!!!!!!!!! also fun story: one time i was listening to ootp on audiobook while on vacation and we were in the car waiting to taxi on to a ferry boat and we were listening to this chapter when the ferry guy came by to take our tickets and i had like TEARS STREAMING DOWN MY FACE and jim dale is yelling as harry in the background…. the guy was like ‘is this bitch ok??’ lmaOOOOo
HARRY AND THE MIRROR OF ERISED IN SS: this is another one of those moments where you remember that harry is an orphan and its /so/ painful. thinking about this teeny 11 year old baby harry sneaking out every night just to sit in front of this mirror so he can see his parents………my darling baby sweetheart i love him So Much. it just makes me so sad like hes /so young/ AND HE JUST WANTS TO SEE HIS PARENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHH!! it also gives way to one of my all time favorite hp quotes: “It does not do well to dwell on dreams and forget to live.”
HARRY STOPS SIRIUS AND LUPIN FROM KILLING PETER IN POA: me reading this part is literally ISAYTHATSMYBABYANDIMREALLYPROUD.GIF!!!!!! like!! my boy!! he finds out this man literally caused the death of his parents and he MAKES THE GROWN ASS ADULTS SPARE HIS LIFE… LIKE… he literally acts twice his age and is so mature and is just…….so amazing. it shows such strength and wisdom and it makes me SO PROUD. the way he references james also makes me cry because you see the relationship harry has with james even though he’s literally never met him and its so beautiful. i love harry so much.
HARRY AFTER SECTUMSEMPER-ING MALFOY IN HBP: this is literally the opposite of that last one where im so proud of harry this is def… not one of his best moments lol. he rly rly fucks up and his guilt is so raw and it makes me so emotional because i feel SO bad for him. its def an important harry moment in the books because it shows his flaws and the consequences of his rage, but it also shows how GOOD he is because he feels so bad about what happens and like willingly takes his punishment even though it means that he cant play in the quidditch match. he really like… atones and even tho its rough to read i def love that its a part of the series bc its a really like watershed moment for harry and i think it really reminds him of the wizard he wants to be. this part also leads to i think a more satisfying harry/ginny first kiss bc ginny defends harry and then him not going to the game leads to “several sunlit days” AKA ONE OF MY FAVE HP MOMENTS EVER!!!!!!!!!!!
HARRY AND HERMIONE VISIT JAMES AND LILY’S GRAVE IN DH: “But they were not living, thought Harry: They were gone. The empty words could not disguise the fact that his parents’ moldering remains lay beneath snow and stone, indifferent, unknowing.And tears came before he could stop them, boiling hot then instantly freezing on his face, and what was the point in wiping them off or pretending? He let them fall, his lips pressed hard together, looking down at the thick snow hiding from his eyes the place where the last of Lily and James lay, bones now, surely, or dust, not knowing or caring that their living son stood so near, his heart still beating, alive because of their sacrifice and close to wishing, at this moment, that he was sleeping under the snow with them.”THIS IS ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE MOMENTS THAT I HAVE TO STOP READING BC IM CRYING SO MUCH I CANT MAKE OUT THE WORDS ANYMORE. I CRIED TYPING THIS. IM SO SAD.
THE FOREST AGAIN IN DH: hoo boy. hoooooo boy this is a Big One. this one is really…. wow. just. wow. [deep breath]. there is So Much in this chapter that makes me cry where do i even START. harry realizing that he has to die and ACCEPTING IT BRAVELY LIKE THE HERO HE IS. “Why had he never appreciate what a miracle he was, brain and nerve and bounding heart?” im crying….. hes so good. HARRY NEARLY STOPPING WHEN HE SEES GINNY and ginny’s crying and comforting some girl and im crying too. JAMES. SIRIUS. LILY. REMUS. WHEN HARRY ASKS IF IT HURTS TO DIE LIKE LITEARLLY I HAVE TO PUT THE BOOK DOWN AND GET UP AND WLAK AROUND THE ROOM BECAUSE I GET SO EMOTIONAL LIKE. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! when harry sees harry and screams at him ……………… rip in pieces me!!!!!!!! ALSO ONE OF HIS LAST THOUGHTS BEFORE THE AVADA KEDAVRA IS OF GINNY AND KISSING HER……….. [GUNSHOTS] [SCREAMING]
BELLATRIX TORTURES HERMIONE IN DH: fuk this scene is no joke scary like it took harry potter to another level of real darkness. hermione being tortured was so chilling like beautiufl amazing smart snarky hermione it was so painful to read like my heart rate goes up when i read it bc im worried for my girl :/ and ron is sHAKING and like screaming and literally throwing himself at the walls to try to get to her and its SO upsetting like. they are still CHILDREN like theyre all so young and they dont deserve this like. hearing her plead and stuff … its just…. too much. these are my CHILDREN i have to PROTECT them.
HARRY DIGS DOBBYS GRAVE IN DH: this is another one of those harry moments where i just want to give him a huge hug. like he insists on digging dobby’s grave by hand which is just ….. [gets choked up] its fine. and his thoughts while he dig make me so sad. he so /tired/. hes so frustrated with dumbledore and he the hallows and the horcruxes and he feels responsible for what happened. and ron coming out and helping him dig silently makes me so happy and its one of those times u really see how much rons friendship means to harry. and harry comes out of this like … older and more mature? his wisdom and knowledge is rly apparent when he talks with griphook and olivander right after this like. he knows what hes going to do. hes made his choice. hes not going to race voldemort for the wand. i love him so much for that choice. hes such a grown man in this part like accepting responsibility, taking care of hermione and everyone like getting things in order. i love him.
MRS WEALSEY HUGS HARRY IN THE HOSPITAL WING IN GOF: “’It wasn’t your fault, Harry,’ Mrs. Weasley whispered. ‘I told him to take the cup with me,’ said Harry. Now the burning feeling was in his throat too. He wished Ron would look away. Mrs. Weasley set the potion down on the bedside cabinet, bent down, and put her arms around Harry. He had no memory of ever being hugged like this, as though by a mother. The full weight of everything he had seen that night seemed to fall in upon him as Mrs. Weasley held him to her. His mothers face, his father’s voice, the sight of Cedric, dead on the ground all started spinning in his head until he could hardly bear it, until he was screwing up his face against the howl of misery fighting to get out of him.” HARRY POTTER DESERVES MORE HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he feels so guilty about cedric and god bless mrs weasley for telling him it wasnt his fault because it WASNT!!! he did so amazing in the graveyard like.. .he saw voldemort return and he fought him and he survived and he saw his paretns and hE TOOK CEDRICS BODY BACK SO IT COULD BE WITH HIS FAMILY!!!!!!!! HE TOOK IT BACK FOR THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i would die a thousand deaths if it meant that harry didnt have to experience this pain!!!!
whew so there we go!!!!! the bottom line is obviously that i love the harry potter series more than anything and specifically i love the boy harry potter so so SO much and his suffering is agonizing to read and he didnt deserve any of it!!! i can litearlly think of SO many more heartbreaking moments in the series but here are just a handful. happy birthday to harry!!!
Just scrolling at 336am and I realize I never told y'all the fallout of yesterday (Oct 3).
I told Them their messages were not welcome. My sister, who had been messaging me off and on throughout the day, sends me a series of txt telling me she’s done. Done defending them to me. Done defending me to them. Done trying to “fix the issues” that we all refuse to fix. She’s advised them to delete my number and she is also doing so.
And I just fucking lost it. “Issues” is all she sees. She’s always seen it as me taking “issue” and not just letting it go. She has the delusion of a happy family that has never existed but she wants it to so badly she continually insisted I forgive abusive parents and sacrifice my mental health for her happiness. And I said this to her. I pointed out that it’s very clear she doesn’t care and never truly listened because if she did we wouldn’t be having this discussion. She would have accepted the situation and so on and so forth.
I ended it with something along the lines of “ when they inevitably turn on you remember I told you that they were shit”. Wasn’t my best moment, I realize. I just wasn’t going to play nice and stay civil this time. It has been well established that I don’t want to speak to them and every year they do this and every year I’m told to just let it go and forgive them and no.
The way my sister spoke it was like she’d wasted years of work or like my “tantrum” was ruining everything. And she’d be right: she has wasted years and years trying to convince me to just forget all the abuse and come home. Like they aren’t still that way. Like they aren’t still toxic.
I should feel bad. I don’t. I’m flared and tired yet unable to sleep but I don’t regret anything I said. They are shit people and if she wants to stand with them that’s her choice. They aren’t welcome. Neither is she. I’ve made far too much progress in my life to go back. I may be chronically ill and struggling with day to day but I can say with certainty that I am and have been happier without them.
Family doesn’t have to be blood. Family can be what you make it. My family is small but it is mine and I know my family loves me as I am and won’t hurt me.
today marks the day i finally finished high school and after my brother died in 2011, the end of my 8th grade year i swore id never see this day.. but its here and i owe it all to him. thank you for me pushing me & not allowing me to give up. i cannot wait to hang my diploma with yours.. 😭😭