Some days, Yuuri Katsuki does not want to get up. He doesn’t want to exist, he wants to disappear and never be seen again no matter how wonderful his life may end up. People close to him have known about his anxiety episodes for years. The closest of those people know how to deal with it; when to give him space and when to support him. He’s satisfied with that group and knows how to cope on his own, accepting that those bad days do not define him. Everyone deserves to take time off sometimes to just breathe…
Everyone, Victor thinks, except himself.
He won’t admit it to anyone, even himself, that a Living Legend can have bad days.
When those days would come before, he’d shut his mind off and focus solely on his skating career. It’s not like he was close enough to anyone for them to notice that something may have been “off”; all his rink mates saw him as a man married to the sport and considered his aloof behavior normal. Little did they know how often Victor wished someone, anyone, would just tell him that he’s not okay and that that fact was okay.
The only person who undoubtedly can see right through him is Yuuri Katsuki, and he always knows when he’s having one of those days. It can be frustrating for someone so used to being alone, but he’s learning to accept the concern and open up a little more when he feels depressed.
Still, it’s difficult, and he almost always denies the real problem.
Episode 9 is here! This episode got a huge number of updated shots, especially for expressions (yes, all these gifsets are from the BD/DVD edition). Yuuri does get a wide range of expressions here but most of them center around his anxiousness and worry. Interestingly, most of his other expressions are found either at the very start or the very end of the episode. And of course, you can’t leave out the soul crushing expression from the very end of the episode either. Enjoy!