icantgetoverhim

I love him.

I love him. That’s all that I really know. I love him so much. There is nothing that he could do that would make me love him any less. I used to wonder what it was like to love someone so much that you would go to any length just to keep them in your life. I used to wonder how girls could lie awake crying at night over a boy. I used tonot understand what girls meant when they said “I will always love him, no matter what. He will always be in my heart.” I used towonder what love was and why I didn’t feel it like other girls did. I used tonot know what a soul mate was. That all changed once you came into my life. From the first day I met you my life was changed. You were new, you were different and I liked it. We had a connection from the beginning and I can still feel it from so far away. Because of you I now know what it’s like to love someone so much that I go to every length to keep you in my life. Because of you I know what it’s like to lie awake crying over someone. Because of you I know what it means to always love someone no matter what, and that they’ll always be in your heart. Because of you I know what a soul mate is. And because of you, I know what love is and I feel it just like the other girls do. I feel it every time I think about you. I feel it every time I see your name pop up on my phone screen. I feel it when I laugh at our conversations. Most of all I feel it when, after all this time, you tell me that you love me. People try to tell me that I have no idea what love is, that I’m just a dumb teenager, but they’re wrong. Is the pain I feel fake? Is the ache I feel in my heart whenever I speak his name fake? Is the pounding of my heart whenever I see the words “I love you” come from him fake? Are the tears streaming down my face just thinking about him fake? Don’t tell me I don’t know what love is, because I feel it. Even if he doesn’t feel it, I do. Even when years pass by I will still feel it. Even when I meet someone else and pour all my love and affection to that person I will still feel it. That will never change. I love him so much. That’s all I’ll ever really know.