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This is for...everybody.

This is for the depressed whose mind forces you that you can no longer go on because it’s all useless and worthless, you are not your depression. You are not why it is so hard to get up in the morning. You are not the negative thoughts that keep you awake at night. You are not the missed opportunities you have slept through because sleep seems like the only escape. You are not tears you try to hide when you go in the shower. You are not the emptiness you feel when you’re supposed to be happy over beautiful things. You are not your depression. You are a person with depression, you’re still a person and you’re alive and you still have hope to heal, to have a beautiful life.

This is for the anxious ones whose mind cannot focus on one things because every single thing is too much. You are not your anxiety. You are not that buzzing tornado you feel inside you every time something happens. You are not how you lose control and how things slip from your hands because it’s all just too much. You are not your worries, your fears, your potential mistakes. You are much more than this. You will rise above all this and somebody but right now, just keep going. Count to ten to relax. Focus on specific things like the color of the walls when things just get too much. You can do this. You can do this. You can do this.

This is for the insecure ones who never believed in themselves. You are not your mistakes. You are not your past. You are not your imperfections. You are not your flaws. You are not what people say about you. You are not the number your weighing scale shows you. You are not the size of your pants. You are not the things you find ugly in yourself. Who you are is another human being whose soul is looking for patches when there are holes in you but you need these holes for light to come through, to let the darkness inside you fade. You may find comfort in yourself, to not always seek for perfection but for comfort and peace whether it’s a strength or weakness or flaw or beauty. 

This is for the brokenhearted ones who feel like it’s the end of the world. Maybe it’s the end of just one world, of one chapter in your life. There is pain inside you that words cannot even describe but it’s tearing you apart and you don’t wanna wake up anymore. But hearts heal. Pain fades. Or maybe when pain doesn’t fade away, you get to be the stronger version of you that lives with the pain and be okay with you. This broken heart of yours will find its pieces again and be whole in time. But right now, gently hold the pieces and let every edges be covered in love from people around you. You will heal soon. You will be okay.

This is for the angry ones who just can’t let go. It’s okay. You have the right to be mad. to be angry. or even to get hurt. You have valid emotions but anger is can grow into hatred and hatred can rot your soul. Be angry for a while. Say things you wanna say but be careful. And learn to forgive, maybe not for them for yourself because if you hold onto these things, you might miss out on better things you deserve. 

This is for the ones feeling they’re alone. Whether you are actually alone or you just feel alone despite the people around you, you got this. You got yourself. If there’s no one else to push you, do it for yourself. You can do this. If there is someone, let them in. Let them break your walls and let them in. Let them be there for you. Let them see who you are and let them be there for you. You need people too but you need to be there for yourself first. You can grow on your own for a little while and use this time to discover yourself first.

This is for ones feeling lost. You are confused. You don’t know what’s next. You don’t know what you want. Or maybe you do but when you don’t know what to do next. You are clueless or you have too many choices. You see too many roads and you don’t know which path to take. It’s okay. You can pause for a little while and think. But remember whatever you do, wherever you go, you will eventually come to the places you need to be. You will be who are you meant to be and you will realize why things have to happen. Breathe for a while, you are not in control of everything. Just breathe. 

This is for everyone, you’re all valid. What you feel is valid. Where you are now isn’t necessarily who you are. Your past may be dark but your present gives you the choice to add light into your future. Your soul may need rest but keep going when you can. You can cry when you need to. Just breathe. Love. Hope. Have faith. You’re all not supposed to be perfect in everything. You got this. 

They say not to waste time on people that will eventually leave and that is a good advice until I realize that these people are in our lives for a reason, maybe that reason is something temporary but our presence in their lives for a little while can impact them for a long time. So spend time with them and try to enjoy their presence the same way you go on vacation in foreign lands; appreciate and let the uniqueness of these people touch your heart.

Childhood friends

One day we both went back to the place where it all started. I saw you at the exact same spot where we used to go to everyday when we were young. Minutes passed by without anyone of us uttering a word. I didn’t know what were you thinking that very moment. But as for me, I just was staring at a blank space until a series of memories suddenly flashback. 

I started crying. 

Then you asked my why. I immediately wiped my tears and laughed. I said, “nothing.” You looked away as if you didn’t care at all. So I bowed down my head and felt sad. I started crying again. Until, out of nowhere, you held my hand. You held it so tightly. 

Then you began talking. You told me how much you miss the old times. You told me how you miss me. You told me everything I’ve been dying to hear from you. Finally, you told me you love me but …

you also told me that someone already replaced me in your heart and that this is goodbye. Slowly, you let go of your hand and walked away.

you are not a waste of space. 

you aren’t a failure just because you couldn’t do what you are told or required to do. 

you aren’t a mistake just because your existence weren’t planned by your parents. 

you aren’t damaged goods just because someone took you for granted. 

you aren’t your dark past just because you can’t forget it.

you aren’t your fears just because you can’t overcome them yet.

you aren’t your hopelessness just because you couldn’t see the light.

you aren’t the opinion of people who never cared to see the fire inside you.

you aren’t the flaws you see in the mirror.

you aren’t the brokenness that feel every time you breathe.

you aren’t the emptiness you crave to fill everyday.

Soul mates are those one in a million
people who have the perfect chemistry. They know what makes their partner cry and they know what makes their partner smile. They bring joy to each others life because they see the best in each other. They are each others voice and strength. They have immense faith in their relationship and they stand firmly together in the toughest of times.

I wish you get to meet someone who looks at you and think to themselves that you’re a blessing but I also wish you get to love your self enough to think that you’re a blessing to yourself, if that even makes sense.

25 ULTIMATE TIPS FOR BETTER LIFE!

1. Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. & while you walk, SMILE.
It is the ultimate antidepressant.

2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.

3. When you wake up in the morning, Pray to ask God’s guidance for your purpose, today.

4. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.

5. Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, broccoli, and almonds.

6. Try to make at least three people smile each day.

7. Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip, energy vampires, issues of the past, negative thoughts or things you cannot control.
Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.

8. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a college kid with a maxed out charge card.

9. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.

10. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Forgive them for everything !

11. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

12.You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

13. Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.

14. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

15. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

16. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: ‘In five years, will this matter?’

17. Help the needy,Be generous ! Be a 'Giver’ not a 'Taker’

18. What other people think of you is none of your business.

19. Time heals everything.

20. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

21. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

22. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

23. Each night before you go to bed ,Pray to God and Be thankful for what you’ll accomplish, today !

24. Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.

25.Forward this to everyone on your list to help them lead a happier life…

To you, 

There’s not much to say anymore. But I wanna say this: I am thankful for your presence, for the time, for the laughter and even the tears, for the lessons, for the silly jokes and the amazing playlists. I have learned that not all stays, no matter how hard you work for it to last. I have learned that even the temporary things can be beautiful during its time and you were beautiful to me. You still are and will always be. But this time, someone gets to appreciate you more everyday. I am glad there is someone who now holds your heart as gentle as you deserve to be held. My heart is grateful and humbled that we have crossed paths and I get to spend a little time with you on my journey. You deserve the best. Thanks for letting me feel forever in my short time with you. 

Goodbye. 

P.S. Sorry it took me a while to tell you this because when you left, you brought all my words with you.