Even If

Author’s Note: This is a Jax Teller imagine based on (Everything I Do) I Do It For You by Bryan Adams as requested by a lovely Nonny, as well as request number 6 for TT5. This imagine is rated T for language. Hope you all enjoy.

Even If

Look into my eyes – you will see
What you mean to me.
Search your heart, search your soul
And when you find me there you’ll search no more.

Don’t tell me it’s not worth tryin’ for.
You can’t tell me it’s not worth dyin’ for.
You know it’s true:
Everything I do, I do it for you.

Smoke hangs thick in the air, and the only sound she can make out over the ringing in her ears is the sound of licking flames. She feels nothing, and turning her head blurred eyes search the remains of the clubhouse. She doesn’t see him, and with a soft smile a tear streaks down her cheek.

Somehow she always knew it would end like this.

Jax always said Tellers die bloody, and Jessica Teller is no exception to the rule.

“Jess? Jessica!” a voice calls out and with what little strength she has left she manages to lift her hand into the air.

“Over here! She’s over here!” another voice joins the fray to bang about in my throbbing head. “We’ve got you love, don’t worry, we’re going to get you help,” Chibs’ voice fills her head, and with a smile she runs her fingers over his cheek leaving a streak of red behind. Chibs has always been one of her favorite people.

“P-please…” her teeth chatter loudly, “t-tell me J-Jax g-got out.”

“Jackie boy got out love, here he comes,” Chibs face disappears replaced instead with the face of the love of her life. Jax.

“Oh Jess,” Jax cries as he cradles her in his arms. She studies his face, memorizing every line, every dip, and how she wishes she could reach out, brush the hair from his eyes; soothe the cut that rides high on his cheek. “What did you do? What did you do?”

“S-saved…y-you,” she laughs coughing loudly and with the taste of blood filling her mouth she knows it’s bad. “I love you…”

“Jess, hold on…hold on….”

Look into your heart – you will find
There’s nothin’ there to hide.
Take me as I am, take my life.
I would give it all, I would sacrifice.

Don’t tell me it’s not worth fightin’ for
I can’t help it, there’s nothin’ I want more
You know it’s true:
Everything I do, I do it for you, oh, yeah.

There’s no love like your love
And no other could give more love.
There’s nowhere unless you’re there
All the time, all the way, yeah.

Look into your heart, baby…

He loved her so much but just now as he paces the waiting room of St. Thomas he can barely remember why over the anger that bubbles up inside of him.

“What the fuck was she thinking?” Jax demands to no one in particular, and when Chibs offers a cup of coffee he shakes his head.

“She saved your life Jackie,” Chibs points out, to which Jax just glares. He knows that. Do people think he doesn’t know that?

“She should have stayed home, like I told her to,” Jax spits and when flash of Jess lying broken and bleeding in the rubble of the clubhouse dances through his head his hands fist at his sides.

“Jax,” turning he watches Juice walking towards him with a few of the other guys. “What can we do brother?”

“You can go back to TM, search every inch, I want to know who did this, and get the word out. When I find out who’s responsible, I will take them apart.”


She blinks herself awake, and moving her hand she winces at the pinch in the crook of her arm, and looking down she sees the IV in place, and slowly the pieces fall back together. The explosion, the heat and noise.

And her heart kicks rapidly in her chest.

“Hey, hey, it’s okay,” Jax’s voice fills the silence and he leans over her, hands bracing on the bed, and she reaches for him, wincing when her ribs scream in protest. “Don’t move. Don’t move. The blast broke a couple ribs.”

“You’re okay?” she asks and he nods, smiling. “Everyone else?”

“We’re all whole darlin’, you made sure of that,” Jax smiles at her, and with a tear escaping from the corner of her eye she lets out a shaky breath. “What were you thinking Jess? I told you to stay home.”

“If I would have stayed home Jax, we wouldn’t be having this conversation,” she says shaking her head.

“You could have died…”

“Well I didn’t so…”

“Jesus Jess, I’m being serious,” Jax’s anger flares a bit and before he can turn away she takes his hand.

“So am I,” she proclaims, struggling to sit up, only stopping the struggle when he helps by lifting the head of the bed for her. “Jax, if I had done as I was told, you, Chibs, Happy, everyone would be dead. I couldn’t let that happen.”

“You could be dead,” he says through clenched teeth, and when she laughs it only seems to frustrate Jax more. “Damn it Jess…can you be serious, for one minute.”

“What do you want me to say Jax? Hmm? That I regret it? I can’t do that. I can’t lie to you; I won’t lie to you. I would make the same decision a million times over if I had to,” she says grasping onto his hand. “Jax, you and SAMCRO are my family. I will protect my family. No matter the cost.”

“Even if that means you pay with your life?” he asks and nodding she keeps her eyes on his.

“Even if.”

Oh, you can’t tell me it’s not worth tryin’ for.
I can’t help it, there’s nothin’ I want more.
Yeah, I would fight for you, I’d lie for you,
Walk the wire for you, yeah, I’d die for you.

You know it’s true:
Everything I do, oh, I do it for you.

Everything I do, darling.
You will see it’s true.
You will see it’s true.

Search your heart and your soul
You can’t tell it’s not worth dying for
I’ll be there
I’d walk the fire for you
I’d die for you
Oh, yeah.
I’m going all the time, all the way.


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I was tagged by the beautiful @dubuchaeng and @etherealtwice thank you for your selfies they are a blessing.

Anyways this was from like a week or two ago when I went to Disneyland with my friends. Other than that I have no other selfies I can share.

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