growing up, alec was in love with a boy.
this boy came into his life unexpectedly. his parents took him in, after his dad died.
that’s why alec didn’t know he was in love. he thought he felt more pity.
alec thought it was normal to be willing to give up anything for this boy, because who wouldn’t?
alec figured the way he felt void after releasing this boy from a hug was because he felt sorry for him.
then this boy became his parabatai.
alec knew about parabatai.
alec knew this was his brother in battle.
alec knew he was his other half.
so this made his feelings for this boy normal, right?
and then, his sister came home and talked about her first crush.
izzy rambled about this boy for almost an hour.
izzy talked about his eyes, his eyes, his laugh, his smile, his physique, his clothes, anything she could think of.
thats when alec noticed.
everything isabelle felt and noticed about her crush, alec felt and noticed about his parabatai.
alec tried to stop. he really did.
over the years, he tried to push this idea out of his head.
and then, a fierce redhead came into their story.
instead of the fighting group of three, it became four.
instead of being alec, jace and izzy; it became alec, izzy, jace and clary.
alec’s parabatai began to notice things about clary that alec had noticed about him so many years back.
and so, alec tried even harder.
alec was so desperate to forget the way jace’s hair fell to one side, or the way his eye transitioned from blue to brown.
thats what led alec to the high warlock of brooklyn.
magnus bane, a downworlder, a warlock.
magnus bane, who could be viewed as an enemy from alec’s kind if he even so looked at someone wrong.
alec noticed the warlock, and the warlock noticed him.
but alec had to make sure he was doing best by his family.
sure, magnus had brown eyes that reminded alec of home, and always wore nail polish that was pristinely painted and matched whatever magnus was wearing.
alec couldn’t notice, but at the same time, he couldn’t help but to notice.
alec decided he needed to marry. he needed to marry lydia.
everyday, alec said it was for his family’s name.
everyday, alec thought of the gorgeous warlock and his offer to ‘get a drink sometime soon’
and then the wedding came.
not the wedding alec wanted, but the wedding alec told himself he needed.
but there was a twist.
the downworlder that everyone secretly thought should be with alec (especially simon), showed up.
this changed the story.
this changed alec.
this changed everything.