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Title: Breakfast

Warnings: Swearing, probably

Request: I think the requests are still open since it’s before midnight! If they are will you do a Michael Latta one where you’re friends with him and Tom Wilson and you have a crush on Tom but you see him with another girl so Michael comforts you and ends up kissing you? If you’ve closed requests then I’m so sorry and you can totally ignore this message!! I hope you have a good night! ❤

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Your heart plummeted to your stomach, watching as Tom wrapped his arm around yet another girl, smiling at her with lust in his eyes. After all this time, why couldn’t he see that you were right there? The longer you knew him, the more you realized that you would never be the girl getting that look. It stung, a lot, but it didn’t stop you from pining after him.

“(Y/N). Snap out of it.” Michael said, returning from the bar and handing you a drink. “You really have to let it go.” he said with a scowl, his gaze following yours to Tom, watching as he pulled her onto the dance floor.

“Am I not pretty enough? Not fun enough?” you sighed, swirling the straw through your drink. “What did I do to get myself permanently locked in the friendzone?”

“He’s my best friend, you know that, but sometimes he’s blind. You’re beautiful and fun. You didn’t do anything. It’s Tom’s loss.” he replied, resting a heavy hand on your shoulder.

“Thanks.” you muttered, unconvinced. You’d been friends with Michael as long as you’d been friends with Tom. He was the first one to notice your crush on Tom and had agreed to keep it a secret at your request.

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Completely screwed

I hate the f… word, screwed not much better. I agree with crisswift. I am concerned with Darren’s well being at this point. Could he even take on another beard? He talks about not remembering words to songs. I question if this is because he can’t focus…to a degree PTSD. We have seen the bruises. He ends up hurting himself, M possibly. I believe it is him with so much on his mind he cannot focus or think clearly. I’m sure he tries to escape within his own mind, while I’m sure Chris is there for him he can not take Darren’s demons away fully, as much as he wishes. Remember sometimes it is better to deal with the norm “M”. Pain, confusion, hurt are an entity unto themselves. Darren says he goes with the flow, malleable…never heard Aquarius defined that way…they march to the beat of there own drum, they have never meet a person they didn’t in some way connect with….malleable? My dad was an Aquarius, he’d give you the shirt off his back, but then expect you to learn to stand on your own two feet. Something M has never done. I think Darren describes himself this way to be able to live in his own world. I also believe that is why he describes himself as an exercise nerd/junky. The release of endorpins takes you away from both thoughts and feelings. Not saying not ok, actually a healthy way to cope. But in the end does not make the problem go away, just a brief respite. He is caught between “a rock and a hard place”. I wish I had a crystal ball. I do believe the way things are now will not stand. I believe as this intensifies it will at sometime get uglier! I am concerned for Darren’s welfare. He is no doubt strong. A body and mind can take only so much. I pray every day for his sanity and physical health, and that Chris will be there. I believe their love is one of the only reasons he gets through. Look at what he went though to save the Christmas holidays for himself and those he loves. As said in the end it is his life, he has to make the choices. He has grown, matured and faught for his career and life.  He needs the people who love him to support him, not judge him… and be proud of the person he has become!

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My number one concern is Darren and his mental and physical health. And it always has been. I strong believe he struggles with depression. And I agree. When he is going through an especially rough patch, it’s written all over his face and expressed though his body language. And I think Chris has been his rock that has stood by him and has helped him to survive. Their love is rare. It is epic. Nothing less would have enabled them to survive this nightmare. 

 And his parents. I am so grateful that has has 2 parents that clearly love and support him. And will do anything for him. I think the combination of these three amazing people fighting this war by his side are the reason he’s still standing and that he has managed to have an amazing career and artistically be true to himself despite the evil that is constantly surrounding him. 

 But as @crisswift stated. Yes they can help him. They can relieve the burden somewhat. But they can’t take away his pain and his internal struggle. Because it is Darren alone that is hiding his true self. Yes Chris has a PR relationship. But he is out. He is proud. He advocates for LGBT+ rights proudly as a member of the community. Darren is not able to do this. And I think he blames himself for involving so many people that he loves in the charade. Particularly Chris. 

And the nightmare for Darren is not just hiding his sexuality. And being told on a constant basis that his true self is not good enough. That if he were to reveal that he identifies as gay/bi/pan, the constant reinforcement he receives from his team that his fans would love him less, or worse, walk away. That the only way he is valuable is if he fulfills the teenage dream fantasy.

What exacerbates his situation by a million fold is the person who has been cast as his girlfriend. Who is insufferable and spoiled. Manipulative and abusive. A complete liability. And who has demanded way too much of him and his time. 

And I firmly believe he needs to be free of her. To me. That is key and the number one most important step in his journey. I believe once she is gone, he will breathe easier. That a weight will be lifted. Even if he decides the time is not right to expose the full truth. 

I think on what comes next. We have to trust them. I know what we all want. But we have to remember. What we think is right, isn’t necessarily right. They have to consider what’s right for them. What’s right for their careers. And what is right for their fans. And remember. Most of their fans aren’t reading CriissColfer blogs. I was a clueless fan for years. I naively believed what I was sold. I just didn’t look that close. Miarren always seemed off to me. But I made no logical sense that fox would closet Darren. And over the past 2 years. Since I immersed myself in this world. My eyes have become wide open. 

 And remember. The secret Darren has. It’s not just his sexuality. It’s the identity of his partner. There are so many fans of these gentlemen that are not a fan of the other. They are not going to be pleased at the depth of the lies and the lengths taken to hide the truth. They are fully invested in Will and Mia. This is a strong consideration in formulating the plan for moving forward. 

Does Darren take on a new beard? Maybe. And if that is the decision that he and Chris make., and make no mistake they are walking side by side and making these decisions together, we have to support them. Because I don’t think it will be one made lightly. And I think it’s the last thing Darren wants. But I think there needs to be damage control. 

Fact. When miarren “break up” immediately the spotlight will shine on CrissColfer. It’s inevitable. It’s why Chris named Will. And we will likely see more Chill outings than normal. And if there is a new beard, that will make the light shine less brightly and perhaps provide a bridging between the end of miarren and the future reveal of CrissColfer. In my opinion. 

What I think is critical. Regardless of whether a new woman is contracted to play Darren’s plus one. Re-establishing that Chris and Darren are friends. Because people believe they hate each other. And they need to be disavowed of that notion. And soon. They need to be seen together. Start with something less obvious like attending the same event. Move to attending the same party. Then move to perhaps hanging out on their own. They need to show they are, at a minimum, friends. And this will lay the foundation for them to come out as a couple. In time. Which I believe is the ultimate plan. It’s just a question of how many steps will there be before we achieve that goal.