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FYI disgusting ass men:

If you message me anything about the way I look, how much you approve of it, or ask to get to know me, I am blocking you on sight

Don’t fucking talk to me :-)

I don’t use Tumblr to make friends, I use it to vent and dump pictures

My ask is for GENUINE ASKS from people ACTUALLY curious about something to do with me, and I really wish the message thing didn’t exist because like I said, I’m not here to chat with anyone or make friends

I have a real life, I like to make friends based off of the people actually in my life, in my state

Internet relationships have never appealed to me

Sorry for the rant but if I feel like you’re hitting on me in the slightest I’m blocking you bye

anonymous asked:

9, 19, 23, 33 xx

9. What’s your dream job?

honestly i have no idea. photography would be cool? idk i just really like looking at pretty things and i wish i had the skills to capture the beauty of them

19. If you had one wish, what would it be? (i got this 3 times so im gonna do a different one each time)

i wish i was perfectly happy with myself and in how i look

23. Favorite song?

this one is kinda hard but im gonna have to go with pacifier because of this video. the drums and the sound of bondy’s guitar kill me and its from my first catb show and it just makes my heart happy when i hear it

33. Best day of your life?

not to be cheesy or anything but id probably have to say june 14th 2016 because that was the day i met the first real friends that ive (ever) had. also i met The Rats™️ that day and that was an okay part of it too

anonymous asked:

I don't remember if you said that you have BPD or not, but if so, how do you let go of insecurities and trust your boyfriend and let him be a safe space for you? I'm struggling so hard right now and I see that picture of you and your BF and it looks so nice and safe and natural and I wish I could have something like that eventually with the guy I'm seeing ☹️

Honestly? I had to fuck up first. I’m one of those people that can’t take advice, and has to learn the hard way. My first real relationship of 5 years involved a lot of physical and verbal abusive, equally from me as much as him. My episodes really started affecting my life when we moved into our first apartment when I was 18, it was before either of us had any idea there was actually something wrong with me and couldn’t control like he could. We both thought I was a manipulative, crazy bitch. I lost him and our relationship because this went on for so long, and he didn’t want to be around me anymore. But in losing him, I found myself. It’s important to love yourself and know your worth, on your own before bringing another life so intimately intertwined with your own. It’s important to understand your illness and make sure others are aware too. At this point in my life, I’m constantly trying to grow and learn from my past. I do not want what happened with my ex to ever happen with my boyfriend. I cherish him and value his support and love, and do everything in my power to be self aware of how I’m acting and treating him. But even still, he deals with my worst and it’s important to stay soft, apologize after you’re calm and know you overreacted, and stay open. Complete communication is the only way I’ve found my disorder bearable for others. You need to let people know what’s going on, even though it’s hard.