dear readers, 

why do i miss someone or something i never really knew?

i feel like i romanticize everything and everyone around me, and don’t look at it/them realistically.  the relationships i form with people always sound much better in my head then they are in real life. 

how do i reconcile the real with my wishful thinking? or how do i make my wishful thinking into a reality?

sincerely, waiting for oblivion 


I honestly can’t run this blog anymore!! I am going through a very bad state in my life. I am starting to have reoccurring panic attacks due to the extreme hardships I am going through these days.

I am not going to delete but will change into a Hiatus theme and be inactive until further notice.

P.S: this might be irrelevant, but since most of my followers are younger than me, I would like to give you guys the advice to take the path in life in which you believe you are going to shine. Be honest with yourself and may you achieve your goals and be the person you want to be!!!

anonymous asked:

Hi, Scorpius. I really like you. I think you have the nicest eyes and the loveliest smile. I wish I was brave enough to talk to you off of anonymous, but I'm soo shy. <3

I’m not sure who sent this, though I do have some…hopes…but whoever it is. Thanks. And, I think your new jumper looks great. 

anonymous asked:

do you think that if echo/bell happens, it will be like cl/exa?

If something happens I think it will rather be in CONTRAST to CL. I think we’re going to have them looking closer at what it means to forgive and to make amends and to learn from your sins, rather than just pretend you didn’t do anything wrong. 

I don’t think becho is going to be a thing. I really don’t. Might Echo flirt with him? Maybe. But to me, it’s a side story. The real story with Echo and Bellamy is about that betrayal, which is definitely a call back to CL. Double Mount Weather betrayals.

So IF something comes of that, we’re going to see our heroes LEARNING from the echo of betrayal. And maybe we’ll really get back to this concept of forgiveness.

I know how I feel about earning forgiveness, but that’s coming from some hard earned real life lessons that I don’t wish on anyone. I’d like to see them replay that CL betrayal and readdress the way L never made amends for her sins. And I’m not just talking about bowing to Clarke. She didn’ sell Clarke to the mountain, she sold Bellamy and Abby and Monty and Jasper. And she had all of them under lockdown in Arkadia

Day 16: April Fools Day

Sorry that I’m a bit late with the stories, but I had no wifi for half of the week and I write my stories on my computer. And also I have at least 3 big essays every week right now. And I’m one of those who needs to get the highest grade on pretty much everything. But I really hope you will like the story, I can totally see @taylorswift and Adam/Calvin do this in real life…


*Taylor’s Pov*

It was a beautiful day, the sun was shining and days like this I sometimes wish I was a normal person. That I could go to the park and have a nice day, without paparazzi’s following me every step I take out side of my house. I lay in Adam’s arms, resting my head on his chest. We looked at a movie, or I didn’t care much about the movie, too be real. I cared more about him, how he made me feel totally safe. How this was one of the best feelings in the world, just laying in his arms. So I reminded myself that if I only was a normal person, I would never have met him. And he was worth it, of course my career was too, but he was the most important thing in my life right now, and I wanted it to stay like this forever.

”Hey, are you sleeping” Adam whispered in my ear while he put my hair behind my ear. ”No, I don’t” I answered pretty quiet. ”So you like the movie?” he asked me. I had no idea of what to answer, I had just lay there with my eyes closed and enjoyed the feeling I had. ”I can’t focus on the movie, when the prettiest girl in the world are in my arms” he said. I sat up next to him, to face him. ”Same, or I mean lying in the most handsome man on earth’s arms” I said. He giggled.

”I have an idea” he whispered to me. ”Why are you whispering?” I asked him as I started to giggle. ”Do you wanna fool the world?” he asked me with a big smile. ”What are you thinking about?” I asked him back. ”It’s first April, so an April fool” he said, now smiling even bigger. ”Sure, what should we fool them with?” I asked back. I liked his idea, it was funny. We could actually fool hundreds of thousands people, or maybe even millions. ”I’m not sure you will like it” he started. I looked at him with a worried face. Even though I was a bit worried, I was so exited. ”We tell them we broke up, and then let them react, then post a picture of us together being all in love later” he said. ”You kidding me? My fans will hate on you so much” I said. He started to giggle and then said ”I can take that, as long as you are mine tonight, and for the rest of my life.”

We talked about it for a long time and then had this whole plan, with a fake fight, my friends come over to comfort me and so much more. ”Let’s do this, babe” I said and kissed him.

”Just go away Adam” I screamed as I opened the door to my apartment and the paparazzi’s were there. ”I’m glad to do that. You just wanted someone to fill up your blank space” he said. I was close to start laughing, that was so not what he was to me, but this was a part of the act. ”Yeah right, like I was your *cough* Faith” I answered. ”I should have listening to Harry” he said and started walking to a car. I run after and said ”haha and I should have listening to Rita”. ”Just STAY away Tay” he screamed and jumped in to the car. I ran in to my house and the paparazzi’s asked hundreds of questions. Like ”Are you over?” ”Is this a break up” ”Don’t you love each other anymore” ”Yeah, album six will be out soon” and so on….They really thought it was real. I run up to my bedroom and when I got there I started to laugh.

I called some of my friends and they promised they would be over soon. And I knew Adam was calling Ellie, they didn’t knew it was a prank yet. But that was perfect for our plan. I went on tumblr for a bit but everyone just wrote stuff like ”Praying for Tay” ”I’m dead, this is too sad” ”I will destroy that man” ”ALBUM 6 will be ALL about a certain DJ” and so on…I felt bad, I loved my fans and they were crushed. I just hope they can laugh when we tell them that it’s just a prank.

”Taylor” Selena and Karlie run to me. They hug me really hard and then Selena asked ”are you okay?” and Karlie continued with ”what happened?”. ”We totally got you” I said as I start laughing. This was really funny. ”Wait, what?” Selena asked. ”It’s an April fool” I said. ”But you have to be in on it, okay?” I asked my friends who now started to laugh a bit. ”Yeah, sure. What can we do?” Karlie asked.

Selena took a picture when we had our hand on each others and posted it on Instagram with the text ”Best friends do everything for each other”. She started getting questions about me and Adam, but didn’t answer them, of course.

*Adam’s Pov*

I Logged in to my Instagram and looked at the people Taylor follows, and my name is not there. So I stopped follow her too, as we decided. And then I heard someone knock on the door to my studio. ”Are you okay Adam, I’m so sorry” Ellie said as she run to me and hugged me. ”Ellie”…”I’m so sorry Adam, I’m like the worst match maker ever. I just really thought you two would fit together. You didn’t cheat on her right? Because then you are so dead….” I interrupted Ellie’s talking with a laugh. ”What is wrong with you” she then said. ”I’m sorry…It’s just a prank.” She looked pissed of, Ellie was like a sister to me, so we got pissed at each other sometimes, but we still love each other. ”ADAM RICHARD WILES, YOU ARE SO DEAD” she said as she hit me on the chest.

Ellie posted a picture of us hanging out in the studio together and got thousands of questions of what the hell was going on. We laughed about it, I would never break up with Taylor because I love her too much, but I would never dare to do it anyway.

”See you soon, love” I said before I hung up. No paparazzi’s, that’s good. Maybe they come with Taylor, but then they don’t see that I’m here I thought as I walked in to the restaurant me and Taylor had decided to meet up and tell the world that it’s just a prank. I heard lot’s of camera flashes, here she comes I thought to myself, and I was right. We had a table far from the window, so the paparazzi’s couldn’t get a picture of us before we posted one.

Taylor walked against me, with Selena and Karlie. Ellie who sat next to me jumped up and hugged them all. Taylor sat down next to me and kissed me. ”I missed you today” she said. ”I missed you too, a lot” I told her and lay down one of my hands at her thigh.

We took a picture of us kissing and holding hands, and the girls standing in the background. And put it on the internet with ”We got you 😘😂❤️”.

STARTER SENTENCES from Bridget Jones’s Diary (2001)

“Once again, I found myself on my own.”
“There you are, dumpling.”
“Pickles on toothpicks are still the height of sophistication.”
“He’s someone who insists I call him ‘Uncle’ while he gropes my ass.”
“Wish I could be lying with my head in the toilet, like all normal people.”
“Stop talking total nonsense to strangers.”
“I suspect he does not fantasize about me.”
“I just want to staple things to her head.”
“He’s just a big nob-head with no nob.”
“Shut up, please, I’m very busy and important.”
“You don’t need to protect him. He’s no friend of mine.”
“Having children isn’t all it’s cracked up to be.”
“I’ve got no power, no real career, no sex life…”
“What a gripping life you do lead.”
“You look like a common prostitute.”
“I wanted you to be the first to know that we’re engaged.”
“I’ve got to leave my current job because I shagged my boss.”
“I know it’s been awkward as ass, but there’s no need to leave.”
“Never dip your nib in the office ink.”
“You seem to go out of your way to make me feel like a complete idiot.”
“I don’t think you’re an idiot at all.”
“I mean, there are elements that are ridiculous about you…”
“I like you very much.”
“No. I like you very much – just as you are.”
“But this is someone you hate, right?”
“You like me just the way I am.”
“Where the fuck is the fucking tuna?”
“I see I may have come at a bad time.”
“If you ask me, there isn’t enough blue food.”
“Why did your [spouse] leave you?”
“This really is the most incredible shit.”
“I thought you might be on your own.”
“I’m a terrible disaster with a posh voice and a bad character.”
“Totally fucking finito.”
“Alright, _____, outside.”
“Should I bring my dueling pistols or my sword?”
“I should’ve done this years ago.”
“What the fuck do you think you’re doing?”
“You give the impression of being all moral and noble, but you’re just as bad as the rest of them.”
“I can see that I’ve been laboring under a misapprehension.”
“A very, very foolish mistake. Forgive me.”
“If I can’t make it with you, I can’t make it with anyone.”
“I’m still looking for something more extraordinary than that.”
“I’m going to Bedfordshire.”
“I do realize what I’m like sometimes.”
“I just don’t work without you.”
“That’s why you always acted so strangely around him.”
“You once said you liked me just as I am, and I just wanted to say… likewise.”
“You always say the wrong thing.”
“I seriously believe that you should rethink the length of your sideburns.”
“Right. Crikey.”
“Has he ever actually stuck his fucking tongue down your fucking throat?”
“I realized I’d forgotten something back home.”
“I realized I’d forgotten to kiss you goodbye. Do you mind?”
“Maybe we should just go upstairs for a minute.”
“Definitely an occasion for genuinely tiny knickers.”
“I mean, I meant it… but I was so stupid that I didn’t mean what I meant.”
“Time to make a new start, perhaps.”
“Nice boys don’t kiss like that.”
“Oh, yes, they fucking do.”

Ok these robots I’m talking about are not just enhanced sex dolls they will be able to carry on emotional relationships with men…and only men of course because there’s no talk of sex robots for women. Because we don’t think of things like “hey I really wish my mate just looked like a Ken doll and never made me put up with his needs and desires and emotions so I’m just gonna get a fake boyfriend so I don’t have to deal with that shit and make him do whatever I want”

Like this dude who obviously cannot get laid to save his life, is seriously dedicating his life to building robots for the sole purpose of having sex with them, but also making it “real” enough so that these robots can carry on conversations with men. Even to where your robot will like send you texts and call you. But of course you can program your robot girlfriend to do and say whatever you want, so you’ll never have to try and make her happy or compromise or anything that real relationships entail. Like there are men in Japan who are involved in online relationships with virtual women and it’s already creating problems and they can’t even have sex with those women. AI just never needs to be a thing it is so terrifying to even think about.