I feel so much better today and ready to keep working towards my goals. February has been my worst month eating and exercising wise but I’m gonna keep going. My goal for the end of this month was to hit 230 and I honestly don’t think I hit it. I haven’t weighed myself yet (which I’m not gonna do until Monday, changing my weigh in days.). In fact, I think I’ve gained weight. But that’s not gonna upset me. I feel so motivated today!

I’ve learned things about myself too.
1. STAY AWAY FROM ALL KINDS OF CHOCOLATE. Seriously. I have an addiction. I can finish 100 bars of chocolate in one sitting if you let me. No chocolate cake, no chocolate bars, no chocolate cereal, NOTHING.

2. I’ve got to STOP LOOKING IN THE MIRROR EVERYDAY. It just demotivates me and makes me want to give up. Like the anon said, I should just focus on losing the weight.

3. I need to stop comparing myself to other girls. This is at the gym, in lectures, my friends, EVERYONE. We are not the same and we aren’t at the same level in life. We aren’t the same people.

4. I’ve binged eaten over the past few days. I need to get over it and get back into my routine. I’m still Intermittent Fasting but now I have to stick to it. I also need to forgive myself for bingeing. People who have lost weight didn’t start off perfectly. I’ve read people’s success stories and most of them said they had a hard time the first couple of months. It’s not even been 2 months for me. I just have to keep going.

5. I also have to realise that reaching 160 by my birthday on the 4th of July is not a realistic goal. It’s possible and would be amazing if I did but I don’t think I will. So I’ve moved it to September 1st. I know we shouldn’t have goal dates, it’s a lifestyle etc but I’d still like to reach my goal weight/goal body before starting the second year of college. Wear all the cute outfits I want to in university 😩.

So yeah that’s basically it. I’m writing this from the gym so ✌🏾








Yurio has already left his guards down when he’s around the other boy, and maybe without even realizing it himself he already considers him as more than just another rival.

Yuuri’s now become his friend.

I’ve just realised why I love the Final Agni Kai so much (and why it’s the best fight in Avatar). They are both fighting like each other.

Zuko is confident and at peace with himself. His firebending is the best it has ever been and Azula is unhinged. So he stays on the defensive, exploits her weaknesses and exploits her unhinged mentality by antagonising her into fighting on his terms (e.g. “No lighting today?”) and making her do what he wants.

But Azula is fighting like Zuko. She is constantly on the offensive and driven by rage and a desperate need to prove herself. She’s caving under her family issues, feelings of abandonment and the slights that have been made on her honour. Because of this, she is blind to Zuko’s actions and can only focus on giving the battle her all and proving herself to her father. Hence why she falls for Zuko’s trap (e.g. “I’ll show you lightning!”)

I just love this show, and I find even more reasons to love it every day.


“My dear Rosie,
Unbeknownst to you I took this chance before, many, many years ago. You never received that letter and I’m glad because my feelings since then have changed dramatically. They have intensified with every passing day. I’ll get straight to the point because if I don’t say what I have to say now, I fear it will never be said. And I need to say it. Today I love you more than ever; I want you more than ever. I’m a man of fifty years of age coming to you, feeling like a teenager in love, asking you to give me a chance and love me back. Rosie Dunne, I love you with all my heart. I have always loved you, even when I was seven years old and I lied about falling asleep on Santa watch, when I was ten years old and didn’t invite you to my birthday party, when I was eighteen and had to move away, even on my wedding days, on your wedding day, on christenings, birthdays and when we fought. I loved you through it all. Make me the happiest man on this earth by being with me. Please reply to me.
All my love,

Love, Rosie

unabridged list of pure things that have come out of dennis reynolds’ mouth
  • i think she looks like bo derek
  • …i swallowed some apple seeds today…
  • i don’t want to feel like this anymore, deandra
  • i’m not…. flourishing
  • sis, i love you
  • there are probably gonna be some dicks out there. yeah, sure. but i’ll be there. i’ll back you up, man.
  • almost everything he says in dee gives birth i couldn’t chose one thing.
  • we do have a hero in the crowd tonight
  • oh, cool. superman. he was the original, right?
  • all right, let’s get u back to C.T.U., agent bauer
  • i can’t believe they didn’t include me in their suicide pact. my best friends went out in a blaze of glory and they didn’t even ask me to be apart of it!
Jason Todd/Red Hood X Reader- I Will Literally Fight You For Him

You were shoved into the wall of an alleyway, the assailant’s hand wrapped around both of your wrists.  Pain blossomed on the back of your head and you could feel the blood trickling down your neck.

“You’re a little handsy, you know that?” you quipped.

“Shut up and give me your purse,” the crook growled.

“As you can see I don’t have a purse,” you commented, “and I threw my wallet down the drain as soon as I saw you following me.”

“If you can’t give me what ya want, then I’ll kill ya,” he stated.

“Do you really think that you, a criminal, could get away with that?  You got your prints all over me, smartass, and I’m not going to be killed today,” you said while head butting the man.

He stumbled back and clutched his nose, “You bitch!”

“You jerk!  I could do this all day, sunshine, but you and I know one of the heroes of Gotham would be here soon. I hope it’s Red Hood because you certainly deserve a bullet for ruining my already shitty day.  It’s your fault for attempting to mug a black belt.”

“I highly doubt that trigger happy psycho will be here anytime soon,” he said while pulling a gun out.

“Hey!  Mugging me is one thing, but insulting the man who defends us by getting rid of the evil of Gotham permanently and never asks for anything in return!  I will literally fight you on this, and there’s a gun pointed to my face!”

“Just shut up already, lady!” the crook shouted.

“Nope!” you said while kicking the gun out his and and punching him straight in the face.  “And I’m definitely pressing charges on your sorry ass.”


Jason was running across the rooftops of Gotham, avoiding Bruce’s nightly patrol.  He had just finished busting one of Black Mask’s weapons deals and running away from the whizzing bullets seemed like the most logical action of the evening.  He jumped across another opening until he heard shouting.  Once he reached the next edge of a building, he heard something that he never thought he hear.

“You bitch!”

“You jerk!  I could do this all day, sunshine, but you and I know one of the heroes of Gotham would be here soon. I hope it’s Red Hood because you certainly deserve a bullet for ruining my already shitty day.  It’s your fault for attempting to mug a black belt.”

“I highly doubt that trigger happy psycho will be here anytime soon,” he said while pulling a gun out.

Jason loaded his gun at the insult and was about to jump down when your voice stopped him.

“Hey!  Mugging me is one thing, but insulting the man who defends us by getting rid of the evil of Gotham permanently and never asks for anything in return is something worse!  I will literally fight you for him, and there’s a gun pointed to my face!”

“Just shut up already, lady!” the crook shouted.

“Nope!” you said while kicking the gun out his and and punching him straight in the face.  “And I’m definitely pressing charges on your sorry ass.”

Jason chuckled and placed the gun back in its holster.  He made a mental note to see her again and ran back to his apartment.  


After calling the cops, watching the criminal being taken away, and being questioned by the police, you arrived at your apartment at midnight.  You were grateful that you were off of work the next day because if you weren’t, you would punch Denise in the face if she would insult you one more time.  Her bullshit was the reason why you had to work late, and soon it will be the reason why you could be fired.

“Fuck this!” you shouted and face planted on your bed.

You peeled off your jacket and threw it on your bedroom floor.  The blood coated material is going to be thrown away tomorrow anyway.  After a nice hot shower and flannel pajamas, you finally could try to sleep in peace.


Heavy footsteps echoed throughout your apartment.  You shifted quietly out of your sheets and pulled out your pistol from under your bed.  You coughed and loaded it at the same time, hoping that it would overpower the clicking of the gun.  You cursed the universe for your bad luck. Why can’t you get a goddamn break?!  You slowly made your way to your door and twisted the handle cautiously.  When your door was open, you opened until you could slip out of it.  Your door had a habit of squeaking and this was not the time for that to happen.  You slowly walked down the hallway and raised your gun.  Once you slowed your breathing, you stepped out of the hallway and aimed where the footsteps would have been.  Your eyes widened at the sight of the intruder.

“What the fuck?!  Seriously, why can’t you use the door like a normal person, or even not come here in the middle of the night!!” you shouted and walked over to the open window and shut it.

Once the window was locked, you returned your attention to the Red Hood, “Is there a reason why you’re here or are you trying to steal my leftover pie?”

“Nope, but that does sound good.  I was just stopping by because I heard what you said to that idiot trying to mug you.  I just wanted to know if that’s really what you thought about my actions.”

You shut the curtains and froze, “You were there and didn’t bother to shoot the guy?”

“You handed his ass to him.  Why would I interfere with that?  Stop avoiding the question.”

You turned around and faced the masked vigilante, “Yes, that’s what I really think about you. True, Batman is a hero, but he only puts the criminals in prison, where they can break out and repeat the process.  You put an end to that cycle.  Batman doesn’t understand the insanity of that cycle, he just locks them up and expects a different outcome.  You take action, he doesn’t.”

“You really put a lot of thought into this, didn’t you?” he questioned.

“There’s a masked vigilante with guns and amazing fighting skills, of course I think all of this through.”

Jason laughed, “I think I’m in love.”

I’ve begun this post a dozen different ways and nothing seems right to describe the pure visceral devastation of what has happened today. Now normally I keep this blog free of politics, and I still will, I just wanted to give everyone my wishes and blessings for you all that maybe can brighten this horrible, horrible day:

•may every leaf you step on be crunchy
•may you never forget your tea and it remains hot
•may you find a dollar in your pocket
•may you get an extra warm, squishy hug
•may your favorite song come on the radio
•may your toes never get cold
•may someone smile brightly at you
•may you see a fluffy dog
•may everything you eat taste delicious
•may you find the items you’re looking for
•may you speak to someone who makes you happy
•may your day be good

Sorry for taking so long, i had some people who read this for me and they said it was great so i posted it!
Sorry for changing a little your request like i said i would, but anyways, thank you for your request and i hope you like it!(ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧ 

(T/N - Twin name)

Please feel free to send me a feedback, if this is NOT what you wanted, I’ll do it again in no time!Any mistakes, report to me


  • He’s so in love with MC, she’s so kind and everything, he feels like he knows her for so long!
  • Today he brought flowers to her…She’ll love it!
  • And he’ll ask for her…If she can be his valentine!
  • This is going to be good!
  • But he’s so flustered omg, he’ll die.
  • He sees her next to a fountain that has in their school “MC!” he runs to her, giving to her the flowers.
  • His face is all red, he’s looking to the ground because he’s so flustered about it “This is for you…”
  • “Oh, thank you” MC laughs while Yoosung looks at her, taking a deep breath “MC…Would you be my Valentine?”
  • He takes all the courage to ask that, while MC just…Laughed…
  • Why is she laughing…She thinks he’s not someone she would date?
  • Is he not manly enough?But…But…
  • “I’m not MC…I’m her twin”
  • What?Twin?MC has a twin?!
  • “Hey, guys…What are you doing?”
  • “This is for you” your sister give this to you and look to Yoosung “You can ask her now” She just laughs as she walks away.
  • This is hard for him, you two are so identical??!Are you mad for that? For the fact, he didn’t recognize that it wasn’t you?!
  • You’ll reject him for that?
  • This was not a good first impression…But now you’re looking at him “So…What you wanted to tell me?”
  • Oh shit…Now he has to do that again…?
  • He’ll die.
  • “…Do you want to have lunch with me?”
  • “Of course Yoosung!” You smiled.
  • He’ll  ask this later, but first, he’ll ask for advice with your sister, he’s too flustered and he needs to know if you’re interested in him!
  • He doesn’t want to lose this friendship.
  • But he has sure he wants to make you his girlfriend!


  • Zen’s never giving his attention to anything else
  • Only to himself.
  • But he loves you! And you’re one exception.
  • Of course, you’re his girlfriend, and he’s a good boyfriend, a gentleman!
  • He sees you going out of the bathroom, he runs to you “Hey babe…” He smiles and got closer to you, trying to kiss you.
  • But you don’t let him…WHAT?
  • Oh no…That must a serious problem for rejecting him…
  • What did he do? Do you have some mental problem to not let him kiss you?
  • I mean..He’s beautiful and…Oh god MC, he needs to know!
  • “Zen…What are you doing?”
  • He looks at you and looks at the other you…WTF?Oh no…This is some of that…Well…Kinky dreams?
  • But this looks too real…
  • “Well, i’ll let you two talk…” The MC who rejects him left…He sees the other MC, you, laugh
  • “Zen, that was my twin sister”
  • Zen’s so surprised and so amazed.
  • That was not a dream, good!
  • Or bad…
  • “MC…!You must have told me that! I almost kissed your sister!”
  • “Oh…Sorry Zen”
  • He sighs, but after that he kisses you, and you kiss him back.
  • It’s so good not being rejected...
  • But now he’ll start to give more attention to details…


  • She’s a very observant person.
  • But that day, she didn’t sleep well.
  • And you wanted her to meet your sister, but she didn’t know that it would be a surprise.
  • When she goes to the courtyard, and then she sees you, she was ready to scream your name…But then she sees another you…
  • Wait, what?
  • Wow, she was that tired?
  • You look at her “HEY JAEHEE! COME HERE!”
  • She froze, she doesn’t know which MC was the real one, maybe that was another classmate that was beside you and she’s seeing you in the person…
  • Just like that movie that Zen was…
  • Or maybe she’s sleeping?
  • No…She doesn’t even have that much sleep to dream.
  • So she walked with you, with a confused face
  • “This is my twin Jaehee!”
  • “Hi…Nice to meet you i’m T/N”
  • Oh…Now everything makes sense.
  • She can already see some differences on the two of you.
  • This is not going to be hard for her.


  • Jumin was prepared today, a bouquet for you, and some pictures of Elizabeth show for you too.
  • When he finds you, he already pulled his phone to show you some Elizabeth blurry pictures that he took, holding the bouquet behind his back.
  • “Why are you showing me those cat pictures? You weirdo”
  • What? You don’t like Elizabeth? Did you talked with Zen?
  • What’s wrong with you?!
  • “MC…?You always loved Elizabeth…”
  • “No, she doesn’t , i do!”
  • You said, behind him, he turns around confused, you look at those flowers “Those are for me?”
  • Ok, he’s a little bit confuse.
  • Maybe you have a twin.
  • Yeah, this is the theory.
  • But now your twin thinks he’s a weirdo, he doesn’t care, she didn’t appreciate Elizabeth the 3rd beauty.
  • “Yeah, it is.” He gives you the bouquet and look at your sister “Sorry for the confusion, and i’m sorry for you being so similar to your sister but doesn’t have her sense of beauty”
  • He picks your hand “MC, look at those photos of Elizabeth!”
  • Oh, and he’ll make you use something so he can know which one was you, he can’t confuse you again with that…Monster.


  • Your perfect plan is…Your sister will be in your locker, and Seven will come like he always does and then he’ll be pranked lol
  • This is going to be so funny, Seven always thinks he knows everything!
  • You’re just observing, hiding behind some people, Seven’s approaching your sister “…Hey MC…!”
  • Your sister look at him, “Oh hey Seven”
  • “…MEMES”
  • Ok, that was awkward but he fell for it! You go there laughing 
  • “WELL MC!” You listened…Seven? He was behind you! “I always know everything! You were pranked! That was Saeran! I told him to come here, dress up as me and say MEMES, he’ll win an ice cream for that!”
  • That’s not fair SEVEN” You yelled, while the two of you were discussing, Saeran and your sister were like:
  • WHY GOD…WHY??!


  • Well, you told him that you had a twin…His vision is blurry so he’s so scared.
  • Maybe in some day, he almost kissed your sister, or showed her a photo?Or compliment her? Made her feel embarrassed? And she was so bad for that she doesn’t even say anything?
  • Omg, he’s dying.
  • His vision is so blurry, sometimes he approaches you…But he that wasn’t you?
  • Your sister came “Hello…My name is T/N” V was sweating while he was holding her hand to greet her, she was faking? Just to hold back the secret that he already has mistaken the two of you?
  • “She moved to this school yesterday,” You said smiling, V IS NOW RELIEVED
  • Ok, he didn’t mistake you for your sister, he’s smiling now!
  • But…You’ll have to do something to make him always have sure that it was you that he was talking to.
  • This is going to be so hard…


  • Today Saeran wants to kiss you, why? He loves you.
  • And all that grumpy face and his feeling that he holds back, makes him want to kiss you so much sometimes.
  • This day was that “sometimes”.
  • Saeran sees you, he doesn’t even say anything, he just kisses you, you were trying to push him back…Why?
  • “SAERAN” How you were screaming with him if he’s devouring your mouth right now?
  • He stopped and turn around, You? Wait, so who he was kissing? Wait, that was you again?
  • Hold up.
  • Oh shit.
  • Do you have a twin? He just kissed your twin?
  • He goes to you, looking at your twin with a disgusted face, and after that, he looks at you “This is your fault!”
  • He said with a grumpy face, he’s red too, blushed “I-I wanted to kiss you!”
  • You sigh, you know that was an accident, he was making a fuss about it, of course, you should have told him but he can’t just kiss people like that!
  • You take him to eat ice cream, he’ll be calmer.
  • But he’s so quiet the entire day, just eating his ice cream while hugging you, saying, whispering “That was your fault…But i’m sorry…”
  • “What?”
  • “I said i want another ice cream…”

anonymous asked:

Heya Mum (Oh boy i hope i don't set the whole Mum/Mom discourse into motion). I know you're super swamped with asks rn but here me out here. SOOOO today is my birthday (Just turned 21!!! Turn Vertical!!!) and i just really wanted a fluffy Sanvers birthday scene (Either can be celebrating) - but only if you feel up to it, if not that's completely fine. This is my first time intruding anyones asks tbh but I digress. Thank you for all the love you shine unto us, it makes our days that much brighter


She doesn’t tell Alex that her birthday is coming up.

She doesn’t tell her, because it doesn’t occur to her: it’s never been a priority for anyone she’s dated before. She’s never been a priority for anyone she’s dated before.

And in school, before there was dating, there were white kids, straight kids, who glared and who took her lunch money and who would make a regular day ten times worse when it was supposed to be her special day.

So she doesn’t tell her, but Alex knows anyway, because Alex is observant and Alex may or may not have had Winn hack into Maggie’s file because she’s gotta have a birthday sometime and she knows Maggie, knows that she’s not the type to tell her, to expect anything.

But she should expect something – she should expect everything – because Alex notices, and Alex pays attention, and Alex dotes on her.

So the morning of Maggie’s birthday, Alex gets up for her run extra early. She says nothing out of the ordinary as she kisses Maggie’s temple, as she makes sure she’s snuggled tight into the sheets. She says nothing as she tiptoes back into the apartment an hour later, sneaking extra quietly because she has extra things in tow. Lots of extra things.

Half a dozen helium balloons – one in the shape of a motorcycle – and pancakes and syrup and eggs and coffee from Maggie’s favorite bodega, and, to her own surprise, a stuffed animal puppy with wide, excited eyes and tongue hanging out.

Stealthy as she tries to be, the motorcycle balloon knocks onto the door frame, and Maggie sits up groggily.

“Al?” she asks, her voice scratchy and thick with sleep.

“Morning birthday girl,” Alex smiles as she drops everything on the counter and pads into the bedroom – her bedroom, rapidly becoming their bedroom.

“Birthday – what – Ally, how’d you – you – why would you – “

“Because,” Alex explains, pushing Maggie back gently by the shoulders, straddling her and kissing her soundly as Maggie’s groggy confusion turns into a sleepy, perfect smile. “The world became a much better place the day you came into it, Maggie Sawyer. And that needs to be celebrated, don’t you think?”

Maggie sighs breathily and arches her body up sleepily as Alex traces kisses from her lips down her jawline and her neck.

“Alex, you… you didn’t have to go to any trouble – “

Alex stills and leans back to look down at Maggie with a furrowed brow and anger at past lovers in her eyes. “Maggie, celebrating you? Treating you like you deserve to be treated? Why would that be any trouble?”

Maggie arches an eyebrow and says nothing, because she can’t say anything, because this must be what birthdays are supposed to feel like, and she glances over Alex’s shoulder and sees the motorcycle balloon and laughs and squeals like it’s Christmas morning and flips Alex off of her and pads across the apartment to see what else Alex got her.

Alex laughs as she sits back up, as she watches, as she follows, and she checks her phone to make sure that Kara and the others are still on for tonight.

Because as thrilled as Maggie is with the balloons and breakfast and stuffy, Alex Danvers hasn’t even begun yet.

There are flowers from her girlfriend on Maggie’s desk at the precinct when she gets there, and all her colleagues know, and all her colleagues thump her on the back and pile bottles of wine and hockey tickets and Supergirl action figures (from their kids) and lesbian sex dice (from her teasing, laughing work partner) onto her desk throughout the day, and Maggie knows exactly who is responsible for making sure everyone knew and shook down with gifts.

Lunch – from her favorite vegan restaurant across town – is delivered to her in the field by one Adrian Rodriguez, the bill footed by one Alex Danvers, Adrian’s absence from physics class excused by Alex Danvers, who has agreed to tutor him in everything he’s missing and pay his train fare so he didn’t have to put out a dime for anything, except for the comic book he’s gotten made for Maggie, tracing the story of her and him and a bunch of the other queer kids she’s helped out and befriended over the years, and Maggie tries not to cry because she’s at work, dammit, but she cries anyway.

And Adrian accompanies to the bar that night – “no alcohol for you, mister underage” – and Maggie expects it to just be Alex, but she should have known better by now, because not only is it Alex: it’s Alex and Kara and M’gann and James and Winn and J’onn, but it’s also her sister and her niece and her favorite cousin and her best (and only) friend from back home.

And it’s all her favorite music blasting out of the bar speakers and it’s a massive vegan rainbow cake and it’s streamers and it’s her girlfriend decked out in a tight red dress, and Maggie knows exactly what she’s wearing underneath it and exactly how her last birthday gift for this year is going to be given to her, and she licks her lips and she has no words for her perfect girlfriend, but Alex doesn’t need them because her smile is enough, and she tries to hold in her tears but she doesn’t have to, doesn’t have to, because this is her family, her family, her family, and – for once – everyone just wants to celebrate her.

princessdan’s positivity posts !

ok so i just hit 3k and i have ,,, no talents. so i decided that the only thing i can do is be nice !!! so here we go :)

what heck is this mo?

~you can send me an ask with an emoji or a song rec or anything and i will give you at least two compliments and a word that represents you !! is this lame !! oh well !

why are you doing this? why dont u do something cool??

well like i said i have no talents and blogrates take forever and i feel like sometimes theyre too impersonal ?? for this, i want to make all of you feel special by giving you compliments that are unique to you !

is sending the ask all i need to do?

no ! here is the list of criteria:

  • must be following me
  • reblog this post
  • send the ask !
  • do something nice for someone today :)

ill be tagging these as “mo loves her friends” if u wanna blacklist it :) 

also i will be taking breaks in between to actually reblog dnp stuff but i do kind of want to dedicate this day to you guys ! so i apologize for lack of content today but i want to get to as many people as possible !!! i love you all :))

Joker x deaf!Reader Part 6

J chuckled in his cell. He had gotten under her skin so easily, it made him want to laugh. He denied that the giddiness he felt when he was about to go to her sessions was him actually feeling something towards her. A guard opened his door and went to cuff him. J heard another patient screaming in one of his neighboring cells.

“I’ll have what she’s having.” J giggled as the guard told him to shut up. He continued to sing all the way to Y/N’s office, where they were having their meeting today, and he smirks as he notices how nervous she looks. She smiles at him and gives him a confused glance.

“You know that song, doc? Oh wait.” He giggles. She narrows her eyes and looks away. He often jokes about her condition, and it’s mildly annoying. When the guard left she sends one last nervous glance at the door before looking at J.

“So, it’s tonight? Can you tell me what I need to do again?” J rolls his eyes before answering.

“Relax. All you have to do is leave the door open. Then wait in your office, I’ll come get you.

“No one will get hurt, right?” J chuckled, causing her to scowl at him.

“I’m not letting you go just so you can hurt people.”

“Just leave the door open, doc and you’ll be fine.” Y/N pressed the button to alert the guards, causing J to bare his teeth.

“I’ll think about it.”

“Doc.” J said with a warning tone. She was already out the door.


Y/N decided changing her mind at the last minute was a stupid thing to do. She knew she couldn’t let J out without making sure he wouldn’t hurt people. It’s not like she was close with the other doctors, she just knew most of them had families. Maybe during a session they’ll discuss how to get them out first. Y/N assured herself she could talk J out of this. Taking a deep breath, she opened her eyes when she felt a slight tremble in the floor. She furrowed her brows and peeked through the window of her office. When she saw the flashing of gunshots, her breath caught in her throat. They got him out. He would be pissed at her for not leaving the door open.

When a large figure approached her door, she shrunk in on herself.  The man entered, wearing a suit and tie and she took note on how much larger he was than her.

“Miss L/N?” She gave a shaky nod, and he nodded to himself while turning around. She was left, confused. He came around the corner again, looking a bit irritated. Rolling his eyes, he motioned with his finger for her to follow. Every bone in her body told her not to. When he turned to find her not moving, he pointed a gun at her and grabbed her bicep. He forced her to walk in front of him. She could feel the barrel of the gun pressed against her head, and tears rolled down her cheeks when she saw that Arkham security was losing the fight.

The man led her to the shock therapy room, and before she could run his large hands wrapped around her waist. He lifted her up and slammed her back on the table, ignoring her kicking and screaming. When he got her strapped in he left, and she tried to look around to see if anyone could help her. Her heart stopped when J popped up right beside her, laughing as she screamed.

“Boo! Got you that time, didn’t I?”

She looked at him as he shook his head in a disapproving manner.

“Really, doc? Did it seem like a smart idea to disobey me?” She could barely make out what he was saying from this angle.

“W-what? I-I didn’t want anyone to get hurt-I just-” Her breath hitched when he suddenly cupped her head.

“So you’d let them hurt me? After everything I told you? After all of our moments together? I’m hurt, doc.” And he was, just a little bit. Enough to make him want to hurt her back.

“So what are you going to do, then?”

“Aw, honey. Now, I’m gonna hurt ya. I’m gonna hurt you really, really, bad.” The smile on his face grows with every word. Tears start streaming down her cheeks and she closes her eyes. She doesn’t want to know what he has to say. J slams his hands down beside her head, making her flinch.

“Look at me.” He grits out. Her vision is blurry with tears and she hates not knowing what’s happening around her.

“Please.” She sobs. “Please, I’m sorry. Please, I just wanted to help you.”

“Shh” He caresses the side of her head as she continues to cry.

“Please, please, I’m sorry.” Her blubbering was starting to annoy him. Taking off his belt, ignoring Y/N who started to cry harder, he folded it in half but she kept her mouth shut.

“Please, don’t.” He rolled his eyes. What did she take him for?

“Open. You’ll thank me later.” Her eyes widened, knowing exactly what he planned to do now. She obediently opened her mouth, tears still streaming down her cheeks. He admired her accepting her fate.

“Gah, you’re so… good.” For some reason his heart kickstarted at her obedience and he felt the need cup her face. She flinched and shut her eyes as he wiped the tears from her cheeks and gently ran his finger over her eyelids. He tapped her forehead, signaling for her to look at him.

“No more tears.” She nodded even though more escaped. He had the sudden urge to start squealing and  jumping up and down. She was being so good! And he was feeling playful tonight.

“Good girl. My good girl.” She didn’t take her eyes off of him as he started preparing the equipment.

“You realize I’m doing this for your own good, right? I mean, you’re too good. Look how easy it was for me to seduce you. Wouldn’t want anyone else doing that.” Y/N only caught some pieces of what he was saying, but it was enough for her to understand. She started mumbling around the gag, and he knew he wouldn’t be able to understand her without it either, she was crying too much. His heart swelled when it sounded like she was saying “I’m loyal to you” or “only you”. Something along those lines. He made sure to speak fast to confuse her, he loved seeing her fearful expression of not knowing what’s happening. She looked so beautiful when she was afraid.

“That’s sweet, doll. But hopefully this will make you learn your lesson. You can’t help everyone. So. Stop. Trying .” He held her head in his hands. Y/N felt like her heart was breaking. Some part of her really thought she would help him. Maybe he would even be released, they would get married, have kids. She knew he wouldn’t get better around the abuse at Arkham, she was only now figuring out he didn’t want help.

J wanted to watch the light fall out of her eyes during her epiphany. Instead, she still had that stubborn look in her eye. Huh. He thought for sure her moment of realization would cause her to learn. It’s in her nature. Just like it’s in my nature to hurt her. He realized she was staring at him with those stupid, innocent, doe eyes. I get you. They seemed to be saying. But I’m not gonna change. No matter what you do to me. He found himself intrigued by her innocence. It was what had drawn him to her in the first place. Those eyes seemed to have him stuck in place, so in a moment of annoyance he pulled the light down above her head. She screwed her eyes shut, the only thing that calmed her was J petting her hair. He was collecting his thoughts, running over the reason why he was going to do this, and pushing back the question of, I thought you liked her innocence?  If those innocent eyes could cause him to hesitate, he needed to get rid of them. Get rid of her. A weakness. Let’s see how nice she is after getting her brain fried.

Y/N freaked out when his hands suddenly left her. She hated not being aware of her surroundings, and now she was blind. Her breath started coming out in pants, the belt not exactly helping her breathe. She started gasping, air not getting to her lungs and sweat rolling down her forehead. J watched in wonder. He saw her face turn red, and wondered why she didn’t push the belt out. Moment of panic, he figured.

He cupped the side of her head again, stilling her flinch. She was calming down, and he put his mouth next to her ear.

“You had this coming. Maybe after this, we can rob a store so you can pay me back for the money I gave you. Or maybe I could fix your hearing myself. I always wanted to do my own surgery. No refunds, by the way.” He giggled as she calmed, having no clue to what he was saying.

“Oh, doll. I’m going to have so much fun with you.” He removed the light and tapped her forehead again. When she opened her eyes, he chuckled.

“Already so well trained.” She blinked, tears overflowing when she saw what he had in his hands.

“I can’t wait to meet the new you.” She sobbed, but stared him down. Her body tensed as he brought the electrodes close to her head, so close she could feel the electricity. She still never removed her eyes from his. His arms pulled back slightly, his eyebrows furrowing. She tensed once more as he brought them back close, only for him to retreat again. Was this one of his mind games? He looked confused as well.

“Close your eyes.” He snapped. She gave him a confused glance, not really focusing on his lips, only those blue eyes that were so close.

“Wha?” She garbled around the belt.

“Eyes. Closed. Now.” She didn’t see why she had to listen since he was only going to torture her anyway, but being the nice, compassionate person she was, she obeyed.

J clenched his jaw and then unclenched. Anger rushed through him until he finally slammed the electrodes against her head. She screamed, and he pulled away not a second later. It angered him that he couldn’t do it, and her sobs were all he could hear. Turning back to her, he slammed his hands beside her head again, breathing heavily. She tried to muffle her crying.

“Boss?” J pointed a gun over in Frost’s direction.

“Shut up, Frost!”

“We need to go-” J was already on his way out.

“Are we taking her?”

“No.” J snapped.

They left Y/N on the table crying, her eyes still squeezed shut.

My Sweet Boy

October 24 2014

My baby boy Matty is growing up! I went to kiss his little pink cheeks today and they seemed less chubby. His adorable dimples don’t go as deep as they used to.

October 26 2014

I cried all day today. Matty refused to take my milk for the first time. I feel like he’s already growing apart from me.

October 31 2014

Happy Halloween! Matty started eating a little grownup food the other day and he loved it! I’m still a little sad our Mommy-Son bond is going away but he still seems to want my milk sometimes. I bet he can tell how happy I am to give it to him. There’s nothing like that feeling of closeness, don’t you think?

November 2 2014

I am so mad at Matty I could scream. Five times he pushed me away when I tried to feed him! FIVE! I guess I’m a useless old cow whose milk isn’t good anymore.

November 3 2014

I let Matty try some crushed up candies the other day. He LOVED them! He took handful after handful of the powdery stuff and kept whining for more. At least he was happy when I gave it to him. He smiled every time. Still, those dimples just didn’t look as cute as they used to.

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Mystic Messenger Baehee (Jaehee) wallpapers for @otomesapphic!  💕

Happy Birthday! (a day early!) 🎂 You work so hard and do so much. I’m sorry you’re feeling so sad and down today so I wanted to give this to you a little sooner. 💕 I hope you have a good rest of the day and you feel brighter!


Alright, hi guys. I know, I don’t want to get serious on this blog, but I kinda feel like I have to for today. And I just want to say I know things are looking super bad right now, honestly, I’ve been feeling anxiety for everyone over there for the entire day! 

But I just want to remind you that this isn’t the end. You’ll all get through this, you might think that there’s no point but please don’t give up! Don’t stop fighting! 

But also please remember to take care of yourselves and take care of each other. 

I know it’s easy for me to say this as someone who’s not from America, but I just want you all to know that I’m here rooting for you and I hope that my words and work would provide some form of comfort.

Take care and be safe. 


I just wanted to tell you that your the greatest thing to me and I wanted to make sure that you feel the same for me.

@ichschmeckemusik n anon: have this Promptis warm up sketch, as demanded by you good folks of the internet :’D these two are about 80% of the requests I get lol Not that I mind, I enjoy drawing them a lot! gives me a good opportunity to explore all their facettes.

Today, we have teen!promptis accompanied by the lyrics of an old German song that I rediscovered yesterday. It’s called “a compliment/Ein Kompliment” n it’s like the sweetest n most innocent song ever n it just screamed teen!promptis to me :)

We all feel the Gods call in different ways.

Sometimes it’s soft and subtle. A feeling that comes over you while you watch a gentle rain. A low rumble of thunder while giving an offering.

Sometimes it’s a distracting thought guiding you until you realize what they want. Sometimes it’s symbolism finding you over and over in the form of a bird. Sometimes it’s sudden inspiration.

Sometimes it’s a touch. A whisper. A calling in your heart.

All of us feel it different. And yet it’s powerful all the same…

Good news and bad news

Hey guys!

It’s official, I will not be keeping my job. I want ya’ll to know what’s going on because I do feel you’re a big part of my life, even if I don’t get to talk to all of you personally.
Today our regional manager is coming by the store I work to “talk” about my contract termination; and honestly, I don’t really give a flying fuck about what he has to say. I was told I had a good chance to stay after I was transferred, and that chance lasted about three days. To say I feel cheated is an understatement.
Aside from that, I feel relieved. First, because I have clarity, no more stressing or panic. Second, it turns out that I wasn’t where I was supposed to be for some time now. (About two years, took me a while)
I didn’t feel comfortable but I didn’t notice because I just kept going, instead of stopping for a moment to see how I was actually doing.
All in all, a blessing in disguise. I already have an invite for a job interview, which is awesome, because I only sent out my resume yesterday. If I get this job, it’ll allow me to continue school with the same teacher and in the same class. So, fingers crossed!

I want to thank you guys (again) for all your amazing messages and support. I really wish I could make a living out of writing (since I don’t just do fanfiction, I have actually been working on my own story) but I don’t see how I could.

On to the next point: are you guys interested in reading something non-marvel or Bucky related? Let me know!

I love you guys! 💕 and thanks again :)

Its Valentines Day!!!! Here’s a preview of tomorrow’s post to celebrate!!!

I just want all of you guys to know that you mean a lot to me. The support I get is great, and the help I get to give others who are going through the same struggles as I am is amazing. I never thought that I would get to be someone who could actually make a difference in others’ lives. Keep on being awesome, and I’ll keep on trying to be helpful!

Also, feel free to drop me an ask or several! I love answering (almost) all of the questions I get!

I hope you all experience love today, and if you don’t, just know that I love you!

Minho’s letter to shawols

I made a separate twitter account in order to fulfill the mission Minho gave me.
Even though he came to meet me, in case other shawols would feel sad, he wrote a letter to other shawols too while writing mine and asked me to  post it for the other shawols when the broadcast gets aired later on… I’d be glad if you can all see this and be happy.

To: Shawols~
Today while filming the 48 hours program… I wanted to met the fans so much I wanted to meet everyone but… I gathered up my courage and met one as a representative ^^ You will understand this right? You do know that anytime, anywhere, far away too you guys’ support gives me a big strength right? I’m always thankful… You are the existence I’m the most thankful for. Thank you again I love you.

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Translation: fantaemsie

I want you to know that you are enough even if you feel like everything is not falling to place. Maybe today’s not your time yet but I’m telling you now not to give up because time will come and you will realize that every pain and hard work was worth the wait and time.

I want you to know that you are enough even if you feel like everyone around you is against you. Always remember that you got me and I will always – always support you in all your dreams and goals no matter how hard it may seem like. I’ll always believe in what you can.

I want you to know that you are enough even if you feel like giving up. You are strong and you wouldn’t reach this far if you are thinking that you are weak for having a million of problems. Tell you what? You are the strongest person that I know because you have made this far despite all the struggles and hardships that you have been through. You are the best.

I want you to know you are enough and everything is not yet late to turn things around and everyday is a chance for you to be better. Let me be the strong one for you just in case you feel weak. I’ll try to push you until you regain your strength and walk straight on your path again.

I want you to know that you are enough even if you cried yourself to sleep at 3am in the morning and you feel like you are alone. Honey, you are never alone and I will always be by your side through thick and thin no matter what circumstances would come in your life. If you need someone to face it together then I will be there if you need a hand.

I want you to know that you are enough and never let anybody define who you are. I don’t want you to listen to people who don’t even motivate you a bit. I want you to listen to people who keep on pushing you till you reach the top and celebrate with you through your hardships and happiness. That’s where you belong best – on the top.

I want you to know that you are enough and I want you to love yourself more before others because that’s where you’ll find the greatest strength that you have been looking for all your life. It may seem like it’s going to be a helluva ups and downs through this roller coaster ride of life but I won’t lose my grip on your hand until you find you – until you find yourself and learn to love yourself.

I want you to know that you are more than enough. And what matters is, you tried and you did your best in everything. I know you did – you always do.

I want you to know that I got you always and in all ways.

—  To you and to everyone who needs a little push / vegaaskies