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tang ina, i am so sad at sawang sawa na ako sa ganito

ewan ko, napapagod na akong kakaisip at napapagod na ako maging malungkot. sino ba naman ang ay gusto ng ganitong pakiramdam diba hay, ayoko magkwento sa mga kaibigan ko kasi baka isipin nila na, “’yon naman? // ayan na naman kkwento mo? // si ano na naman?” at nahihiya na rin ako mag-open sa kanila kasi ewan ko parang hindi naman nila naiintindihan kung bakit ako ganito o bat ganto pakiramdam ko siguro kasi hindi ko kinukwento ang nararamdaman ko, kasi restricted ang part ng feelings ko, i was never vocal with my feelings and aside from that sguro kasi ayokong makita nila yung side kong ganito, yung vulnerable and weak side ko. i am so sad, lonely and i feel empty inside wala akong maramdaman na emosyon, idk if i am sad or happy or what neutral lang haha ewan nalulungkot ako kasi i am having thoughts about us again, i am thinking of these what ifs and such, iniisip ko na baka pwede pa and i am reminiscing the memories (naks parang madami naman) we had. nakakalungkot lang kasi hindi ko naman ginusto na matapos to, i am just saving myself from further damage that you’ll cause me. alam ko naman na ganitong din yung ending natin but i am hoping na baka gusto mo ulit bumalik yung ‘tayo’ hahahahaha kahit na alam kong walang ganon na mangyayare haha i know it sounds pathetic at ayoko ng ganitong pakiramdam, gusto ko na matapos to, i want to get over with this feelings. i want to get over with this sadness..

July Book Photo Challenge Day 12: underrated book

i couldn’t just pick one book, so i picked five of my favourite books that i believe are underrated. 

My icon has its own story. 

Hindi sya yung basta basta drawing lang sa paint. Haha, I made this to annoy someone (or the girl I used to be SO in love with) before. Inaasar ko kasi sya nun tapos bigla ko tong sinend sakanya. Ngayong wala na, tapos na, ayoko na. It’s time to say good bye to this little fella. Yes, I can keep you pero I can’t use your forever. For me, you’re not Makh eh. You’re Makh na in love sakanya. Eh ngayon, hindi na. wala na tsaka ayaw mo na rin diba? Magkasundo sana tayo ha? Pagbiyan mo na ko. Thank you for making her smile and making me smile. Malaki utang na loob ko sa’yo! (: Bye, brother.

Kasi | 18 | AZ |
I’m super laid back. I love Ingrid Michaleson and Jack Johnson. I love the beach and the mountains. I love the outdoors. Green is my favorite color. I get really nervous and overly cautious around girls I like but I need to get over it and make friends!!
Stopped by to say hi!

so i’m back using my viber account haha nagdeactivate ako sa facebook kasi ang daming shits at gusto ko lumayo sa mga tao haha and because i’m bored nag-install ulit ako sa viber, u can ta me your numbers so pwede tayo mag chat hahahaha charot sobrang tamad ko kasi lately and boring so walang connect pero if u need someone to talk to ta nyo lang number nyo ;-)