I thought that was foreshadowing more nighttime videos but it looks more like the fear of the dark is more rational than I thought. There’s always something (or should I say someone) shadowing in mark’s videos. We should have expected this.
I am learning to make peace with you but at the same time bettering you. I am sorry that I have degraded you to a point where one bad word and I am back to square one, at times I still am. I am sorry that I have tortured you when you didn’t deserve it. You are in fact a part of me and I am a part of you and there isn’t one without the other and yet I’ve tried to escape you even when you weren’t a trap at all but I am not anymore, at least I am trying not to. I am not trying to run away from you, I am trying to run to a better you and a better me.
APPEARANCE: I’m 5’4 which is about 162 cm? I have naturally neutral brown hair which recently making an appearance, since I had been dying my hair black for a few years. Currently at the middle of my back. I’m curvy. I have a big but and thighs to match, along with boobs that give me back problems. I have a square face, dimples with one being more prominent than the other. I have almond hazel eyes. I also have a gap in my teeth that I have a love/hate relationship with.
PERSONALITY: I’m very quirky and sassy. Although, I can come off shy at times it’s honestly just my anxiety lol i can be a shy reserved person or that goofy, loud laugh, dork. I’m very grounded, self aware and kind. Very dominat in my everyday life.
ABILITY: Honestly I don’t think I’m very good at anything lol I’m just kinda floating along in life, trying to figure it out. I mean, I do sing. I was in choir for almost ten years. Music was a very important part of my life.
HOBBIES: kpop. It’s literally one of my hobbies. I’ve always struggled in life trying to find my ‘thing’.
EXPERIENCES: i’ve had a lot of weird things happen to me in my life. that’ll have to be a while separate post of it’s own.
MYLIFE: As of now, my life is just me trying to find peace within my self. Trying to find my inner peace, and get myself healed.
RELATIONSHIPS: I’ve only been in long-term relationships. My high school boyfriend was two years, my ex fiance was a year, and my current boyfriend is four, going on five years. He is the cheese to my macaroni!
RANDOMSTUFF: i’ve travled to over ten different states and i’ve been to 2 different countries, but never over seas ☹️
I would like to say thank you to all of you who have sent well wishes. The gesture is very sweet, indeed. Unfortunately, we all know that once a cold sets in, it does not go at overnight. In fact, it somehow seems to get even worse those first few nights. To say I feel like total hell would be a complete understatement.
But, even though all of my aches and pains, I managed to whip out not just one, but two squares, yesterday.
The first square, worked entirely I’m lavender yarn, is another start square. The first two rounds make up the star, itself. Round three is where you create the chains, from star-point to star-point, which you will use to create the square around the star. Then, rounds for through six, you create your square frame around the star.
It actually is a pretty little square. I like how the star just send to float, almost freely, in the center of it.
As for the second square worked yesterday…
This five round square had me now saying that if I could go a while without seeing our working another cluster stitch, I would be ok with that. The first four rounds of this square are made of nothing but clusters. Forty of them, to be exact. And it’s not that the cluster is a difficult thing to work. (It it’s actually quite simple.) It’s just, after working so many of them, in one little square, I have grown bored of them.
The last round is just a round of shell stitches, which create a frame around the square. And even though the creation of this square had me wanting to scream “I HATE CLUSTERS,” the actual finished product is very nice looking.
Well, that is it for now, I suppose. Time to go muster up the strength to work another square, even though all I really want to do is sleep.
Two more squares down in this challenge.
Even while sick, I am going strong.
“I’m sitting in my house right now. I built every square inch of this thing. I had hands on every plant, every lightbulb, every slab and piece of tile, the furniture that came into it was all my doing. There’s a huge a sense of pride that comes with that. And most importantly, it still exists! If I write a song, it doesn’t exist, it’s just out there. A movie is just an experience, it doesn’t really exist. But building something is a tangible art. And one that I get to live in.” - Jeremy Renner
But I took a closer look at it and Prom is pretty beat up, he has a bruise on his left arm and obvious blemishes on his face. So that got me thinking about chapter 13 and the injuries are exactly the same, right where they are supposed to be.
That means this whole thing takes place directly after Noct goes into the crystal or a few days later; WHICH MEANS this is going to BE SAD, I mean it was already going to be sad. but ya know.